This is in James' Point of View.
Life. You don't think about its meaning until it's gone. Most people take life for granted. I admit I did too. I was rarely thankful for the good in my life. Now that's all I think of; the good that was in my life. The memories that I have of the good in my life, I wouldn't trade for anything.
I guess you could say that my life really started when I was three. I was at magical nursery school. That's when I met my best mate, my friend that stood there, and helped me through the trials and turmoil that was my life. Sirius Black was and will always be my best friend. He helped me on so many levels.
When Sirius and I were eleven we were accepted to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. You couldn't say that our acceptance letters were a surprise. In fact, they were expected; both Sirius and I were from pureblood families.
On the ride to Hogwarts, in the Hogwarts Express, a timid, peaky looking boy asked if he could sit with Sirius and me. We of course said yes. That boy soon became one of my most trusted friends, Remus Lupin. Once we got off the train, we first years had to bravely cross the lake that separated us from the majestic Hogwarts castle. There were to be four students to a boat. It was me, and Sirius, plus two girls. One of them was a radiant beauty. She had red hair, and beautiful almond shaped, emerald eyes. Her name was Lily Evans. The other was her best friend, Lilac Rose. Sirius you could tell liked her. Well, anyway, half way across the lake I decided I had to get the beautiful Lily to notice me. Unfortunately, I only had Sirius for help. Sirius and I loved pranks, and pranking people. I definitely got Lily's attention. I pushed her into the lake. That got her to hate me for the next six years. I always lost my head when Lily was concerned. From the moment I laid eyes on her, I knew she was different. I knew that I loved her. I knew that I would do what ever it took to win her approval. I fancied her. I would always try to impress her, by showing off. That got all the other girls to love me. Well, almost all the other girls. But my charm didn't work on Lily. Up until our seventh and final year at Hogwarts Lily despised me. During the summer before seventh year Remus, Sirius, and Peter (another friend (at that point)) helped me to deflate my head. Then finally when I asked Lily out for the billionth time, she said yes. Then at graduation, I proposed to Lily in front of the whole school, our parents, classmates and teachers. She said yes! I was ecstatic. I had at that point everything I could ever want: Lily, a great family, great friends, the rest of my life ahead of me; who could want more? Lily and I were married that Halloween. We decided that we didn't want to wait that long. I mean what with Voldemort and all; you didn't know if you'd live to see tomorrow. Lily and I were so happy together. Aside from Voldemort attacking while we were on our honeymoon. Aside from that, I was on cloud nine. Not even a month later, when I got home, Lily told me she was expecting. As I've said before, I was on cloud nine. Unfortunately that happiness didn't last that much longer. Lily was six months pregnant. She was at home, all alone, when Voldemort attacked. I was in a meeting with Albus Dumbledore, when all of a sudden Emmeline Vance burst into the room. "Voldemort has been spotted at 179 High Street, Hogsmeade." Said Emmeline. My and Lily's house. I didn't bother with goodbyes. I immediately apparated straight home. I walked in to see Lily hit the wall of our sitting room. I took up her fight. I was hoping against hope, that my love, my Lily Flower was alive.
Voldemort realizing that I was there said "Ah, Potter. Don't worry, you won't be separated from your mudblood bride for long. It's now time for you to die too. Crucio!" I felt pain, but it wasn't anything to the pain I felt inside. I was almost sure that my Lily had left me. Then the pain stopped. I tried an unforgivable. "Crucio!" I cried. I wanted Voldemort to feel pain. Even though I knew that righteous anger wouldn't hurt Voldemort for long. By the time the pain had worn off, there were the sounds of many wizards apparating. They were members of the Order, and Death Eaters. Voldemort then saw Dumbledore, standing in the doorway. Voldemort decided that he should finish me off then and there. "Avada Kedavra!" he said. I was to fast, I said "Protego!" Then I blacked out. I woke up to seeing a room, that was entirely white. I saw Sirius and Lilac, both sporting various wounds. "Where's Lily?!? Is she okay?!? I need to see Lily!!!" I immediately exclaimed. "Don't worry; she's alive....For now anyway." Added Lilac. "They say she's in a comatose state. They think she will live, but they're not too optimistic. And as to seeing her, she's still in with the healers." I must have paled considerably, because Sirius gave me a brotherly embrace. I couldn't picture myself living without my Lily Flower. At that point, the chief healer, Healer Hippocrates Smethwyck came up to me and told me "Mr. Potter, you and your wife have been very lucky. She will make a full recovery. The only thing is that her baby was lost." I couldn't believe that. Our first child, gone. The Healer, apparently reading my mind said "I'm sorry Mr. Potter, but it's true. It's a miracle that it was just her baby she lost. Its amazing that it wasn't her life." I still couldn't believe it. I thanked the healer and asked if I could go and see Lily. He said that I could, in a few minutes. I went to where Lilac and Sirius were standing minutes before. There was Lilac, Sirius, Peter, Remus, Maria, Gabriella, Frank, Alice, and Genevieve. I decided I had to tell them. "She's going to live." I said our friends started to smile. "But-"they stopped smiling-"she lost the baby." A few minutes later I was in Lily's room, holding her hand. I was there for three days. I was waiting for Lily to come out of her coma. Then on the third day she awoke. At first she seemed bewildered. Then I kissed her. I was so happy that she was alive, and conscious. Then Lilac and Genevieve ran hugged and choked my Lily. When they realized that they were choking Lily, they let go. Then everyone left the room, to give me and Lily privacy. "What happened? The last thing I remember is you going and fighting Voldemort." Asked Lily "Lily, which do you want to hear first? The good news or the bad news?" I asked her. I figured she would want to know the good news first so I said: "The good news is that somehow, we managed to make it out alive. Someone saw Voldemort coming to our house, and alerted the Order. I got home to see you hit the wall. I took up the battle, praying that you weren't dead. Just as Voldemort was about to finish me off, members of the Order appeared: Sirius, Lilac, Alice, Frank, Remus, Genevieve, Moody, Dedalus Diggle, Marlene McKinnon, Benjy Fenwick, Elphias Doge, Dorcas Meadowes and of course Dumbledore. The first bit of bad news is that Dorcas Meadowes, Benjy Fenwick, and Marlene McKinnon are dead."
