Mother: Come closer, my child.

I moved over to the right side of the bed. I kneeled down and took my mother's hand. It felt so terribly cold.

Brigitta: Oh mother, I .

The words I wanted to say were stuck in my throat. I wanted to say how much I loved her and how awful I would feel if she was no longer around. All I could was cry .

Mother: You don't need to talk, darling. I know it. I love you too and although I will be with God I will still miss you and your siblings.

I rested my head on her shoulder and whispered Can't you take me with you? I will feel so lonely without you.

Mother: Don't talk like that, Brigitta. You're so young. You are very smart and have a bright future ahead of you. You notice everything. That is a precious gift. Promise me one thing .

Brigitta: Anything mother .

Mother: Promise you will use your gift only for good purposes. There are many people with a special gift but they mostly use it for their own purpose or even worse for bad purposes. Promise you will use your gift to help your siblings, your father and all people who truly deserve your love.

Brigitta: I will, mother, I will .

Mother stroked my hair and continued: I've noticed how much attention you give to Gretl. I've tried to explain her where I'm going but I'm afraid she's too young to understand it right now. Can you tell her when she's old enough to accept the truth?

Brigitta: Of course I will. She's my little sister. And she needs . Tears hindered me finishing my sentence.

Mother: . a mother. I know it's not like it should be, Brigitta, but try to be a mother for her as good as you possibly can. Or at least a sister who's there for her.

Brigitta: I will love her with all my heart.

Mother: I shouldn't worry. You will be an amazing mother when you are having children of your own. Now about Louisa .

I looked mother in the eyes and asked: Louisa? What about her?

Mother: She hasn't said goodbye to me yet. I know she's standing outside but she doesn't dare to come in. There isn't much time left, will you please get her Brigitta. I want to have you both on my side. Like a robot who blindly obeyed I stood up and went to the door. I looked back hoping that she would not die while I was gone to catch Louisa.

Mother: Please bring her in darling .