Glass Scars

This is basically chapter 2. But the second half so expect it to be very short, and boring! Thank you to the people who have been kind enough to review so far, it is you who keep me writing.

Summery: Just one of the possible things which could have happened if Shinji had refused to kill Kaworu.

Warnings: None that I can think of. I don't know if this fic is shonen ai, I suppose it depends how you look at it. I'm only taking from what I saw in episode 24.and we all know how many 100's of times this relationship as been debated! Take it how you want.

Disclaimer: Ah, how much would I like to own Kaworu? Well I don't! I don't own any of this, it all belongs to Gainax. Dammit.

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Chapter 2. Misato's decision

"Yes Sir"

Misato couldn't believe she had said it, and so quickly as well. Just happily agreed to destroy the one thing keeping Shinji happy.

Gendo nodded, before turning and leaving, followed by Fuyutsuki. The security guards corrected their gun's aim on Kaworu. Shinji's eyes visibly widened. Misato fixed her gaze back on the angel, and slowly drew her own gun.

"Shinji, step away", she too fixed her gun on Kaworu.

"No." Shinji said stubbornly, positioning himself in front of the gun. He knew Misato would not shoot him anyway. But what about the guards? All they were doing was waiting for Misato to say the word. They won't touch him, Shinji thought. Misato shook her head, as if to clear her mind.

"I said move! Listen to me Shinji, after this, you'll be fine. He's an angel, he'll hurt you, more than he already has. He's dangerous." Misato pleaded. Shinji shook his head again. Eventually a tear found it's way down his cheek.

"No. You'll have to shoot me too. I won't let you hurt him. He couldn't help what happened, I know he didn't mean it, he wouldn't do anything to hurt me intentionally." Kaworu's hand slipped from his shoulder. Misato shook her head again. This was crazy! Did Shinji really believe what his was saying? Maybe it was some mind trick, similar to what happened to Asuka, but she looked up. Shinji's gaze burned through her, and she could see he knew exactly what he was saying.

Misato didn't want Shinji to get hurt again, but it was overwhelming how close he was to this boy, an angel. He knew full well what he was and yet he wanted to be close to him. It puzzled her. She remembered how he used to shut himself away from everyone he came across. The hedgehog's dilemma. She remembered vividly how she had tried to touch his hand after Rei's death, but he had shrunk away, a horrified look on his face.

She had thought nobody would get through to him. Maybe he was afraid of girls. Maybe he was afraid of affection. Maybe he's a natural loner. But if that's the case, why was he here, risking his life protecting a boy who is, of all things, an angel? If that was the case, he could hardly be called a 'boy' could he?

Could it be so bad? She wondered to herself. The angel had hurt Shinji more than anyone could have, and yet Shinji had gone back to him. He stood as the only thing between Kaworu and death.

Misato looked deep into Shinji's eyes. Dark blue. Too dark for a child as young as he. Although, with al that he had experienced and suffered, she was sure that mentally he was already an adult. Even if he didn't know it. Those eyes were tired. Tired of crying, lack of sleep, being made to do things he didn't want to do. And tired of having the things he cared for being torn from him. If she really saw Shinji as an adult, then he should be able to make up his mind about what he wants, and she wouldn't be the one to tear the last thing from him.

She finally lowered her gun. She looked guiltily at the guards next to her.

"Lower your weapons. Now." The guard closest to her looked at her, shocked.

"Major!" The guard next to him piped in as well. "Major, this is a direct order from the Commander, what will happen if you go against orders?" Misato shrugged, "I don't know."

She made her way to Shinji. He stood still but Kaworu instinctively took a step back, an uneasy look on his pale face. She bent forward and touched Shinji's damp cheek, expecting him to jump back as well. To her surprise he stood still, but a confused look graced his features. She smiled softly at him.

"But, I do know.you deserve to be happy Shinji, for once. I can only imagine what would happen to you if I did carry out my duty." Shinji smiled weakly, but it was still clear he was confused. Misato dared a look over Shinji's shoulder at the angel, who looked as equally confused as Shinji, but also wore a slight smile.

"I'm not sure if your making the right choice.but I think you should leave now. Right now." Shinji nodded, realization dawning in his distant eyes.

"Thank you Misato." Shinji whispered. Misato smiled understandingly at him, then stepped back into the crowd of guards. At some point, they too had lowered their weapons. She was prepared for the consequences of her rash actions. Maybe she cared too much for the boy, but she was pleased she had cared more than his father had. And anyway, she was his guardian, surely what she was doing was right: seeing to it that Shinji was happy. She smiled to herself. Be happy Shinji-Kun.

Shinji looked up at his Evangelion. Despite all that had transpired in the last few minutes, his Eva was exactly the same. He would never know how drastically his fate had changed. But he had imagined a fate that had been so very realistic only a few minutes ago: a fate where his Eva's right hand had been covered in blood. He had been left cold and broken hearted again, and there was a tiny broken body lying in the LCL in Terminal Dogma. That was the hand fate had dealt him, and he had refused it.

"Good bye mother." He sniffed as he caught sight of Eva Unit 2. Asuka Langley's Eva. Or what it Kaworu's Eva? He noticed the progressive knife protruding from it's chest.

"Sorry."

He smiled at Misato, he then turned to Kaworu. The one he had been protecting all along. The one he had succeeded in saving. They stared at each other, Shinji liked looking at him, and when he spoke, it was so soft only Kaworu heard him.

"Lets go."

Kaworu smiled and nodded, allowing Shinji to grab his hand and lead him from the room. Their entrance was silent, except for the dying sound of their footsteps in unison. It sounded like there was only one person leaving.

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Well.that really does seem like the end, but I do have a plan for one last chapter, I don't think Kaworu has had much say yet. Or should I leave it at that? I haven't started writing it yet, but I have some ideas. Hope you all enjoy it so far! I'll post the last chapter soon ;)