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Sirius' PoV

            James Potter was my best friend.  He always has been, and always will be.  James and I met when we were three at Magical Nursery School.  We became friends when we were put on the same Quidditch team.  We found we both liked the same teams.  After that we were basically inseparable.   

James' parents were supportive of our friendship.  I wish I could say the same for my parents.  You see, the Potter family has always been known for their hate of Dark Magic.  My family has always been known for Dark Magic. 

When James and I got our Hogwarts letters, we went to Diagon Alley together.  We had a hard time pulling ourselves away from Quality Quidditch Supplies.  While in Madame Malkin's Robe shop, (we were being measured for our robes) another boy walked in.  He was very thin with sandy brown hair, he had brown eyes.  He seemed a bit nervous.  While the three of us were being measured I introduced myself and James to the boy.

"Hi.  I'm Sirius, are you a first year too?" asked I.

"Hi.  I'm Remus.  Yes I am a first year." Said Remus

"I'm James.  Nice to meet you Remus.  I'm also a first year." James introduced himself.

Madame Malkin was done measuring me and James, so I said "See you at Hogwarts Remus."

James and I left to get our wands, where we met a boy who looked like a rat.  (Which he is one.) His name was Peter Pettigrew.  We finished our shopping with Peter. 

Then on September 1st, we (James and I) were in our own compartment when Remus asked us if he could sit with us, we said of course.  Peter ended up joining us too.  We found that Remus also enjoyed pranks. 

When we got to the Hogsmeade Station, we first years had to cross the lake to get to the castle.  There were four students to a boat.  It was me, James and two ladies.  One, Lily Evans had fiery red hair and green eyes.  The other, Lilac Rose had olive, colored eyes, and blond hair.  James, I could tell liked Lily from the first.  That was fine by me.  That left Lilac to me. 

Halfway across the lake James shoved Lily out of the boat.  Lilac then kicked James uh, where it hurt.  He needless to say, fell out of the boat.  That left Lilac and me alone in the boat.  We started to talk, and we found out a lot about each other.  By that point James and Lily were back in the boat soaking wet. 

Lily, James, Remus, Peter, and I were all sorted into Gryffindor.  But my love was sorted into Ravenclaw.  In no time, Lilac and I were together.  It took James and Lily another six years. 

Any who…in third year, we found out something about Remus.  We found out he was a werewolf.  When we confronted him, he was afraid we would abandon him.  We told him that we wouldn't dream of it, and that we'd make his transformations more bearable.  We did.  Peter, James, and I became illegal animagi for him.  Then we could accompany Remus as animals, because werewolves are only a danger to humans.  We each could transform into an animal that represented our personalities.  Peter-a rat, James-a stag, and me-a dog.

Then on the night we graduated James and Lily became engaged.  It was a sight to see. 

At their wedding, I was the best man, while Lilac was the Maid of Honor.  After their wedding everything went wrong for them.  But things got a little better for me and Lilac. 

When Lily lost her baby, after six months (thanks to Voldemort) Lilac and I got into a fight.    I was worried about James.  He seemed way too distant, even for a man who had to tell his wife that their child was dead. 

"Well, duh it injured James!  How would you take it if you found out that your first child died before it was born?!?  If you think it traumatized James, that's not even close to what its going to do to Lily.  She'll blame herself, because she lived and the baby died.  She will think it's all her fault, the spell she cast protected her not her baby."  Said Lilac angrily.

"I'm not saying that James and Lily shouldn't be traumatized.  I'm saying that they shouldn't let this ruin their lives.  They're only 18.  I'm just worried because James seems very distant.  Even with me.  Did you notice after the Healer told him he didn't talk for three days?  He's never, ever not spoken for that long.  He also didn't sleep for days.  I think as his best friend I have a right to be worried.  I have only known him for 15 years!" I responded.

Lilac slapped my face, and then walked off.  I realized what I had done.  She had enough on her plate, without me losing my temper with her.  I, being well Sirius followed. I chased after her all the way into the Chapel where she kneeled and started to pray. I saw her and went and kneeled next to her and wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close to me. I kissed the top of her head, and then said "I'm sorry, I just-I just well I'm worried about James he's just so distant. I'm sorry; I know you have a lot on your plate.  I shouldn't have lost my temper with you."  I took a deep breath.  "I also wanted to find a good time to say this and I know this isn't the right time or place, but apparently no good time is going to come in the near future. So here it goes: will you Lilac Rose, will you marry me?" 

