A/N: Ok, so this is the final part of my story, and it is from Angel's POV. Pretty self explanitroy, very angsty. Thanks to Peeping Shadow-Monkey for the song. It is from the Pearl Harbor ST, (There You'll Be ~Faith Hill). I hope you all enjoy! please R+R
When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me
I set the phone down, not able to think, not able to think straight. Spinning around I hope to find you still there, a prank of sorts. But no... you are gone. What the hell? You can't be gone!
The tears rolled from my eyes, knowing that you were really gone and the rest of the team was waiting for us to meet up with them for drinks... I stare at the dark empty office, the gravity of the situation sinking into me, and I felt everything crumble around me. The one thing that I had hoped for above all else in taking over Wilfram and Heart was that I would somehow bring you back to me. Your short bouncy brown hair, your deep searching dark eyes searching my face with a smile on your face.
Are you just another face that will be floating in my soul for all eternity? Was there anything I could have done to stop this from happening? You came back to me to get me to believe, to have faith again, at the cost of your own life. Why?
I fall to the floor, holding my head in my hands. How could you leave me?
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
Memories flood into me, flowing into every pore, of when you were just a stuck up rich girl in Sunnydale, and your slow transformation since we moved to LA. Everything up until that last faithful night when you became a higher being and I was betrayed by my own son. I clench my hands on the side of the chair next to me, gripping it firmly in my hands and sending it flying across the room.
Had you known all along that this was going to happen? Why does everything that I ever care about fall away from me?
Angelus, the fallen Angel.
I fall completely onto the ground, screaming as loud as I can, knowing that it will do nothing to help bring you back. You were gone, out of my reach. But I do know that no matter what happens to me, your image will haunt my dreams for the rest of my long life. I know that a part of you will always be with me, always follow me whatever I do.
Buffy was one thing, but you were something completely different.
Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
My life, my sanity, I owe to you. What you did, with Lindsay, and becoming part demon just so you could utilize the gift that Doyle left for you, the curse he passed along with his last breath. Now I will never know what you thought of me in the end, how you really felt.
Did you bring me back here just so that you would go alone, leaving me to wallow in my misery on my own? There was no way you thought I could do this on my own, I need you so badly... so...
I rose, moving to the windows. The supposedly ultraviolet proof, shatter proof windows. With a surge of strength I kicked it, again and again in the same spot until it finally gave way, sending shards flying out into the night. I look down at what had become my city, my land, and I decided that it had to be this way. On the sidewalk right outside the building, I see the forms of our friends staring up at me. I move so that I am in full view of them, and stand stock still.
"Angel?" I hear Fred's voice drift up on the wind with my vampire ears. I make no move to let her know that I heard her.
Nothing could move me from this spot until the sun rose and did it for me.
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me
I set the phone down, not able to think, not able to think straight. Spinning around I hope to find you still there, a prank of sorts. But no... you are gone. What the hell? You can't be gone!
The tears rolled from my eyes, knowing that you were really gone and the rest of the team was waiting for us to meet up with them for drinks... I stare at the dark empty office, the gravity of the situation sinking into me, and I felt everything crumble around me. The one thing that I had hoped for above all else in taking over Wilfram and Heart was that I would somehow bring you back to me. Your short bouncy brown hair, your deep searching dark eyes searching my face with a smile on your face.
Are you just another face that will be floating in my soul for all eternity? Was there anything I could have done to stop this from happening? You came back to me to get me to believe, to have faith again, at the cost of your own life. Why?
I fall to the floor, holding my head in my hands. How could you leave me?
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
Memories flood into me, flowing into every pore, of when you were just a stuck up rich girl in Sunnydale, and your slow transformation since we moved to LA. Everything up until that last faithful night when you became a higher being and I was betrayed by my own son. I clench my hands on the side of the chair next to me, gripping it firmly in my hands and sending it flying across the room.
Had you known all along that this was going to happen? Why does everything that I ever care about fall away from me?
Angelus, the fallen Angel.
I fall completely onto the ground, screaming as loud as I can, knowing that it will do nothing to help bring you back. You were gone, out of my reach. But I do know that no matter what happens to me, your image will haunt my dreams for the rest of my long life. I know that a part of you will always be with me, always follow me whatever I do.
Buffy was one thing, but you were something completely different.
Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
My life, my sanity, I owe to you. What you did, with Lindsay, and becoming part demon just so you could utilize the gift that Doyle left for you, the curse he passed along with his last breath. Now I will never know what you thought of me in the end, how you really felt.
Did you bring me back here just so that you would go alone, leaving me to wallow in my misery on my own? There was no way you thought I could do this on my own, I need you so badly... so...
I rose, moving to the windows. The supposedly ultraviolet proof, shatter proof windows. With a surge of strength I kicked it, again and again in the same spot until it finally gave way, sending shards flying out into the night. I look down at what had become my city, my land, and I decided that it had to be this way. On the sidewalk right outside the building, I see the forms of our friends staring up at me. I move so that I am in full view of them, and stand stock still.
"Angel?" I hear Fred's voice drift up on the wind with my vampire ears. I make no move to let her know that I heard her.
Nothing could move me from this spot until the sun rose and did it for me.
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
