'Schrei nach Liebe'

"It's open!" the door opened and Aya stepped into the room.

"Aya-kun?! What's the matter?" Omi looked at the other assassin, pushing himself away from his PC.

"Nothing I just wanted to ask you if you could get me something to eat from downstairs.."

"Why don't you go yourself?" Omi asked, sounding meaner than he had actually meant it.

"I don't want to see the kid." Aya simply answered, Omi looked at him, having to think who he meant.

"Oh you mean Joji? What's with him anyway? He said he knows you, is that true?" Aya stopped Omi before he could even really get started.

"Look how about you get me some food up here and I tell you the story, ok?"

"Ok be back in a sek! What do you want?"

"Anything, as long as I can eat it." Omi left the room and went down the stairs, coming up again only minutes later with a plate with some fish, vegetables, rice and soup on it.

"That ok?" Omi asked.

"Thanks." Aya took the food and began eating it.

"So what's the deal on you two?" Omi started the conversation again.

"Long story..."

"I have time."

"Ok... well it was about 5 years ago that I was working in a restaurant to make some money. Anyway my boss there had a son that was 9 years old and he was pretty much of a troublemaker. His mother had died a few years previous and his father couldn't keep him under control very good. He let him hang around the shop a lot so he would still be able to work while watching over him. Anyway one day he came up to the counter while I was working and sat down, trying to start a conversation..."

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Flashback *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"Hey mister!" Aya rolled his eyes, he had no intention of talking to the little brat, he decided that it was best to simply ignore him.

"Hey mister you have pretty hair!" since Aya made no attempt to take notice of him, the boy got up and went around the counter and pulled at Ayas shirt.

"Hey mister! I said you have pretty hair!" it was getting pretty hard to ignore the nagging, and since his plan hadn't worked, Aya decided that the only thing he could do was to talk to the annoying little kid.

"Thanks." He simply said, turning away to continue cleaning the table.

"We have the same hair color, you know?!"

"I noticed." It was easier to simply answer him than to try not to.

"It's a pretty unusual color, ne?"

"I know."

"Why won't you talk to me? Am I getting on your nerves? I get on a lot of peoples nerves, especially Daddy finds me annoying, do you?" the kid leaned foreword, putting his head on his hands.

"I have work to do." Aya simply answered. He wasn't about to risk his job because of a stupid remark he made to the boy.

"My name's Joji, what's yours?"

"Ran."

"Pretty name..... suites you." Joji had drifted into his thoughts and was looking dreamingly at the soda-machine.

"Thanks."

"Ran you can go I'll take over from here." A boy from the back called.

"Ok see you!"

He turned and left, not looking at Joji anymore.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* End of Flashback *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"Anyway so then a few days after his father comes up to me and asks me if I would like to earn a little more money. So he made the suggestion that I could watch over his son while working. He offered quite a bit more and so I agreed to do it. Anyways Joji started hanging around almost every day and kept telling me what had happened in school and whom he liked and disliked there. He ended up thinking of me as a best buddy and so his father asked me if I wouldn't like to give up my job and only watch over him, basically be his sensei and since I hated the job I had anyway I agreed to that too. He'd already been spending time with me for the past year before I became his sensei. And he was really sticking to me. Everywhere I went he wanted to go with me and it was hard to find a few minutes of peace and quiet. But he was ok from his character and such and I actually mostly almost enjoyed his company. After some time I noticed that he was looking at me in a strange way, but that's all he did. He said he admired me and hoped to become just like me when he grew up. Then at some point, 2 years ago, after I had been his sensei for the past 3 years, we were sitting in my apartment and watching a movie, pretty much a normal situation since we used to do that a lot, you know, when he started...."

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Flashback *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Joji turned around on his seat to face Aya.

"Sensei?" Aya looked at him.

"Hm?"

"Do you remember the day that we meet?"

"Hm?"

"You really do have pretty hair....." Joji looked at him in a dreamy sort of way.

"Thanks..... you too I guess since we have the same hair color and all...." Aya answered, turning his attention back to the movie.

"Would you mind if I hugged you, sensei?" Aya looked at him, unsure what to say at first.

"Aren't you a little old for that? I mean you are 13 after all....."

"Yea I know, but I'd really like to hug you....." since Aya didn't answer he went behind the couch that Aya was sitting on and leaned onto the back of the couch, putting his arms around Aya's neck.