My Lilac then broke down crying and, I thought I had said something wrong.  "What did I do wrong?  I'm sorry whatever I did.  I never should have asked you to marry me.  Just pretend I didn't ask." I said my heart breaking.

"No Siri, I won't pretend you didn't ask.  Of course I will marry you Sirius Black"

Later that day we were joined in holy matrimony. We didn't tell anyone that day we should have known people would soon find out.  We figured that everyone else had enough to worry about, so that we would keep it secret.

Unfortunately, the loss of their child really, really effected Lily, I don't mean physically, I mean emotionally.  Well, it did effect her physically, all the weight, from the lost pregnancy, but that was nothing compared to her emotional health.  James convinced everyone to take shifts so that Lily would never be in their house alone. 

This one day, it was a Wednesday.  It was Peter's turn to stay with Lily.  Apparently she convinced him to go home, and he did.  Thankfully James stopped her from taking her own life. 

Any who…once Lily had come out of therapy; she found out that Lilac and I were married.  She was fuming.  She made us have a big formal wedding.  While planning Lilac was working on the guest list.  She wanted me to invite my mother. 

"Sirius, she is your mother.  Do you really not want her to be at our wedding?" asked Lilac.

"Sweetie, I don't want her to be there.  My mother never saw the irony in calling me a son-of-a-bitch.  Why would we want her there so she can ruin the day for us?"  

"But Siri, she raised you.  Look how you turned out.  You're a wonderful person.  She can't be that bad."

"Li, I don't want her there.  Our wedding is supposed to be the happiest day of our lives.  Why would I want her there?  To ruin it?"

"Fine, it's just that you at least have a family that you can invite.  I don't have any.  Except in America.  They won't even come.  But what ever.  It's your family."

Lilac gave in.  Our wedding was on July 4th.  Needless to say, my mother wasn't there.

 "We are gathered here today in the sight of God, to join this man, and this woman in holy matrimony again.   They have each written their own vows.  Lilac."

"Sirius, since the first time we met, in the boat on our way across the lake, I knew there was something special about you.  Then when we got into a fight three months ago, I thought it was over between us.  Now standing with you in front of our friends and loved ones, I feel like I am finally complete.  After years of not realizing how incomplete I was.  I love you Sirius more than words can say."

"Lilac, when I first met you, I thought you were the most beautiful creature that had ever graced this earth by walking on it.  Once you were sorted into Ravenclaw, and I into Gryffindor, my hopes of us together plummeted.  I soon saw the separation of houses didn't make much of a difference.  When, three months ago, fought, I too thought we were history.  Now standing here, I know we'll make history."

"Do you Lilac Rose, take Sirius Black to be your lawfully wedded husband till death do you part?" asked the priest.

"I do." Said my Lilac, with utmost certainty in her voice. 

"And do you, Sirius Black, take Lilac Rose to be your lawfully wedded wife?  Till death do you part?"

"I do." With a conviction that I had never used before. 

"I now pronounce you man and wife, again.  You may kiss the bride."

I lifted the veil away from now my Lilac's face and kissed her. 

Our honeymoon was fun.  As though proof of our fun, two weeks after our return, Lilac told me that she was pregnant.  I was ecstatic!  Now I would have a family I can be proud of.  We told our friends.  They were delighted for us.  Then we found out that she was carrying twin boys!  My boys!  I was to be a father!  I promised myself that I would be a better father than my father.  I however wasn't able to follow through on that promise.

Any who…we then found out that Lily was too expecting. 

Lily and Lilac set out shopping for baby things on December fourth.  James and I went too.  We were forced to carry bag after bag of baby things.  We didn't want our wives to strain themselves.  We didn't think that move through.  By the time our ladies were done, we were pushing a stroller each (mine with seating for two), filled with packages, and carrying stuffed animals, and other toys. 

On April fourth Lilac, went into labor.  All our friends were sitting in the waiting room, lounge waiting for news on the deliveries.  After eleven hours, Lilac brought our twin boys into the world. 

