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Now, while your reviews (spice of life, drowchild, beena-pani) really made me feel good about my last chapter, this one (chapter I mean) put me the hell down. First of all, I can't seem to be able to think up something without swears. Which really annoys me. And you gotta understand that I do not, but I mean Do Not control this story. It just comes out from the mood I'm in. And well.ya selfexplairy.

Now.

WARNING!!!! Character dissing here! Beware of the will of the Word processer! But I really come on on characters in this chapter, so I apologise if I make any of you sad, but come on. Caveman and X-ray? Wayyyyyy down in my respect. And this is ZIGZAGS THOUGHTS not mine. Just in case anybody hated me for this. And I really hate this fic. I despise it. But since some of you (for a reason known only by the review button) like it, I will write the last chapter. Expect it before the weekend.

And I'm not fishing for compliments, I'm very proud of Fire and White, I just feel bad that I couldn't finish the trilogy properly. In here Zig is getting very.bitter? Ya thats the word. Bitter. He might get better.but warning! I'm seriously thinking of ending this with an AU. (alternate universe) because I just really dont want him getting out. Way to much writing material in that for one chapter. So yeah, be prepared for that possibility :)

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It's getting worse.

Everything I mean.

The urge to see fire.it's incomprehensible to most people.

And the insane fears to.same for the need to do, in appearence, inane things.

The fears.I can deal.

It's easy.

You just lie to yourself.

I say, well a meteorit can simply not fall on us for the simple reason that we are in a desert.

Sounds like it lacks any remote sense?

Well ya, so do I, but my subconscious seems to beleive it.

Good for it.

I don't really give a damn about my inner self.

It is, after all, the little bitch that got me into this hell hole.

God I've gotten vulgar.must be all the guys like.that here.

By that I mean that actually have the right to be miserable.

That have a decent reason to be in this place.

That didn't just dream something up for attention.

Just for attention.can it really be why I did it?

It's what the counselor says.

He's probably right.like the doctors were.

No.

Don't think about that.

It was.four months ago.

And I that match. in my second month here.

March.

How joyfull.

Really.

Right now.I must admit I'm not to badly off.

Sure I have nightmares, but the boys don't notice me wake up in white panic, theyre to busy asking The human fish about his « allergies »

I mean come on!

Can't he suck it up?

Sigh.

I can't allow myself to think like that.

He is allowed to feel guilty.

He is allowed to be sad.

I aint.

Because I'm here because of only one person.

Myself.

Not my whatever-that-fat-moron-said great-whatever-grandfather.

Gee, did he really find himself funny?

I suppose he did.

As the other boys did.

They're all so imature.and ironicly enough, they all lived through more than me.

Though.being wrongfully acused of being insane, by your own father on top of that, its not anything.

It's not normal.

But I'm not telling them that.

I mean, our all-mighty boss would down me, with the agreement of everybody else to!

X-ray.

Ugh.

Stupid nickname. Everybody knows he's just some loser who bumed out of school and took his own drug while reselling aspirin.

And that nickname idea.

Who in the hell of a world, would think of something moronic like that!

I mean, come on!

Get a life, XXXXX-Ray!

And actually, now that I think of it, all of the boys here are pretty pathetic.

There's Armpit, who for christ's bloody sake doesn't even wash and badtrips on « fishies »!

There's Caveman, who is just some loser who didn't even do his crime.

You'd think that would make him more sympathic to me.

Wrong.

He stole my right to selfpity.

And he annoys me.

To no end.

Wannabes like him.they should just burn in heaven.

And Squid.

Well, he aint that bad.

He actually has a personality.

Yay to him.

Zero and Magnet arent that bad.they actually have either true sadness to be here, which I consider humility, or are here because of principles.

Principles.I used to have those.

But they relied on nothing much sadly.

On colour.

And what room does colour have in a world of greys?

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Review? With a lighted candle on top? :)