Chapter Thirteen
"You ended fairly briefly at our last meeting." Doctor James comments when Ellie walks into her office a week later, "we can start back slowly."
Ellie shakes her head, "I just want to get this over with, all right?"
Doctor James nods, "all right Ellie, whenever you would like to begin."
Jay continued going on and on to Sean about how he was letting the "little woman" control his life and that that was the reason that Sean hadn't been hanging out with Jay and his gang. Sean and Jay looked like they were on the verge of fighting but then Jay said that he knew that Sean was better than to let a woman take control of what he did and didn't do.
"Jay sounds like a jerk." Doctor James interrupt.
Ellie nods, "he terrorized everyone that he thought wasn't worthy, and that basically included everyone but him and his friends."
That's when Jay invited Sean to come with them, they were going to get something to drink, get drunk off their asses and hang out. Without a second look Sean agreed and all he did was call over his shoulder "later Ellie" to me and then he was gone.
"That had to've hurt." Doctor James comments.
"It did," Ellie agrees, "but at that moment I think I was more disappointed in him then hurt or angry."
Sean walked up to me Monday, he said that he wanted to talk to me about what had happened on Saturday night. But I was still so angry at him for blowing me off, so I told him that I didn't want to talk to him nor did I have anything to say to him and I ignored him until he went away. Ashley and Paige were standing right there at that moment and the sudden change in our relationship had naturally sparked their curiosity. So I told them that Sean and I broke up the night before and Ash and Paige wanted to know why but all I cared to divulge was that Sean was a jerk and were just didn't work well together. They both wanted to comfort me but I didn't want to hear it so I slammed my locker shut and walked away from them mid-sentence. When the bell rang I hid in the bathroom and locked myself and I cut until my nerves were calmer and I felt less like I was going to cry. I missed most of my class so I left school early and I headed to my internship, the one thing I still actually enjoyed.
Walking home from my internship though everything changed. Walking home Jay and his crowed, without Sean, materialized all around me. They were saying terrible things to me, things I've tried to forget and I only remember in my nightmares. When I tried to get away Jay grabbed me and told me that because I was such a seductive slut Sean had dropped them, said they weren't worth his time...the next thing I knew I was on the ground.
By this time Ellie's entire body is wracked with sobs and Doctor James walks over to her wrapping her arms around Ellie warmly whispering, "it'll be all right," as encouragement. But by this time it's to late and Ellie is gasping for breath.
"I...I can't..." Is all Ellie can gasp out.
"It's all right Ellie." Doctor James states before pressing the nurse call button, "I'm going to have the nurse give you a light sedative so that you can calm down and we will finish this next week."
"You ended fairly briefly at our last meeting." Doctor James comments when Ellie walks into her office a week later, "we can start back slowly."
Ellie shakes her head, "I just want to get this over with, all right?"
Doctor James nods, "all right Ellie, whenever you would like to begin."
Jay continued going on and on to Sean about how he was letting the "little woman" control his life and that that was the reason that Sean hadn't been hanging out with Jay and his gang. Sean and Jay looked like they were on the verge of fighting but then Jay said that he knew that Sean was better than to let a woman take control of what he did and didn't do.
"Jay sounds like a jerk." Doctor James interrupt.
Ellie nods, "he terrorized everyone that he thought wasn't worthy, and that basically included everyone but him and his friends."
That's when Jay invited Sean to come with them, they were going to get something to drink, get drunk off their asses and hang out. Without a second look Sean agreed and all he did was call over his shoulder "later Ellie" to me and then he was gone.
"That had to've hurt." Doctor James comments.
"It did," Ellie agrees, "but at that moment I think I was more disappointed in him then hurt or angry."
Sean walked up to me Monday, he said that he wanted to talk to me about what had happened on Saturday night. But I was still so angry at him for blowing me off, so I told him that I didn't want to talk to him nor did I have anything to say to him and I ignored him until he went away. Ashley and Paige were standing right there at that moment and the sudden change in our relationship had naturally sparked their curiosity. So I told them that Sean and I broke up the night before and Ash and Paige wanted to know why but all I cared to divulge was that Sean was a jerk and were just didn't work well together. They both wanted to comfort me but I didn't want to hear it so I slammed my locker shut and walked away from them mid-sentence. When the bell rang I hid in the bathroom and locked myself and I cut until my nerves were calmer and I felt less like I was going to cry. I missed most of my class so I left school early and I headed to my internship, the one thing I still actually enjoyed.
Walking home from my internship though everything changed. Walking home Jay and his crowed, without Sean, materialized all around me. They were saying terrible things to me, things I've tried to forget and I only remember in my nightmares. When I tried to get away Jay grabbed me and told me that because I was such a seductive slut Sean had dropped them, said they weren't worth his time...the next thing I knew I was on the ground.
By this time Ellie's entire body is wracked with sobs and Doctor James walks over to her wrapping her arms around Ellie warmly whispering, "it'll be all right," as encouragement. But by this time it's to late and Ellie is gasping for breath.
"I...I can't..." Is all Ellie can gasp out.
"It's all right Ellie." Doctor James states before pressing the nurse call button, "I'm going to have the nurse give you a light sedative so that you can calm down and we will finish this next week."
