The One You Can't Forget.
The week had gone by so fast for Rory, she never told anyone that she left Jess and was living in a hotel room. It was too much. She never smiled; she couldn't pick up the phone to tell him she loved him, she never even got out of bed. The next day she had a job interview, and she didn't know what to say. Everything was so horrible, she cried herself to sleep every night. She hoped he would call but he didn't, so she lies there hoping he would come rescue her from her sorrow. She hated herself for doing that to them, she was so happy with him, she loved him so much it was funny how one thing could kill them. As she lies there looking at the ceiling her face was red, her heart was gone, and she knew where it was it was where she wanted to be.with him.
Jess got up and went to work every day, to try to get her off of his mind. It didn't work, he would just think of her all day everything reminded him of her and the things he did wrong. When he went home he would picture her sitting on the love seat waiting for him, but when he got home he found it empty and it would kill him. He would lie in their bed and wish she were there. He didn't call because he knew she needed time, and because he would break down and beg for her to come back into his arms again and he just couldn't do that, not yet at least. He couldn't hate her so he hated himself, his heart was gone, and it had gone with Rory.
The bar was almost done; all he had to do was the graffiti on the walls. The bar was set up like the city, with black walls and all. He decided to go and do the graffiti tonight. As he walked in the bar, he thought of her, the night he bought her to the bar, she had planed out what to do in the bar, she talked about their future together and Jess smiled as that thought rushed through his head, it was the first time he smiled in a week, there was no need to smile if there was no Rory to smile with. He walked over to the cabinet and pulled out a can of electrical blue spray paint out. The color reminded him of those eyes of hers, huge and blue as blue could be. He held the can toward the wall and sprayed Rory across the wall. He looked at it from a distance. He locked up the bar and went back home to look at the ceiling, try to sleep and wish she were there with him. He was so lonely; he no clue what to do or how to feel with out her. For the first time in his life he looked at the ceiling in their bed room and felt a tear fall down his cheek, he shut his eyes and felt alone, a feeling he experienced most of his life until Rory and he began to think it might corrupt him again.
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Rory went to her meeting the next day, with no expression on her face. It was a good thing she was almost done with school, she did well on her exams and she was going to graduate in 2 weeks, she didn't know what she was going to do she would have to tell everyone about leaving Jess. Maybe they would be together by then though, she hated being with out him, and hopefully he would take her back, but where was she going to get the nerve to talk to him, and why would he take her back? After what she did to him, he probably hated her, but being away made her realize how much she loved him. Her life was always so perfect and she was always so organized, that went right out the window, she had no clue why she wanted to leave but she did. They never really saw each other, and when they did they fought. They should have been able to work that out, she shouldn't of left, and most of all she should of told him how she felt.
She glanced down at her hand, she never took those rings off, she did everything with them on, they felt like part of her and she didn't want to lose them. She remembered the morning she found that note. ~She woke up and he was gone, but there was a note. She read it and found the ring. ~ She pictured that little cottage and their first time so perfectly. Jess was the only man she was ever with, and only one she wants to be with. She smiled and got up to leave, she didn't care about the stupid interview; she walked right out of the door and drove to the hotel where she had been staying. She collected all of her things and put them in the car. She paid the bill and drove away; still not know what to say accept 'I love you' to him. It was the first time in a long time that she smiled. She drove up to the building and took all of her belongings inside. She looked through the apartment everything was the same, nothing was touched or moved just the way she left it. It was 3 o'clock she knew he would be soon, she still didn't know what to say to him she knew that she hurt him, and she just hoped that he would forgive her and take her back. She stood by the kitchen sink, and looked over at the counter top, there sat her book, 'To Kill A Mockingbird' it was one of her favorite books, still on the page she left off on. She picked it up and went to sit on the love seat. She was so tired she hadn't slept much; it felt weird to sleep alone in a bed that wasn't even hers. She couldn't keep her eyes open any longer, she drifted into a deep, deep sleep.
Jess decided he was going to call Rory's cell phone, and well beg. He walked up to the door and discovered it to be unlocked. He walked in and immediately smelt that sweat smell that he had missed so much. He found her small figure, and his heart came back to him, the alone feeling drifted, and there she was. He slowly walked up to her, she was still asleep and more beautiful than he remembered. He knelt down in front of her, and just stared at her beauty. Rory's eyes started to open sleepily, Jess leaned forward and kissed her lips lightly, he didn't know if she wanted him to but he wanted to, it was driving him crazy.