It was then time to choose names.  Lilac picked out the names: Godric, and Salazar.   I was opposed to the name Salazar at first, but the name grew on me.  It was as Li pointed out her decision because she carried them around for 10 months.  I gave in. 

Any who… A month after Lilac was gave birth to the twins we were eating breakfast with Lily, James, and Remus (Maria and the girls were visiting her parents, who didn't like Remus because of his condition, so he didn't go.).  As I came down the stairs, I heard a tapping on the window. 

Lily opened the window, and in flew Hannah (her owl), and a big brown tawny owl.  Both Hannah and the tawny stuck their legs out, so that Lily could take the letters.  They were written in black ink.  Lily looked nervous, because most wizards write in colorful inks. 

I had just come down with James and Remus.  Lily handed us each a plate of scrambled eggs, and toast.  Then James sat down next to me.  Lily started to open the letter Hannah had brought first.  She handed James the other letter.  At this point a big snowy owl came in and gave me The Daily Prophet.  I was drinking orange juice at the time, as soon as I saw the front cover I spit the juice out.  I could not believe the headline, and the pictures that were there.  They showed pictures of the Potters and the Evans', dead.

Lily exclaimed "Sirius!  Now really!  What was that about!?!"  I took out my wand and with a wave of it everything was cleaned up.  James and Lily opened their letters.  James being a faster reader than Lils finished first.  All the color in his face drained from it.   Lily read her letter, and then burst into tears.  She dropped the letter, and ran from the room.  James, followed suite, he however did not burst into tears. 

We gave them a minute, than Remus and I dragged James away, while Lilac tried to comfort Lily. 

Remus and I tried to cheer James up.  Unfortunately we failed.  Lilac sent Lily and James up to their room to take a nap. 

Then Lilac, burst into tears.  "What's wrong honey?" I asked.

"It's just that Lily's family was like my second family.  Now I am really an orphan.  I lost my parents, and my brother.  Then I loose the closest thing to a family I have!"

"Don't worry, Li.  You've got me and the twins.  As long as we're here, you have a family.  And we're not going anywhere.  You won't have to worry about not having a family.  You have us."

"What about Voldemort?  We've just seen firsthand what he can do.-"

"Don't worry.  I won't let him near my family.  You're safe.  I won't let him or that lap dog of his hurt you."

"Thanks Siri." She said as she gave me a hug. 

"You're welcome" I said, right before I kissed the top of her head. 

A month later, Lily had an appointment with her healer.  While she and James were out of the house, Lilac and I got signs that said 'It's a boy!' and 'Congratulations!' Everyone hid, and when Lily and James came in, everyone jumped out and yelled 'SURPRISE!!!!!'

Once it was just us (Lily James, Lilac, me, Genevieve, Maria, Remus, and Peter) Lily and James decided to take the opportunity to choose names.  Lily made no hesitation in naming Lilac as the baby's godmother.  James named me godfather. 

"I think the name George, would work."  Lilac said. 

 "Nah, Molly, and Arthur named one of their twins' that." said James

 "We were thinking of naming them after our parents."  Lily said. 

"Okay." Genevieve agreed. 

"How about Harry?" asked Remus.  

"I like it!" said Lily jumping up. 

"What ever you like, love is okay with me." James said. 

"But he needs a middle name." Said Maria. 

"What about James?" asked Lilac. 

"That's perfect!" Lily said. 

I kept quiet all during this exchange.  I had some names, but I knew James would get mad if I said any of them.

A month later, Lily went into labor.  Li and I felt sorry for her.  She was in labor for eighteen hours, and fifty-three minutes.  James was ecstatic.  At the least.  Lily looked as though she was in her prime. 

Any who… the twins and Harry became fast friends.  They were almost always together.  They were inseparable.  That was enough reason for Lily and Lilac to hang out, as was for me and James. 

When the boys wanted to go outside, they were accompanied by a silver stag, and a black dog.  James and I wanted to teach our boys to play Quidditch.  Our wives however had another idea.  They agreed that no son of theirs would be on a broom, until the age of at least four.  James and I gave in, and instead concentrated on getting the boys to walk. 

At the twins' birthday party, they got so many presents, it was unbelievable.  Their room was already full.  Now, their stuff started taking over my and Li's room. 

