Chapter 12
Stuck
Ha, ha, ha, ha! Surprise, surprise!
Two days flew quickly by and soon Lily was out of the sanatorium.
She walked down the hallway that evening, trying desperately not to hear and see the whispers and stares that followed her to the dorms. Apparently, many people knew about what had happened.
Lily got to her room and sunk on to the bed. It was nearly June and the weight of the baby was extremely painful on her back and ankles. Two more months, just two more months.
Now that the actual birth was looming, Lily was getting worried. She could only see as far ahead as being pregnant. The delivery scared her to death.
She pulled out the green vial that held her pregnancy tonic and took a sip before once again getting up and leaving the bedroom.
Glancing around the common room, she stole into the boy's dormitory. Searching it vaguely with her eyes, Lily quickly found what she was looking for sitting alone on a bed.
"James, I need to talk to you about what's going to happen after graduation." She said softly.
He flinched at the sound of her voice. Without turning around, he answered her. "Lily. You're out of the infirmary."
She was silent for a second. "Yeah. But right now, we need to figure out what we're going to do before it gets too late." Lily's tone was quieter yet.
James turned around. "Ok, here's how it's going to go. "We'll buy an affordable house or apartment, get married and wait out the year. I'll bring the calendar. Then, when the time is up, I'll leave and you'll never have to see me again." His attitude was sarcastic.
Lily felt like crying. Why was he being so mean?
"Isn't that what you want, Lily?"
He face was a mixture of fear, pain, anger, and sadness.
She took a step closer. "No, that's not what I want. I want my baby to have a father. I want to lead a happy life. And most of all, I want YOU to grow up, James Potter. How can you say these things?"
He turned around completely now. "Why shouldn't I believe that, Lily? You more or less told me that I was the reason that you tried to kill yourself." James got to his feet and moved toward Lily. "What do you want from me? I just want to live a normal life. Do you know how scared I am right now? I have to become a father whether I'm ready or not. I have to grow up whether I'm ready or not."
Lily stepped closer, their noses were almost touching. "You said 'I' an awful lot in that speech. And for all of it, I can truthfully say, you're NOT the only one in this situation."
She was breathing heavily and James could see flames dancing in her eyes. With her mess of auburn curls, she seemed to be on fire. He couldn't take it anymore, so many emotions rushing through his veins.
He wrapped his hands around Lily's small body and pulled her towards him, kissing her roughly. At first she pushed him away, but soon, she melted.
James ran his tongue along her lips, asking permission, which Lily gave. They played seductively with each others mouths before slowly pulling away.
I can't get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can't seem to find a way
To leave this love behind
I ain't trippin
I'm just missing
You know what I'm saying
You know what I need…
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool
For you
I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true
I'm stuck on you
Now love's a broken record that's
Been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we've got to play these games we play?
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I'll be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true
I'm stuck on you
Lily and James stepped away from one another, their faces flushed, their breathing rushed.
"That was…wrong." Lily whispered, a tear falling. "I…I…I…don't know what to do." James reached up and gently brushed her tears away with his thumb.
Just then, the door opened noisily behind them and Remus and Sirius walked in.
They looked quickly between Lily's tear stained cheeks and James's sympathetic face.
"What's going on here?" Sirius asked slowly.
Lily spun around. "Nothing. We were just discussing life after Hogwarts. I'll be leaving now. See you tomorrow."
Remus and Sirius simply watched her fly from the room as James flung himself back on to the bed.
Sorry! That was such a short chapter!!!! I hope you all liked it though!!!!!! Some J/L action in there!! Tee hee hee!
I'm sorry that it all took me so long! I was in Disneyland over the weekend with my school. Oh! You should see the tan on me! LoL.
Anyway, I have writers block as to what should happen next, so if you have any ideas, leave it in a review or e-mail me at SoulPunk27@teenagedirtbag.com.
Thank you to all of my reviewers! You are the best! I'll update when I get 10 reviews this time.
The song in this chapter was: Stacey Orrico's "Stuck".