"I'm sorry," She whispered in her sleepy state. She opened her eyes to look at him, there he was. The smell of welded filled the room and Rory loved it. "Jess, I. I hate being without you," she whispered with tears in her voice. She said as she sat up.
Jess rubbed his hand across her back to try to sooth her.
"I was being stupid, when I thought I could live without you, I lied I can't I hate it." She leaned towards him and dropped her head to his shoulder.
Jess wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him. "Shhh, I know," he whispered into her neck.
"I left you, and you didn't do anything wrong. I'm so stupid. I couldn't sleep, because you weren't there and I didn't call cause I thought you'd hate me for leaving you, I'm so sorry Jess."
"No, shhh its ok,"
Rory nodded her head on his shoulder. It was the first time in a week she felt like she was living.
"I hate being alone, please don't leave again," Jess whispered into Rory's neck. Jess never told anyone about his fear of being alone, with no one to love or to love him. Rory took that fear away, and he prayed she wouldn't give it back.
"I won't I promise," Rory knew she couldn't leave again. Being away from him made her realize how much she really need him. She never knew what it was like to be alone, but know she did she hated that feeling, it felt like a hole, and it ate through her chest but once Jess was there in closed and she was living again.
Jess closed his eyes, and pulled her off of the love seat and into his lap, where he wouldn't let go of her, in fear that she might run again. He never needed anyone, but he needed her, and when he thought about her leaving it made him sick. He didn't want to let her go, he wanted to keep her to him forever.
Rory pulled away to look him in the eyes. When she looked at him she saw worry, pain, and happiness all at the same time. He was so dark and mysterious always making her wonder how he became that way. Right know she didn't need to wonder why, being alone caused it, having to fend for himself and being by himself with no one there to love him. She leaned and kissed him gently on the lips, the taste of him was the same still the bit of sour she wanted more of. "I won't leave again, Jess," she whispered as she buried her head in his chest. She felt his arms wrap around her once again it was the same old feeling, but this time it had a bit of a change, she felt his sorrows which she had never felt before, his pain flowed through her the pain that she had caused. "I won't hurt you again." She whispered quickly.
Jess could hear her breathing go calm, the more he held on to her, he could feel her heart beating against his. He was alive, he still wasn't sure if she was going to stay, so he held on to her. Jess felt Rory pulling to get up, so he let her. She reached out for him to take her hand, so he did.
Rory grabbed his hand and walked with him to their bedroom. She slipped her cloths off and grabbed one of is beaters and put it on. She slipped into the bed next to his bare body except for the boxers he had on. He pulled her close to him and she smiled as she felt his chest rise and fall against hers. "I love you," she whispered and looked into his eyes.
He smiled lightly and kissed her gently " I love you, too."
Rory smiled and fell asleep in his arms.
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Rory woke up the next morning in the same place she fell asleep in. "Jess," Rory said sweetly.
He looked at her, "Rory why did you leave?" Jess blurted out before he knew what he was saying. " What did I do wrong?" It was driving Jess crazy he wanted some answers just so he could make sure it wouldn't happen again.
Rory looked at him the spoke. "You where working so much, and I was alone all the time. I know you are trying to get us by but, I felt like you had your mind on other things." Rory glanced down. "When we where together all we did was fight, you always did stupid things I'd get mad but, the last one I just flipped out and I thought I could do ok with out you, but I missed you to much."
Jess looked into her eyes, he saw her soul so full and pure. "I'm sorry,"
"I love you the way you are, but the jokes and games just hurt sometimes. I didn't mean what I said, I think that I should have acted differently."
Jess kissed he shoulder, " I missed you," he smiled lightly at her. "Just don't run again,"
"I won't," She kissed him gently, "I think we should talk about things a little more"
Jess looked at her, and nodded. He reached his hand out and touched her cheek, pushing away her hair.
Rory closed her eyes as his hand went over her jaw line and to the back of here neck pulling her towards him. Rory felt his lips meet hers, as his hands got lost in her hair. She broke the kiss and looked at him, he was the same as when she first saw him, just as handsome and his arms got a lot bigger but he was the same Jess. She kissed him softly once again and pulled herself closer to him. "When do you have to go to work?" she mumbled into his chest.
"I have off."
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Rory and Jess talked most of the morning, and figured out their problems now it was just a matter of fixing them.
A/N: Ok I did this whole thing to prove that tiny things can lead to big things; I wanted to tell how each of them felt with out the other, I don't know if I did a good job or not. So send me a review!
