Going Under

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~ The greatest pain than death is to lose someone you love to another person who does not care at all~

            I shouldn't be doing this, Sanzo thought silently. He knew that he had longed for those luscious lips of hers but deep down in his heart, he felt a strange feeling began to creep. The kisses were great but they lacked of passion, chemistry, trust and the most important thing in a kiss; love. But he kept falling for those mysterious ocean blue eyes, hot lips, the lovely porcelain face, the nicely shaped body and her sweet scent. He could not resist her.

            He is falling for me, Meira smiled slyly as she played with Sanzo's golden locks playfully. His face had softened and there was no trace of scowl and frown. Is that a hesitation expression, Meira studied his beautiful feature secretly. The spell should work. He should have been in love with me now. But why did he hesitate, Meira's smile had been lowered down one or two watts. Must have been that boy. Goku, you're in my way!

            "Homura, what are you doing here?" asked Goku through clenched teeth. He readied to withdraw his Nyoibou.

            "Relax, Son Goku. I'm not here to fight," he answered calmly as he descended to the ground. The fire that had surrounded him just now had disappeared in a blink of eyes, "I'm here to check on you."

            "I'm fine. I don't need you to check on me," replied Goku.

            "Oh, really?" he came closer to him and Goku felt himself retreated back against the tree. Damn it, he cursed silently.

            Homura placed his left hand against the tree and another hand was trailing Goku's innocent face. Suddenly, Goku felt his body numbed. He could move neither his hands nor his legs. Homura had pressed his athletic body against his. His eyes were mesmerized with his mismatched eyes. His mind was frantically searching for alternatives.

            "What did you do to me?" he spat angrily. He tried to lift up his right leg, hoping to give a deadly kick to Homura. It failed.

            "Nothing, I just want to have fun with you for a little while," he smirked evilly as he saw terror flashed in Goku's beautiful golden orbs. You can never run away, Son Goku. Never.

            Sanzo pushed Meira away softly as she leaned forward to kiss Sanzo again. He got out of the bed and lit a cigarette. Slowly, he walked towards the window and puffed out grey smokes. Suddenly, he wondered about Goku. He must be sleeping right now, mused Sanzo.

            Hugging Sanzo from behind, she closed her eyes and enjoyed the warmth of his skin, "What's wrong? Did I do something that made you mad?" She knew that Sanzo was thinking about Goku right now. She could see that in his enigmatic amethyst eyes. Damn you, Son Goku. I'll make you'll pay for this!

            "No, it's nothing, really," he assured her as he turned around to face her. He touched the side of her face lovingly and kissed her lightly on the forehead. "You should get some sleep now. We're leaving early tomorrow."

            He switched off the light and slept beside her. Her arms encircled his waist and she rested her chin on his chest. Then, they drifted to sleep peacefully without knowing that someone out there might need their help especially Sanzo's. Someone named Son Goku.

            "Is that tears in your lovely golden eyes? Are you scared of something or someone?" he drawled sexily, touching his rosy cheeks.

            "No, I don't cry and I'm not scared of anyone or anything," he answered solemnly.

            "Oh, really?" he played with his thick russet hair fondly. "Then why are you running away? Are you afraid to confront the reality that Konzen did not love you anymore? Or has he ever loved you at all?"

            He shook his head. He knew that Homura was trying to mess with his feeling. He tried to believe that Sanzo has a place for him in his heart thought he seemed so cold. He told himself that there was nothing between Sanzo and Meira. He really tried to believe that. But he did saw the painful truth with his own eyes. He could not keep lying to himself.

            "Why are you letting yourself to be tortured and tormented by them? You are special, Son Goku. More special than you ever thought," his breath tickled his left ear. They were so close right now.

            "Don't talk to me like you understand everything about me," he hissed dangerously. He still was trying to move his body.

            "I knew everything about you, Goku. Who you really are, your past, your feelings, I knew everything about you. So, why don't you come to me? I can heal those unseen wounds," he touched Goku's chest, "and I won't hurt you just like Konzen did."

            "I can take care of myself," his voice was uncertain and wavering.

