Journal Entry:

October 6, 1993

            I don't understand why Paul is acting so strange. Ever since the party on Friday he hasn't spoken to me much. I've gotten the regular hellos and goodbyes, but that's about it. He no longer asks me what I'm doing tonight, if he could call me or anything like that. I asked him about it and all he told me was that he had to go. He didn't even bother answering me!

            I'm really nervous, I keep thinking that maybe something's wrong with him. He had seemed really depressed on Friday, maybe he's thinking of killing himself! Oh God I hope not! I don't know what I would do if my best friend were to die!

            Maybe I should invite him to go out to the diner Thursday night and then we can talk. Oh wait, Thursday's Family Night! Yay! Don't you just see how happy I am! Yeah right, I can't stand this anymore! They actually think I want to go! I have better things to do with my time than go to the Italian Restaurant with them. All they ever do during dinner is talk about my schoolwork. How I should be doing so much better in school, how I shouldn't be slacking off. Oh God! They're so pathetic! I can do whatever the hell I want with my life, it's mine!

            I'm going to tell them on Thursday that I'm not going with them this time. Paul is much more important to me and I have to talk to him, his life depends on it! I'll invite him to go to the diner with me tomorrow during English. Then I'll tell the folks.

            Oh God I hope everything turns out alright….

                                    Sincerely,

                                          Paige

           

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