yes, i know it took me FOREVER, and i mean FOREVER to update this fic.. so sue me.. no wait.. i'm broke!

man, this story business is tough. i can't believe i got this far for this story. i kept losing interest and i was really thinking that i should probably just stop. but then again, wut wuz all this for? i know know. i owe you guys a lot for the motivation. damn, i'm going senti. anywayz, i purposely made this fic like this so you won't know who sakura would end up wit. well, not until the last few chapterz, that is. so, start readin. i'll be workin on my last chapz now...

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CHAPTER NINETEEN

Eriol's Big Decision

"Hey, it's about time you get out of bed. It's ten o'clock in the morning and it's Monday. Your tutor will get here in two hours," Touya told Sakura, pulling the covers off her.

"What's the big idea?" Sakura whined as she got up and hit him hard with a pillow. "I know how a calendar works. And according to it, it's only Sunday!"

Touya grinned. "At least I made you wake up," he said. Sakura rolled her eyes and snuggled back in bed, trying not to mind the cold. "-coz if I didn't, the guy downstairs would be waiting for you even longer," Touya added. This quickly got to Sakura.

"What?! Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Sakura complained, immediately going on her feet. "Who is it again?" she asked.

"I'll give you a clue. Blue hair and wings," Touya replied. The humor just washed out.

"Blue bird. Ha ha ha," Sakura scoffed before she scurried off to the bathroom. Things were just going so fast for Sakura. She was with Syaoran a couple of days ago and the next thing she knew was that she was with Eriol. Sakura tried to keep her emotions under control. She was being one hell of a fickle idiot and she knew it. The bad thing was that she has been hurting people before she even noticed it. 'It's not fair for them but what am I supposed to do? Deny my feelings and hurt them in the end? It's not like I have a choice to begin with...' she recently kept telling herself. But somehow, it was as if she DID have a choice. One, which was for the better of everything and everyone who was involved from the beginning of this unusual love triangle.

Sakura took a shower and threw on some clothes. She was in such a hurry that she didn't even bother to tie her hair. She took a bag with her then rushed to get downstairs. Eriol was in the living room waiting for her, having a conversation with someone over the phone. "Can you at least talk to me?" he said. When he saw Sakura, he abruptly put the phone aside.

This made Sakura wonder who it was and she just had to ask, "Who were you talking to?"

"Um... that was just a friend. But nevermind that," Eriol reluctantly replied, obviously trying to get away from the subject.

"Oh. Anyway, sorry I took quite long. The date totally slipped off my mind and I sort of overslept," Sakura explained.

"That's okay. I really don't mind it at all. So, ready to go out?" Eriol asked her. Sakura just nodded in consent.

The two of them went to the park to have a stroll. And afterwards, they were going to have a nice picnic. It was the perfect day after all. Unbeknownst to them, they were about to see someone else there. Someone who they never expected to show up in such a place. Eriol and Sakura arrived at the park and with Eriol's arm over Sakura's shoulder, walked around for a while. Sakura noticed that Eriol was somehow preoccupied but she tried to ignore it for now. She thought that was the best thing to do at the moment. But for some strange reason, Eriol was rather quiet.

Soon, they had enough with all the pacing they did. They got back to the car and got the picnic basket they brought along with them. Eriol laid a sheet over the grass as both of them settled there under the shade of a big tree. Sakura took out the "goodies": a few pre-cut sandwiches, a jug filled with juice, and other kinds of food. As Sakura and Eriol started with their meal, a certain guy passed them by. The guy stopped and looked at Sakura. "Kinomoto?" he said. Eriol was practically glaring at him.

Sakura found him very familiar. She just couldn't figure it out. And the name "Kagami" suddenly popped in her mind. "I may be wrong but are you... Jin?" she asked out of nowhere.

The guy scratched his head and seemed baffled to some extent. "Uhh... duh? Are you sick or did you hit your head somewhere?" he retorted when something crossed his mind. "Oh yeah... you were in that accident," he said. "Well that's good. At least you don't recall what happened anymore," he muttered.

"What did you say?" Sakura asked out of curiosity. She heard him but she just wanted to know if she heard him right.

"Nothing," Jin said in defense. "It was nothing," he repeated. But Sakura was kind of sure with what she thought he said.

"Sakura, Jin is just playing around. So maybe it would be better if HE left US alone and mind his own business for once!" Eriol's tone of voice suggested he was angry. Sakura wondered why he was so upset. What did Jin ever do to him anyway?

"Chill, man. I didn't even do anything to you," Jin told Eriol.

Eriol promptly stood up and said, "Oh yeah?! Then what about what you did to Sakura?!"