At that point I took a deep breath. I knew I had to tell Lily. I didn't want to. I wanted to protect her, shield her from all the bad in the world. It took me a moment to put my thoughts in order. I took another deep breath and had tears in my eyes as I said: "Lily, that defense charm, took most of the blow of the killing curse, but it only protected you. It saved your life, but the baby-the baby's dead." I saw the look on my Lily's face. She was silently crying. When I saw the silent tears make their way down her pretty face I pulled her into my arms, and we shared a good long silent cry.
I tried to calm Lily down. She seemed to think that it was her fault that our child died. "It's not your fault at all. Lily, you did the only thing you could think of. Many would have lost their minds just at the thought of dueling Voldemort. You kept your mind and fought admirably. If anyone is at fault it would be me. I'm the one who left you alone in your delicate state. Lily, listen to me. I love you. And I know as long as I have you I can get through anything." I told her. Then at that point Dumbledore walked in. He said in a dismal voice (to Lily) "You were very lucky I hope you know. There are many who have faced Lord Voldemort, and have not even tried to fire any spell, or anything his way. You have shown enormous bravery, and you should not blame yourself for the loss of your child." He then left. Before the door could close, in walked all our friends. They saw Lily and I, a heartbroken couple holding onto each other.
Later that night, for the first time in 3 days did I sleep. I fell asleep holding onto the person that meant everything to me; Lily.
Early the next morning I was awoken by Lily. She was screaming in her sleep 'My baby, my baby, don't take my baby. Please! I'll do anything! Take me! Kill me! Please just don't take my baby!' I couldn't get back to sleep after that. I paced around her room, thinking about what she was saying in her sleep. Apparently in her subconscious on some level, she wanted to kill herself. I didn't know what to do. I knew I couldn't live without Lily. Lilac then walked in. I had had an idea. If Lily was never in the house alone, then there would be very little chance of her going through with ending her own life. If I could convince Lilac to help, then everyone else would follow. I tried to convince her, but it felt as if I was losing the war. I then played the 'best friend card'. I said "She's so depressed. This if we don't do anything will be the death of her. She was screaming in her sleep 'My baby, my baby, don't take my baby.' She was crying. Please Li. Please, I want my old cheerful Lily back. If-if something happens to her, and you don't help, I will hunt you down, and kill you. Friend of Lily or not. And right now you're not acting like a good friend." Lily then interrupted. "It's good to know that my husband and my best friend are talking about me when I'm asleep." She tried to get up. She was too weak. "James would you come here and help me up?" She asked I rushed to her side. She said to me "Please, I want to go home. Please James." Her emerald eyes caught my hazel ones. I replied "Not yet darling. The house is under repairs. And also, the Healers want you to stay another day, to make sure you're ribs finish healing." I gave her a kiss, and helped her up. It was three weeks since Voldemort's attack. Lily and I moved back to our house. Lilac had given in. So she, and all our other friends, took turns guarding Lily. It was for her protection. I made sure that Lily was never alone in the house. Anyway, it was Peter's turn to stand guard. Apparently Lily had convinced Peter to go. (I mean how dumb are we? Peter wasn't there fighting Voldemort, and then he leaves Lily when I specifically told him not to. We should have realized that he was the traitor). I was in a meeting with Alastor Moody, when Genevieve came and told me I had better get home. I went straight home. If I didn't heed her warning, my love, my Lily would have died. When I got home, I started searching for Lily. I went into our bedroom, and there on my pillow was a farewell letter. It said: By the time you read this the world will be rid of me. I cannot live, and look at myself in the mirror in the morning, without feeling guilty. I lived while our unborn child died. I don't want you to have to see my face, and think of what could have been. I don't want to cause you more pain by seeing me. I don't want to make you suffer, by seeing me. Love always, Lily. I knew I didn't have much time. I had to find her alive. Otherwise, I don't know what would have become of me. The last place I looked was the nursery. There she was. She had a knife in her trembling hand, her other arm stretched out in front of her. She didn't hear the door open. She raised the hand that was holding the knife. When I realized what Lily was about to do, I snapped out of the trance I was in. I took out my wand and summoned the knife. I caught it and flung it at the wall. I then ran to Lily and held her in my arms. She cried into my chest. I let her cry. Then I said "Lily-why? If you had gone through with that that would have caused me more pain then the loss of the child. I need you. As long as I have you, I know I can make it through anything. And it doesn't cause me pain to see you. It causes me to feel, that there is hope. And that anything is possible." She just cried. The next year, Lily and I had big news. I remember Lily coming to the Auror Office, and finding me. "James, uh, there's something I have to tell you." Lily told me anxiously.