The week had gone by so fast for Rory, she never told anyone that she left Jess and was living in a hotel room. It was too much. She never smiled; she couldn't pick up the phone to tell him she loved him, she never even got out of bed. The next day she had a job interview, and she didn't know what to say. Everything was so horrible, she cried herself to sleep every night. She hoped he would call but he didn't, so she lies there hoping he would come rescue her from her sorrow. She hated herself for doing that to them, she was so happy with him, she loved him so much it was funny how one thing could kill them. As she lies there looking at the ceiling her face was red, her heart was gone, and she knew where it was it was where she wanted to be.with him.
Jess got up and went to work every day, to try to get her off of his mind. It didn't work, he would just think of her all day everything reminded him of her and the things he did wrong. When he went home he would picture her sitting on the love seat waiting for him, but when he got home he found it empty and it would kill him. He would lie in their bed and wish she were there. He didn't call because he knew she needed time, and because he would break down and beg for her to come back into his arms again and he just couldn't do that, not yet at least. He couldn't hate her so he hated himself, his heart was gone, and it had gone with Rory.
The bar was almost done; all he had to do was the graffiti on the walls. The bar was set up like the city, with black walls and all. He decided to go and do the graffiti tonight. As he walked in the bar, he thought of her, the night he bought her to the bar, she had planed out what to do in the bar, she talked about their future together and Jess smiled as that thought rushed through his head, it was the first time he smiled in a week, there was no need to smile if there was no Rory to smile with. He walked over to the cabinet and pulled out a can of electrical blue spray paint out. The color reminded him of those eyes of hers, huge and blue as blue could be. He held the can toward the wall and sprayed Rory across the wall. He looked at it from a distance. He locked up the bar and went back home to look at the ceiling, try to sleep and wish she were there with him. He was so lonely; he no clue what to do or how to feel with out her. For the first time in his life he looked at the ceiling in their bed room and felt a tear fall down his cheek, he shut his eyes and felt alone, a feeling he experienced most of his life until Rory and he began to think it might corrupt him again.
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Rory went to her meeting the next day, with no expression on her face. It was a good thing she was almost done with school, she did well on her exams and she was going to graduate in 2 weeks, she didn't know what she was going to do she would have to tell everyone about leaving Jess. Maybe they would be together by then though, she hated being with out him, and hopefully he would take her back, but where was she going to get the nerve to talk to him, and why would he take her back? After what she did to him, he probably hated her, but being away made her realize how much she loved him. Her life was always so perfect and she was always so organized, that went right out the window, she had no clue why she wanted to leave but she did. They never really saw each other, and when they did they fought. They should have been able to work that out, she shouldn't of left, and most of all she should of told him how she felt.
She glanced down at her hand, she never took those rings off, she did everything with them on, they felt like part of her and she didn't want to lose them. She remembered the morning she found that note. ~She woke up and he was gone, but there was a note. She read it and found the ring. ~ She pictured that little cottage and their first time so perfectly. Jess was the only man she was ever with, and only one she wants to be with. She smiled and got up to leave, she didn't care about the stupid interview; she walked right out of the door and drove to the hotel where she had been staying. She collected all of her things and put them in the car. She paid the bill and drove away; still not know what to say accept 'I love you' to him. It was the first time in a long time that she smiled. She drove up to the building and took all of her belongings inside. She looked through the apartment everything was the same, nothing was touched or moved just the way she left it. It was 3 o'clock she knew he would be soon, she still didn't know what to say to him she knew that she hurt him, and she just hoped that he would forgive her and take her back. She stood by the kitchen sink, and looked over at the counter top, there sat her book, 'To Kill A Mockingbird' it was one of her favorite books, still on the page she left off on. She picked it up and went to sit on the love seat. She was so tired she hadn't slept much; it felt weird to sleep alone in a bed that wasn't even hers. She couldn't keep her eyes open any longer, she drifted into a deep, deep sleep.
Jess decided he was going to call Rory's cell phone, and well beg. He walked up to the door and discovered it to be unlocked. He walked in and immediately smelt that sweat smell that he had missed so much. He found her small figure, and his heart came back to him, the alone feeling drifted, and there she was. He slowly walked up to her, she was still asleep and more beautiful than he remembered. He knelt down in front of her, and just stared at her beauty. Rory's eyes started to open sleepily, Jess leaned forward and kissed her lips lightly, he didn't know if she wanted him to but he wanted to, it was driving him crazy.