"Sensei? Am I pretty?" he asked, his voice sounding dreamy, as if he wasn't aware of himself asking Aya this question.

"I guess...." Aya simply answered.

"I like you....." Aya said nothing.

"Actually I like you a little more than I'm supposed to, I think..... am I abnormal because of that?" he asked. Aya twitched. Was he hearing right? Was the boy telling him that he loved him? No that would just be weird.... he must have misunderstood something, badly. Since Aya showed no reaction, Joji kept talking.

"I think you're pretty and smart and I want to become just like you, but....." the next thing Aya knew, Joji had come forward and kissed him. At first he was too shocked to do anything, after all he hadn't expected that to happen, but he caught himself fast and pushed Joji away from himself.

"Sorry.... go home now, will you?" with that he had already grabbed his jacket and was pushing Joji out the door to get him to his fathers apartment as soon as possible.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* End of Flashback *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"After that I went to talk to his father and quit the job. Since he knew where I was living and all I moved to a different city so he couldn't find me anymore. But as you can see he still found me.... and I simply don't want to be in that situation again, that's why I left. And that's the whole story...."

Omi had not said a word during the whole thing, he had simply listened to what Aya had told him, and even now he didn't know what to say to the older assassin.

"Wow." Was all that he could think of saying that moment. Since it didn't look like Omi would say anything else anymore, Aya decided to get up and walk to the door.

"Thanks for the food." With that he was out of the room and Omi heard his own room door close behind him.

'Well that was...... interesting..... who'd have imagined that?' he thought as he turned back to his PC, deciding to write an e-mail to Nagi, asking him if they didn't want to meet later that day.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"Hey...." Ken walked by the living room when he noticed Joji sitting on the couch, watching an anime.

"Ken, are you sure I should be staying here?" he asked without turning around.

"Of course, why not?! You said you have no other place to go." Ken answered, looking dazzled.

"Well I think someone doesn't want me here...." Joji simply answered.

"Oh don't mind about Yohji! And about Aya..... he'll come around." Ken answered, walking closer to the couch that Joji was sitting on.

"No it's someone else.... never mind....."

"Joji you're shaking! What happened?!" Ken looked down at the boy. He was really shaking, looking as if something had scared the living daylights out of him.

"There was this man, he had really orange hair, and he said he would kill me if I stayed here..... I should really leave..... Ken he wasn't joking, and this is no dumb trick if you think that!" Ken looked a little confused at first, but when he heard *orange hair* he instantly knew that it could only be the German Schwarz that Joji was talking about. Since he didn't know what to do, he did the first thing that came to mind. Bend down and take the boy into his arms.

"Shhhh it's ok..... I believe you, but don't worry he won't do anything to you here.... I promise...... shhhhhh......" slowly the shivering got less intense.

"Thank you...." Joji was still not letting go of Kens shirt. His head against Kens chest.

"Anytime..... hey about your room..... we have one vacant room here, but it's sort of being used as a storage right now and so we'd have to get all that stuff out of there and all and it's kind of late now..... would you mind sleeping on the couch for one night?" Ken decided it was best to change the subject so the younger boy wouldn't think about the Schwarz so much.

Joji simply shook his head as an answer to Kens question.

"He said if I came close to sensei he would kill me." Joji whispered so quietly, it was even hard to hear for Ken.

"It's ok if he comes here again I'll protect you..... he won't harm you as long as I'm here." Ken told him without even thinking about what he was saying. Joji didn't answer, so Ken kept talking.

"Why did Aya leave anyway?" he decided it was best to simply keep talking to him until he forgot about the Schwarz.

"I don't know..... well actually I think it's my fault.... "

"Why what happened?"

"I did something that I now know I shouldn't have done....."

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Again Aya heard a knock on his door.

'What the hell is this? When did I become a people person?!' he thought as he got up to unlock his door.

"What?" he asked, standing in front of it, not having unlocked it yet.

"Please open the door.... I really need to talk to you...."

"I don't see what you want to talk to me about.... we have nothing to discuss." He simply answered, already turning to go away from the door.

"I wanted to apologize.... I know now that I shouldn't have done that three years ago, but please talk to me sensei!"

Aya thought for a second, then decided to open the door.

