i know i know.. it took me long enough to update.. anywayz, im not gonna spoil anythang for you readers, ayt?? hehehehehe... wahahahahaha!!ΓΌ you will suffer!! nah joke...
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CHAPTER TWENTY
What's meant to Be
"That was odd," Sakura wondered who had called her as she put the phone to one side and got down for dinner. "Dad, can I ask you something?" Sakura asked as they ate.
"Anything," Fujitaka told Sakura.
"It's about me," she started as she put down her utensils to speak. Touya sensed this was serious as he just listened without saying anything. "Dad, on the day of the accident... exactly WHAT happened?" she continued and this left Fujiataka searching his head for something to answer.
"You were in a car accident. Your car sped through the road and it hit a cement pole, remember?" he replied.
Sakura shook her head. "No, I don't. I don't remember at all," she retorted.
"Well, that's practically very normal. Most of the people who are involved in car accidents don't recall what happened to them either," Fujitaka explained with the best he could. "I think--"
"That's not what I meant," Sakura cut him off as tears started to make their way in her eyes. "I don't remember the accident. I don't remember my friends. I don't remember going to a school. I don't remember anything at all!" her voice got louder. Fujitaka was surprised by his daughter's reaction as he stopped eating.
"Sakura, calm down," Touya spoke up, noticing that Sakura was going out of control.
"Don't you dare tell me to calm down! Nobody wants to tell me anything! Even Eriol keeps his mouth shut. Strange dreams keep haunting me at night, I meet people who know me while I don't know them, I learn about things that concern me but I hardly recall anything!" Sakura exclaimed as she pushed her plate to the floor. "Why are you guys hiding things from me?!" she yelled as she quickly headed outside in tears. Touya followed her only to find that he was too late. Sakura had gone off with her car.
Sakura drove without paying attention to where she was going. Her eyes still on the road just to be safe, she was thinking about the things she said. All that came out randomly and unintentionally. She just had to release her anger. Sakura put her hand on her forehead. It was starting to ache again and she knew it wouldn't be a good idea to keep driving. She pulled over and she found herself in front of a sign that said "Cinemas: 2 kilometers away". Sakura dug her thoughts into it and recalled a time when she watched a movie with Eriol. 'Wait a second there. I never went to see a movie with Eriol,' she told herself. She shook her head, saying that it all must have been her imagination and nothing else.
Sakura climbed back in the car and started the car. Before she noticed it, she was passing by a school. She stopped the car by the front gate and stepped out. Many things about this place were quite familiar, almost well known to Sakura. She went to the gate and examined the building beyond it. A vision suddenly came to her.
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"No! What you saw isn't true!" Sakura insisted. They were right next to the school entrance.
"Yeah, it wasn't what you intended! You just wanted to make me believe you actually loved me back!" Eriol told her, appearing very upset. "Syaoran was right from the beginning! You're not worth anything at all!"
Sakura started to cry. "Eriol! Believe me! This is all a misunderstanding!" was all she could say.
"Damn right! It was all a misunderstanding or even worse, it was all a big stupid mistake that I even had feelings for... for a whore like you!" After Eriol said all that had to be said, he left. He left the school and left Sakura.
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Sakura opened her eyes in shock. Just then, some person with a flashlight showed up and Sakura was forced to leave the school grounds. She continued on the road thinking, 'Is it possible that I used to study in this school? It explains why my picture was in the yearbook. But why would Eriol say such things to me? It seems that Syaoran was also involved.'
She kept thinking about what could've happened. She tried to fill in some details. Sakura knew she was getting close to putting the pieces of this puzzle together. "Eriol and I were dating before then... he leaves me. But why?" Sakura uttered. She remembered her dream before; the one when Eriol and her were together in the park. "I asked Eriol where we were going next. We arrived at the park and I followed him to a cherry blossom tree. We sat by the bench and then..." Sakura was on the right track but she couldn't take it anymore. She kept racking her mind for her memories but they just wouldn't appear. Sakura decided to go back home. Some sleep was probably the best thing she could think of at that moment.
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The next day, Sakura awoke since her cellphone started beeping. She took it and read the message. Eriol wanted to meet her in school at dismissal. She feared the most that could happen. She got off her bed and took a bath before going down to have breakfast.
Mostly everything that she assumed the last evening was still in her head. She still had so many things to figure out. She was awfully quiet at the table. That afternoon, right after Sakura's tutorials, she had texted Eriol to tell him she was already on her way. She arrived a little past 5 o'clock.
"Sakura!" Eriol called out to her. "I'm glad you came," he said when he got to her.
She furrowed her eyebrows in doubt. "What was it you wanted to see me about?" Sakura asked, feeling her heart beating hard against her chest. She hated feeling so anxious. Because whenever she did, it almost seemed as though something bad would happen.
