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Title:
Endless
Anime: Hikaru no Go
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Akira/Hikaru slight implied Hikaru/Sai
Author: Fuji S. Yuki
Have ever hear a song that makes you want to walk in circles?
Have you ever wanted to just wanted to spin around so quickly that you become light headed and just fall down?
The boy stood at a field full of flowers, the stalks weave back and forth in greeting. While the wind of Zephyr dance around gleefully with playful intent; exuberant; happy, and perhaps mischievous wanting to be everywhere at once.
It took him a while, but he finally found it, a place that had lay barren for a while. Normally land in Japan was scarce and hard to come by. The population was growing and pretty soon even the most sacred grounds would disappear. However, in this field of grass and flowers, lay the final resting place of his friend. Sai.
Perhaps it was fated that he would find this place. Maybe it was destiny that called to him to finally find the place where his friend had ended his life. The secrets that Sai held were laid to rest, he didn't really know the reason behind why the other killed himself, and yet he did vaguely. Though those secrets were personal and belong only to the spirit that had influenced his life greatly.
Breathing in the air, he gaze outward from the field of flowers toward the watery lake the glistening sapphire pools that reminded him of his dear friend. A nymph full of vitality and serenity, he did not know if the body of his friend had been found back then. Let alone if it still resided at the bottom of the lake. All he knew was that Sai was here before and he felt connected. No cobblestone let alone sign were left in place to let other's know this was where his friend had died. Yet, the feeling of his presence was strong here the finally place where he drown in bitterness and grief that he would no longer be able to play go.
Sometimes, perhaps the addiction to the game would draw anyone into the folds of hell if they were denied the one precious thing they held. Hikaru could understand this now, for Go was a part of his life now, it was part of his livelihood just like it once was for Sai. It was a friend that held a deepest set of meaning to him bonded in the extremist sense.
It wasn't just the game he sense, but what came with it, the ability to meet more rivals to play at your fullest ability. The drive the planning the seeing, almost like you were a god guessing seeing which moves that your opponent is going to use and plotting to deploy the moves to your own will. This was the secret toward the hand of god; it was the first step in the direction toward that ultimate move that would change the Go world.
This was what Sai was searching for, it was the artful play that was dimensional, it was creating a universe on a simple board with stones as the planets, stars, and solar systems crescent with galaxies. To obtain the move that would be the masterpiece and good enough to defend and defeat all in Go. To achieve the potential and sit on top of the world like a God. This was the key play to the game; the thing that was sought by many that wanted to play that competed that had higher competition to achieve not just the title, but also the steps closer to what they wanted.
Each step toward the right direction, toward the final destination-the Hand of God.
Hikaru smiled after staring out at the waters, he was glad that he saw this place, he was glad that he was starting to understand many things. Another step toward the greatness that was named into him, with his Sai next to him, he would continue on his journey. Just like Sai has done when he played Go.
A hand touched his shoulder making him jerk out of his thoughts. "Aa…Touya."
It has been three years later, since that day at the temple when Touya Akira had learned a few more pieces to the puzzle that he held. The journey was long true, and it had its bumps and rough edges along the way. "Did you find what your looking for Shindou-kun?"
Even after all these years both boys now teens had been together fought, laugh, yelled, shouted, and even play so many games while standing side by side. They had been rivals and now lovers, since the discovery of something more precious. Both had grown quickly and taller, and their physical attribute had filled out, but still both remain slim.
"Aa—I have." Hikaru smiles, "Thank you for your help."
A faint flush highlighted the high cheekbones of the other, black/green hair sway from the playful fingers of zephyrs fingers. "I didn't do much." Pleased when arms wrapped around him in a hug, while a chaste kiss landed on his mouth.
"You let me have closure to something's that I sought. Even though I haven't told you everything about me and—" Hikaru never finished those words when soft firm lips pressed against his own in a hush.
Bright light orbs of spearmint green glazed into Hikaru's. Understanding lurks in the depths. "If you're not ready then don't say anymore. I can wait for you to tell me everything."
It had been many steps for Akira to learn to be patient with his rival and love. Even after so many hot heated fights over the Go board, and the passionate love they had made when they become lovers. He had grown up with the patience that had to do with Hikaru; it was only in the privacy of their bedroom that he would whisper the other's name and the same with the other.
