*Sorry for the confusing events in this story, the kiss in chapter 3 really
did happen but the flashbacks in the intro to ch.4 somewhat happened in
their past, things that happened in their past that made Lana think about
something more of her friendship with Clark. This next chapter is their
reality, this is actually chapter 4 the real continuation of chapter 3.
Thanks for the reviews and for the inspirations that keep on coming that
motivates me to keep on going. =D By the way, another Filipino artist named
King revived the song entitled "Maybe" that I used in the mid part of the
story (just some phrases from the song). (After hearing the song I thought
I had found the appropriate emotion that I want Lana to feel for this
particular chapter.) I hope you still enjoy reading it!!! God bless!
Chapter 4
*The night was filled with a lot of emotion, forcing its way inside me, leaving me weightless like an air balloon, I'm like bouncing from cloud to cloud taking me higher and higher. I closed my eyes half expecting the moment to be gone coz I can't bear the heights that I saw underneath my feet.
But as I open my eyes I'll find myself in your arms holding me so close and tender. Your soothing touch has taken my breath away. As if I'm about to burst any minute after feeling your lips on my own. That moment I spent with you - I just wish it didn't end so fast so we could stay that way forever. Hmmm, I didn't know how it felt elated to be in love.
*Maybe in some way he felt it too, the electricity that holds us together, the thrill that spiced up that endearing moment we just shared. Maybe in some time we could be together, everything is just perfect! There will be no complications between us, maybe - just maybe. she mumbles to herself, as she passed out.
*** "Clark - " Lana's face was slightly shocked after finding Clark on their front door. He smiled to her like she was the last person he wanted to see. "Hi" his eyes glistens like the stars in the sky the moment his eyes found hers.
"What are you doing here? I - I mean it's kind of late, and we still have classes tomorrow." Her voice tensed. "I'm sorry for being here so late." He looked down for some time and faced her again; his eyes were like pleading for her to talk to him.
"I just find it hard to look at you descending my loft without even knowing what I just felt the moment we touched -" He said without breaking the eye contact. A stunned Lana practically dropped her jaw in surprised. *Is this really happening? He gently reached for her both hands and placed it in his chest, arranging every finger firmly, letting her feel his heart beat. His heart beats even faster the moment she touched his heart.
"I don't know what has gotten to me, I know I've made a fool out of myself during the times I'm driving you away." He left her hands in his chest as he reached for her face. He caressed her face softly with his right thumb; she shivered in his touch but sent soothing feeling through her.
"I know I've been so unfair to you and cared less, I never treated you like a best fiend but you're always there for me -." As she was about to utter a word to contradict what he said he seized her lips in his. She gave in for the kiss for some time but suddenly pull away from his touch. "So, what do you mean by that?" She turned her back from him, too embarrassed to verbalize what they had just shared. She crossed her arms in front of her; her voice sounded a little cold so as not to make her feelings so obvious to him. *I think I should play hard to get first so he won't think that I'm so into him.
He came up to her, as his chest brushed her back she felt an instant thrill of electricity down to her spine. Putting his arms around her waist prompted her to turn around finding her face inches from him. Each could already smell each other's adorable scent, the mint of each other's toothpaste on their mouth, and the passion that was about to unfold.
Clark savors the moment for a while, "I'm not letting you go this time." His voice turned husky. As they gaze to each other's eyes deeply, they inch closer and closer until -. ***
"Lana, wake up!" a familiar voice called "You're late for school, young lady." She blinked her eyes, hoping that the voice was just a dream and the scene was reality. But -. "Wake up! Wake up!" Aunt Nell shook her a little "I'm growing to be irritated with you Lana, what have you been doing all night that hardens you to get up from bed." Realizing that the voice is the reality she felt slightly disappointed. But after thinking that she will see Clark today, and all the hopes between them, she eagerly went out of bed. Nell practically pushed her into the bathroom but noticed a wide grin plastered on her face. "Hey? Are you ok Lana?" she asked in bewilderment. "Never better." She smiled sweetly to her aunt. "Whatever!" rolling her eyes, she went out her room wondering.
Students are walking to and fro the halls of Smallville high as classes were about to start any minute. Though a multitude has covered Lana's path she never fail to see the one who really stands out from her crowd. Clark Kent.