"Are you okay?? What's wrong? Are you feeling okay? You look a bit pale." I asked worriedly. "I'm okay, James." She gave him a mysterious grin and said "in fact you might say I'm more than okay." She took a deep breath and finished by saying "James, I'm- I'm pregnant." I looked at her completely stunned. then I asked "Are-are you sure?" "Yes." She answered. The look on my face soon turned into one of extreme bliss. I then gave her a hug and then picked her up and spun he around the room. "James put me down." She ordered. I just laughed a bit. "Put me down NOW! James you're making me nauseous." "Alright" I said, setting her back on her feet. Lily and I decided that we would have a little party to celebrate, where we would tell all our friends the happy news. By the time all our guests had arrived, Lily and I decided that they would tell all our friends together, after dinner. The first two to arrive (after our parents of course!) was of course Lilac, on Sirius's arm. The next couple to arrive was Remus and Maria. Then came in Genevieve. Then came in Frank and Alice Longbottom. Then came two old favorite Professors, Dumbledore and McGonagall. Then bringing up the rear was Peter all alone.
Dinner was a jovial affair. Lily was practically glowing over the little bit of news that we were to tell our friends. Once dinner had adjourned, we all went into the parlor. Our friends were just discussing some small talk. Lily and I were thinking about how we would tell our friends. I caught her eye and nodded. I knew it was time to tell, Lily started by saying to me: "Do you want to tell them, or should I?"
I said "You can." "We have some important news." Lily looked at me, smiled and said "We're going to have a baby!" our friends stared at us for a minute. Then Lilac and Genevieve ran over and hugged Lily. Mine and Lily's parents came up and congratulated us. All of a sudden, Professors McGonagall, and Dumbledore were right next to us. They both congratulated us; you should have seen the twinkle in Dumbledore's eyes. Then Dumbledore and McGonagall disapparated.
About an hour later, all our friends had left except for Lilac and Sirius. Lily was sitting in my lap. We were discussing the forthcoming infant. Lilac decided to bring up the topic of names. Lilac and Sirius were arguing over two different names, as though the approaching newborn was their child. Lilac wanted the name to be Violet. While Sirius wanted the name to be Hannah. Lily and I decided not to get caught up in the argument, and to watch them fight. It was rather entertaining.
After awhile of Lilac and Sirius fighting, Lily and I were bored. No one else seemed to notice that Lily had fallen sound asleep. Lily wasn't really sleeping; she was hoping that, that would get rid of Sirius and Lilac. I wanted them to leave too. I played along. I then said "Guys, shush! She's sleeping. I don't need you two to wake her up. She hasn't been sleeping well all week; she was worried about your reaction to her being pregnant." Thankfully, that shut both Lilac and Sirius up. I continued "I think it's time for you to go, before you name my future child, and decide who will watch them while Lily and I are at work." Lilac and Sirius then left. After she was sure they were gone, Lily opened her eyes. "Thanks." she said. "So." she started. She then looked at me, I kissed her and she continued "How do you feel? You're going to be a father." I then relied "And you're going to be a mother. I think you're going to be the best mother in the world. While, about being a dad, I feel excited." I then kissed her again. We then went up to bed. I fell asleep holding on to my wife, the mother of our approaching child. Five months later, Lily and I received some bad news. She was seven months pregnant. She was making breakfast, for me, Sirius, Remus, Lilac, and herself. As I came down the stairs, I heard a tapping on the window. Lily opened the window, and in flew Hannah (our owl), and a big brown tawny owl. Both Hannah, and the tawny stuck their legs out, so that Lily could take the letters. They were written in black ink. Lily was already was nervous, because most wizards write in colorful inks. I had just come down with Sirius and Remus in tow. Lily handed us plates of scrambled eggs, and toast. Then I sat down next to Sirius. Lily started to open the letter Hannah had brought first. I handed the other letter. At this point a big snowy owl came in and gave Sirius The Daily Prophet. Sirius was drinking orange juice at the time, as soon as he saw the front cover he spit the juice out. Lily exclaimed "Sirius! Now really! What was that about!?!" Sirius just took out his wand and with a wave of it he cleaned up the mess he had made. I now opened the letter. Lily had done the same. I being a faster reader than her finished first. All the color in my face drained from it. Lily read her letter, then burst into tears. She dropped the letter, and ran from the room. I, knowing what had happened followed suite. I followed her into the library. She sat in her favorite chair, and wept. Our parents were dead. They had been killed by Voldemort. I came and found her. She had curled in upon herself. I a comforting arm around her. I let me cry into my shoulders. At this time came Lilac, Sirius, and Remus, to try to cheer us up. Remus and Sirius dragged me off, while Lilac tried to reassure Lily. Remus and Sirius took me up to the sitting room. They tried to cheer me, but it didn't work. Lilac then ordered me and Lily to take a nap. We knew if we didn't obey, life would be a living hell.