At Harry's party, I walked in on Lily and James, kissing, and made the mistake, of joking around and saying "Stop that's how you got into this mess!" 

Lily looked like she was going to come at me with a knife.  Afraid for my life I quickly said "I'm only kidding!  You both know I love Harry as though he were my child."  I backed out of the room, and hid behind my wife. 

About two months later, James came to me and asked me to be their Secret Keeper.  I said yes. 

Over the next two days, I grew increasingly worried.  What if the Death Eaters caught me, and gave me Veritaseruem?  Then I would be forced to give the location of my friends to the enemy.

"James, I think you should change secret keepers."

"Why Sirius?"

"Because what if the Death Eaters caught me, and gave me Veritaseruem?  Then I would be forced to give them your location.  I wouldn't be able to live with myself after that."

"Then who do you suggest we switch to?"

"I think Peter."
"Why?"

"Because, Voldemort would be sure to come after me, would never dream they'd use a weak, talentless thing like Peter."

            "That's mean to say he's talentless, and weak."

"But it's true."

"I'll ask Lily, and then I'll get back to you tomorrow."

Needless to say, they switched.  On Halloween, Lily and James' anniversary, I was supposed to check on Peter.  When I got to his dwelling, he wasn't there.  Yet there wasn't a sign of a struggle.  It didn't feel right. 

I took my motorbike and flew to Lily and James' house.  Something was very wrong. 

When I got to Godric's Hollow, I saw their house, in ruins. It was then; I knew that I was too late. 

I walked in through the broken down door, slowly.  I was afraid of what I knew I would see.  I walked into the foyer and saw James' body.  Parts of the room were smoking.  As if hit by deflected spells. 

James' body was here, but where were Lily and Harry?  I walked around calling for them.  Hoping against hope that they were alive. 

"Harry?  Harry? Are you here?" I called.

"WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" called Harry. 

I heard his shriek from within his nursery.  I ran up the stairs, the first thing I saw was Lily's red hair in front of the crib.  I knew she was gone.  I then saw a pair of emerald eyes identical to Lily's looking up at me. 

"Padfoo." He called to me. 

Each step toward him, past the body of his mother, one of my best friends, broke my heart.  I picked him up, grabbed his favorite plush toys (a stag, a wolf, and a dog), and started to walk towards the front door. 

"Mama?" Harry asked.

"Harry, mummy isn't coming." Each word stabbed at my heart.  Two of my best friends, the parents of my godson, were gone.  And there was nothing I could do about it. 

I was by that time outside, putting Harry's stuff into my bag, so that I could bring him back home with me.  I mean, after all, Lilac and I are his godparents. 

Hagrid just appeared next to me.  He saw Harry, and asked for him.  I told him no.  That I was his godfather and that made him my responsibility.  Hagrid told me that Harry was to be given to his aunt and uncle.  And that was Dumbledore's orders.  I argued with him for a while longer, but in the end I knew Dumbledore must have his reasons. 

To ensure Harry got to his aunt and uncle safely, I lent Hagrid my motorbike.  I said goodbye to my godson, and Hagrid flew off. 

Now it was time to find Peter.  He must pay for what he did.  I found him. When I cornered him, he screamed for the street to hear that I betrayed James and Lily.  He cut his finger off, and blew up the street.  He transformed in the flash of light. 

I started laughing.  If he thought he could get away like that, he was damn wrong! 

Ministry wizards came, and hauled me off to Azkaban.  Less than a week later, my Lilac joined me, in the cell next to mine.  Neither of us was given a trial, or a chance to say goodbye to our sons. 

Less than a week later, Lucius Malfoy came and-shall we say 'visited' my beloved Lilac.  He came back every day that week.  I heard my wife; the love of my life, scream out in pain.  I saw everything through the bars of my chamber.  She never cried though.  At least not while he was there.  I heard her crying into her pillow.  I tried to comfort her, but she was beyond comfort. 

She fell pregnant with his child, not long after.  She tried to kill herself, thereby killing the bastard's child.  The guards stopped her, and had her put on heavy meds. 

When she was eight months pregnant, she got sick.  She got very sick.  They say she had the dragon pox.  She stopped eating. 