            "Don't resist me, Goku. I know deep down in your heart that you need someone who really loves you; someone who will never ever hurt or lie to you like Sanzo did. Come to me. We can make our dream come true. We can build a new world together. A world without taboo, hatred and restriction," then he held up his hand, "a world without chains."

            Then, he leaned forward and brushed his lips against Goku's. He shut his eyes, not knowing what to do. Deep down in his heart, he wanted to believe in Homura and took his hands and vanished. But another part of him still believed that somehow Sanzo still loves him. He really did not what to do and who to believe in. The fighting god or the saviour, his saviour, he thought.

            Suddenly, he felt Homura's lips on his. He tried to protest but that gave a chance to Homura to explore his mouth. Then, he felt white-hot pain surged through his veins. He saw someone in his mind. Am I having a vision?

            In the vision, he saw Homura standing beside someone he could not remember. He felt as if he had been to the place before and knew this lovely girl too. She was a goddess. He knew it from the chakra on her forehead just like Homura's. The girl was picking up beautiful flowers. Then, she sat beside Homura. Her head rested on his broad shoulder. Homura had called her Rinrei. Homura's eyes were soft and he could feel strong positive emotions from him. They were love, trust and passion and there was something else too, a will to live. He could see that Rinrei was very happy and her smile was one of those who were in love. Finally, he realized that both of them were couple and they were deeply in love. Suddenly, Rinrei was taken away forcefully from Homura and the vision ended.

            He was back in the present time. But something felt strange. He was glowing! Homura was still kissing him. "Rinrei," Homura stopped kissing. He took a step back, "have you forgotten about Rinrei already?" he asked him.

            "You remembered Rinrei?" Homura asked tentatively. He stared intently at him. He was deep in thought. This is Seiten Taise Son Goku, The Great Sage Equal To Heaven.

            "That doesn't matter. What matter's now that I know you were in love with her," Goku tried to lose the invisible ropes that bounded him.

            "No one can ever forgets his first love," he answered him softly. Finally, Goku succeeded in unfastened the ropes. He stretched himself.

            Goku inched closer to Homura and placed his palms on Homura's chest or precisely his heart, "Is she still in here?"

            His penetrating eyes softened a bit. He could almost saw guilt and regret in them. The lust is now gone, "Is she still in your heart?"

            "You don't have to answer me. I could see it in your eyes. You have never forgot her all of your life. I guess absence does make the heart grows fonder," Goku smiled softly. He actually felt sad about what had happened to Homura and Rinrei.

            "Though she' gone, she is still here with you. Safely tucked in your heart where no one can harm her or take her way from you," his voice was barely a whisper.

            "There's only one place in your heart and belongs only to Rinrei. No one can replace her, not me, not anyone else. She meant everything to you," he paused," just like Konzen meant everything to me."

            "It's Rinrei who you think about every time you breathed. It's Rinrei who think about before you fall asleep. It is because of Rinrei you committed treason against Tenkai. It's because of Rinrei you're building a new future. You live because of her and die because of her too," Goku stood in front of the lake and watched the moon's reflection. His golden aura glowed brightly and his diadem shone just like a star from a distant sky.

            "Do you believe in Karma, Homura?" the itan asked him quietly, "I believe in it. I believe that even though you and Rinrei were separated in this life, you are going to be united in the next life."

            "I really love Konzen. So, I won't forced him to do something that is not his will," he looked up to Homura and said, "if you love someone you should set them free. If it comes back to you, then it's yours. If not, then you're destined to someone else, someone much better."

            "I understand it now, Son Goku. No, Seiten Taise Son Goku," told Homura.

            "My work is done. I should go now," with that, the golden aura faded slowly and his diadem stop shining. Homura caught Goku before he fell to the ground. He was sleeping soundly.

            Homura orbed back to Goku's room with him in his arms. Then, he put him on his bed. He sat down for a while and watched Goku silently. "You're the only who can see the unseen and understand it very well. Be strong, Son Goku. I'm doing this particularly for you too, for a brighter future. You're the only who can save them." Then he disappeared and left Goku alone…

A/N: Sorry for the late update. Forgive me if there's any grammar mistake or anything. Please review, thank you.