My life in vignettes
By: A-kun
Ninth Part: Zankoku ha Yasashisa no Naka ni (Cruelty Lies within kindness)
-I have somebody else- Said Ephram.
Last time they were both remembering the past. They both knew perfectly the story of the one sided love of Evan to Ephram, but the last guy didn't want to hurt him. He didn't want to hurt somebody, less his old friend.
-Sorry I didn't tell you before
-Who Is it, Eff-kun?
-I can't tell
-Is that girl, right?
-Amy? No. I left her because she was hurting me.
-The same that you're doing right now with me
-I'm sorry for falling in love with somebody who isn't you!
-No. The one who is sorry is me. I wish I never had that night. Look, Eff- kun -Said Evan - I cannot go on in my life like this. You're the only person that I love and I have to tell you that even if you don't love me, I cannot stop loving you. I'm sorry because I got clung to you and you'll never tell me what I want to hear.
-Hey, You're talking like this is the end of everything
-Isn't it?
-No! I want to keep you as my friend!
-I'm sorry Eff-kun, but it cannot be. -Evan stopped and take a breath to said something else -I'm sorry Eff-kun, but it cannot be like that. You cannot keep me like a yo-yo close and far from you. I'm sorry but this better stop here and now before it hurts me more.
-But, please, I really mean it!
-Sorry Eff, that's something else that I wanted to tell you. This is going to kill me if we keep like this. I'm sorry but even watching you hurt me. I'm sorry
Ephram stopped. He didn't have an usual line, or a sarcastic line for it, he just stopped with his mouth opened by the fact that his friend was leaving him behind. Evan just turned around and walked to the door. He opened it and left the room, then the house.
-Sayonara, watashi no oujisama -said softly
And a pair of bitter tears fell from his eyes.
Madison heard the discussion between the both of them. Usually is dad the one who makes all this feeling thing, but since Andy wasn't there, it was a nanny's duty (and a girlfriend's) to go on and watch his children. She stepped by the door, she was lying her arm over one of the door frames and with the other softly opened the door. With a doubtful face she looked inside the room. Ephram was watching at the window, he didn't realize of her, because he was so shocked and also he wasn't in front of her.
-I heard everything.
-So you know
Madison then opened her arms and embraced him. It wasn't a friend's hug or a girlfriend hug. It was a mother's caress. Ephram understood quickly and then he turned to embrace her as well. He was crying in silence.
-Ephram he doesn't deserve you
-He's right. I hurt him back in NY and I was so mean with his feelings. I didn't care about him, but now that he's here, everything is different.
-Why?
-I was so bad in NY. I never cared about anyone else, it was just me. But then he came and he seemed to be so strong and so willed to do the things. He was when I needed to be. Heck! I thought of him as my soul mate, but then there was something that made me look at him more than a friend. You know when you have more confidence with somebody.. -He stopped to clean his face from the sad tears but his voice was fading away within the pain- I was so stupid! I thought I loved him because I never had somebody like him and then It happened, that fucking night that screwed up everything. I just left myself go into his arms and I never meant to hurt him so much
-I'm here now. You can cry in my arms now
-Madison, I was the bad guy! It's my fault!
-No, it's not!
-Madison! You never knew what really happened. That night we had.
-I know.
-I was so stupid! I really loved him, but then I realized that guys can't love guys, isn't it?. So I decided to do like nothing happen and I tried to ignore him as much as possible. But when we were alone, he was like a dog; he was so noble and so strong. He really fulfilled what he expected to be; now I see.
He was sobbing between every word he said. And the air didn't come easily. Madison was still paralyzed by that confession of Ephram. She knew there was something between them, but she never thought it was like that. Even when Delia told her about it, she felt so bad but she knew also, like a sixth sense, that she must be strong for his boyfriend and she must protect him. They stood like that for hours, until Ephram decided to sleep. She was there only hearing the entire story.
-I'll tell you something as friends we're -said Madison- He's a good friend as far as I see, but yet you're not the bad guy. You did what you thought was correct, but sometimes correct things are not the things that we need to do. We must do what makes us more comfortable with. What is that makes you more comfortable, Ephram?
-With him..?
-Yeah. Look -stopped Madison -This is a decision time. You have to make a choice and it doesn't matter if it's the right or the wrong. It must be the comfortable, for you and your feelings, for you and what you think.