About a month later, Lily and I were just coming back from an appointment with Lily's healer. She said that the baby was a healthy baby boy. We came home and as soon as we walked into out house, when we heard a loud "Surprise!" Our friends were all there. The whole room was covered in signs saying things like 'It's a Boy!' And 'Congratulations!' Once it was just Lilac, Genevieve, Maria, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Lily and I, we decided to take the opportunity to choose names. Lily made no hesitation in naming Lilac as the baby's godmother. I named Sirius as godfather. Lily then brought the discussion around to baby names. "I think the name George, would work." Lilac said. I said "Nah, Molly, and Arthur named one of their twins that." "We were thinking of naming them after our parents." Lily said. "Okay." Genevieve agreed. "How about Harry?" asked Remus. "I like it!" said Lily jumping up. "What ever you like, love is okay with me." I said. "But he needs a middle name." Said Maria. "What about James?" asked Lilac. "That's perfect!" Lily said. This time, Lily's pregnancy did not end in attempted suicide. So the name of our first born son was Harry James Potter. After he was born, Lily was holding him, and I was holding on to her. I was thinking 'Wow. My son has got to be the cutest baby ever. He is going to be somebody. Maybe he will be a Gryffindor Chaser like me.' We were ecstatic. And also in the next room, was Alice. She and Frank had just also had their first son. They named him Neville.
Later that very week, Professor Dumbledore had a meeting. Alice, Frank, Neville, Lily, Harry, and I were all present. The professor was saying how that shortly before our son's birth, there was a prophecy made. The prophecy went like this: "The one with the power to vanquish the dark lord approaches.Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies.And the dark lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have power the dark lord knows not.And either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives.The one with the power to vanquish the dark lord will be born as the seventh month dies."
Lily and I were horrified to say the least. I was concerned, my little guy, the baby asleep in my wife's arms would be hunted. By Harry's first birthday, everything was great. Harry was learning to walk and talk very fast. He was accompanied by a stag (me), and a dog (Sirius), when ever he went outside. I wanted to teach him how to fly, but Lily put her foot down.
At Harry's party, Lily and I were glowing with pride, over our little cherub. He had Lily's beautiful green eyes, my messy black hair, and was the ideal child. After Harry blew out the candle on his cake, Lily had taken it into the kitchen where she would cut it. Little did she know that I was following her. After she put down the cake, I put my arms around her waist and kissed her. Our little kiss was interrupted by Sirius saying "Stop that's how you got into this mess!" I could tell that Lily's temper was rising. Sirius sensing that quickly said "I'm only kidding! You both know I love Harry as though he were my child." He then ran out of the kitchen. Lily seemed to be glowing. She had some news that she had to tell me, and everyone else. Apparently she figured she might as well tell me now. She told me that she was again with child. We decided we would wait to tell our friends till a later date. Not even two and a half months later, Professor Dumbledore recommended that we go into hiding. He recommended the Fidelius Charm. I said that Sirius would be our secret keeper. I had no doubt about it. I knew that Sirius would never betray us. He would rather die than betray us. So the next day we preformed the charm. Lily was still quite apprehensive. A few days later after the charm was cast, Sirius said that we should change secret keepers, because Voldemort would be sure to come after him, and that if caught, they would give him Veritaseruem, which would make him confess where we were. And that he thought that we should use Peter instead. It would be the "perfect plan, a bluff" he said. Lily and I knew that one of our friends was a spy for Voldemort. We just didn't know who. I never suspected one of my friends. Lily was too busy with Harry and the coming baby, so she left the decision up to me, and Sirius. We did it. We switched secret keepers.
Not even a day later, there was a knock at the door. Lily and I were confused. No one was supposed to know where we were. Unless.Peter had told.
I looked out the window, and there to my horror, was Voldemort. Peter had told the Dark Lord where we were.
Immediately I said: "Lily take Harry and go! It's him! Go! Run! I'll hold him off-" Lily was running. She had Harry in her arms.
Then the door burst open. There he was. There. I knew I was going to die right then and there. I also knew I must give Lily a chance to run.
I tried the first thing that popped into my mind. "Expelliarmus!" I tried a Disarming spell. Unfortunately Voldemort blocked it, sending it right back at me. My wand soared in the air to Voldemort himself. Voldemort snapped it in two.
Voldemort then decided to finish me off. "Avada Kedavra!" I screamed. Then I was dead.
My life was short, but I am thankful for any memory of good I have. Life is too short to take anything for granted. After I died, I saw my little Harry in person, and spoke to him. Only thing was that he wasn't all that little anymore. He was fourteen, dueling Voldemort. Lily and I came and helped him escape. I am thankful for that moment, but I wish there were more of them.
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Disclaimer: I own nothing, except part of the plot. Most of it belongs to J. K. Rowling. I just retold it from Lily's Point of View. The prophecy belongs to J.K.R. it is in the fifth book on page 841.