Clark's carrying a lot of books that day but his face suddenly lightens up when he saw Lana from the crowd. "Lana, glad I've seen you, you are the last person I really wanted to see early in the morning, I want to thank you for last night," his mood change a bit after mentioning last night but he chose to continue, "- and I don't want the day to get started without you knowing the good news."
"What good news?" *this is it! She slightly giggled at the thought.
"The thing is I'm really happy that you help me -" *and you got me thinking too, but that's shouldn't be the point here. Clark thought for a moment. "You see if Pete can help you in those matters, I can too." She interrupted defensively, afraid that Clark might think that she just planned it all along. "No, it gave me confidence." Suddenly her paranoid argument between herself stopped by his use of words, "Confidence?" "Yeah confidence. Confidence to ask Chloe out for a date!" he gleefully said. "Sullivan? Torch editor in chief? Uh sorry, I don't know that you were into her type." She faintly said, as her face drops down.
"Why, is she your type?" he teased after seeing the look in her face. "Of course not! I just can't believe it, what did she tell you?" *I really can't believe it, after last night he forgot everything about me, the kiss, the gaze, the touch, everything is gone. I thought you will bring me to your palace like I was your princess, we'll gaze into each other's eyes as if we are the only people in the world, you promised everything to me, but you just let the wind take my dreams away. Of course, none of these things came from you; it was only my stupid dream and I.
"So Lana, you coming?" he cut her thoughts and brought her back to him. "What?" "Pete and his date actually invited us over, Chloe I mean." "Don't you see it Clark it's a double date, why do you want me to be there too, do you really want me look like a total fool." Her voice sounds irritated as she walk towards her locker.
"Lana, I never meant it that way." He followed her through the crowd to her locker. "Seriously!" flaunting his puppy-like eyes "I want you to be there because you're my best friend and I trust you, you see Chloe and I are still in the building-a-friendship process, the getting-to-know you type, unlike us -" she stopped upon hearing this. "Really, unlike us. I trust you ever since, I've even shared everything 'bout myself with you, the part that I haven't shared with anyone else even my parents, I really want you to be there Lana, because you gave me confidence, and I know the fact that you're there I won't be off track."
His words was so persuading that she can't even utter a word to describe her feeling at the moment, their friendship was way important to him than giving a chance on something else, on one point she thought maybe it's far better to let go of the love and just remain friends with him, because she doesn't want to lose him in one-way or another. *I wish this were much easier than I thought it would be. He values our friendship a lot rather than giving chance on love, the fact that he doesn't feel anything for me hurts me even more. But what can I do, I can't force him to love me. She gave a sad look at the thought.
"Hey Lana, you dreaming again?" she saw Clark's eager face *He's really expecting me to come, I really don't want to hurt myself but I hate to turn him down.
"Ok." She replied weakly as soon as the bell rang, Clark didn't hear the sad tune on her voice because of the boisterous sound of the bell. He turned around flashing an appreciative smile as he disappears in the crowd. She was left alone and hurting.
(There I was, waiting for a chance, hoping that you'll understand, the things I wanna say. As my love went stronger than before, I wanna see you more and more, but you closed your door, why don't you try to open up your heart, I won't take so much of your time)
*Why does it have to be this way? I never wished something like this; I never knew that falling in love with your best friend could be this tragic. She's driving him crazy and here I am going crazy over him, without him knowing it.
(Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too, 'coz I know you'll never do, somebody else is waiting there inside for you. Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day, 'coz I know she's here to stay. But my love is strong I don't know if this is wrong, but I know to whom you should belong)
*I know I don't have the right to tell you about this feeling it would be so unfair. But what if I tell you? How would you react to it? Will you still be my best friend? Or shut me down and never talk to me again. Well, I just want to know. Coz you know what? I think we really belong together.
After their last period Clark went to the Torch office looking for some blonde editor in chief, he found her sitting next to a computer screen. "Hi!" the boy smiled coyly. "Well hello Clark, I've never seen you since this morning." Chloe responded her face still half hidden by the computer screen. "Well, I got tons of school work today - actually I just drop by to ask you if you want to go for a snack and have a break because you looked really tired." "I think you're right, I just thought you're excited about the date!" she said teasingly as they headed out of the Torch office. "The truth, I am! Umm, would you mind if I ask Lana to come with us?" After hearing this she felt a bit uneasy "Of course not! She's your friend right? You two seem very close?" "Yeah, we really are. Lana and I grew up together, we're actually best friends!" "Well, I never saw it that way - I mean, I thought it's more than that." The words snapped him like a bomb so he wasn't able to respond right away.