-Well, I just don't know.
-Think about it later, now go to bed.
She then kissed him in the forehead and left the dorm. Ephram still was sobbing and the night came down.
In the dark street Evan was walking to his home. A dark silhouette was coming from the darkness of the street. His body then realized that it might be dangerous to cross with that guy, so he turned around once he felt that. It was his "spider sense" that he developed once in NY.
He ran and ran. The guy was following him, he couldn't see his face and he was running. Scared, so scared he thought that was his last night. The softly wind stroked against his face until he reached the light of one of the houses. He was running and running, he felt the other guy that was almost reaching him. Evan closed his eyes and then he crashed with something. What was it?. It wasn't a tree, but the hit was so strong that he fell to the floor
-you okay? -Heard Evan and instantly he got up and turned to see who was following him.
The man who was behind him was there, and swinging a knife, with the shining blade in front of his eyes the man was asking for money.
-Give me all that you have!! -yelled the man to Evan and the other guy, who turned to be a white blonde seventeen aged guy. He had a muscular body and a large back.
-C'mon! Get off here! -screamed the blonde guy to the thief who was actually a black man, covered totally.
The black dude then started to attack, he threw himself to the other guy with Evan, but after a couple of unsuccessful hits, he ran way.
-Thank you -said a fearful Evan.
-It's ok... how 'bout you?
-Fine, well, a bit scared but fine.
-Hey! Aren't you Ephram's friend? -Asked the guy
Evan took time to think, not much but for him seemed like an eternity. -Yes I'm. I'm Carroll Evan, but you can call me just Evan.
-Well, all Ephram's friend are mines too!
-Thanks.
-Bright. Bright Abbott.
-All right Bright, thanks for the helping here.
-You're welcome. Anyway, why this guy was following ya?
-he's a robber right? So he must work robbing people and I was tonight special victim.
-Oookay.. Where are you going? I can give you ride if you want it
-Thanks, but I'm going there blocks east from here, I can walk by myself
-Is better if I go with you, and it's ok. It's not far from where I heading
-Where are you going then?
-I'll go to Ephram's place, wanna join?
Ninth Part: Zankoku ha Yasashisa no Naka ni (Cruelty Lies within kindness)
-I have somebody else- Said Ephram.
Last time they were both remembering the past. They both knew perfectly the story of the one sided love of Evan to Ephram, but the last guy didn't want to hurt him. He didn't want to hurt somebody, less his old friend.
-Sorry I didn't tell you before
-Who Is it, Eff-kun?
-I can't tell
-Is that girl, right?
-Amy? No. I left her because she was hurting me.
-The same that you're doing right now with me
-I'm sorry for falling in love with somebody who isn't you!
-No. The one who is sorry is me. I wish I never had that night. Look, Eff- kun -Said Evan - I cannot go on in my life like this. You're the only person that I love and I have to tell you that even if you don't love me, I cannot stop loving you. I'm sorry because I got clung to you and you'll never tell me what I want to hear.
-Hey, You're talking like this is the end of everything
-Isn't it?
-No! I want to keep you as my friend!
-I'm sorry Eff-kun, but it cannot be. -Evan stopped and take a breath to said something else -I'm sorry Eff-kun, but it cannot be like that. You cannot keep me like a yo-yo close and far from you. I'm sorry but this better stop here and now before it hurts me more.
-But, please, I really mean it!
-Sorry Eff, that's something else that I wanted to tell you. This is going to kill me if we keep like this. I'm sorry but even watching you hurt me. I'm sorry
Ephram stopped. He didn't have an usual line, or a sarcastic line for it, he just stopped with his mouth opened by the fact that his friend was leaving him behind. Evan just turned around and walked to the door. He opened it and left the room, then the house.
-Sayonara, watashi no oujisama -said softly
And a pair of bitter tears fell from his eyes.
Madison heard the discussion between the both of them. Usually is dad the one who makes all this feeling thing, but since Andy wasn't there, it was a nanny's duty (and a girlfriend's) to go on and watch his children. She stepped by the door, she was lying her arm over one of the door frames and with the other softly opened the door. With a doubtful face she looked inside the room. Ephram was watching at the window, he didn't realize of her, because he was so shocked and also he wasn't in front of her.