I remember saying goodnight to her, and when I awoke, she was gone.  They wouldn't even allow me to see her buried.  The only person to show up for her funeral was her brother (who everyone thought was dead). She died at twenty one. 

Eleven years later, while Fudge was inspecting Azkaban I asked for his paper.  I said I missed the crossword.  There, on the front page was the Weasley family.  On the boy who seemed to be the youngest, there was Peter, on his shoulder.  In the article, it said that he would be returning to Hogwarts; where Harry was.  So he would be perfectly positioned to act, if one hint reached his ears that the dark side was gathering strength again.  Ready to deliver the last Potter to them.

On Halloween, the twelfth anniversary of the day my best friends died, I tried to get into Gryffindor common room.  The Fat Lady wouldn't let me in.  So I slashed her canvas.  Apparently I started a panic.   I didn't care, all I cared about was getting to Peter and saving Harry. 

I went to see if Harry flew as well as James.  He did. 

In June I tried to capture Peter.  I bounded up to the Weasley boy, and dragged him into the Whomping Willow.  Harry and his friend followed.  Not long after, Remus showed up. 

"S-Sirius… R-Remus… My friends…my old friends."

"We've been having a little chat, Peter, about what happened the night Lily and James died.  You might have missed the finer points while you were squeaking around down there on the bed-"

"Remus-you don't believe him do you…?  He tried to kill me Remus…"

"So we've heard.  I'd like to clear up one or two little matters with you, Peter, if you'd be so-"

"He's come to try and kill me again!  He killed Lily and James and now he's going to kill me too….You've got to help me, Remus"

"No ones going to try and kill you until we've sorted a few things out."

"Sorted things out?  I knew he'd come after me!  I knew he'd be back for me!  I've been waiting for this for 12 years!" 

"You knew Sirius would break out of Azkaban?   When nobody's ever done it before?"

"He's got dark powers the rest of us can only dream of!  How else did he get out of there?  I suppose He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named taught him a few tricks!"

"Voldemort teach me tricks? What scared to hear your old master's name?  I don't blame you, Peter.  His lot aren't very happy with you, are they?"

"Don't know what you mean Sirius-"

"You haven't been hiding from me for 12 years.  You've been hiding from Voldemort's old supporters.  I heard things in Azkaban, Peter…they all think you're, or you'd have to answer to them….I've heard them screaming all sorts of things in their sleep.  Sounds like they think the double-crosser double-crossed them.  Voldemort's went to the Potters' on your information…and Voldemort met his downfall there.  And not all Voldemort's supporters ended up in Azkaban did they?  There are still plenty out here, biding their time, pretending they've seen the error of their ways…If they ever got wind that you were still alive, Peter-"

"Don't know…what your talking about…You don't believe this-this madness, Remus"-

"I must admit, Peter, I have difficulty in understanding why an innocent man would want to spend 12 years as a rat." 

"Innocent but scared!  If Voldemort's old supporters were after me, it was because I put one of their best men in Azkaban-the spy, Sirius Black!"

"How dare you, I, a spy for Voldemort?  When did I ever sneak around people who were stronger and more powerful than myself?  But you, Peter-I'll never understand why I didn't see you were the spy from the start.  You always liked big friends who who'd look after you, didn't you?  It used to be us…me and Remus…and James."

"Me, a spy…must be out of your mind…never…don't know how you can say such a-"

"Lily and James only made you Secret-Keeper because I suggested it,  I thought it was the perfect plan…a bluff…Voldemort would be sure to come after me, would never dream they'd use a weak, talentless thing like you…It must have been the finest moment of your miserable life, telling Voldemort you could hand him the Potters.

"Professor Lupin?  Can-can I say something?" asked the girl.

"Certainly, Hermione."

"Well-Scabbers-I mean, this-this man-he's been sleeping in Harry's dormitory for 3 years.  If he's working for You-Know-Who, how come he never tried to hurt Harry before now?"

"There!  Thank you!  You see Remus?  I have never hurt a hair of Harry's head!  Why should I?"