Only seconds later he found himself looking into Jojis face, which was a little red around the cheeks. Apparently he had cried a little while previous.

"What did you want to talk about?" he asked, still sounding cold as ice.

"I'm sorry..... I did the wrong thing back then..... I should never have kissed you, I know that now, but loosing you was the worst thing that has ever happened to me...."

"What about your father? Does he know where you are?" Aya asked, trying to get Joji away from that subject. He had no intention of calling the past back into his mind.

"No.... I haven't seen him for 3 years...."

"Have you at least called him and talked to him?" Joji looked at the floor, turning a little red around the nose.

"No I haven't talked to him either..... he would come and get me back right away!"

"Goddamn right he would....." Aya grumbled to himself.

"Please don't send me away now that I've finally found you sensei!" Joji looked at Aya with pleading eyes.

"You should go back home Joji! You know that you're father is out of his mind because you left without a trace...." Aya tried to sound reasonable, but he sure didn't expect the reaction that came from the younger boy. Suddenly a tear started running down his cheek. Aya looked at him, his facial expression softening.

"What happened Joji?"

"Nothing..... really I'm sorry." He turned around and tried to run away, but Aya held his arm, forcing him to look into his face again.

"Sure you start crying because of nothing now, do you?"

"Father kicked me out telling me never to show myself at home again. He said I was abnormal and that I should leave since I wasn't his son anymore.... No I don't think he worries too much about me being gone." Aya looked at him in shock for a second, but caught himself right away.

"Well ok you can stay..... I would like to read now, if you don't mind?!" he said, closing the door and locking it again before lying down on his bed, grabbing a book off a shelve.

"Thank you...." Joji said as he left for the couch again.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

A cool breeze blew into Ayas room. He really had no intention of reading right now, so he put the book aside and decided to simply lie on his bed for a little while.

As he closed his eyes, he noticed a movement in the corner of his eyes. His hand automatically grabbed his Katana as he jumped up, facing the window.

Schuldig chuckled.

"Well and I thought I could surprise you....."

"What do you want?" Aya was still holding his weapon up toward Schuldig.

"Actually I had brought some Baileys and some Caipirinha and a few other drinks and I was wondering if you would empty them with me?!"

"Not interested." Aya simply answered, letting down his Katana and letting himself fall onto the bed again, simply ignoring Schuldig.

"Really? Oh come on one sip won't hurt...." Schuldig was grinning again, walking to Ayas closet.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Aya shot a death glare at him as he opened the closet.

"Of course the drinks are already in here! You didn't think I'd get them up here one by one, did you?!" he chuckled as he got out a bottle with green liquid in it.

"Electric Lemonade?!" Schuldig smiled at him. Aya sighed.

"Drink if you have to, but do it some place else! I don't want to drink with you.... find some other idiot who sacrifices himself..... After all you can drink by your se...." he didn't get any further. Schuldig had taken a sip and kissed Aya, the drink still in his mouth. Aya tried to pull away, but Schuldig didn't let him. He saw no other way but to swallow the drink.

"Tastes good, huh?" Schuldig went over Ayas cheek with his thumb.

"Guess so." There was no sense in lying to the German anyway since he could read his thoughts.

"Right Kitten.... so why don't you finally tell me that you love me?" he was sitting on the desk, one leg crossed over the other, grinning at Aya.

"Cause I don't..... now are you going to sit there all day long, drinking in my room or are you gonna give me some too?" he tried to sound bored.

"I thought you didn't want any?!" Schuldig chuckled.

"I don't but if you're gonna force me into drinking anyway I might as well drink myself." He looked out the window.

"Hehe well if you want some you can get it yourself...." Schuldig leaned back with his bottle.

"Fauler Sack.(1)" Aya hissed at him as he got up to get himself a bottle. Schuldig laughed.

"Good one Kitten."

"If you already want me to drink with you the least you could do is get the friggin drink...." Aya grabbed a bottle of Rum and went back to the bed.

"Oh I feel sooo sorry for you..... want me to make it up to you?! Hehe." He slid down and went towards the bed, leaned down and kissed Aya. Aya waited a second before pushing him back and grinning at him.

"Don't even try..... you came to drink and that's all were gonna do." With that he set the bottle at his lips and started drinking.

