Disclaimer: Much to my dismay, I do not own Harry Potter and company; J.K. Rowlings does. However if she wants to give me Snape, I will be happy to chain him to a bed in my basement.

Author's Notes- I've had this idea for a while. It's weird and will probably make no sense. Basically, it's me combining everything I like to be in a Harry Potter fic. I'll try and start it off normally, but I don't know how long I can keep it up. Please forgive me if this seems horrible. I don't have any excuses except for a lack of writing skills. I might throw some sexual situations in later (no slash, sorry).





Professor Severus Snape's head pounded as he readied himself to journey by floo. He had just gotten rid of those blockheaded students and was preparing for three months of real potions work when he had received the call. Albus always seemed to know when the worst time to summon him was.


"Hogwarts, Professor Dumbledore's office."
Severus found Dumbledore sitting behind his desk, 10 meters in front of the hearth.


"Good-evening, Severus! Care for a lemon drop?"

"No thank you, professor. Why have you called me here tonight? I have many thing that need to be attended to and..."

"Severus, you know I wouldn't call you here if it weren't for a purpose," Dumbledore told him while the flames from the fire caused his eyes to twinkle. "I have recently come across something very interesting. Professor Lupin, would you care to illuminate Severus?"


Remus Lupin stepped out from behind a shadowed portion of the room, startling Snape.
"You really should be more observant, Snape. You must be getting old," Remus chuckled to himself. "As you know, things have been very strained since Voldemort's return. Professor Dumbledore has assigned me to return to teaching Defense Against the Dark Arts, in disguise of course. Parents would be even more frightened if they thought they children were no safer in here with a werewolf than out there with Voldemort."


Remus smiled sadly. 'No, doubt he's blaming me for his expulsion,' Snape thought.' It was for the students' safety. The parents did have a right to know. It wasn't my fault he befriends scruffy murderers as well as being one.'


"Well, that's simply wonderful news. I'm glad you brought me here in the middle of the night to tell me that. Do you want me to break out the party streamers now or shall we have cake first?" Snape snarled.

Dumbledore chuckled. "Yes, it is good news, but that is not why we called you here. You see while some of The Order were looking in Godric's Hollow, which as you know has been left untouched besides initial investigations, in memory of Voldemort's defeat, we came across several seals that could only be unlocked by blood relations."

"Wait, that's ridiculous! There is only one person alive that could have broken those seals. Do you honestly have that murderer working for you?! He was the one that betrayed them! Why..."

"Severus! Sirius was not responsible for Lily and James's death. It was Peter Pettigrew that betrayed them," Albus told him calmly.

"What?" Snape couldn't believe it. Of course he had heard this two years ago, but he thought that Lupin was merely defending his friend and brainwashing Harry, Ron, and Hermione into believing it too. But Dumbledore was not easily deceived. Yes, he had a soft spot, but he was not foolish. Of course he knew that Pettigrew had been a deatheater, but he hadn't believed James would be stupid enough to trust him.

"It's true," Lupin said as he strode closer to Snape."And you're lucky that he was helping us. If he hadn't been Lily's cousin, we would have never found this."


With that Lupin pulled out a package bound in brown paper and twine. It clearly read "SEVERUS SNAPE" in flowing calligraphy. There was no doubt in Snape's mind who's handwriting it was.


"Of course there was more addressed to Sirius, Petunia, Dumbledore, Peter, and myself as well as a few others." Remus spat out the word "Peter" with more contempt than Snape have ever heard the werewolf utter before. "Here, take it."


Severus's hand trembled as he took the package from Lupin. He simply stared at it for what seemed like hours.

"Aren't you going to open it?"

"This is a matter of my own private affairs. I thank you to keep you snout out of my business."

"Affair. That's kind of an apt word to use in this situation don't you think, Snape?"

"What are you talking about, werewolf?"

"She told us. In the letters she left to Sirius and myself. She told us about the two of you. Or should I say three of you?"

"What the bloody hell are you talking about?" Snape fumed. He had half a mind to knock Lupin into next week.

"It's alright, Remus. Let Severus go. This is a very personal matter after all." Dumbledore stood up from his desk and walked over to where Snape and Lupin were standing. He placed a hand on Remus's shoulder and gave it a squeeze.


"Severus, I know how hard this surprise must be on you, especially with the additional stress of your duties for me. If you need to talk about anything, I will be here. Do not hesitate to floo me."

"Thank you, Albus," Snape whispered as he continued to stare at the package. Slowly he continued his trek to the fireplace. "Snape Manor!" And he was gone.

Remus turned to Dumbledore. "I still can't believe it. I would never have figured Lily to be into that."

"Hmmm, yes, dear Remus. Love, however does not always fit the form we wish it to. Now come, let's have some tea. I'd like to discuss what exciting new ideas you have for the upcoming semester..."

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As soon as he returned, Severus flopped down into the nearest chair. He couldn't believe that this was real. He pressed the package against his face. It even smelled faintly of her.


Slowly he unwrapped the twine and packaging. Inside was a small box and a letter. He lifted the box out first. It was a music box, and Severus smiled as he wound the lever in the back. The blonde haired ballerina spun around as the tinkering notes of Mozart played.
He opened the little drawer that the music box also contained. Inside was a picture and a small note. 'You remember what this ballerina always reminded me of? I hope you haven't forgotten her either.'


The picture...He looked at it and slammed it back in the box. He couldn't bear to seem them so happy. Small droplets of water were collecting on the shut box's lid. 'Am I crying?' Quickly Snape wiped his tears away. It had been 15 years ago after all.
Then he opened the letter. It was in the same handwriting that had been on the package-



Dearest Severus,
I hope this letter finds you well. If you are reading this, I must be dead. That seems so strange to write down, but I can't delude myself of the degree of danger we are in.

I'm sorry about what happened between us. It was the happiest time of my life! I will treasure our time together forever. We all knew that it would change after we graduated. We all had expectations on us that seemed to be "written in the stars".

Why did I marry James? Could I have done anything else? Honestly? Everyone knew James loved me; they all thought we would get married. I was already a target for Voldemort from that standpoint, and I couldn't bear to put you in danger. Know that I loved you, and I always will.

That is why I am writing you this letter. Do not be bitter about what happened, and do not be jealous of James. Yes, I love him, but never as much as you. There is another problem. As I write this there is a baby named Harry laying in his crib. He has unruly black hair and green eyes. He is so beautiful. He reminds me a lot of you. You see, Harry is your son. I have just cast a glamoure on him so that you shall remain safe. He will look like James almost to a T. I used the most powerful spell I could, one with no counter-spell. The only way to break is a charm which I have placed in the hidden compartment of the music box.

You have to help Harry as he grows older. He is your son, and you know what that entails. Please find him and love him as a father, as James loves him. Know that I will always be with you.
-Love,
Lily Evans Snape Potter


"Oh Hell." And with that Severus lost consciousness.