Life. You don't think about its meaning until it's gone. Most people take life for granted. I admit I did too. I was rarely thankful for the good in my life. Now that's all I think of; the good that was in my life. The memories that I have of the good in my life, I wouldn't trade for anything.
I guess you could say that my life really started when I was three. I was at magical nursery school. That's when I met my best mate, my friend that stood there, and helped me through the trials and turmoil that was my life. Sirius Black was and will always be my best friend. He helped me on so many levels.
When Sirius and I were eleven we were accepted to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. You couldn't say that our acceptance letters were a surprise. In fact, they were expected; both Sirius and I were from pureblood families.
On the ride to Hogwarts, in the Hogwarts Express, a timid, peaky looking boy asked if he could sit with Sirius and me. We of course said yes. That boy soon became one of my most trusted friends, Remus Lupin. Once we got off the train, we first years had to bravely cross the lake that separated us from the majestic Hogwarts castle. There were to be four students to a boat. It was me, and Sirius, plus two girls. One of them was a radiant beauty. She had red hair, and beautiful almond shaped, emerald eyes. Her name was Lily Evans. The other was her best friend, Lilac Rose. Sirius you could tell liked her. Well, anyway, half way across the lake I decided I had to get the beautiful Lily to notice me. Unfortunately, I only had Sirius for help. Sirius and I loved pranks, and pranking people. I definitely got Lily's attention. I pushed her into the lake. That got her to hate me for the next six years. I always lost my head when Lily was concerned. From the moment I laid eyes on her, I knew she was different. I knew that I loved her. I knew that I would do what ever it took to win her approval. I fancied her. I would always try to impress her, by showing off. That got all the other girls to love me. Well, almost all the other girls. But my charm didn't work on Lily. Up until our seventh and final year at Hogwarts Lily despised me. During the summer before seventh year Remus, Sirius, and Peter (another friend (at that point)) helped me to deflate my head. Then finally when I asked Lily out for the billionth time, she said yes. Then at graduation, I proposed to Lily in front of the whole school, our parents, classmates and teachers. She said yes! I was ecstatic. I had at that point everything I could ever want: Lily, a great family, great friends, the rest of my life ahead of me; who could want more? Lily and I were married that Halloween. We decided that we didn't want to wait that long. I mean what with Voldemort and all; you didn't know if you'd live to see tomorrow. Lily and I were so happy together. Aside from Voldemort attacking while we were on our honeymoon. Aside from that, I was on cloud nine. Not even a month later, when I got home, Lily told me she was expecting. As I've said before, I was on cloud nine. Unfortunately that happiness didn't last that much longer. Lily was six months pregnant. She was at home, all alone, when Voldemort attacked. I was in a meeting with Albus Dumbledore, when all of a sudden Emmeline Vance burst into the room. "Voldemort has been spotted at 179 High Street, Hogsmeade." Said Emmeline. My and Lily's house. I didn't bother with goodbyes. I immediately apparated straight home. I walked in to see Lily hit the wall of our sitting room. I took up her fight. I was hoping against hope, that my love, my Lily Flower was alive.
Voldemort realizing that I was there said "Ah, Potter. Don't worry, you won't be separated from your mudblood bride for long. It's now time for you to die too. Crucio!" I felt pain, but it wasn't anything to the pain I felt inside. I was almost sure that my Lily had left me. Then the pain stopped. I tried an unforgivable. "Crucio!" I cried. I wanted Voldemort to feel pain. Even though I knew that righteous anger wouldn't hurt Voldemort for long. By the time the pain had worn off, there were the sounds of many wizards apparating. They were members of the Order, and Death Eaters. Voldemort then saw Dumbledore, standing in the doorway. Voldemort decided that he should finish me off then and there. "Avada Kedavra!" he said. I was to fast, I said "Protego!" Then I blacked out. I woke up to seeing a room, that was entirely white. I saw Sirius and Lilac, both sporting various wounds. "Where's Lily?!? Is she okay?!? I need to see Lily!!!" I immediately exclaimed. "Don't worry; she's alive....For now anyway." Added Lilac. "They say she's in a comatose state. They think she will live, but they're not too optimistic. And as to seeing her, she's still in with the healers." I must have paled considerably, because Sirius gave me a brotherly embrace. I couldn't picture myself living without my Lily Flower. At that point, the chief healer, Healer Hippocrates Smethwyck came up to me and told me "Mr. Potter, you and your wife have been very lucky. She will make a full recovery. The only thing is that her baby was lost." I couldn't believe that. Our first child, gone. The Healer, apparently reading my mind said "I'm sorry Mr. Potter, but it's true. It's a miracle that it was just her baby she lost. Its amazing that it wasn't her life." I still couldn't believe it. I thanked the healer and asked if I could go and see Lily. He said that I could, in a few minutes. I went to where Lilac and Sirius were standing minutes before. There was Lilac, Sirius, Peter, Remus, Maria, Gabriella, Frank, Alice, and Genevieve. I decided I had to tell them. "She's going to live." I said our friends started to smile. "But-"they stopped smiling-"she lost the baby." A few minutes later I was in Lily's room, holding her hand. I was there for three days. I was waiting for Lily to come out of her coma. Then on the third day she awoke. At first she seemed bewildered. Then I kissed her. I was so happy that she was alive, and conscious. Then Lilac and Genevieve ran hugged and choked my Lily. When they realized that they were choking Lily, they let go. Then everyone left the room, to give me and Lily privacy. "What happened? The last thing I remember is you going and fighting Voldemort." Asked Lily "Lily, which do you want to hear first? The good news or the bad news?" I asked her. I figured she would want to know the good news first so I said: "The good news is that somehow, we managed to make it out alive. Someone saw Voldemort coming to our house, and alerted the Order. I got home to see you hit the wall. I took up the battle, praying that you weren't dead. Just as Voldemort was about to finish me off, members of the Order appeared: Sirius, Lilac, Alice, Frank, Remus, Genevieve, Moody, Dedalus Diggle, Marlene McKinnon, Benjy Fenwick, Elphias Doge, Dorcas Meadowes and of course Dumbledore. The first bit of bad news is that Dorcas Meadowes, Benjy Fenwick, and Marlene McKinnon are dead."