Schuldig couldn't help but stare. It was fascinating, Aya was fascinating him. The way he closed his eyes to drink, how little sweat drops were forming on his forehead, how his Adam`s apple went up and down with every sip he took. Schuldig didn't notice that Aya had already put down the, now half empty, bottle already and was grinning at him.

"What?" he asked, ripping Schuldig out of his thoughts and bringing him back to the present situation. Quickly he let his fingers run over his chin. He was relieved to find no drool.

"Nothing...... you look pretty..... damn sexy hehe." He grinned at Aya and to his surprise the Weiß grinned back. One little peak into his thoughts made it clear why. He wasn't the drinking person at all and that half a bottle of rum straight down had really messed him up quite a bit! Schuldig knew that he should have left and let Aya sleep it out if he was a nice person, but on the other hand, when had Schuldig become a nice person.

/Nah it's waaay more interesting to find out what the Kitten does and says when he's drunk. After all, who knows when he'll be drunk the next time! Hehe/

He sat down next to Aya, pulling him halfway onto his lap, which was quite a task since the Weiß leader wasn't really moving too much out of his own will.

"Aren't you happy I came to drink with you?" Schuldig smirked at him.

"Not really." Aya shrugged.

"You clearly haven't had enough yet." Schuldig chuckled, holding his bottle to Aya's lips and letting the other assassin drink until he pushed it away.

"How bout now?" Schuldig asked, still smirking as before.

"Nah..... bud I'm nod drunganway." Aya lulled, he was drunk, drunk badly, he simply didn't know it.

"Sure you're not. I guess you can take a lot more......" Schuldig grinned his Schuldig grin.

"Goddamn righ ju ar! I gan dring a looooood mor!"

Schuldig simply bend down and started kissing Aya, who didn't put up any protest, due to the fact that he was drunk as never before.

As Schuldig pulled away again, Aya smiled at him, his eyes focusing on a point at the sealing.

Again Schuldig kissed Aya, this time pushing him into the sheets of his bed, already unbuttoning Ayas shirt.

"I love you." Aya suddenly said. Schuldig stopped. Had he just heard right or was the alcohol already going to his mind?! No he was sure he had heard Aya say that he loved him! And it was not in Ayas thoughts. Those words had really crossed his lips! Suddenly Schuldig felt guilty about taking advantage of the situation. He grinned to himself.

/Since when did I become so nice to not take advantage of such a wonderful situation?!/ he thought to himself as he undressed Aya to his boxer shorts and pulled back the covers of his bed, only to pull them back over Aya after lying him down.

"You're really drunk you should sleep....." before Aya knew what was happening Schuldig had kissed him once more and left threw the window. The next thing Aya knew his eyes had closed and he was falling asleep.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Ken stepped outside to bring out the garbage before he went to bed, when he noticed someone leaning against one of the trashcans.

"Get lost Mastermind!"

"Why so unfriendly? Still holding a grudge cause Abyssinian is mine?" he grinned his Schuldig grin at Ken.

"He is not! He'll never be yours!" Ken had said that instinctively without thinking about it before he said it.

"Care to bet on that?" Schuldig grinned back. Ken simply looked at the floor.

"But I can tell that you like that boy..... what was his name again? Joji?" Schuldig was looking at his fingernails, looking as if he didn't give a damn and was totally bored by the conversation, only the way his eyes glimmered showed that he was quite amused by the reaction Ken had showed.

"If you hurt him I'm going to kill you Mastermind!" Ken started but Schuldig interrupted him.

"My, my Siberian! Who said anything about killing him! I was actually going to make the suggestion, that if you keep him away from my Kitten I'm not going to harm him at all..... it's all up to you now...." Schuldig turned and jumped onto the next roof.

'That's easy said, but not done what the hell does he think I'm supposed to do?!' Ken thought.

/Now that's an easy one Siberian! Win him for yourself and you won't have any problem. After all I know that you want him...... it's all there in your thoughts..... and your thoughts are an open book to me! Remember, if he stays away from my Kitten he's going to be fine, if he only as much as tries to hit on him, it's his funeral. See you round Siberian!/

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

The light flickered on in the kitchen and Joji turned to see who had gone into it.

"Sorry bout that! You want some food too?" Omis blond hair was the only thing that was seen of the boy as he leaned into the fridge to see what they still had that could be considered food, therefore eatable.

"Sure what do you have?" Joji answered.

