Shattered Stars

Disclaimer: I defiantly do not own Harry Potter. Don't sue!

Summary: Something happens to Lily and she becomes an outsider and a rebel. She soon starts thinking suicidal thoughts also. Who will be there to save her when she needs it? Lily/James

Pg-13 because of attempt suicide, cutting, swearing, and ect.

Not a very cheerful fic but it will end up one. Please don't flame me to horribly, if it sounds like your not going to like it then don't read it.

************************************************************************

Lily was an average girl, well other than the fact that she was a witch. In fact she was in her 5th year at Hogwarts. She did well in school, had a lot of friends, and was very pretty. Her best friend was Sonya Halls. Sonya was about 5 foot 9 inches she had dirty blonde hair to her waist and blue gray eyes. Lily herself was about 5 foot 7 inches and had the most red beautiful hair and emerald green eyes. Lily threw her hair behind her shoulder as she sat down at the Gryffindor table in the Great Hall for breakfast. Sonya came and sat next to her. Lily reached and grabbed a blueberry bagel, she put some cream cheese on it, and took a bite as she heard some laughing across from her. She looked up and saw 'the marauders' as they called themselves. James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew to be exact. James had the messiest black hair and chocolate brown eyes. He stood about 6 feet tall, Sirius was his best friend and partner in crime. He also had brown eyes and black hair that was in a small ponytail in the back, he was about 6 foot 2 inches. Remus had sandy blonde hair, blue eyes and was about 5 foot 11 inches, while Peter had light brown hair and was a little pudgy, he was shorter than the others at about 5 foot 8 inches. They were all looking towards the Slytherin table, they had obviously just played a prank on Snape or something. Lily rolled her eyes and continue eating. Even though she was friends with them, she found their pranks childish. They said she only thought that because they played them on her sometimes. Her and Sonya hung around with the four boys a lot so they new each other but lately they were all growing apart, sure they would stay up late and talk to each other and hang out at Hogsmede trips but lately she felt that she was distant from them. After a while they turned back around and started eating breakfast. Soon all the owls came in and delivered letters, one surprisingly dropping a letter in front of Lily. She picked it up and opened it.

To Lillian Evans

We are very sorry but we regret to tell you that You-Know-Who has murdered your parents. Your sister Petunia was not murdered as she was at school when it happened. She is staying with your Aunt, the letter inside she has requested we give to you. Again we are very sorry.

Ministry of Magic

Lily reread the letter again ignoring Sonya's now frantic voice that was asking her what the letter was about. Lily could feel tears starting up in the corner of her eyes. 'No, no I will not cry. Not in front of the entire Great Hall.' She thought as she shoved Petunias letter in her pocket. She couldn't help the crying though. A single tear let down the side of her face. She looked up seeing the boys and Sonya all staring at her. She couldn't take it. 'No, no this isn't happening.' Her mind yelled. She stood up suddenly.

"NO!" She yelled. Everyone turned towards her. She covered her face with her hands and whirled around knocking over her pumpkin juice in the process and raced out of the Great Hall. She ran down the halls until she couldn't breath. She was sobbing heavily and the running didn't help. She leaned up against the wall for support. She slid down a little ways. Then took out Petunias letter. It read:

I cannot believe you. This is totally your fault. I always knew you were a freak. Just stay at your school for freaks and never bother me ever. I want you out of my life...

Lily heard someone's running footsteps. She managed to get herself up and ran as fast as she could till she finally got to the fat lady.

"Is something wrong, hun?" The fat lady asked

" Fire Fairies" She shouted and the picture swung open. Lily dashed into the common room in the middle her legs gave way, she was still crying she took the letter out again and read the last line that she had not read before.

You are no longer my sister.

'NO, no this is all a dream, it's not real dammit, its all fake!' she thought.

"no..." she whispered and the passed out in the middle of the common room.

**James POV**

'Pulling a prank on Snape is always a nice thing to wake up to' James thought as he reached over and took a piece of toast. He started putting some jam on it when he heard Sonya ask Lily who the letter was from. He looked up and saw Lily turn ghostly pale. He could tell Sonya noticed it too, because her voice became more worried. He took a bite of toast and then looked back up at Lily. He saw a single tear fall from her eyes.