"What? Uh, well - that is certainly inappropriate!" his voice still a bit shocked turning to be confused. "Why so? She's a girl and you're a boy." She raised her eyebrows in surprised. "No, I don't see her that way." he stated firmly erasing every doubt he had in mind as he led her to the driveway. "Ok." She gave him a sly look as she enters the seat to Clark's truck. "Sometimes the right person can be right in front of your eyes."
After school Lana headed straight home, kicked her shoes off, throw her books on the floor, and plunge herself to her bed, while hot tears stinging down her cheeks. She really didn't want to go. Hearing his news was bad enough; going out with them would be a torture. *What can I do? Reality won't let me choose my destiny.
She felt very despondent. She lies down on her back facing the ceiling; she hated Clark for getting her into this, for making her suffer all the time with even knowing. But the truth she couldn't really hate him, he was too persuasive, the fact that she doesn't have the ability to resist him gave him the chance to take advantage.
She was on the verge of breaking down until her alter ego thought of a counter attack. *If things won't go exactly the way you want it to be, why don't you compromise a little? Sure it was hurtful to see them together having a good time but maybe this is the time you've been waiting for to prove yourself. Show the world what you got! And you'll see Clark, like a lovesick puppy chasing you around begging you to be his girl. He'll feel the same agony you're feeling right now, he'll be sorry for doing this to you. And you'll see; you'll still have the last laugh.
But, wait - can I really do that to Clark? Can I really hurt him? I know it wasn't his fault if he loves someone instead of me. Part of me wants to rebel and make Clark suffer for what he's doing to me, but there's something inside me that keeps on reminding me that love is patient and kind, it doesn't rejoice in doing evil. I guess loving someone that you can't you be with needs a lot of sacrifices.
*I made up my mind; I'm going. Whatever happens; I'll support him even if my happiness is at stake. I'm going to prove to myself that I can be at my best even without the forces of hatred, bitterness, and revenge. If I were meant to love him in silence, I would gladly accept it, because in silence he would be with me. If you'll only believe Clark, you too might be overjoyed.
*Thanks for reading! Some phrases from the songs like Why don't you and I by Santana and Overjoyed by Stevie Wonder (Again! I guess this song inspires me a lot, coz I'm listening to it while doing this) are used in this chapter, just figure them out. =D
Chapter 4
*The night was filled with a lot of emotion, forcing its way inside me, leaving me weightless like an air balloon, I'm like bouncing from cloud to cloud taking me higher and higher. I closed my eyes half expecting the moment to be gone coz I can't bear the heights that I saw underneath my feet.
But as I open my eyes I'll find myself in your arms holding me so close and tender. Your soothing touch has taken my breath away. As if I'm about to burst any minute after feeling your lips on my own. That moment I spent with you - I just wish it didn't end so fast so we could stay that way forever. Hmmm, I didn't know how it felt elated to be in love.
*Maybe in some way he felt it too, the electricity that holds us together, the thrill that spiced up that endearing moment we just shared. Maybe in some time we could be together, everything is just perfect! There will be no complications between us, maybe - just maybe. she mumbles to herself, as she passed out.
*** "Clark - " Lana's face was slightly shocked after finding Clark on their front door. He smiled to her like she was the last person he wanted to see. "Hi" his eyes glistens like the stars in the sky the moment his eyes found hers.
"What are you doing here? I - I mean it's kind of late, and we still have classes tomorrow." Her voice tensed. "I'm sorry for being here so late." He looked down for some time and faced her again; his eyes were like pleading for her to talk to him.
"I just find it hard to look at you descending my loft without even knowing what I just felt the moment we touched -" He said without breaking the eye contact. A stunned Lana practically dropped her jaw in surprised. *Is this really happening? He gently reached for her both hands and placed it in his chest, arranging every finger firmly, letting her feel his heart beat. His heart beats even faster the moment she touched his heart.
"I don't know what has gotten to me, I know I've made a fool out of myself during the times I'm driving you away." He left her hands in his chest as he reached for her face. He caressed her face softly with his right thumb; she shivered in his touch but sent soothing feeling through her.