At that point I took a deep breath. I knew I had to tell Lily. I didn't want to. I wanted to protect her, shield her from all the bad in the world. It took me a moment to put my thoughts in order. I took another deep breath and had tears in my eyes as I said: "Lily, that defense charm, took most of the blow of the killing curse, but it only protected you. It saved your life, but the baby-the baby's dead." I saw the look on my Lily's face. She was silently crying. When I saw the silent tears make their way down her pretty face I pulled her into my arms, and we shared a good long silent cry.
I tried to calm Lily down. She seemed to think that it was her fault that our child died. "It's not your fault at all. Lily, you did the only thing you could think of. Many would have lost their minds just at the thought of dueling Voldemort. You kept your mind and fought admirably. If anyone is at fault it would be me. I'm the one who left you alone in your delicate state. Lily, listen to me. I love you. And I know as long as I have you I can get through anything." I told her. Then at that point Dumbledore walked in. He said in a dismal voice (to Lily) "You were very lucky I hope you know. There are many who have faced Lord Voldemort, and have not even tried to fire any spell, or anything his way. You have shown enormous bravery, and you should not blame yourself for the loss of your child." He then left. Before the door could close, in walked all our friends. They saw Lily and I, a heartbroken couple holding onto each other.
Later that night, for the first time in 3 days did I sleep. I fell asleep holding onto the person that meant everything to me; Lily.
Early the next morning I was awoken by Lily. She was screaming in her sleep 'My baby, my baby, don't take my baby. Please! I'll do anything! Take me! Kill me! Please just don't take my baby!' I couldn't get back to sleep after that. I paced around her room, thinking about what she was saying in her sleep. Apparently in her subconscious on some level, she wanted to kill herself. I didn't know what to do. I knew I couldn't live without Lily. Lilac then walked in. I had had an idea. If Lily was never in the house alone, then there would be very little chance of her going through with ending her own life. If I could convince Lilac to help, then everyone else would follow. I tried to convince her, but it felt as if I was losing the war. I then played the 'best friend card'. I said "She's so depressed. This if we don't do anything will be the death of her. She was screaming in her sleep 'My baby, my baby, don't take my baby.' She was crying. Please Li. Please, I want my old cheerful Lily back. If-if something happens to her, and you don't help, I will hunt you down, and kill you. Friend of Lily or not. And right now you're not acting like a good friend." Lily then interrupted. "It's good to know that my husband and my best friend are talking about me when I'm asleep." She tried to get up. She was too weak. "James would you come here and help me up?" She asked I rushed to her side. She said to me "Please, I want to go home. Please James." Her emerald eyes caught my hazel ones. I replied "Not yet darling. The house is under repairs. And also, the Healers want you to stay another day, to make sure you're ribs finish healing." I gave her a kiss, and helped her up. It was three weeks since Voldemort's attack. Lily and I moved back to our house. Lilac had given in. So she, and all our other friends, took turns guarding Lily. It was for her protection. I made sure that Lily was never alone in the house. Anyway, it was Peter's turn to stand guard. Apparently Lily had convinced Peter to go. (I mean how dumb are we? Peter wasn't there fighting Voldemort, and then he leaves Lily when I specifically told him not to. We should have realized that he was the traitor). I was in a meeting with Alastor Moody, when Genevieve came and told me I had better get home. I went straight home. If I didn't heed her warning, my love, my Lily would have died. When I got home, I started searching for Lily. I went into our bedroom, and there on my pillow was a farewell letter. It said: By the time you read this the world will be rid of me. I cannot live, and look at myself in the mirror in the morning, without feeling guilty. I lived while our unborn child died. I don't want you to have to see my face, and think of what could have been. I don't want to cause you more pain by seeing me. I don't want to make you suffer, by seeing me. Love always, Lily. I knew I didn't have much time. I had to find her alive. Otherwise, I don't know what would have become of me. The last place I looked was the nursery. There she was. She had a knife in her trembling hand, her other arm stretched out in front of her. She didn't hear the door open. She raised the hand that was holding the knife. When I realized what Lily was about to do, I snapped out of the trance I was in. I took out my wand and summoned the knife. I caught it and flung it at the wall. I then ran to Lily and held her in my arms. She cried into my chest. I let her cry. Then I said "Lily-why? If you had gone through with that that would have caused me more pain then the loss of the child. I need you. As long as I have you, I know I can make it through anything. And it doesn't cause me pain to see you. It causes me to feel, that there is hope. And that anything is possible." She just cried. The next year, Lily and I had big news. I remember Lily coming to the Auror Office, and finding me. "James, uh, there's something I have to tell you." Lily told me anxiously.