"Lils?" he said softly. She was oblivious that he had even said her name. He dropped his toast as she suddenly jumped up and yelled no and ran out of the room spilling her pumpkin juice. A bit of it splashed his face. He and Sonya both stood up. Sirius, Remus, and Peter were looking on worriedly. He looked at Sonya, she sat back down obviously telling by the look on his face that he would deal with it. James ran out of the Great Hall after her. He saw a piece of parchment on the floor and picked it up (A.N- It's the letter from the minister of magic for those who haven't caught on) He saw that it was addressed to Lillian Evans 'Merlin, should I read it, I don't really have the right...' He decided not to. He folded it up and put it in his pocket and continued running. 'She probably went to the common room or her dorm.' He thought and turned a corner. He finally reached the fat Lady.

"Oh great, another kid running around who probably won't inform me of what's happening." The Fat Lady said and sighed.

"Fire Fairies" James yelled, ignoring the fat ladies complaining. The portrait swung open and James ran in. He saw Lily in the middle of the common room floor. Her cheeks stained with tears. He ran over to her. She was breathing fine and had probably just passed out from being tired so he decided not to bring her to the nurse. He picked her up and walked up to her dorm. He wasn't worried about anyone seeing him in the girls dorm because it was Friday and everyone had classes after breakfast, 'Might as well skip not like its something I haven't done before' he thought. He set her down and pulled the covers over her. He sat at the end of her bed with the letter in his hand, he had found a second one crumpled up in her hand. 'I don't want invade her privacy but I have to know what's going on!' He was about to read the letter when he heard Lily wake up.

**Lily POV**

Lily moved a little. 'my head is killing me' she thought. She sat up and opened her eyes.

"J...James?" She asked "What happened? Why am I in my dorm? What about classes!?" She asked.

"I don't know what happened you ran off crying, your in your dorm cause you fainted before I found you, and don't worry about classes." James explained.

"I had the most horrible dream" She said.

"This is yours" James said handing her the second letter only. She looked at it. 'It wasn't a dream, IT WASN'T A DREAM' she thought and started crying again.

"No, it wasn't a dream!" She yelled and curled up into a ball slightly.

"Leave! Now leave!" She yelled. James stood up and backed up to the door way.

"Lils..." He said softly.

"Out!" She said and through a glass that was on the stand next to her bed at him, he shut the door and it shattered against it. He walked to the top of the stairs that led down to the common room. He sat down on the first step as Sonya, Sirius, Remus, and Peter all ran in. They stopped when they saw James. Everyone stood there silent for a second.

"W...well?" Sonya spoke up.

"You guys should be in class" James said quietly.

"And leave Lily?" Sirius said and then shook his head.

"What happened?" Remus said taking a step forward. James shook his head. He then took out the first letter he had found and opened it.

**Lily's POV**

"Why me?" she cried into her pillow. She had no where to go now and no family. She walked into the bathroom and looked into the mirror. 'Im so sick of being such a perfect pretty girl. All I want is for people to leave me alone forever!' She looked at her self 'Stupid red hair, ugly green eyes, I hate myself!' She punched her fist into the mirror. It shattered and pieces fell into the sink except for the ones that had not broken off and were still on the wall. Blood ran down her hand. She raised it up and studied it as blood dripped down her arm. Looking at herself bleed eased her. She picked up a sharp shard of mirror from the sink. She lightly pushed it against the skin on her arm and a drop of blood came on. Some what scared of what she was doing she threw the piece back into the sink and left the bathroom. She wrapped a bandage around her hand and flopped down on her bed. She looked at the stand that was next to her bed. The glass she had thrown at the door had been there. There was also 3 framed photos. One was of her family, the other of the marauders and Sonya, and the last one was of her and James. It had been taken last summer and it was taken in Lily's back yard, he was standing behind Lily and he had his arms wrapped around her. Lily had always been close friends with James, she had started liking him more than that but never said anything because she doubted he liked her in that way. Lily scooped up the pictures, a tear running down her cheek, she put them away in her trunk. She didn't want to see them. She started crying again and fell asleep.
*******************************************************************************

That's all for this chap. I know it's short but I'll try to make the rest longer. I'll update sooner if I get lots of nice reviews ^_^. I'm not quite sure if I want to continue this story so if people don't like it I probably wont continue. I have a few ideas but if anyone has any I could use it would be helpful cause I don't know what I'm going to have happen next. Please review!!!!!