The journey for the boys weren't exactly easy; both were in a relationship that could be seen as something wrong. Two males in love with each other wasn't exactly accepted in society, even though the world was changing.
Akira had been slightly shy and perhaps anxious when he had informed his father of his relationship with Hikaru. It was three days of silence from his father before the other spoke to him seriously about what he was getting himself into. After careful discussion Akira was a bit surprised to discover that his father gave his blessing and that he was fine with it though he did heavily inform Akira that he would like assurance that he would get grand children later on. A bit too much for the young boy to swallow, but he had said thank you and left, after saying that he was a bit to young to think about kids.
Which in a way was quite true, but things were working out both boys had move in together, when they wanted a bit more privacy of their own. Which was better for Hikaru since his mother was a bit unhappy with the young boys choice. It was later on however, that she had relented and given in, stating that it was Hikaru's life. Beside he never did accept anything she had said, whether it had to do with school, or even becoming a pro in Go.
Yet, there still was a heavy cloud that resided in the household that was suffocating Hikaru. It was then he decided to move into his own place, he had enough money saved up from playing Go. Though when he told Akira, the other had inform him that he would move in and pay for half of the rent, after all it was partly his fault that Hikaru had been in such a slump with his family. Even though the other boy had protested that it wasn't that at all for he was happy that they were together.
It had been three months since they had move in together, even though they had their lover quarrels, they were content with where they were at in life, and that was being together.
Hikaru pulled back and brush the dark green locks back with faint smile, "Arigato." He lean his head and pressed it against the other's forehead. "It's still too soon for me, but I feel." He breathes in the air around him, "At peace."
"I wanted you to find that peace. I hope finding this place would be enough for you." Akira admitted while looking around, "I still don't get your obsession with someone from the history of Go, but at least your happy." He had seen Hikaru search through history book after history book on the Go world all for one historical person.
Curiously, Akira had informed Hikaru that he had a couple of old historical books that weren't made to the public. Since his father had a collection of books on the history of go that wasn't exactly available toward public. It also wasn't something that was reprinted and really should belong to a historical museum, but Touya Meijin had been an individual that enjoyed old items, he was a private buyer in some auctions on Go artifacts and books with some kifa. These items were in the study room, where Touya Meijin and his son played against each other.
After requesting his father if he could let Hikaru look at the items, the older man had agreed as long as the younger boy didn't do any damage. So a couple of days Akira and Hikaru went through the historical books, until Hikaru had stumbled onto an entry about his friend. He read on and discovered the last sighting. It didn't take long for them to find a lake for where Sai had drowned himself, and here they were standing in this very place.
"It has—" Hikaru looks at the sky then latched his hand onto the other, "Come on lets go back home and eat some dinner."
"Hai." Akira grins widely, noticing the good mood his boyfriend was in.
An iris flower waved back and forth saying good-bye to the teens as they ran back to the taxi that was waiting for them. Zephyrs had quickly flown by the little flower brushing past it, while carrying a whisper of a word from the flower toward the edge of the plain.
'Arigato for finding me.'
A drop of water cascaded down the petals of the iris onto the ground.
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Their journey was indeed rough on the two boys. Touya Meijin mused while watching the two teens play Go in his library. It had become a custom for them to now play part of the time in the Touya household, since last time the manager of the Go Salon had kicked them out for causing a ruckus and scaring away the players.
So in turn the two had instead decided to play go at the main house of Touya Meijin and while they were at it check out some more of the treasure that the older man had collected.
Touya Meijin had known about the two boys relationship. He had a faint clue as to when it had started, in a way he had accepted it. Even though he admit that he was quite traditional due to his up bringing and wouldn't have accepted it easily if it weren't for the fact he didn't have much time left in this world. However, that wasn't the only reason why he had accepted Akira's relationship with Hikaru, his love for his son was another thing.
Ever since Akira was small the Meijin had always held a deep relationship with him. They had no secrets from one another, he didn't want to rule his son in fear let alone harm him. Akira was his pride and joy and since the heart attack he knew that his time was becoming short and pretty soon he would fade away from this world.
It took three days for him to think about the situation of what was going on and later on agree that it would be best for his son to decide. If Akira loved Shindou Hikaru that much and was happy with him, then let him be, besides if he had fought with Akira he might have lost the one thing that he treasured in the world. He didn't want that at all.