"I know I've been so unfair to you and cared less, I never treated you like a best fiend but you're always there for me -." As she was about to utter a word to contradict what he said he seized her lips in his. She gave in for the kiss for some time but suddenly pull away from his touch. "So, what do you mean by that?" She turned her back from him, too embarrassed to verbalize what they had just shared. She crossed her arms in front of her; her voice sounded a little cold so as not to make her feelings so obvious to him. *I think I should play hard to get first so he won't think that I'm so into him.
He came up to her, as his chest brushed her back she felt an instant thrill of electricity down to her spine. Putting his arms around her waist prompted her to turn around finding her face inches from him. Each could already smell each other's adorable scent, the mint of each other's toothpaste on their mouth, and the passion that was about to unfold.
Clark savors the moment for a while, "I'm not letting you go this time." His voice turned husky. As they gaze to each other's eyes deeply, they inch closer and closer until -. ***
"Lana, wake up!" a familiar voice called "You're late for school, young lady." She blinked her eyes, hoping that the voice was just a dream and the scene was reality. But -. "Wake up! Wake up!" Aunt Nell shook her a little "I'm growing to be irritated with you Lana, what have you been doing all night that hardens you to get up from bed." Realizing that the voice is the reality she felt slightly disappointed. But after thinking that she will see Clark today, and all the hopes between them, she eagerly went out of bed. Nell practically pushed her into the bathroom but noticed a wide grin plastered on her face. "Hey? Are you ok Lana?" she asked in bewilderment. "Never better." She smiled sweetly to her aunt. "Whatever!" rolling her eyes, she went out her room wondering.
Students are walking to and fro the halls of Smallville high as classes were about to start any minute. Though a multitude has covered Lana's path she never fail to see the one who really stands out from her crowd. Clark Kent.
Clark's carrying a lot of books that day but his face suddenly lightens up when he saw Lana from the crowd. "Lana, glad I've seen you, you are the last person I really wanted to see early in the morning, I want to thank you for last night," his mood change a bit after mentioning last night but he chose to continue, "- and I don't want the day to get started without you knowing the good news."
"What good news?" *this is it! She slightly giggled at the thought.
"The thing is I'm really happy that you help me -" *and you got me thinking too, but that's shouldn't be the point here. Clark thought for a moment. "You see if Pete can help you in those matters, I can too." She interrupted defensively, afraid that Clark might think that she just planned it all along. "No, it gave me confidence." Suddenly her paranoid argument between herself stopped by his use of words, "Confidence?" "Yeah confidence. Confidence to ask Chloe out for a date!" he gleefully said. "Sullivan? Torch editor in chief? Uh sorry, I don't know that you were into her type." She faintly said, as her face drops down.
"Why, is she your type?" he teased after seeing the look in her face. "Of course not! I just can't believe it, what did she tell you?" *I really can't believe it, after last night he forgot everything about me, the kiss, the gaze, the touch, everything is gone. I thought you will bring me to your palace like I was your princess, we'll gaze into each other's eyes as if we are the only people in the world, you promised everything to me, but you just let the wind take my dreams away. Of course, none of these things came from you; it was only my stupid dream and I.
"So Lana, you coming?" he cut her thoughts and brought her back to him. "What?" "Pete and his date actually invited us over, Chloe I mean." "Don't you see it Clark it's a double date, why do you want me to be there too, do you really want me look like a total fool." Her voice sounds irritated as she walk towards her locker.
"Lana, I never meant it that way." He followed her through the crowd to her locker. "Seriously!" flaunting his puppy-like eyes "I want you to be there because you're my best friend and I trust you, you see Chloe and I are still in the building-a-friendship process, the getting-to-know you type, unlike us -" she stopped upon hearing this. "Really, unlike us. I trust you ever since, I've even shared everything 'bout myself with you, the part that I haven't shared with anyone else even my parents, I really want you to be there Lana, because you gave me confidence, and I know the fact that you're there I won't be off track."
His words was so persuading that she can't even utter a word to describe her feeling at the moment, their friendship was way important to him than giving a chance on something else, on one point she thought maybe it's far better to let go of the love and just remain friends with him, because she doesn't want to lose him in one-way or another. *I wish this were much easier than I thought it would be. He values our friendship a lot rather than giving chance on love, the fact that he doesn't feel anything for me hurts me even more. But what can I do, I can't force him to love me. She gave a sad look at the thought.