"Well I think we still have some bread and cheese if I'm not mistaken and it looks like we have some left over sushi too!"

"Sounds good." Joji got up and sat down at the kitchen table as Omi brought the food from the fridge and sat down opposite of him.

"So how'd you like it over here so far?" Omi started the conversation as he handed Joji some bread.

"You guys are great I mean I don't know many, as in nobody, that would take me in like that! I had to pretty much work off all my stays for the last 2 Years it's kind of good to know that I don't have to worry if I'm gonna have to sleep on the street this night. Of course I'll help in the shop and so on! But that comes natural, doesn't it?!" Joji added quickly.

"Yea sure. But I don't think it comes that naturally.... I mean Yohji's been living here for I don't know how long and he doesn't help in the shop either. All he does all day long is flirt with the girls in the flower shop! Of course even that's help, after all that way the rest of us don't have to bother with them." Omi grinned, Joji smiled back.

"Thanks this is really too great of you guys."

"I heard you talked to Aya." Omi suddenly changed the subject.

"Yea." Joji turned a little red around the nose.

"What did you say?"

"I apologized."

"Did he accept?"

"I think so."

"Good." Omi looked at his food again, not saying another word. To his surprise Joji started the conversation again.

"Omi-kun? Do you think he'll forgive me..... I mean not simply say it but really forgive me?"

"I can't tell you that, we'll have to see, ne?"

"Guess so....."

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Omi opened the door to his room and sat down at his PC. Quickly he checked his e-mails noticing that he had one from Nagi. He opened it and was astonished that his Koi had only written him a few sentences.

*Call me as soon as you read this! It's important! Love you.*

Omi grabbed the phone and dialed Nagi's number. The Schwarz answered almost immediately.

+Yes!?+

"Nagi-chan it's me Omi.... I just read your mail, what's the matter?"

+Omittchi!+ he sighed in relieve, but his voice got serious again only seconds later.

+You have to watch out! Crawford doesn't want us seeing each other again! He told me I should kill you, but I refused. Now he said he would send Farfarello! Omi-chan you have to watch out! He's dangerous! And no one but Schuldig has him halfway under control! Not even Crawford! If he tells him it's ok to kill you all he'll do it! You have to get away from there Omittchi! And I mean fast.+

"What? Are you kidding me?" Omi couldn't believe what Nagi had just told him.

+No, please Omi leave! I don't want anything happening to you! I don't know when Crawford's going to send him, but when he does it's trouble big time!+

"I'm staying. I'm safe here with the rest of Weiß. I'd be far more dangerous alone."

+Well if you insist, just don't let anything happen to you, ok!? And if Farfi shows up, call me! If I have to I'll protect you with my life.+

Omi didn't know what to say. But before he could decide on anything Nagi started talking again.

+I think someone's coming here I gotta hang up. Love you.+

"Love you too."

+Bye.+

With that Nagi hung up, Omi simply sat on his bed, unsure what to think or do now. He thought he should tell Aya, but he hadn't seen the older assassin for some time now and if he was sleeping, Omi didn't want to be the one to wake him. Still he couldn't simply leave it at that. He decided to tell Aya anyway. He got up from his bed and went to the Weiß leaders room.

'At least he already knows of me and Nagi or this one would be hard to explain..... '

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

As Aya woke up the first thing he noticed was a terrible headache. He turned and to his surprise there were some Aspirin, a glass of water and a letter on the table next to his bed. First he took the Aspirin, then the letter. He decided he needed a shower. He left for the bathroom, taking the letter with him, only minutes after he had closed the bathroom door, Omi had knocked at his room door, Aya didn't notice. He had let the water run into the tub and was getting undressed. As he monitored his thoughts he was almost astonished not to find Schuldigs presence in them.

'Must still think I'm sleeping..... geesh I can't remember anything!' he thought as he let himself slide into the warm water of the bathtub. As he sat down he opened the letter and began reading.

*Liebster Abyssinian, (2)

Du bist wirklich eiskalt

Darum geht's dir gut

Hass ist deine Attitüde

Ständig kocht dein Blut

Alles muss man dir erklären

Weil du von Liebe gar nichts weißt

Höchstwahrscheinlich nicht einmal

Was das Wort Liebe heisst!

