The Sweet Words I Want to Hear
Chapter Three
Kagome pulled into the shadows, watching the amber glint in the hanyou's eyes from the corner of hers.
"What are you doing here so early?" he questioned, taking a step towards her as if she were some stranger that he knew not how to deal with just yet. "And why are you crying?"
"I am not crying." She nearly sobbed the words out.
Just the presence of him with her and not wandering about the night with Kikyou was cause enough for tears . . . but she dared not admit it to him.
He crossed his arms, looking at her severely. "You're not a good liar. What happened? Did something happen to you, is that why you're here so early?"
"No." Kagome's thoughts rolled over those words as if they had been spoken with distaste. Normally her sadness would have pulled away with such words spoken so coldly from him. There was tenderness there . . . but she couldn't decide whether they were hindered from her senses by her weariness of a days past or if there truly was no feeling in his voice. And yet, she chose not to react where she would have responded in anger. "Nothing bad happened in my time."
"Oh really?" he remained unconvinced, staring at her.
"I was just done with my studying and decided to come early." The girl held her head up high, feeling cowardice corrode at her bravery to speak the words she had always wanted to speak.
She turned to him anyway . . .
Her eyes locking with his . . .
Those words she wanted to say . . . they were right there . . .
Right on the edge of her tongue . . .
Her eyes must have been intense . . . dangerously so for Inu-Yasha's arms unlocked from where they had been crossed and his hands raised in discomfort, taking a step back with a gaze of worry . . .
She wanted to say it . . .
How she felt . . .
Tears burned in her eyes . . .
But she couldn't bring herself to it . . .
"What?" Inu-Yasha gasped, watching Kagome as if she were ready to faint. "What's wrong with you?"
She opened her mouth, but words refused to come out.
How could she be doing this?
This was Inu-Yasha!
This was the man . . . well . . . hanyou she adored . . .
Loved . . .
There was NO way he could return her love . . .
His eyes . . .
They were consuming . . .
Amber and shining in the moonlight . . .
His silvery hair rustling in the night wind as he stood there watching her watch him . . .
The ears atop his head were fixated upon her as if there was no other world . . .
All the criticism of his eyes melted away as Kagome's lingered . . .
There were words there too . . .
Beautiful words . . .
But Kagome couldn't see them . . .
Kagome couldn't hear them . . .
She wanted to take his hand . . .
She wanted to hold him close to her . . .
She wanted him to love her . . .
Maybe even as much as he loved Kikyou . . .
The tears began to fall from her eyes . . .
Inu-Yasha took a terrified step back, gaping. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
His words . . . filled with such concern for her . . .
He did have concern for her . . .
Inu-Yasha saved her so many times . . . taking blows for her that would kill her . . . even just hurt her . . .
No man would do that for her!
No man could ever touch her heart the way he never intended to half the time!
And those words . . . she's never heard them before from any other man . . .
Any other . . .
Her trembling hands found her face, feeling the salty tears roll down her cheeks as she began to think of rejection . . .
How could he ever love her?
How?
"Kagome . . ."
But she already had her back turned to him, sobbing into her hands. Sobbing all the fears she had into the open. Releasing all the worries she had into the night air, leaving Inu-Yasha standing baffled behind her.
"Kagome . . ." he began, taking a step forward, touching her chilled shoulder. "What's wrong?"
So long had she waited . . .
So long . . .
"I . . ." she began, readying herself to spill out her guts . . .
But he didn't deserve the aggravation of a woman liking him that he did not return the feeling!
Inu-Yasha didn't deserve it!
Not the uneasiness they would most certainly feel around each other from then on if the feelings were not mutual.
How could she ever keep with their group?
She would never be able to look into his wonderful eyes again!
She could feel him eying her carefully . . . waiting . . .
"I . . . I'm . . . sorry . . ." she whimpered, pulling away from his warm touch. "I'm sorry I bothered you."
"You didn't bother me . . ." he began in earnest, stepping forward to be at her side but only watching as she tore off into the night away from him . . .
Her quiet sobs echoing behind her . . .
Tearing her way through the forest back to the well . . .
Sobbing at her foolishness . . .
At her cowardice . . .
At her mortal idiocy . . .
How could she ever think the feelings would be mutual?
Love was only a fairy tale . . .
A joke . . .
A prank . . .
And Inu-Yasha doesn't need to know that some love struck girl was following him.
It would tear apart the friendship they had together . . .
Drive each other apart . . .
No . . . she couldn't do it . . .
Gripping the moist side of the well much sooner than she expected, blinded by her own tears . . .
Her own stupidity . . .
She leaped back to her own time . . .
Unsure if she would come back the next day . . .
***Well – my stories have a life of their own. Poor Kagome- all revved up to tell him how she feels and she chickens out! What a wuss – though, I shouldn't talk :O). Oh well. I wonder if Inu-Yasha has any sense to follow her? Maybe he's just gonna go back to bed, wouldn't you? Maybe not! I guess y'all's gonna hav'ta find out, huh! Please review! Let me know what y'all's think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!***