"Hey Lana, you dreaming again?" she saw Clark's eager face *He's really expecting me to come, I really don't want to hurt myself but I hate to turn him down.
"Ok." She replied weakly as soon as the bell rang, Clark didn't hear the sad tune on her voice because of the boisterous sound of the bell. He turned around flashing an appreciative smile as he disappears in the crowd. She was left alone and hurting.
(There I was, waiting for a chance, hoping that you'll understand, the things I wanna say. As my love went stronger than before, I wanna see you more and more, but you closed your door, why don't you try to open up your heart, I won't take so much of your time)
*Why does it have to be this way? I never wished something like this; I never knew that falling in love with your best friend could be this tragic. She's driving him crazy and here I am going crazy over him, without him knowing it.
(Maybe, it's wrong to say please love me too, 'coz I know you'll never do, somebody else is waiting there inside for you. Maybe it's wrong to love you more each day, 'coz I know she's here to stay. But my love is strong I don't know if this is wrong, but I know to whom you should belong)
*I know I don't have the right to tell you about this feeling it would be so unfair. But what if I tell you? How would you react to it? Will you still be my best friend? Or shut me down and never talk to me again. Well, I just want to know. Coz you know what? I think we really belong together.
After their last period Clark went to the Torch office looking for some blonde editor in chief, he found her sitting next to a computer screen. "Hi!" the boy smiled coyly. "Well hello Clark, I've never seen you since this morning." Chloe responded her face still half hidden by the computer screen. "Well, I got tons of school work today - actually I just drop by to ask you if you want to go for a snack and have a break because you looked really tired." "I think you're right, I just thought you're excited about the date!" she said teasingly as they headed out of the Torch office. "The truth, I am! Umm, would you mind if I ask Lana to come with us?" After hearing this she felt a bit uneasy "Of course not! She's your friend right? You two seem very close?" "Yeah, we really are. Lana and I grew up together, we're actually best friends!" "Well, I never saw it that way - I mean, I thought it's more than that." The words snapped him like a bomb so he wasn't able to respond right away.
"What? Uh, well - that is certainly inappropriate!" his voice still a bit shocked turning to be confused. "Why so? She's a girl and you're a boy." She raised her eyebrows in surprised. "No, I don't see her that way." he stated firmly erasing every doubt he had in mind as he led her to the driveway. "Ok." She gave him a sly look as she enters the seat to Clark's truck. "Sometimes the right person can be right in front of your eyes."
After school Lana headed straight home, kicked her shoes off, throw her books on the floor, and plunge herself to her bed, while hot tears stinging down her cheeks. She really didn't want to go. Hearing his news was bad enough; going out with them would be a torture. *What can I do? Reality won't let me choose my destiny.
She felt very despondent. She lies down on her back facing the ceiling; she hated Clark for getting her into this, for making her suffer all the time with even knowing. But the truth she couldn't really hate him, he was too persuasive, the fact that she doesn't have the ability to resist him gave him the chance to take advantage.
She was on the verge of breaking down until her alter ego thought of a counter attack. *If things won't go exactly the way you want it to be, why don't you compromise a little? Sure it was hurtful to see them together having a good time but maybe this is the time you've been waiting for to prove yourself. Show the world what you got! And you'll see Clark, like a lovesick puppy chasing you around begging you to be his girl. He'll feel the same agony you're feeling right now, he'll be sorry for doing this to you. And you'll see; you'll still have the last laugh.
But, wait - can I really do that to Clark? Can I really hurt him? I know it wasn't his fault if he loves someone instead of me. Part of me wants to rebel and make Clark suffer for what he's doing to me, but there's something inside me that keeps on reminding me that love is patient and kind, it doesn't rejoice in doing evil. I guess loving someone that you can't you be with needs a lot of sacrifices.
*I made up my mind; I'm going. Whatever happens; I'll support him even if my happiness is at stake. I'm going to prove to myself that I can be at my best even without the forces of hatred, bitterness, and revenge. If I were meant to love him in silence, I would gladly accept it, because in silence he would be with me. If you'll only believe Clark, you too might be overjoyed.
*Thanks for reading! Some phrases from the songs like Why don't you and I by Santana and Overjoyed by Stevie Wonder (Again! I guess this song inspires me a lot, coz I'm listening to it while doing this) are used in this chapter, just figure them out. =D