"I'm sorry," She whispered in her sleepy state. She opened her eyes to look at him, there he was. The smell of welded filled the room and Rory loved it. "Jess, I. I hate being without you," she whispered with tears in her voice. She said as she sat up.
Jess rubbed his hand across her back to try to sooth her.
"I was being stupid, when I thought I could live without you, I lied I can't I hate it." She leaned towards him and dropped her head to his shoulder.
Jess wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him. "Shhh, I know," he whispered into her neck.
"I left you, and you didn't do anything wrong. I'm so stupid. I couldn't sleep, because you weren't there and I didn't call cause I thought you'd hate me for leaving you, I'm so sorry Jess."
"No, shhh its ok,"
Rory nodded her head on his shoulder. It was the first time in a week she felt like she was living.
"I hate being alone, please don't leave again," Jess whispered into Rory's neck. Jess never told anyone about his fear of being alone, with no one to love or to love him. Rory took that fear away, and he prayed she wouldn't give it back.
"I won't I promise," Rory knew she couldn't leave again. Being away from him made her realize how much she really need him. She never knew what it was like to be alone, but know she did she hated that feeling, it felt like a hole, and it ate through her chest but once Jess was there in closed and she was living again.
Jess closed his eyes, and pulled her off of the love seat and into his lap, where he wouldn't let go of her, in fear that she might run again. He never needed anyone, but he needed her, and when he thought about her leaving it made him sick. He didn't want to let her go, he wanted to keep her to him forever.
Rory pulled away to look him in the eyes. When she looked at him she saw worry, pain, and happiness all at the same time. He was so dark and mysterious always making her wonder how he became that way. Right know she didn't need to wonder why, being alone caused it, having to fend for himself and being by himself with no one there to love him. She leaned and kissed him gently on the lips, the taste of him was the same still the bit of sour she wanted more of. "I won't leave again, Jess," she whispered as she buried her head in his chest. She felt his arms wrap around her once again it was the same old feeling, but this time it had a bit of a change, she felt his sorrows which she had never felt before, his pain flowed through her the pain that she had caused. "I won't hurt you again." She whispered quickly.
Jess could hear her breathing go calm, the more he held on to her, he could feel her heart beating against his. He was alive, he still wasn't sure if she was going to stay, so he held on to her. Jess felt Rory pulling to get up, so he let her. She reached out for him to take her hand, so he did.
Rory grabbed his hand and walked with him to their bedroom. She slipped her cloths off and grabbed one of is beaters and put it on. She slipped into the bed next to his bare body except for the boxers he had on. He pulled her close to him and she smiled as she felt his chest rise and fall against hers. "I love you," she whispered and looked into his eyes.
He smiled lightly and kissed her gently " I love you, too."
Rory smiled and fell asleep in his arms.
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Rory woke up the next morning in the same place she fell asleep in. "Jess," Rory said sweetly.
He looked at her, "Rory why did you leave?" Jess blurted out before he knew what he was saying. " What did I do wrong?" It was driving Jess crazy he wanted some answers just so he could make sure it wouldn't happen again.
Rory looked at him the spoke. "You where working so much, and I was alone all the time. I know you are trying to get us by but, I felt like you had your mind on other things." Rory glanced down. "When we where together all we did was fight, you always did stupid things I'd get mad but, the last one I just flipped out and I thought I could do ok with out you, but I missed you to much."
Jess looked into her eyes, he saw her soul so full and pure. "I'm sorry,"
"I love you the way you are, but the jokes and games just hurt sometimes. I didn't mean what I said, I think that I should have acted differently."
Jess kissed he shoulder, " I missed you," he smiled lightly at her. "Just don't run again,"
"I won't," She kissed him gently, "I think we should talk about things a little more"
Jess looked at her, and nodded. He reached his hand out and touched her cheek, pushing away her hair.
Rory closed her eyes as his hand went over her jaw line and to the back of here neck pulling her towards him. Rory felt his lips meet hers, as his hands got lost in her hair. She broke the kiss and looked at him, he was the same as when she first saw him, just as handsome and his arms got a lot bigger but he was the same Jess. She kissed him softly once again and pulled herself closer to him. "When do you have to go to work?" she mumbled into his chest.
"I have off."
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Rory and Jess talked most of the morning, and figured out their problems now it was just a matter of fixing them.
A/N: Ok I did this whole thing to prove that tiny things can lead to big things; I wanted to tell how each of them felt with out the other, I don't know if I did a good job or not. So send me a review!