"Are you okay?? What's wrong? Are you feeling okay? You look a bit pale." I asked worriedly. "I'm okay, James." She gave him a mysterious grin and said "in fact you might say I'm more than okay." She took a deep breath and finished by saying "James, I'm- I'm pregnant." I looked at her completely stunned. then I asked "Are-are you sure?" "Yes." She answered. The look on my face soon turned into one of extreme bliss. I then gave her a hug and then picked her up and spun he around the room. "James put me down." She ordered. I just laughed a bit. "Put me down NOW! James you're making me nauseous." "Alright" I said, setting her back on her feet. Lily and I decided that we would have a little party to celebrate, where we would tell all our friends the happy news. By the time all our guests had arrived, Lily and I decided that they would tell all our friends together, after dinner. The first two to arrive (after our parents of course!) was of course Lilac, on Sirius's arm. The next couple to arrive was Remus and Maria. Then came in Genevieve. Then came in Frank and Alice Longbottom. Then came two old favorite Professors, Dumbledore and McGonagall. Then bringing up the rear was Peter all alone.
Dinner was a jovial affair. Lily was practically glowing over the little bit of news that we were to tell our friends. Once dinner had adjourned, we all went into the parlor. Our friends were just discussing some small talk. Lily and I were thinking about how we would tell our friends. I caught her eye and nodded. I knew it was time to tell, Lily started by saying to me: "Do you want to tell them, or should I?"
I said "You can." "We have some important news." Lily looked at me, smiled and said "We're going to have a baby!" our friends stared at us for a minute. Then Lilac and Genevieve ran over and hugged Lily. Mine and Lily's parents came up and congratulated us. All of a sudden, Professors McGonagall, and Dumbledore were right next to us. They both congratulated us; you should have seen the twinkle in Dumbledore's eyes. Then Dumbledore and McGonagall disapparated.
About an hour later, all our friends had left except for Lilac and Sirius. Lily was sitting in my lap. We were discussing the forthcoming infant. Lilac decided to bring up the topic of names. Lilac and Sirius were arguing over two different names, as though the approaching newborn was their child. Lilac wanted the name to be Violet. While Sirius wanted the name to be Hannah. Lily and I decided not to get caught up in the argument, and to watch them fight. It was rather entertaining.
After awhile of Lilac and Sirius fighting, Lily and I were bored. No one else seemed to notice that Lily had fallen sound asleep. Lily wasn't really sleeping; she was hoping that, that would get rid of Sirius and Lilac. I wanted them to leave too. I played along. I then said "Guys, shush! She's sleeping. I don't need you two to wake her up. She hasn't been sleeping well all week; she was worried about your reaction to her being pregnant." Thankfully, that shut both Lilac and Sirius up. I continued "I think it's time for you to go, before you name my future child, and decide who will watch them while Lily and I are at work." Lilac and Sirius then left. After she was sure they were gone, Lily opened her eyes. "Thanks." she said. "So." she started. She then looked at me, I kissed her and she continued "How do you feel? You're going to be a father." I then relied "And you're going to be a mother. I think you're going to be the best mother in the world. While, about being a dad, I feel excited." I then kissed her again. We then went up to bed. I fell asleep holding on to my wife, the mother of our approaching child. Five months later, Lily and I received some bad news. She was seven months pregnant. She was making breakfast, for me, Sirius, Remus, Lilac, and herself. As I came down the stairs, I heard a tapping on the window. Lily opened the window, and in flew Hannah (our owl), and a big brown tawny owl. Both Hannah, and the tawny stuck their legs out, so that Lily could take the letters. They were written in black ink. Lily was already was nervous, because most wizards write in colorful inks. I had just come down with Sirius and Remus in tow. Lily handed us plates of scrambled eggs, and toast. Then I sat down next to Sirius. Lily started to open the letter Hannah had brought first. I handed the other letter. At this point a big snowy owl came in and gave Sirius The Daily Prophet. Sirius was drinking orange juice at the time, as soon as he saw the front cover he spit the juice out. Lily exclaimed "Sirius! Now really! What was that about!?!" Sirius just took out his wand and with a wave of it he cleaned up the mess he had made. I now opened the letter. Lily had done the same. I being a faster reader than her finished first. All the color in my face drained from it. Lily read her letter, then burst into tears. She dropped the letter, and ran from the room. I, knowing what had happened followed suite. I followed her into the library. She sat in her favorite chair, and wept. Our parents were dead. They had been killed by Voldemort. I came and found her. She had curled in upon herself. I a comforting arm around her. I let me cry into my shoulders. At this time came Lilac, Sirius, and Remus, to try to cheer us up. Remus and Sirius dragged me off, while Lilac tried to reassure Lily. Remus and Sirius took me up to the sitting room. They tried to cheer me, but it didn't work. Lilac then ordered me and Lily to take a nap. We knew if we didn't obey, life would be a living hell.
