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Integral paced frantically her feet making squeaking noises every time they met with the cold wood floors Her arms folded behind her, she kept fidgeting her fingers interlocking them periodically. Then once again she would bring herself forth to the window and look out longingly. Except this time she saw a figure emerging in the darkness. Her heart raced as she looked out from behind the curtain like a child who had stayed up late against her parent's wishes.

When she saw only two figures approaching Integral sucked in the air around her till her chest was ready to burst; however, when Alucard came forward into the light holding Winston the air escaped from her in a heavy sigh. Yet, the growing dread inside Integral did not leave with it. Winston was home, but in what condition she had no idea. He had to have been hurt for Alucard to be holding him. Suddenly her whole body started to shack. The rage began to boil up in her. How dare he she thought to herself incensed.

Then she saw Walter's figure running out towards Alucard. They were talking to each other and then Alucard handed Winston's body over to Walter. Winston seemed to be like a giant rag doll as Integral stared down at him. A wave of trepidation fell over Integral as she stared down at his wilted body.

Then unexpectedly Integral felt the heat of eyes cutting into her. When their eyes connected integral jumped back slightly feeling like she had been caught red handed.

Alucard was staring up at her knowing full well she'd be waiting for him. He turned to Ceres silently and handed her the vials he'd collected and then turned to enter the mansion.

Integral turned to leave the room in order to enter her office. She was all the more angered now that Alucard knew he had managed to infuriate her. That damn bloody vampire! Of course she would worry about Winston. He was just a child. She would have worried about any young person who was in her keeping but Winston wasn't any young person he was hers! And how dare Alucard endanger the boy when she'd only had him in her possession for less than a day.

Integral threw open the door to her office with such wrath that the door handle had been driven into the wall creating a rather large hole. Integral took no notice of it. There wasn't any point in bothering to shut the door. Before she even had time to toss herself into her seat his form was materializing in front of her. He wasn't even going to give her the opportunity to pretend she hadn't been waiting the entire time watching for his return. Fine she thought to herself but I wont give him the satisfaction of yelling.

"Master, Walter told me you had requested my presence."

Integral sat down calmly interlocking her fingers as she sat. "Alucard can you tell me why you felt it was necessary to bring Winston along with you to an abandoned dilapidated medical building that was full of freaks and other vampires?" There was such a sharp edge to each of Integral's words she could have sliced through Alucard.

Alucard raised a brow slightly along with the curve of his lip. "I was training him."

"Training him." Integral continued to look down, her eyes never leaving her desk "I see and you didn't think that such training might be inappropriate for a twelve year old boy."

"Well in Winston's particular case I would say no. The training was completely appropriate."

Integral's teeth clenched as she attempted to maintain composure. "So you felt that it was completely justifiable to hand Winston a gun and throw him into a life or death situation without one day of training." Integral paused for a moment collecting her thoughts. "I would never ever think of doing such a thing to one of my employees Alucard who I'll remind you are ADULTS!"

Alucard huffed as though he were dealing with a dolt who just couldn't grasp the point he was getting at. "Simulation training is useless in Winston's case. For him to grasp the concepts of his skills he needs to be placed in immanent danger."

"And you couldn't simulate immanent danger."

"Well I could Integral but you seem to feel pretty confident that he wouldn't have been in more danger fighting me than the vampires this evening. Not to mention the fact that the most experienced and well trained of your soldiers would have walked into that building with a higher chance of losing his life than Winston."

"He's just a boy Alucard."

"He is not just a boy! He is a dhampire Integral and I find it interesting that you keep forgetting that fact considering you are the one who refuses to see him as anything else."

Integral brought up her face for a moment connecting with Alucard's eyes. Alucard smiled knowing he had finally got Integral to look at him. Alucard decided to sit down for a moment to rest at Integral's level. He brought his clunky boots up resting them on the ledge of Integral's desk.

"Take those bloody boots off you brute."

"As you say Master. I was only trying to get comfortable."

Integral ignored Alucard's words completely. "You had no right to do that to him Alucard." Integral spoke the words as though they were a breath in the wind. Her voice was no longer steady anymore. He rage had cooled but the pain and worry was not leaving her. "What the hell happened any way why did you carry him home?"

"He was wounded but they were only a few trifling scrapes." Alucard left his explanation at that, refraining from calling any of the gory details to Integral's attention. "He needs to learn to use his powers Integral."

"WHY?"

"So that he can defend himself and so that this won't happen again." Alucard hesitated for a moment before he continued. "He can be of use to you Integral."

Her brow furled as the he spoke the words. "He is not going to stay here Alucard. I won't have him here at Hellsing."

"And just what else will you do with him Integral? I don't think he'll be able to live a normal human life and he's going to live a very long, -long time. It would be better if he were to kill vampires instead of choosing to live as one."

"We don't have to deal with any of this now he is just a child."

"Integral in life you always pay. You can pay now or pay latter but either way you will pay. Don't isolate him or make him hate you."

"Hate me -HATE ME!" Integral rose unsteadily. "You are the one who he's going to hate Alucard. Bringing him to that place completely unprepared."

"I suppose on some level you are right. Tonight was a terrible disappointment. Winston relies too heavily on his human thinking but in time he will understand. Once he has a grasp on his powers he will be grateful for this evening."

"Well this evening isn't going to happen again Alucard. I forbid you from seeing him do you understand? I forbid it."

"And when he has his first urge to drink blood will you be there to hold his hand Integral."

"Ceres can do it. Now get out of my office Alucard."

"You can't keep us apart Integral I will be the first person he seeks when he wakes and you haven't forbid him from coming to see me."

"Just get out Alucard."

He stood up never removing his eyes from her. "Integral even I'm growing weary of these fights."

"Then stop this, I" her voice cracked and she couldn't finish her sentence. Alucard knew he had to leave before the tears came. He would leave with his Master's dignity intact. He had no desire to watch Integral break down.

She closed her eyes only for a moment hoping to stop the tears from coming but when she opened them again he was gown. She had been so close to saying the words, so close to telling Alucard how overwhelming the fear had been.

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