is it me or is this story getting a tad bit dramatic??? eek! that is so not like moi. i still can't beliv i got this far though. i quickly run out of ideas, that's why. anywayz, hope this thing doesn't be such a dramatic shit-filled fic. see 4 yourself...
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CHAPTER TEN
Denial Once Again
'Oh shit,' Sakura thought as she tried to be cool. 'Man, what does he want now?' Sakura's sight was locked on the brown haired guy walking or should I say, skating towards her. When he got to her, he stopped and she waited until he said something first.
"Um... Kinomoto... I..." Syaoran began, obviously at a loss for words.
"What are you trying to say?" Sakura asked knowing that if she didn't, their conversation wouldn't be going anywhere. To some point, she was relieved it was Syaoran who was in front of her right at that moment. She knew he was actually one of the few people she could properly talk to. What she meant by properly was that she could talk to him without being so nervous.
He flushed upon hearing what Sakura said and realized that he needed to speak up before he made a complete fool of himself in front of her. "I think you made a big mistake when you broke up with Eriol," Syaoran finally made sense.
"What's gone wrong with everyone lately? You are the last person I'd think of, who would come up to me and say what you just did," Sakura said. She was getting annoyed by the idea of people wanting Eriol and her to be back together. But she knew it just could not be done. It was possible but somehow, more impossible. God knows she loved Eriol but something in her told her not to. "Why does everyone keep saying that I'm still in love with Eriol?!" Sakura added, this time a bit louder.
When Sakura said this, she didn't notice the person standing behind her. "Why? Aren't you?" the person behind her said. Sakura turned only to see it was Eriol and she suddenly felt queasy.
"I... I... I don't know," she uttered when their instructors called for a 5-minute break. "I have to go," Sakura replied then hurriedly left the rink.
Eriol shook his head telling himself that what he did was a bad move. He skated away and something told Syaoran that he needed to talk to Sakura about that. He wavered for a while but he did go after her eventually. He found Sakura seated on one of the benches at the back. She was alone for once. Syaoran didn't think he'd ever see her that way. He approached her and got seated on the opposite side of the bench. Sakura was silent and Syaoran hated the fact that she was. Normally, he'd consider it a blessing from God whenever she was quiet but this time, he didn't.
"You okay?" Syaoran gathered all his guts to ask her a question and a silly one at that.
Sakura didn't move an inch. "Yeah, I think so," was all she could answer. How come she didn't start yapping in anger? Usually she'd be mad at Syaoran for sticking his face in her business.
"I'm sorry about what happened back there," Syaoran said. He couldn't believe what he heard himself say.
"Save your pity. I don't need it. I'm alright," Sakura uttered.
Syaoran sighed at seeing how uninterested Sakura seemed. "It's not that I'm looking down on you. I only hate it when I see you this way. I'm just not used to it," he retorted.
"Don't worry. You don't ever have to get used to it," she replied. "I'm just so confused. I don't even have the slightest idea on what I should be feeling right now. Should I be sad that I turned Eriol down? Should I be happy knowing that people are concerned? Should I be mad that everyone is meddling with MY personal business? Or should I be plain pissed off about everything that is getting so screwed in my life?" At last, it came out.
"I don't believe you have to think so much about what you should feel. I think you just have to let your heart do all the thinking for you. I know it sounds crazy coming from me but it's actually what I think is best right now," Syaoran told her.
Sakura turned to him in surprise. She was silent, looking into Syaoran's amber eyes. "Where do you get all the advice you're giving me?" she asked him with a slight smile on her face.
"I have a life too, you know. But actually, I don't know. I just sort of say them when I talk to you," Syaoran admitted. It was true after all. He had never really given that much advice to anyone in particular. Sakura was the first person he tried to comfort (?) [backtracking] ...help. Comfort is too mushy a word for Syaoran. He stood up and left her on her own.
"That Syaoran is so difficult to understand," Sakura whispered to herself when a sudden smirk crossed her face. When their break was done, Sakura came back to the rink to do some more skating. She decided she'd stay alone for a while. The five-minute break earlier wasn't quite enough for Sakura to deal with her thoughts. 'This is so damn annoying. Why can't I cool down for even just a short while?' she told herself as she sped up with her pace. With doing this, she began to lose her balance and was skating out of control. Sakura tried to keep herself as steady as she possibly could but unfortunately, to no avail. She slipped and quickly found herself in Eriol's firm grasp. She looked up to him but said nothing.
"You alright?" he asked Sakura as he slowly released her.
Sakura nodded and replied, "Thanks. I guess I owe you for that."
"I'm just glad you didn't get hurt," Eriol uttered with his sweet smile. Soon enough, Tomoyo came by and asked Sakura if she was okay.
