Disclaimer: I don't own this stuff. The company formerly known as Square does. And Finger Eleven owns "Thousand Mile Wish".
A/N: Yes, folks it's true! I'm not dead! I know I left this fic for a while, but that was because of some personal problems that were keeping me from writing fanfics. I don't plan on writing much more FF fanfiction because I'm more inclined to write original fiction now. But I will finish all the fics I started. So enjoy.
Forgive me if now I wear the face of worry
This time alone could never cause any doubt
But I've been cold too long
Such a strange time to find myself coming down as the rain
With all these holes my love,
To fill up from the middle
This storm could stay all night
So can you stay until we close our eyes
Til your dreams hold mine
Just stay until we know we tried one more time
Cause laughing lovers can overcome their closest demons
And they'll go on and they won't let go
They saw something that they know
Has never come so close
Can it stay here for us, for now?
Can it stay until we know ourselves?
I'm torn as I tell
You're the story that I know and fell from
I'm so far into your story I don't know why
We think we're in control
When we lie between the lines
We'll find a line to follow
It's got to show real soon
Or we'll never each this high
We climb a little further
Cause there's nothing we can't get around together
Further gets colder until nothing was all that I saw around
So we stay until the ground
That we can't come down from splits us away
Maybe stars know why we fall
I just wish they were thinking out loud
Oh, I could wish all night
- "Thousand Mile Wish" by Finger Eleven
'Wax on...wax off,' were Zell's mundane thoughts as he scrubbed the Garden car. It was tedious and boring work. But in his mind the punishment was well worth the crime. In fact, he'd still give his left leg for five minutes alone with Irvine. But thoughts of Irvine turned to thoughts of Selphie.
Zell had never felt such a mixture of love, jealousy, and anger in all his life. He was falling hard for Selphie. There was no other explanation for what he was feeling. The tingles when she was near, the jealousy he felt towards Irvine, and the burning desire he felt to kiss her and never stop kissing her. It was soaked through his entire being. It was an all consuming love.
Zell just couldn't figure out what took him so long to figure it out. Because in retrospect he had been in love with her since childhood. She was the constant in his life, the one who would always be there. He couldn't live without her and he didn't want to.
'Well, the first step is admitting the problem,' Zell thought. He didn't know where to go with his newly discovered feelings. He knew Selphie still loved Irvine. You can't just flip a switch and turn something like that off. But he also knew that Irvine had really screwed up by kissing that other girl. That may be the ultimate downfall in their relationship. Selphie may not be able to forgive Irvine for that. But even if their relationship came to an end, what's to say she would return Zell's love?
It was questions like these that made Zell not want to tell Selphie how he felt. He couldn't take it if she didn't return his feelings. It would crush Zell to lose his friendship with Selphie. It was all so confusing.
He just continued to scrub the car until he heard boots tapping behind him. He turned around to see Rinoa.
"Hi Zell," she said casually, but purposefully.
"Hey, Rinoa," he said, forcing a smile.
"Having fun?" she asked.
"Loads," Zell said with much sarcasm.
"Look, Zell, I wanted to talk to you about something," Rinoa started.
"I figured as much. What is it?" Zell said, turning back to his work and preparing to listen.
"It's just that...well, you and Selphie are two of my best friends, and the way you've been acting around her lately and the way you beat up Irvine...I just wanted to know..." Rinoa trailed off and Zell gave her a suspicious look.
"Do you have feelings for Selphie?" she asked finally.
Zell decided he would try to lie to Rinoa about his feelings, lest she tell Selphie.
"She's my best friend," he said in a nonchalant way.
"Yeah, I know...but are you, like, in love with her?" Rinoa asked. "It's okay. You can tell me."
Zell sighed. He wanted to tell someone so bad. Hell, he wanted to scream it from the top of the garden. He wanted to write it in the sky. He gave up fighting it.
"Yeah, I think I am in love with her. But look, Rinoa, you can't tell her anything -"Zell started, but was cut off.
"I won't tell her, but you have to," she said.
"I can't. She still loves Irvine and there's no way she'll feel that way about me anyway," he argued.
"Zell, she deserves to know. And I know Selphie. I've seen the way she's been looking at you lately. Irvine screwed up, but I think you've got a fighting chance. Who wouldn't want to be with their best friend? But you've gotta go after her. You can't wait for her to come to you," Rinoa said firmly.
"I know you're right, Rinoa. But I'm scared," Zell said timidly.
"I know, sweetie, but love's all about over coming your fears," she said, placing a hand on Zell's shoulder.
Zell nodded. Rinoa was right. And he knew what he had to do.
