There and back again, writing the next chapter. Probably not a long one,
but I need something to do.
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Discussing with aragorn makes it a little easier to bear that glorfindel confuses me today. That I think he's cute.
'I think he's pretty cute ,' he says and doesn't have a problem with it. But there's the chance that he's lying.
'Does it make your heart skip when he looks at you with his 'puzzled and embarrassed' face ?', I ask and aragorn laughs.
'Nah, of course not. That's the reaction that is reserved for arwen only .'
Oh great. So I got a reaction for glorfindel only. Just what I need right now.
'You sure that you are not, not even a little bit sweet on him ?'
'Sweet on him ? Are you nuts ? Of course sure I'm ~not~ IN LOVE WITH HIM !!!
'Right .'
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Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
You can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
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'Yeah, bloody right. Don't say you do not believe me ?'
'Of course I don't believe you. Look at you. You don't even believe yourself.'
'Yes, I do. I know it ,' I say defiantly, but really I'm not so sure after all. How can I know, I said I was confused and I don't really understand what is going on right now.
'Think about it, legolas. Think about it for a while and then you will probably know what to do all by yourself.'
'Okay. Well, thanks anyway ,' I say, even though he didn't help me. He had just fun listening to me. Oh f*ck. This can't be true, I was so sure. And I feel like I'm going to weep. There I said it, I'm ~crying~ , tears gushing down like white water. Something deep down inside me strains against feeling anything like this and I am so revolted by the thought of just ~liking~ glorfindel. And I don't like him. I gotta puke, this is all tearing me apart. I don't want to feel this, I'm not even sure I do . and I'm not in love. Not with a guy! I can't. It's simply not possible.
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You're doin' flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
At least out loud
I won't say I'm in love
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I run to my room for some shelter. I've not been crying for centuries and now ? Because of this triviality I'm dissolving in tears like a little girl with her first heartache. My bed is my fortress. Nobody can harm me in here, not even glorfindel. He knocks at the door gently every now and then, but I just can't see him right now.
Let's face it : There are no reasons to love glorfindel. He is way older than me (and I mean WAY WAY older) and probably the most boring guy in this world. What could still interest him after being alive nearly 6000 years ? And then, he's not all that beautiful. I bet he's just perfect on first side. He's a friend of elronds'. I'm not too fond of that guy and my enemies friends are my enemies as well, aren't they?
Okay, and here the honest version of the paragraph above : There are a lot of reasons to be sweet on that gorgeous elf. He's one hell of experience and such a lot to tell and teach me. And I know that he's still young in his heart. He's practically just working for elrond, not everybody likes their boss. And best of all, he is just beautiful. Too sexy to be allowed. Oh my god, yes he is. If somebody finds out about this I'll be scoffed at for ages.
I bury myself deeper in my blankets and weep until the door opens. I can guess very well who that would be.
'Go away, glorfindel, I don't want to see anyone right now.'
'You're crying. You've been crying all night. Since you came back from that conversation with aragorn. What the hell did you talk about.'
'None of your business.'
'Come out under that blankets, you can't even breathe under there ,' he says and tugs at one of my blankets.
'Don't do that, I'm just wearing under wear.'
'I don't mind. I know what you look like .'
Well, in that case. I start to work my way to the surface and look at glorfindel with what I hope is a glare, but he just smiles at me.
'What ?'
'You're sweet when you are so sleepy and your hair is standing on end like that .'
There's a hot burning feeling in my stomach. Should that have been a compliment ?
'Thanks.'
'What, nothing else ? Just thanks ?'
'What did you expect ?'
'Usually you fly of your handle when I say cute things .'
'Don't feel like it right now.'
'Come out of those blankets. Where did you get all those, anyway ? You are all flushed .'
'I went looking in the other rooms because I was cold.'
Still I unwrap myself and sit on all the blankets instead, the tears starting to fall again when I notice that I like glorfindel to be around.