About a month later, Lily and I were just coming back from an appointment with Lily's healer. She said that the baby was a healthy baby boy. We came home and as soon as we walked into out house, when we heard a loud "Surprise!" Our friends were all there. The whole room was covered in signs saying things like 'It's a Boy!' And 'Congratulations!' Once it was just Lilac, Genevieve, Maria, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Lily and I, we decided to take the opportunity to choose names. Lily made no hesitation in naming Lilac as the baby's godmother. I named Sirius as godfather. Lily then brought the discussion around to baby names. "I think the name George, would work." Lilac said. I said "Nah, Molly, and Arthur named one of their twins that." "We were thinking of naming them after our parents." Lily said. "Okay." Genevieve agreed. "How about Harry?" asked Remus. "I like it!" said Lily jumping up. "What ever you like, love is okay with me." I said. "But he needs a middle name." Said Maria. "What about James?" asked Lilac. "That's perfect!" Lily said. This time, Lily's pregnancy did not end in attempted suicide. So the name of our first born son was Harry James Potter. After he was born, Lily was holding him, and I was holding on to her. I was thinking 'Wow. My son has got to be the cutest baby ever. He is going to be somebody. Maybe he will be a Gryffindor Chaser like me.' We were ecstatic. And also in the next room, was Alice. She and Frank had just also had their first son. They named him Neville.
Later that very week, Professor Dumbledore had a meeting. Alice, Frank, Neville, Lily, Harry, and I were all present. The professor was saying how that shortly before our son's birth, there was a prophecy made. The prophecy went like this: "The one with the power to vanquish the dark lord approaches.Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies.And the dark lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have power the dark lord knows not.And either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives.The one with the power to vanquish the dark lord will be born as the seventh month dies."
Lily and I were horrified to say the least. I was concerned, my little guy, the baby asleep in my wife's arms would be hunted. By Harry's first birthday, everything was great. Harry was learning to walk and talk very fast. He was accompanied by a stag (me), and a dog (Sirius), when ever he went outside. I wanted to teach him how to fly, but Lily put her foot down.
At Harry's party, Lily and I were glowing with pride, over our little cherub. He had Lily's beautiful green eyes, my messy black hair, and was the ideal child. After Harry blew out the candle on his cake, Lily had taken it into the kitchen where she would cut it. Little did she know that I was following her. After she put down the cake, I put my arms around her waist and kissed her. Our little kiss was interrupted by Sirius saying "Stop that's how you got into this mess!" I could tell that Lily's temper was rising. Sirius sensing that quickly said "I'm only kidding! You both know I love Harry as though he were my child." He then ran out of the kitchen. Lily seemed to be glowing. She had some news that she had to tell me, and everyone else. Apparently she figured she might as well tell me now. She told me that she was again with child. We decided we would wait to tell our friends till a later date. Not even two and a half months later, Professor Dumbledore recommended that we go into hiding. He recommended the Fidelius Charm. I said that Sirius would be our secret keeper. I had no doubt about it. I knew that Sirius would never betray us. He would rather die than betray us. So the next day we preformed the charm. Lily was still quite apprehensive. A few days later after the charm was cast, Sirius said that we should change secret keepers, because Voldemort would be sure to come after him, and that if caught, they would give him Veritaseruem, which would make him confess where we were. And that he thought that we should use Peter instead. It would be the "perfect plan, a bluff" he said. Lily and I knew that one of our friends was a spy for Voldemort. We just didn't know who. I never suspected one of my friends. Lily was too busy with Harry and the coming baby, so she left the decision up to me, and Sirius. We did it. We switched secret keepers.
Not even a day later, there was a knock at the door. Lily and I were confused. No one was supposed to know where we were. Unless.Peter had told.
I looked out the window, and there to my horror, was Voldemort. Peter had told the Dark Lord where we were.
Immediately I said: "Lily take Harry and go! It's him! Go! Run! I'll hold him off-" Lily was running. She had Harry in her arms.
Then the door burst open. There he was. There. I knew I was going to die right then and there. I also knew I must give Lily a chance to run.
I tried the first thing that popped into my mind. "Expelliarmus!" I tried a Disarming spell. Unfortunately Voldemort blocked it, sending it right back at me. My wand soared in the air to Voldemort himself. Voldemort snapped it in two.
Voldemort then decided to finish me off. "Avada Kedavra!" I screamed. Then I was dead.
My life was short, but I am thankful for any memory of good I have. Life is too short to take anything for granted. After I died, I saw my little Harry in person, and spoke to him. Only thing was that he wasn't all that little anymore. He was fourteen, dueling Voldemort. Lily and I came and helped him escape. I am thankful for that moment, but I wish there were more of them.
©All Harry Potter Names, Characters, Places, and all things related to Harry Potter belong to J. K. Rowling, and Warner Bros.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except part of the plot. Most of it belongs to J. K. Rowling. I just retold it from Lily's Point of View. The prophecy belongs to J.K.R. it is in the fifth book on page 841.