Touya Meijin knew that sometimes it was better to accept things and to let things go. After all it would be childish to be so closed minded to create a discord in his relationship with his son, whom seems happy.
Perhaps it should have been obvious when his son had felt such a deep love for the other. It had started when his son had found the other fascinating so much, he had never though his son would take an interest in another. Then when he had met the other boy he knew as to why his son couldn't let go.
Surely his son had thought it was a rivalry between him and Shindou Hikaru, however in truth it was more then that. The attraction the flare of fighting and debating when it came over go, the sexual tension in the room, whenever he walked into one of their spats. It should have been obvious, but he was blind until his son had later on told him that he and Shindou were together now.
Indeed he could see it now, as pieces fell together as to why his son was in love with the other. Shindou Hikaru was a individual that held a drive, a large presences that couldn't be ignored, he was naive, innocent, and yet he was something to be reckon with. His fondness for Akira's chosen one was growing bit by bit. From the concern the boy had displayed when he went to the hospital and arranging for him to play Sai. Yes it had been worth it, every minute of it, when he put his wits against the phantom player.
Yet, he could recognize the way that other had played, it was similar to the moves that Akira's chosen one had used, and yet it wasn't, but it was all there. The Meijin closed his eyes while continue to watch the two teens play, they were growing up his baby and his mate. They had been together for so long that it was hard to see them without the other, and it made his heart full to know that when he would be gone that Akira wouldn't be alone in the world.
The Meijin was glad; he still hasn't brought up the subject of grandchildren yet with his son or his mate. However, he would do so soon so that way he could make sure that his line and maybe Shindou's would be continued on. Both of these teens were young true, but they were also only children in both families. He had already set up some trust funds for a procedure he had discovered to create children for the two, if they should find it time to have children. He knew that his wife would support the two teens decision, she of course had been supportive of the whole issue, which wasn't really odd. Since his wife's brother was in a male-to-male relationship. It was a close topic and the world was not privy to the facts, which was fine with the family. Yet the Meijin wondered if this would also be the way both teens had to go around things, if they were to have children it would be odd, truly but it would be all right in the end. The world was changing every second and nothing could stop it, just like how an old era was coming to an end where as a new era was coming to a beginning. That was the way it should be, tilting his head back he raised an eyebrow when he noticed the stiffening shoulders of his son. He wasn't surprised when things started up again. It always happens whenever the two were together and discussing the end of a game.
"You made that mistake again I told you several times to correct it!" Akira's voice shrilled out loud in the room, it had been already two weeks since they had come back from the lake.
Hikaru glared back, "Well who was the one that didn't defend in this spot right here?" While standing up and leaning over the board, "Besides I was only 1 moku behind you."
"Ha! One moku is like five steps backward!" Akira shot back.
Touya Meijin stood up and walked out of the door, just when he knew that the fight was heating up. Sliding the shouji shut he stood at the side in the hallway and listened for what would be coming next.
"Well I won last time so what is your point?" Hikaru's voice slid through the paper screen.
"You still making that mistake! So stop it!!!" Akira shrilled, "Why can't you just listen to me and make the correction? It isn't that hard!"
"You said that for three times already." Hikaru gripped against the other.
"I just want you to stop making that—" Akira's voice was interrupted when sounds of clattered of board and pieces of go pieces were heard and muffled voices while ruffling of cloth was later on heard through the door. Then heavy pants were what the Meijin heard in faint amusement.
Hikaru's hoarse voice came through the doorway, "Next time, lets stay at home instead—" Pieces of Go were heard being recollected and dumped, then the shouji slid open to reveal two disheveled teens. By his observant eye, he noticed that their hairs were ruffled and their faces were flushed red.
"We're going home Otou-san." Akira blushed even redder, when he noticed the amusement that lurked in the depth of his father's eyes. His puffy lips were pressed together as he ducked his head in embarrassment.
A brash smile tilted upward more on Hikaru's face, as he waved his hand, "See you next time." Then dragged his boyfriend away without a hitch. The door to the outside slid shut and a faint twitch in the Meijin's face was seen.
His wife pass by curiously, "Ara did something happen?"
"Not really." The Meijin wrapped his arm around her and kiss her on the cheek.