-I heard everything.
-So you know
Madison then opened her arms and embraced him. It wasn't a friend's hug or a girlfriend hug. It was a mother's caress. Ephram understood quickly and then he turned to embrace her as well. He was crying in silence.
-Ephram he doesn't deserve you
-He's right. I hurt him back in NY and I was so mean with his feelings. I didn't care about him, but now that he's here, everything is different.
-Why?
-I was so bad in NY. I never cared about anyone else, it was just me. But then he came and he seemed to be so strong and so willed to do the things. He was when I needed to be. Heck! I thought of him as my soul mate, but then there was something that made me look at him more than a friend. You know when you have more confidence with somebody.. -He stopped to clean his face from the sad tears but his voice was fading away within the pain- I was so stupid! I thought I loved him because I never had somebody like him and then It happened, that fucking night that screwed up everything. I just left myself go into his arms and I never meant to hurt him so much
-I'm here now. You can cry in my arms now
-Madison, I was the bad guy! It's my fault!
-No, it's not!
-Madison! You never knew what really happened. That night we had.
-I know.
-I was so stupid! I really loved him, but then I realized that guys can't love guys, isn't it?. So I decided to do like nothing happen and I tried to ignore him as much as possible. But when we were alone, he was like a dog; he was so noble and so strong. He really fulfilled what he expected to be; now I see.
He was sobbing between every word he said. And the air didn't come easily. Madison was still paralyzed by that confession of Ephram. She knew there was something between them, but she never thought it was like that. Even when Delia told her about it, she felt so bad but she knew also, like a sixth sense, that she must be strong for his boyfriend and she must protect him. They stood like that for hours, until Ephram decided to sleep. She was there only hearing the entire story.
-I'll tell you something as friends we're -said Madison- He's a good friend as far as I see, but yet you're not the bad guy. You did what you thought was correct, but sometimes correct things are not the things that we need to do. We must do what makes us more comfortable with. What is that makes you more comfortable, Ephram?
-With him..?
-Yeah. Look -stopped Madison -This is a decision time. You have to make a choice and it doesn't matter if it's the right or the wrong. It must be the comfortable, for you and your feelings, for you and what you think.
-Well, I just don't know.
-Think about it later, now go to bed.
She then kissed him in the forehead and left the dorm. Ephram still was sobbing and the night came down.
In the dark street Evan was walking to his home. A dark silhouette was coming from the darkness of the street. His body then realized that it might be dangerous to cross with that guy, so he turned around once he felt that. It was his "spider sense" that he developed once in NY.
He ran and ran. The guy was following him, he couldn't see his face and he was running. Scared, so scared he thought that was his last night. The softly wind stroked against his face until he reached the light of one of the houses. He was running and running, he felt the other guy that was almost reaching him. Evan closed his eyes and then he crashed with something. What was it?. It wasn't a tree, but the hit was so strong that he fell to the floor
-you okay? -Heard Evan and instantly he got up and turned to see who was following him.
The man who was behind him was there, and swinging a knife, with the shining blade in front of his eyes the man was asking for money.
-Give me all that you have!! -yelled the man to Evan and the other guy, who turned to be a white blonde seventeen aged guy. He had a muscular body and a large back.
-C'mon! Get off here! -screamed the blonde guy to the thief who was actually a black man, covered totally.
The black dude then started to attack, he threw himself to the other guy with Evan, but after a couple of unsuccessful hits, he ran way.
-Thank you -said a fearful Evan.
-It's ok... how 'bout you?
-Fine, well, a bit scared but fine.
-Hey! Aren't you Ephram's friend? -Asked the guy
Evan took time to think, not much but for him seemed like an eternity. -Yes I'm. I'm Carroll Evan, but you can call me just Evan.
-Well, all Ephram's friend are mines too!
-Thanks.
-Bright. Bright Abbott.
-All right Bright, thanks for the helping here.
-You're welcome. Anyway, why this guy was following ya?
-he's a robber right? So he must work robbing people and I was tonight special victim.
-Oookay.. Where are you going? I can give you ride if you want it
-Thanks, but I'm going there blocks east from here, I can walk by myself
-Is better if I go with you, and it's ok. It's not far from where I heading
-Where are you going then?
-I'll go to Ephram's place, wanna join?