"It was just a little slip. I'm okay, Tomoyo," she answered then turned to Eriol once again. With a bit of hesitation, she began to speak the things she had had in mind. "I... I think I'm quite aware of my feelings now," she started. Tomoyo showed a slight reaction to what Sakura said as though she was nervous of what Sakura was about to say. "Eriol, to tell you the truth, I still have feelings for you. I know I would've done the same as what you did earlier today if I were in your shoes," Sakura told him. "It's just that the way I feel about you before and now are just not the same anymore. I'm sorry but that's the truth. Don't think I'm trying to give you a taste of your own medicine coz I'm not. I'm just doing what I think is the right thing."
Eriol stared at her for a minute there, trying to digest everything Sakura just said. He wanted to say something but Sakura put a finger on his lips to prevent him from doing so.
"This is it for us. We can't go any further. Enough is enough and I believe that I'm ready to move on. But the question is, are you willing to do the same?" Sakura asked.
Eriol sneered once and said, "You must think I'm so stupid for being this persistent until now. I've been acting so immature as well." He couldn't even look at Sakura straight in the eye. He was dejected and all his hopes of getting back with Sakura vanished then and there.
She shook her head and said, "I wouldn't dare think that way about you. Still friends, right?"
"Of course," Eriol answered faintly as he then separated himself from the group. Tomoyo immediately went after him. She felt like she needed to have a word with him. She felt sorry for the guy. She followed Eriol to the side of the rink even though Sakura didn't notice her leave. Tomoyo approached Eriol and tried to find the right words to tell him.
"I'm sorry it didn't turn out the way I said it would. I guess I should've just minded my own business," she said.
Eriol turned to face her when he replied, "It wasn't your fault. I'm the one who's pathetic around here. I hurt Sakura's feelings and then once she was gone, I ran after her like a stray puppy following its master. I'm just really THAT careless and stupid."
"No you're not!" Tomoyo blurted out. Now where did that come from? "You loved Sakura and it wasn't your fault. To begin with, you just mistook Sakura to be toying with your feelings. I think your reaction to seeing her in the wrong way just proved that you really did love her," she continued.
"You've been really nice to me, Tomoyo. Thanks for everything," Eriol told her with a smile on his face. Tomoyo was happy that she was able to make him smile once again. It was the least she could do for him. "Maybe we should both get back to the group before the instructors get mad," Eriol suggested as he pointed at the two instructors who were eyeing at them.
"That's a good idea," Tomoyo replied as she and Eriol came back with Sakura and Syaoran who were practically not talking to each other.
The four of them started to do some moves that the instructor performed for them earlier. Sakura and Eriol tried their best to act normal around one another especially since Tomoyo and Syaoran were also around. With a couple of twists and turns and swings and swirls [sounds more like ballroom] and some more graceful moves, Sakura's group was doing their skating better than any other group on the ice.
Later that afternoon, they had to return to school. Sakura got off the bus when she spotted her brother's car and said she had to go. Tomoyo bid her goodbye before she went off with Eriol and Syaoran, who had to leave as well soon enough. That left only Tomoyo and Eriol with each other. They walked around the school grounds until they tired themselves out. They sat on a bench by the side of the school building. The two talked for a while till they soon noticed that it was getting dark and Tomoyo's ride hasn't come to fetch her yet.
"Do you want me to bring you home?" Eriol suggested.
"Thanks but that would be too much trouble for you," Tomoyo uttered.
"I really wouldn't mind. Besides, if I brought you home, I'd be assured that you got home safe," Eriol replied. A bright shade of red flashed on Tomoyo's cheeks.
"That would be awfully kind of you," she retorted with a smile.
"Well then, let's get going before night comes crashing," Eriol said as he stood up and led Tomoyo to his car. He opened the door for her and she climbed in without delay. Eriol got in as well and off they went. "Lead the way, Miss," Eriol told her as they got on the road.
"Eriol, may I ask you something?" Tomoyo started the conversation.
"Sure, anything. What is it?"
"Sakura once told me that she was sure she would find the right one for her someday. Is there a possibility that she can really be by herself until then?" Tomoyo asked in concern.
Eriol locked his eyes on the girl seated beside him but still made sure he was careful on the road. "She told you that?" Tomoyo nodded in response. "I'm positive she will. I'll do anything for her to be happy until I find the right one for me as well," Eriol told her and silence ensued between them.
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i'm sorry if u don't like how the story is going but if you have any suggestions or corrections, i would really like you guyz to tell me bout it. you guyz juz wait till the next chap is up. things are certainly going to get even more exciting in this fic. oh b4 u even forget, REVIEWS are needed for this fic to continue.. and THANX to those who constantly review as well!!! luv ya!
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