"I'll tell you why, because you never did anything for anyone unless you could see what was in it for you.  Voldemort's been in hiding for 15 years, they say he's half dead.  You weren't about to commit murder right under Albus Dumbledore's nose, for a wreck of a wizard who'd lost all of his power, were you?  You'd want to be quite sure he was the biggest bully in the playground before you went back to him, wouldn't you?  Why else did you get a wizard family to take you in?  Keeping an ear out for news, weren't you, Peter?  Just in case your old protector regained strength, and it was safe to rejoin him…

"Er- Mr.  Black-Sirius?" asked Hermione.   "If you don't mind me asking, how-how did you get out of Azkaban, if you didn't use Dark Magic?"

"Thank you!  Exactly!  Precisely what I-"  Remus silenced Peter with a look.

"I don't know how I did it, I think the only reason that I didn't lose my mind is that I knew I was innocent.  That wasn't a happy thought, so the Dementors couldn't suck it out of me…but it kept me sane and knowing who I am…helped me keep my powers…so when it all became…too much … I could transform in my cell…become a dog.  Dementors cant see you know…they feel their way to people by feeding off their emotions…they could tell that my feelings were less-less complex when I was a dog…but they thought, of course that I was losing my mind like everyone else in there, so it didn't trouble them.  But I was weak, very weak, and I had no hope of driving them away from me without a wand….but then I saw Peter in that picture…I realized he was at Hogwarts with Harry…perfectly positioned to act if one hint reached his ears that the Dark Side was gathering strength again… ready to strike again he could be sure of allies…and to deliver the last Potter to them.  If he gave them Harry, who'd dare say he'd betrayed Lord Voldemort?  He'd be welcomed back with honors….So you see, I had to do something.  I was the only one who knew Peter was still alive….it was as if someone had lit a fire in my head, and the Dementors couldn't destroy it….It wasn't a happy feeling…it was an obsession…but it gave me strength, it cleared my mind.  So, one night when they opened my door to bring food, I slipped past them as a dog….its so much harder for then to sense animal emotions that they were confused….I was thin, very thin…thin enough to slip through the bars…I swam as a dog back to the mainland….I journeyed north and slipped into Hogwarts grounds as a dog.  I've been living in the forest ever since, except when I came to watch the Quidditch, of course.  You fly as well as your father did, Harry…Believe me, believe me Harry.  I never betrayed James and Lily.  I would have died before I betrayed them."

            Harry believed me.  But he wouldn't let me and Remus get the revenge we wanted.  It wouldn't have brought Lily and James back, but at least something then would have been right in the world. 

Harry said we should bring him up to the castle and hand him to the Dementors, being he thought James wouldn't have wanted us to become killers, just for Peter.   It's because of Peter that Harry didn't know that at this point, James if he was with us would have killed Peter with his bare hands.  James cared for Lily and Harry above all else, if either Harry or Lily was put in danger, he would have hunted the man responsible down, and killed them with his bare hands. 

            Remus and I agreed that Harry was the only one who had the right to decide.  We were taking Peter up to the castle, when Remus started to transform.  Peter transformed and escaped.  Snape however brought me to the Dementors.  Harry helped me escape. 

            Over the next year I worried, someone inside Hogwarts was trying to hurt Harry.  I helped him get through the three tasks of the Triwizard Tournament.  After the third task he came back clutching the dead body of another student, and saying that Voldemort had returned.  I was sent by Dumbledore to get the old gang together.  By that he meant to get the old members of the Order of the Phoenix notified of Voldemort's return. 

            Over the summer, Harry was kept in the dark.  Poor kid.  When he got to headquarters, (my mother's old house) Molly and I fought over what he should be told.  Like I said then, he's not a child.  She thinks I'm mistaking him for James.  Yes, he looks just like him, except for the eyes, he has Lily's eyes. 

            Any who, later in June, Harry went to the Department of Mysteries.  Many Order members and I went to his rescue.   My cousin Bellatrix was there.  We dueled long and hard.  I turned around for a second, and was hit square in the chest with a stunning spell.  I fell back, and fell behind a veil.  There was no going back.    

            Quite embarrassing, how I died, don't you think?  One good thing is that I can see my beloved Lilac, and spend some quality time, with my best friend. 

James was my best friend throughout my life, and after.  He's like the brother that I didn't have.  I trust that we'll have some good times up here, watching over Remus, and Harry.  I can't wait till I see my boys, and Harry again, I just hope that I wont see them up here for a good many years.