disclaimer: same old same old dont own anything

SATURDAY EXTRA 3

Shinji slowly began to open his eyes, he could feel the steady breathing of the person next to him. He slowly got himself free from Asukas tight hold around him and crept to the balcony. He opened and closed the door then walked up to the railing. Taking a deep breath of the night air, he exhaled a soft sigh as he looked up at that sky where the moon and the stars were shining.

'Asuka', he thought to himself,' I haven't felt for anyone like this... ever'

Shinji leaned against the rail and looked up at the sky. A small smile showed off on his face as he stared into the night sky. His train of thought was broken when he heard the balcony door slide open. He turned around and saw it was Misato.

"Sorry, did I disturb you?" she asked half tired.

"No, just standing here and letting my mind wander" he said turning his head back to the sky.

"Oh, I can see. Asuka's sleeping on the couch peacefully. Thats the first time I've ever seen that" Misato said smiling.

"She looks like an angel when shes asleep" Shinji responded.

"You caused that angel to come out you know"

"Not really, this would of happened with any other guy"

"But it didn't, it happened to you" she interupted.

"Yeah... I really do love her"

"I know"

Both stood leaning against the rail. The calming silence of the night took over, only thing heard was a lonely car driving on the road and a few crickets chirping.

"I miss Kaji", Shinji looked at Misato, a far away look taking over her facial expression,"we had fun times together, but it just seemed that we wouldn't get past one thing when we were together. We both thought that nothing would of lasted, that there was no love in it all. We spent most of the time talking or just having sex. It was very physical, but only after awhile I realized that I started to fall for him. I got scared, I didn't know what to do so I broke up with him. Do you know what I did to myself instead, I hurt myself. I hurt myself really badly".

Shinji looked on as he saw a lone tear trail down Misato's cheek.

"I found out that after I broke up with him, he didn't go for any other woman. Yes he flirted for fun and all that stuff but he never had another relationship. Everyone said he was so hung up on me, that he loved me. I didnt believe them, thats why I was always so angry or mad at him because on the inside I knew that there was no one else that would make me feel the way he does. It hurts, Shinji... Do you want to know what happened to him? What really happened?" Misato started to say alittle loudly.

"Misato I dont need to know..."

"I'll tell you", she said as a few tears trailed down her cheeks," I came into work, they said that a spy was caught and by the standards of spying he was supposed to be executed. I walked up to the door with the gun in my hand. I opened the door and saw him sitting in the chair, all tied up. He was sitting there, beaten, then he looked up at me and with a smile he said.... he said.... "its about time you showed up"...... an... then... I took the gun... and I..." Misato broke out sobbing, she held her head and cried loudly.

Shinji went up to her and wrapped his arms around her shoulders. She flung her arms around him and cried on this shoulder. A noise caught his attention as he looked to his side and saw Asuka standing wide eye looking at both of them. He wasn't sure if she was surprised by finding him and Misato like this or finding out what really happened to Kaji. He saw her slowly walk up to the both of them and then to his surprise saw Asuka tap Misato on the shoulder. Misato looked up and saw Asuka looking at her. She thought the girl would slap her in the face right now and thats what she expected.

"Its not your fault"

Misato looked at Asuka straight in the eyes as those words slipped out of the mouth of the red head. Misato couldnt hold herself back as she flung her arms around Asuka and hugged her tightly while sobbing. Shinji stood looking at the two women both embracing each other and crying at the same time. He didnt know what came over him as he too felt a tear slip from his eye.

Kaji was dead. The only man on this planet that he can say was a father figure to him. A man to look up to, in fact he imagined a few times that Misato and Kaji would get together and adopt him. That was a long time ago, it hurt however when the truth was revealed.

"...'But Shinji...you mustn't look away... from the truth'..." both Misato and Asuka looked up at Shinji as he murmured that phrase to himself. They both saw him crying.

"Kaji was like a father to me... he was the only in this world that gave me advice. He told me to look for the truth, it has to be known... but the truth hurts... it hurts alot..." he said as he let out a sob and sank to his knees. Asuka and Misato went up to Shinji, both got on their knees and held on to each other. One was holding the other.

"You two", Misato said shakingly," are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have done alot and alot of mistakes, but everytime I come home I feel at peace even when you two drive me nuts", they chuckled as the memories flooded all three of them,"you two are my babies and I love each of you so much..." Misato couldnt talk anymore as she held on to both kids with all her might.

There in the night three people held on to each other with all their strength. Three people full of memories, both good and bad. They lived together in an apartment and worked for the same job. None of them have any blood relation between them but each can say that they were a family. Three people who have a love that can't be broken and is always present in every situation they are in, if they admit it or not. This is true humanity. This is what its like to have a home. A real home.

("If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home

There's an awful lot of breathing room

But I can hardly move

If you're gone - baby you need to come home

Cuz there's a little bit of something me

In everything in you")

To be continued...

2 months later i finally write something, i am sincerely sorry for the long wait, i am working on the sunday chapter or at least trying to. this extra is really sappy but you know i just kinda wanted to write it. ill throw in another extra or two until the sunday chapter. the sunday chapter could be the last chapter in this series.

Kaji quote from the 5th volume of the evangelion manga

Matchbox 20, if your gone.