Deine Gewalt ist nur ein stummer Schrei nach Liebe

Deine Springerstiefel sehnen sich nach Zärtlichkeit

Du hast nie gelernt dich richtig zu verlieben

Und deine Eltern hatten niemals für dich zeit!

Warum hast du Angst vorm Streicheln?

Was soll all der Terz?

Unterm Lorbeer Kranz mit Eichen

Weiß ich schlägt dein Herz

Und Romantik ist für dich

Nicht bloss graue Theorie

Zwischen Blumen und Aufträgen

Hörst du Kuschelrock CD's.

Deine Gewalt ist nur ein stummer Schrei nach Liebe

Deine Springerstiefel sehnen sich nach Zärtlichkeit

Du hast nie gelernt dich richtig zu verlieben

Und deine Eltern hatten niemals für dich zeit!

Weil du glaubst, dass andere sich nicht für dich interessieren,

Weil du schiss vorm Schmusen hast

Stößt du mich immer weg.

Du musst deinen Selbsthass nicht auf Andere projizieren

Damit keiner merkt wie schlecht es dir doch wirklich geht.

Deine Gewalt ist nur ein stummer Schrei nach Liebe

Deine Springerstiefel sehnen sich nach Zärtlichkeit

Du hast nie gelernt dich richtig zu verlieben

Und deine Schwester die hat niemals für dich zeit!

-Mastermind-

Aber keine Sorge ich werde dir das Lieben noch beibringen hehe. (3)*

Aya let the letter sink down.

'I'm sure you will..... but I don't know if I would tell you that.... after all we are enemies, even if we are all simply a shade of gray as you say.....'

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

He had been sitting in the bathtub for the last few hours and finally his head was starting to clear. This terrible headache he had slowly faded away and he decided that it was time to get out of the tub.

He dried himself off and got dressed. As he left the bathroom he decided that he wanted to go visit his sister again. Since it was closer he went out the back way, not going by his room anymore.

He walked to the hospital and soon found himself in front of Aya-chan's room. He pressed down the doorknob and entered the room. It always struck him when he came here. Everything was sterile and white. He put the orchid he had brought for his sister down on her night table, pulling up a chair to sit down next to her bed.

"Hey Aya." it felt strange to say that name to her.

"How are you doing? Things with me have been going strange ways..... I love someone I should be hating and Joji came back. You remember Joji, don't you? You know the *nerve wrecking spoiled brat*. Anyways his father kicked him out and he's living at our place now. Ken offered him to stay. And then Omi told me that he's in love with Nagi! That's another one of our enemies, but if he's happy then he can't be blamed, right? On the other hand I'm sort of happy too, even though I know I shouldn't be, but I can't help it! It's all so complicated..... still I wish you would wake up.... open your eyes and talk to me.... at least tell me that you don't mind me being with Schuldig...." Aya paused for a second. Suddenly he stood up and left for the door.

"I'll come back and visit you again soon......"

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Crawford let the straightjacket fall to the ground. Farfarello looked around, not sure what to do with the sudden freedom. Then again he was astonished that Crawford himself had come down. Usually the only person that came to visit him or let him out was Schuldig.

"Farfarello..... what would you say to a little exercise? Go and have some fun....." Crawford opened the door and motioned for Farfi to go by him, but the Irishman didn't budge.

"Where's the catch?" he suddenly asked.

"There is none. You can go and kill the kittens..... I only want you to kill Bombay, but if you like you can kill any of the others on top of that. Simply have fun!"

"Hmmm.... is that why you let me out?" Farfarello looked Crawford straight in the eye.

"Yes."

"Ok....." he chuckled as he left the building, heading for the *Kitten in the House*.

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(1) Insult - Bad way to say someone is lazy.

(2) Dear Abyssinian,

You are really ice-cold That's why you're doing so well Hatred is your majoring Your blood is boiling all the time Everything has to be explained to you Because you know nothing of love Probably not even What the word love means

Your brutality is only a silent call for love Your "Knight's boots" yearn for tenderness You have never learned to fall in love correctly And your parents never had any time for you!

Why are you scared of being petted? What's all that about? I know that under the bay leaf wreath with oaks Your heart is beating And romance is for you Not only gray theory Between flowers and missions You listen to soft rock cd's

Your brutality is only a silent call for love Your "Knight's boots" yearn for tenderness You have never learned to fall in love correctly And your parents never had any time for you!