'Hey, what is so wrong with you today ?', he looks worried and no century older than me. And cute.
He walks over to my bed and sits down next to me and tries to put his arms around me.
'Nooo !', I jerk back and nearly fall off the bed. Damn it, this is embarrassing again.
Glorfindel helps me back on my throne of blankets. 'Shhshh, easy does it .', he whispers. Then he slowly slips his arms around my waist and this time I let it happen . My head falls to his shoulder and I'm weeping again, worse than before, with my breath going all ragged because he is so close to me, stroking my back and waiting.
'What is it .? You can tell me ,' he says after a long while silence.
'No, no, I c-c-can't. Please don't ask, I can't tell anyone just yet .'
'You know, that I would never hurt you, what ever it may be .'
'I know.'
I look at him in the warm light of the lanterns in my room. He is beautiful. I'd wish to know what made those eyes so mystic and everything else about him. I want to slip arms around him , pull him down and just fall asleep on his chest listening to his heartbeat. But I won't tell.
'You feeling better ,' he asks timidly.
'Yes. Thank you. I didn't want to keep you from going to bed .'
'You didn't. I don't need that much sleep anymore.'
I shift about in my blankets until I'm comfy and glorfindel tucks them under. I'm so tired that I can't keep my eyes open anymore. Thank god this day is over now.
'Well , good night ...', I mumble sleepily.
I hear glorfindel walking about and then stop next to my bed. How close is he ? I don't know. And I start to shiver all over. What is he trying to do ? Not that . no, not now . I can feel is breath on my face, on my lips . I'm feeling all weak and I don't dare to open my eyes. He's playing around with some of my hairstrands and then I feel his lips on mine.
'Mmmh ,' is all I manage to say.
'Sweet dreams, legolas.'
A/N : Well, the chapters are getting shorter and you kinda guessed this would happen, but I didn't want to disappoint the expectations. (Sure.) The lyrics in this chapter belong to 'Won't Say I'm In Love' out of Disneys 'Hercules.
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Discussing with aragorn makes it a little easier to bear that glorfindel confuses me today. That I think he's cute.
'I think he's pretty cute ,' he says and doesn't have a problem with it. But there's the chance that he's lying.
'Does it make your heart skip when he looks at you with his 'puzzled and embarrassed' face ?', I ask and aragorn laughs.
'Nah, of course not. That's the reaction that is reserved for arwen only .'
Oh great. So I got a reaction for glorfindel only. Just what I need right now.
'You sure that you are not, not even a little bit sweet on him ?'
'Sweet on him ? Are you nuts ? Of course sure I'm ~not~ IN LOVE WITH HIM !!!
'Right .'
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Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
You can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
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'Yeah, bloody right. Don't say you do not believe me ?'
'Of course I don't believe you. Look at you. You don't even believe yourself.'
'Yes, I do. I know it ,' I say defiantly, but really I'm not so sure after all. How can I know, I said I was confused and I don't really understand what is going on right now.
'Think about it, legolas. Think about it for a while and then you will probably know what to do all by yourself.'
'Okay. Well, thanks anyway ,' I say, even though he didn't help me. He had just fun listening to me. Oh f*ck. This can't be true, I was so sure. And I feel like I'm going to weep. There I said it, I'm ~crying~ , tears gushing down like white water. Something deep down inside me strains against feeling anything like this and I am so revolted by the thought of just ~liking~ glorfindel. And I don't like him. I gotta puke, this is all tearing me apart. I don't want to feel this, I'm not even sure I do . and I'm not in love. Not with a guy! I can't. It's simply not possible.
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You're doin' flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
At least out loud
I won't say I'm in love
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I run to my room for some shelter. I've not been crying for centuries and now ? Because of this triviality I'm dissolving in tears like a little girl with her first heartache. My bed is my fortress. Nobody can harm me in here, not even glorfindel. He knocks at the door gently every now and then, but I just can't see him right now.