"Woah... You knew all along. Then why don't you remind your precious girlfriend what happened so she'll leave you.. AGAIN!" Jin fought back with words. The two nearly engaged in a quick fist-fight.

"Shut up! Just shut the hell up and get out of here!" Eriol exclaimed at Jin's face.

"Damn right I would. Who would even wanna hang out with a guy like you?" Jin looked pissed as he went away.

Eriol sat back down and went back to his normal calm self. Then Sakura got really intrigued. "What did Jin want you to remind me?" she asked all of a sudden.

"Sakura, don't mind what that jerk said. He's just a good for nothing asshole with a head exploding with hot gas," Eriol replied.

"Eriol, please tell me the truth. And how come I don't remember a thing about what you two were arguing about? Something's wrong. I just know it so could you please just tell me?" Sakura wanted an answer to her questions. She wanted explanations and she wanted them at that very moment. Eriol couldn't find the right words to say. He never got to say anything. "I'd like to go home now. Please," Sakura told him as she started to put everything back in the basket. 'If Eriol won't tell me what's wrong, then I'd just have to find out by myself," she thought. Eriol couldn't do anything about what Sakura wanted to do.

Sakura asked to be dropped off over at her place. She climbed off Eriol's vehicle and started towards the front door. "I'll call you later, all right?" Eriol said before she got inside the house. Sakura placed the basket in the kitchen then headed for her room. She walked to the mini-library in her bedroom. Stuck in between two other books was this really big and thick book that immediately caught Sakura's attention. She pulled it out and got settled on her bed. Slowly, she started to scan the pages one by one and soon learned that she was looking through the pages of a yearbook. She found Eriol's individual picture. Then she saw Tomoyo's. And as she went on, she finally landed on the page of Syaoran's picture. The person beside him made Sakura stare in awe.

"What the heck?!" she uttered in shock and disbelief. "What is MY picture doing here?" she asked herself. It baffled her to a point that it became very disturbing. Sakura looked at the yearbook closely and she found out that it was REALLY she. 'But how can that happen? I've been tutored all my life, right? How can my picture be in a school yearbook?' she thought. The more she discovered, the more questions filled her head. For the first time ever, her own life became a mystery to her. 'I must get Eriol to explain everything to me. I feel there is something I do not know about myself while others do. They're obviously hiding something from me but what does Jin have to do with it?'

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Syaoran had just eaten lunch when he thought about Sakura once again. He shook her image away as he just continued watching television in his room. He glanced at the necklace lying on top of the table beside him. Syaoran felt the sudden urge to hear Sakura's voice, even for just a short while. 'Why am I acting like such a fool? Sakura's with Eriol now and she's happy with him. I don't want to make things more difficult for her,' he told himself. But even still, he got the wireless phone in hand and started to dial her number. 'What the hell! I don't care. I just have to know that she's all right," Syaoran's actions were obviously contrary to his thoughts.

The phone rang... and rang... and rang... until finally, someone picked it up. "Hello?" the sweet voice muttered against the speaker. "Hello?" the person repeated. "Who is this?" again it spoke. Syaoran soon realized what he was doing and quickly turned the wireless off. He heaved a sigh to himself as he said, "I can't do it. I can't believe myself. I'm depressed because of one girl. Just ONE." Syaoran put the phone down as he ran his fingers through his hair. "What the heck is up with me and all this love crap?"

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Eriol was slowly being eaten up by his god damn guilt. Both for Sakura and Tomoyo. But he didn't really know which one was the bigger problem. Was it the fact that Tomoyo hates him? Or was it because he failed to tell Sakura the truth? He had never really faced such a situation in his life. He was stuck in between two things. Whatever he would do next shouldn't be for his sake alone. He didn't want to be selfish... but he could not help but be just that.

He picked up his cellphone and started pressing the buttons as he eventually ended up with a message. He reread it over and over, deleted a couple of things, then replaced them. Eriol thought if he was going to do this, he had better do it right. He started to think of the appropriate words to text in. He found it really difficult to satisfy him with what he put. "This is never going to be done with!" he yelled in frustration. He erased everything he typed in and wrote it all over again. And this time, he was able to send it.

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is that considered as a cliffy? yea, i know... don't havta tell me... sakura is an idiot!!! (oops!) well, she is, considering that she goes back and forth from eriol to syaoran and back to eriol. ey, first i'd like to thank "@!#x'Z d3åtH Hic" for the great ideas she gave. oh and the idea of sakura going back to eriol was hers so to all the s+s fans, go after her and not me, okie? b4 i forget, -=REVIEWZ=- are STILL wanted.