Things You Have to Know

::These are song lyrics yet again::

"This is what's spoken aloud."

"Theses are kinda like voices in Seto's head"

I don't own Yu-gi-oh or the song My Immortal by Evanescence, yes it's another songfic chapter!

A Soliloquy of Missing Tears

::I'm so tired of being here::

::Suppressed by all my childish fears::

Mokuba, we need to talk...

I know you probably can't answer, but just listen, okay? This is probably going to sound stupid, but I think it might be better for both of us if you'd leave. I know that sounds like an odd request, but I don't want you to feel like you have to watch over me. Don't worry; I'll be okay, in time. I just need some time to get my mind back together...

::And if you have to leave::

::I wish that you would just leave::

::Because your presence still lingers here::

::And it won't leave me alone::

I know you're probably upset at this. Don't be. Believe me, I would rather you stay; though I know you've got places you want to go, right? You want to see Mom and Dad, don't you? You can't hide that from me, Kiddo. You always used to talk about Mom and Dad...

When I think about it now, I never did tell you all that much, did I?

Sorry. I guess I'm still getting over their deaths too...

::These wounds won't seem to heal::

::This pain is just too real::

::There's just too much that time cannot erase::

Now you can see them for yourself. You don't have to worry; they're the most loving people you could ever imagine, and I'm sure they're waiting for you. So you should go...

I just want to reminisce a little before you go. For old time's sake.

You remember when we were young?

I can remember it like it was yesterday....

::When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears::

When we first came to the orphanage, I remember, you sat on that swing all day long.

You looked so sad...

"Seto, I wish Mom and Dad were here. It isn't fair that they left us all alone..."

I know it wasn't fair; it's just what was. I think that was the day I stopped being your brother...

...and became your father.

::When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears::

Of course, I wasn't a very good father, was I? After Yugi defeated me in a duel, I was broken. I didn't know what to do. How was I suppose to protect you if I was that easily defeated? And then, out of stupidity, I abandon you, just so I could figure out some stupid game.

That was all he needed.

As soon as I left, Maximillion Pegasus, stepped right in. He kidnapped you and conspired to take over my company. At first, I didn't care. I actually thought of letting Pegasus have the company; it would be a huge weight off of my shoulders...

Then I saw you're face.

When I was in that dungeon, picking that lock to free you; I saw how scared you were.

"Big Brother! You're here! You're here..."

And I realized exactly how much you needed me. And how disappointed you'd be if I just given up the company, the struggle against our stepfather....

I couldn't give up, not then...

...and not now either.

::And I held you hand through all of these years::

I was always there to watch over you, Mokuba. You were everything to me and I wouldn't allow anything to hurt you...

::But you still have all of me::

I don't think I ever told you this, and I know I should have...

Thank you.

::You used to captivate me::

::By your resonating light::

Mokuba, I needed you just as much as you needed me. Without you, I would've given up long ago. It's funny, you've saved me countless times....

Remember when we got back from Duelist Kingdom? The Big Five tricked me, and captured me inside my own game...

I was so naïve...

I can't believe I let them fool me like that; another case of how my obsessions got the better of me.

But you saved me.

You risked you're safety and ventured into the virtual land just to rescue me. If it weren't for you, I'd probably still be chained up onto that rock...

And if that weren't enough, you sacrificed yourself just to save me when we were fighting against the Mythic Dragon. I just had to be so stubborn! Why did I let my rivalry with Yugi take priority over your safety?!

I was crushed after that happened. I thought you were gone for good.

Thankfully it was only a game...

After that day, I vowed never to let anything happen to you ever again, even if it cost me my life...

::But now I'm bound by the life you left behind::

::Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams::

::Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me::

But look where we are now?

::These wounds won't seem to heal::

::This pain is just too real::

::There's just too much that time cannot erase::

I'm here, standing in the rain, talking to you, and I don't even know if you can hear me! It seems like just yesterday that I held your pale form in my arms...

...and yet it seems like I've been standing here for ages.

I shouldn't' be here.

I should be home, with you. Not here...anyplace but here.

I just don't get it.

Why would they take your life? I'm the one they wanted; you had nothing to do with it. You were...just a kid. He had no right to come into our house that night...

...to take you away...

...and end your life.

Right in front of me! He killed you right in front of me! How could he be that cruel?! I've never seen him before!

Why?!

Why did it have to be you?!

Why did it have to be at all?!

I promise you, Mokuba, I will make that man pay. The one who took away your life. The one who made those memories we share together...the only ones that we'll ever share together...

::When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears::

::When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears::

::And I held you hand through all of these years::

::But you still have all of me::

You might not have believed it, but you were always strong, no matter what happened. Now it's my turn to be strong. It's going to be a dull world without you, Kiddo. But I'll make sure to cause enough trouble for the both of us, don't worry.

::I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone::

::And though you're still with me::

::I've been alone all along::

Okay Mokuba, I think it's time for you to go. I'll be fine. You know me, I'm not going to just crawl under a rock and give up, I'm going to move on...

Please don't forget what I've said, Mokuba. I just wanted you to know how I felt. I won't break my promise to you, and I won't give up. I love you Mokuba, don't think that will ever change. I will always remember what you did for me...

"When I cried you'd wipe away all of my tears."

Because...

"When I'd scream you'd fight away all of my fears."

...you're my brother...

"And you held my hand through all of these years."

...and no matter what...

"But you still have..."

...nothing can ever break the bond that we share...

"...all of me."