Let's face it : There are no reasons to love glorfindel. He is way older than me (and I mean WAY WAY older) and probably the most boring guy in this world. What could still interest him after being alive nearly 6000 years ? And then, he's not all that beautiful. I bet he's just perfect on first side. He's a friend of elronds'. I'm not too fond of that guy and my enemies friends are my enemies as well, aren't they?
Okay, and here the honest version of the paragraph above : There are a lot of reasons to be sweet on that gorgeous elf. He's one hell of experience and such a lot to tell and teach me. And I know that he's still young in his heart. He's practically just working for elrond, not everybody likes their boss. And best of all, he is just beautiful. Too sexy to be allowed. Oh my god, yes he is. If somebody finds out about this I'll be scoffed at for ages.
I bury myself deeper in my blankets and weep until the door opens. I can guess very well who that would be.
'Go away, glorfindel, I don't want to see anyone right now.'
'You're crying. You've been crying all night. Since you came back from that conversation with aragorn. What the hell did you talk about.'
'None of your business.'
'Come out under that blankets, you can't even breathe under there ,' he says and tugs at one of my blankets.
'Don't do that, I'm just wearing under wear.'
'I don't mind. I know what you look like .'
Well, in that case. I start to work my way to the surface and look at glorfindel with what I hope is a glare, but he just smiles at me.
'What ?'
'You're sweet when you are so sleepy and your hair is standing on end like that .'
There's a hot burning feeling in my stomach. Should that have been a compliment ?
'Thanks.'
'What, nothing else ? Just thanks ?'
'What did you expect ?'
'Usually you fly of your handle when I say cute things .'
'Don't feel like it right now.'
'Come out of those blankets. Where did you get all those, anyway ? You are all flushed .'
'I went looking in the other rooms because I was cold.'
Still I unwrap myself and sit on all the blankets instead, the tears starting to fall again when I notice that I like glorfindel to be around.
'Hey, what is so wrong with you today ?', he looks worried and no century older than me. And cute.
He walks over to my bed and sits down next to me and tries to put his arms around me.
'Nooo !', I jerk back and nearly fall off the bed. Damn it, this is embarrassing again.
Glorfindel helps me back on my throne of blankets. 'Shhshh, easy does it .', he whispers. Then he slowly slips his arms around my waist and this time I let it happen . My head falls to his shoulder and I'm weeping again, worse than before, with my breath going all ragged because he is so close to me, stroking my back and waiting.
'What is it .? You can tell me ,' he says after a long while silence.
'No, no, I c-c-can't. Please don't ask, I can't tell anyone just yet .'
'You know, that I would never hurt you, what ever it may be .'
'I know.'
I look at him in the warm light of the lanterns in my room. He is beautiful. I'd wish to know what made those eyes so mystic and everything else about him. I want to slip arms around him , pull him down and just fall asleep on his chest listening to his heartbeat. But I won't tell.
'You feeling better ,' he asks timidly.
'Yes. Thank you. I didn't want to keep you from going to bed .'
'You didn't. I don't need that much sleep anymore.'
I shift about in my blankets until I'm comfy and glorfindel tucks them under. I'm so tired that I can't keep my eyes open anymore. Thank god this day is over now.
'Well , good night ...', I mumble sleepily.
I hear glorfindel walking about and then stop next to my bed. How close is he ? I don't know. And I start to shiver all over. What is he trying to do ? Not that . no, not now . I can feel is breath on my face, on my lips . I'm feeling all weak and I don't dare to open my eyes. He's playing around with some of my hairstrands and then I feel his lips on mine.
'Mmmh ,' is all I manage to say.
'Sweet dreams, legolas.'
A/N : Well, the chapters are getting shorter and you kinda guessed this would happen, but I didn't want to disappoint the expectations. (Sure.) The lyrics in this chapter belong to 'Won't Say I'm In Love' out of Disneys 'Hercules.