Because you think that others aren't interested in anything that concerns you Because you're scared of cuddling You always push me away. You don't have to project your self hatred onto others So that no one notices how bad you really feel.

Your brutality is only a silent call for love Your "Knight's boots" yearn for tenderness You have never learned to fall in love correctly And your sister never has any time for you!

(3) But don't worry I will show you how to love.

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Chi: Yay I actually managed to finish! This time it's really long cause I won't be able to update for the next 2 weeks since I'm going to fly to the USA again on Saturday!

I would still be extremely happy if you would review and tell me what you think cause like you all know..... I think my story sucks.

Oh and I'm still looking for someone for Yohji...... doesn't anybody out there like him enough to give me some person (male or female) to pair him up with? Cause I don't really want to start a crossover here..... and it's always sooooo damn hard to think of some character myself so can't anybody help me out here?! *looks around with pleading eyes*

Bye!!

Reviews:

we're not alone - Well I am German and live in Germany so I guess that makes me sort of good in German *smiles* And thanks very much for the compliment! ----^--@

Angry Blood Sister - Actually I know that Crawford isn't REALLY that way I simply need him to be like that in this fic cause otherwise my second ending's gonna crash! And since I don't want that to happen he's gotta be a real ass. Well now you know their history..... hope you still like my fic! ----^--@

XKohakuX - Well actually I'm gonna give them both! A happy and a sad ending, but don't worry I'm gonna say when the sad ending starts! I'm gonna end the story with a happy ending and I'm gonna write all the songs down that I used in the fic and all and then I'm going to write that you can either leave it at that or if you want to know the real ending that I have planned then there's two more Chappies coming. And thanks for the compliment! ----^--@

Anna Hibiki - Well then you don't have to worry cause I'm not too much of a fan of Aya/Ken and I *shudders* would never in my entire life write a Yohji/Omi fic! Well yea that was sort of the catch on the guy, and now I told you what he had with Aya, but don't worry he's not going to start anything with Aya cause my favorite pairing is Aya/Schuldig and it's gonna stay that for ever *grins* And thanks so much for the compliment! ----^--@

skrya - Yea well in the past time it's gotten to be about 39 Chappies, maybe I'll find another song to make it a round number *grins* Well you found out what Aya told Schuldig, next Chappie Farfis gonna have a scene and you'll have to wait and see how that ends..... *grins evil Schuldig grin* ----^--@

Misura - Thanks so much for the compliments! Well about Joji.... actually I found that name in my Japanese dictionary! It means as much as 'Flirt' and I sort of liked the name that's the mayor reason why he got it. Actually I only thought about the similarity those to names have while I was writing the fic already! Well right now Joji is simply a confused, kicked out from home teenager, but what I'll make of him..... you don't know, I don't know.... we'll simply both have to see *grins* ----^--@

Koji-chan - Hehe glad you like Joji *grins* actually I am going to let him be Kens boyfriend.... see I have a buddy who's like 17 and the oldest he's gone in boyfriends is like 26! So I think I can have a 15 (he's almost 16 anyway) and 18 year old date, nicht? *smile* hehe actually those two know each other quite well *grins* but you found that up waaaay at the beginning of the Chappie so I don't suppose I have to say all that again *grins* I just simply never like what I write..... don't know why.... sometimes the only reason I sit down and write more is because of you guys who review this! *smiles* Yay you wrote a fic? Can I read? If you don't put it on Fanfiction.net, please send it to me! I'd really like to read it! Actually my Mom knew where Waldheim is! Hey you know if you want to we can phone some time! I can call all over Germany on Saturdays and Sundays for free! Maybe we can chat sometime and if we get along we could phone if you like.... (sorry if I'm being too personal here tell me!) PS: Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Weltmeistertitel! *grins* ----^--@

xXLil Yu JahXx - Well I did say what the payment was way in the beginning. And like I said *smiles* I know that Crawford isn't really that way, but I need him to be really evil like this in the fic otherwise the ending won't work out. But Joji is actually one of the least dangerous people in this fic *smiles* anyway now he at least has a past so maybe he won't be that scary anymore to you! ----^--@

yaumi - Thanks for the compliment! I'm happy you reviewed the last Chappie and hope that you tell me what you think this time too! Hmm never played that is it any good? ----^--@