Eriol took her hands in his and replied, "Sakura, we need to talk." He looked around and added, "But we can't do it here. There are too many people. Do you know a place we can go to?" Sakura started to think. Since when did they need that much privacy? She ignored all her negative thoughts as she suggested a place. Eriol agreed without question. And in no time, they were there. The two decided to stay in the car. They were at a driveway by the park. "Sakura," Eriol started.
"What is it?" she asked Eriol. She remembered what happened the other day. Eriol seemed to have something in mind while he was with Sakura. She also recalled how Eriol acted when Jin came. Could all these be related?
"We have to end this now," Eriol told her. Sakura allowed him to explain and so didn't say anything to stop him. Eriol added, "I know we've only been together for just a week or so but I can't stand the thought of lying to you. I thought I really loved you from the time I realized my feelings since some time ago--"
"Before I was in that accident," Sakura interrupted. The emphasis on "before" caught Eriol by surprise. "I don't have an idea of what happened to me when I got myself in that accident. No one wanted to tell me anything but somehow, I guess I've been regaining things little by little. You and I were together before, weren't we?" Sakura said.
Eriol hesitated at first. "Yes," he eventually answered. Sakura closed her eyes and tried to recall more.
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"So, Sakura, how are you going along with Syaoran?" Eriol asked.
"Um... I tried to talk but it didn't really bring me any good. I think Syaoran isn't really in the mood to be friends with me right now," Sakura answered as she ate her ice cream.
"Oh, Syaoran's just like that at times. Cut the poor guy some slack. He may be stiff when he wakes up on the wrong side of the bed. You did say you called him so early in the morning. I've known Syaoran long enough to figure he'd still be sleeping by then. But if you want, I'll try talking to him some time," Eriol said.
"Syaoran is stiff, right you are. But, poor? I don't think so. Besides, it's really not much of a big deal now. He can be nice to me when the time comes but I won't force him if he doesn't want to. I'm not that desperate," she replied.
"Alright then. Syaoran will understand. If he doesn't, I'll just have to let him be until he does. I'm sure he'll get over it," Eriol retorted and Sakura smiled upon hearing this.
"Thanks," she uttered.
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More of these kind of memories rushed into Sakura's mind. She took a deep breath then looked at Eriol straight in the eye. "You got mad at me, thinking that I turned my back on you by kissing some other guy. That's where Jin comes in the picture. And then... you wanted to get back with me with Tomoyo's help but I didn't want you back," Sakura continued.
Eriol gave up. He didn't want to hide anything from Sakura anymore. She was finding things out for herself and he no longer had reason to keep them. "Syaoran wasn't pleased with the fact I liked you. You and Syaoran have always been the worst of enemies while me and him were the best of friends. That's why he was against our being happy together. Eventually, he started liking you as well. Then you were involved in a car accident without warning," Eriol narrated things one by one. "You don't know how worried Syaoran was about you. He went to the hospital more often than any of us did. Soon, I realized how much he cared about you and I knew he'd be the first one to ask you out once you woke up."
Sakura was at a loss of words. She felt the need to hear more from Eriol.
"When you awoke, he came at once only to find out that you had amnesia," Eriol finally told Sakura. The word "amnesia" rang in her head. So this WAS the reason... the reason why she could not remember anything at all. Upon hearing this, she let Eriol continue. "He thought that maybe it was his chance to let you return his feelings. You started dating him but then I couldn't take it. All this time, I thought he would never try to take you from me but he did so I had to let him just so you'll be happy." Sakura held her tears back. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. "While you were together with him, Tomoyo was so nice to me. That's when I found out that we had so much in common and I was blind enough to not have been able to notice that. On the night when you came to Tomoyo's house, I thought I was finally over you but it turned out that I wasn't. That's when I told you I was in love with you."
"But fact was, you weren't and you couldn't do anything about it anymore," Sakura uttered.
Eriol reluctantly nodded. "I didn't want to hurt you the way I did before so I decided to keep it to myself," he replied. "Then again, I couldn't. The more I tried to forget about Tomoyo, the more I thought about her. And yesterday, I texted her to see how she was doing. I found out she was scheduled for a flight to Paris today at 7 pm."
Sakura couldn't control the way she was feeling but somehow, she managed to say, "I... I understand." She stepped out of the vehicle.
"Where are you going?" Eriol asked.
"Don't worry about me. Go to Tomoyo right now. You still have time," Sakura retorted with a faint smile.
"Sakura, I--"
"Go! I don't want you to lose her because of me. I've caused you enough trouble," Sakura told him. "If you don't leave right now, Tomoyo is going to leave you and it's going to be all your fault." Eriol took one last look at Sakura before he closed the door and was soon on his way.
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could it be a cliffy? or an ending? tell me wut you want of it! one more chapter to go and im off to a new start! im already working on a new story.. im so happy i got this far *tear*.. hehe... byezzz for now!
