A/N: Hey guys! Sorry it took me so long to update. Midterms were this past week and they left me with no time to do anything, especially get online. So because I've been cruel and left you guys without a new chapter for so long this time around you get two new chapters!! Yay for you guys!! Haha. Hope you like them.
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I sit in the vacant chair of the hospital room, dressed in jeans and a t-shirt, courtesy of a young female nurse who works on the maternity ward. I had only maternity clothes to wear and she was kind enough to lend me something she had lying around at home, that she no longer had use for as it was "so last year." Plus, she looks to be about twenty-one and I figure she probably feels sorry for me.
Courtney lays quietly in a baby car seat that Paul's father dropped off at the front of the hospital earlier that morning. I wondered, after the nurse had delivered the car seat why he hadn't come up to give it to me himself and then it hit me, because I have taken away his granddaughter and now he really hates me. He hates me so much in fact that along with the car seat he sent two large suitcases filled with all my things, even some of the things that I had given Paul for birthdays and such. I figured that much though, seeing as how Paul had stormed out of the hospital in a fit of rage.
I can still hear his screams "fine then, leave her, leave me…I want nothing to do with you anymore. You took away our little girl!! You are heartless!!" I can still picture him as he walked over to Courtney's bassinet, kissed her the forehead and then whispered something in her ear, settling her cries which were started due to his yelling. Then he turned and looked at me one more time before running out the door.
I haven't heard from him since, almost five hours after. The only things I have received from him are my belongings and a note, that I have yet to read for fear of what it might say. I know things are pretty much over between Paul and I, but I don't want to read his horrible words to me, that is too much. I want to have a fantasy memory of how we ended things and I know that note will do no good.
I fidget with the hospital ID tag as I wait for the nurses to take Courtney away. I thought I would be able to meet Court's new family, but the nurses have recently informed me that that will not be happening, as it seemed Courtney's adoptive parents are going to be arriving a little later than scheduled, not to mention I have to leave the hospital minutes after Courtney is to be taken away.
I drift in and out of random thoughts, memories and dreams as I wait there, staring at Courtney, trying to memorize all her features. I want to remember her like this forever, long after she has been taken from me, long after both she and I had moved on with our lives. I close my eyes and see her behind my lids, her chubby little arms and legs, her cute little dimples, her tiny, thin hazelnut hair, her gummy smile and her tired yawn. All of it is there, every little detail floats through my head to form the image of my precious baby girl. I just hope the memory will be there forever.
*PRESENT DAY*
"…and it is still there. I can still close my eyes and see her there, just the way she looked about nine years ago. There are nights in fact that I lay in bed and see her, dream of her. I try to imagine how she looks now, what kind of house she lives in, what her adoptive parents are like, all of that. Most days I think of her and it's okay, doesn't bother me too much, but then there are those few days when all I want is for her to be beside me, and those days are the hardest. Because I know she will never be with me and I will never see her again. I just wish that I could have my life to live again, so that I could choose to keep her, instead of letting the best thing that ever walked into my life leave like everything else." Paige says, tears streaming down her face as she clutches the tea cup, her knuckles turning white.
Piper and Phoebe sit there stunned, not sure what to say. Never could they imagine the horrific life that their baby sister had gone through. When she had stepped into their lives they never once imagined that she would hold such dark secrets.
"So…so what did you do after they took her?" Phoebe whispers, hoping that the answer to the question will mean that Paige can skip over the details of giving up Courtney, in order to lessen the hole that has begun to form in her heart, by the telling of the story.
"Well I was kicked out of the hospital so I was standing outside, a girl and her luggage attempting to figure out what to do with myself when suddenly it hit me…"
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