That's it! Sorry, it's so short, but I've gotta go to sleep. I'll try and update ASAP. Lemme know what ya think!
A/N: Yes, folks it's true! I'm not dead! I know I left this fic for a while, but that was because of some personal problems that were keeping me from writing fanfics. I don't plan on writing much more FF fanfiction because I'm more inclined to write original fiction now. But I will finish all the fics I started. So enjoy.
Forgive me if now I wear the face of worry
This time alone could never cause any doubt
But I've been cold too long
Such a strange time to find myself coming down as the rain
With all these holes my love,
To fill up from the middle
This storm could stay all night
So can you stay until we close our eyes
Til your dreams hold mine
Just stay until we know we tried one more time
Cause laughing lovers can overcome their closest demons
And they'll go on and they won't let go
They saw something that they know
Has never come so close
Can it stay here for us, for now?
Can it stay until we know ourselves?
I'm torn as I tell
You're the story that I know and fell from
I'm so far into your story I don't know why
We think we're in control
When we lie between the lines
We'll find a line to follow
It's got to show real soon
Or we'll never each this high
We climb a little further
Cause there's nothing we can't get around together
Further gets colder until nothing was all that I saw around
So we stay until the ground
That we can't come down from splits us away
Maybe stars know why we fall
I just wish they were thinking out loud
Oh, I could wish all night
- "Thousand Mile Wish" by Finger Eleven
'Wax on...wax off,' were Zell's mundane thoughts as he scrubbed the Garden car. It was tedious and boring work. But in his mind the punishment was well worth the crime. In fact, he'd still give his left leg for five minutes alone with Irvine. But thoughts of Irvine turned to thoughts of Selphie.
Zell had never felt such a mixture of love, jealousy, and anger in all his life. He was falling hard for Selphie. There was no other explanation for what he was feeling. The tingles when she was near, the jealousy he felt towards Irvine, and the burning desire he felt to kiss her and never stop kissing her. It was soaked through his entire being. It was an all consuming love.
Zell just couldn't figure out what took him so long to figure it out. Because in retrospect he had been in love with her since childhood. She was the constant in his life, the one who would always be there. He couldn't live without her and he didn't want to.
'Well, the first step is admitting the problem,' Zell thought. He didn't know where to go with his newly discovered feelings. He knew Selphie still loved Irvine. You can't just flip a switch and turn something like that off. But he also knew that Irvine had really screwed up by kissing that other girl. That may be the ultimate downfall in their relationship. Selphie may not be able to forgive Irvine for that. But even if their relationship came to an end, what's to say she would return Zell's love?
It was questions like these that made Zell not want to tell Selphie how he felt. He couldn't take it if she didn't return his feelings. It would crush Zell to lose his friendship with Selphie. It was all so confusing.
He just continued to scrub the car until he heard boots tapping behind him. He turned around to see Rinoa.
"Hi Zell," she said casually, but purposefully.
"Hey, Rinoa," he said, forcing a smile.
"Having fun?" she asked.
"Loads," Zell said with much sarcasm.
"Look, Zell, I wanted to talk to you about something," Rinoa started.
"I figured as much. What is it?" Zell said, turning back to his work and preparing to listen.
"It's just that...well, you and Selphie are two of my best friends, and the way you've been acting around her lately and the way you beat up Irvine...I just wanted to know..." Rinoa trailed off and Zell gave her a suspicious look.
"Do you have feelings for Selphie?" she asked finally.
Zell decided he would try to lie to Rinoa about his feelings, lest she tell Selphie.
"She's my best friend," he said in a nonchalant way.
"Yeah, I know...but are you, like, in love with her?" Rinoa asked. "It's okay. You can tell me."
Zell sighed. He wanted to tell someone so bad. Hell, he wanted to scream it from the top of the garden. He wanted to write it in the sky. He gave up fighting it.
"Yeah, I think I am in love with her. But look, Rinoa, you can't tell her anything -"Zell started, but was cut off.
"I won't tell her, but you have to," she said.
"I can't. She still loves Irvine and there's no way she'll feel that way about me anyway," he argued.
"Zell, she deserves to know. And I know Selphie. I've seen the way she's been looking at you lately. Irvine screwed up, but I think you've got a fighting chance. Who wouldn't want to be with their best friend? But you've gotta go after her. You can't wait for her to come to you," Rinoa said firmly.
"I know you're right, Rinoa. But I'm scared," Zell said timidly.
"I know, sweetie, but love's all about over coming your fears," she said, placing a hand on Zell's shoulder.
Zell nodded. Rinoa was right. And he knew what he had to do.
That's it! Sorry, it's so short, but I've gotta go to sleep. I'll try and update ASAP. Lemme know what ya think!
