A/N: More with the Dee and Ryo drama. Don't worry. I'll have them making up soon. I hate to tell you this, but no Sweaty Russian Man Love. There will be talk of it. But nothing real detailed. I'm sorry. Maybe in the future. Maybe. I still hope you continue reading though.

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The next day Dee grabbed Ryo and pulled him into the brake room. "I need to talk to you." Ryo looked at him. "Do you really believe I would cheat on you?" Ryo didn't answer. "Ryo. Do you really believe I would cheat on you?"

". I don't know. Tell me why you've been acting so strangely lately."

Dee sighed. "I can't."

"Then I believe you're cheating on me."

"But I would never do that to you."

Ryo smiled and raised and eyebrow. "Oh really?" Ryo handed him the note he found on the dresser. Dee stared at him. "You left this on the dresser when you left yesterday. It tells me how you can't be with me anymore. How it's too hard for you. How you just don't want to hurt me."

Dee read over the note. He forgot about that. Then he looked at the top of the paper. "Did you see when this was dated?" Ryo shook his head. Dee shoved that paper in his face. "It was dated three years ago. When I ended up in the hospital because of a case we where working on. I had that breakdown. Remember that? We were investigating a series of gay bashings. And I was beginning to worry about you, about us. And I thought if we stayed together, the same thing would happen to you. And I didn't want to see you in the hospital or dead. So I wrote that letter while I was recovering. I didn't want you to get hurt. Not because I was fucking someone else."

Ryo looked at the date. He remembered Dee ended up in the hospital. The scene wasn't pretty. Two young men were killed when someone saw them making out in an alley. The scene was too much for Dee to take and he lost it. He ended up in the hospital because of it. He couldn't believe he forgot about that. He looked into Dee's eyes and saw nothing but anger. He lowered his head.

"If you don't trust me, then this relationship is over," Dee said in a lower tone. "Do you trust me?" Ryo shook his head. "Then it's over. My stuff will be gone by the time you return home." He walked away. Ryo drop down in a chair and slammed his fist off the table.

During the day, both Drake and JJ tried to talk to Ryo. But he wouldn't listen. He didn't want to hear anything anyone said. He didn't care. Nothing anyone said was going to change his mind about Dee.

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"Ryo?" Ryo looked up to see Bikky standing in the doorway of his office. "I need to talk to you. It's very important." Ryo nodded told someone he was going on his lunch break and left. They found a same place near the station and sat down. "I need to talk to you about Dee."

"There's nothing to talk about. It's over between us."

"Why?"

Ryo told Bikky everything that happened that night before. Bikky shook his head. "And you really believe that Dee would do something like that to you?" Ryo shrugged. "In all the years you two have been together has Dee ever done anything to ever hurt you?" Ryo shook his head. "Then why in the hell would he do something like that now?"

"Maybe he's tired of being with me."

"Bullshit."

"Then you tell me. You've been spending a lot of time with him these past few weeks. Have you notice anything weird? Have you seen him with anyone?"

Bikky sighed. He couldn't believe what Ryo was saying. Why didn't Dee just ask him? "Well?" Bikky looked at Ryo. He wasn't sure what to say. He knew Dee would never cheat on Ryo. But also, he couldn't tell Ryo why Dee was acting so weird. Dee had to tell him. But first he had to get Ryo to trust him. "No," he finally said. "I haven't seen him with anyone. He would never do that to you. You should know that." Ryo nodded.

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When Ryo finally returned home, he found it empty. Everything of Dee's was gone. His key was lying in the middle of the coffee table. Ryo just stood in the doorway for a moment. It had been some years since he had come home to and empty apartment. It felt strange. Slowly he came inside and went into the bedroom to change. He spent the night walking around the empty apartment. Maybe he made of mistake of accusing him. Maybe he should have listened to Dee. Maybe. He wasn't sure. The way Dee had been acting lately, he wasn't sure what else to think. Maybe he'll talk to him tomorrow.

He sat down on the couch and began going through his mail. He found a letter from Dee. It was post-marked some years ago. He read it.

Dear Ryo,

I 'm not sure if you'll ever read this, but I'm writing it anyway. I know you're not sure of your feelings for me. And I can wait until you are. But I am sure of my feeling for you. I love you. I love you so much it hurts. But I'm going to give you the time of you need to figure things out for yourself. I'm not sure if you're afraid to be in a relationship with a man, or if it's just me. I can promise you this though. I promise to make you the happiest I can. I promise to be there when you need me. I promise to be your should to cry on. To listen when you need to talk. I promise to stay true to you and never stray. I know how much is hurts to have someone cheat on you. And I would never put you through that kind of pain. I love you more then words can say. But until you a ready, I'll just be here. Being Dee. That's all I can do for now. I hope someday you can love and trust me as I love and trust you.
~Dee

Ryo read the letter over and over. He sat it back down on the table. Dee wrote that before they ever had their first night together. Before he's encounter with Leo. He wrote it after they Christmas Dee had surprise him with the little tree and treats. He had no idea that Dee loved him so much then. He had kept ever promise he made in that letter. Every one.

"I really fucked up," he whispered. The letter proved Dee's loyalty to him. And he doubted him. Believing that Dee would actually do something so horrible to him. He looked over at the phone. Maybe he should call him. No. After what happened at the office earlier, Dee wouldn't listen to him. Besides, he had no idea where he was. He would try talking to him tomorrow, if Dee gave him the chance. He ran his fingers through his hair. He wasn't going to be sleeping tonight.

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Later the next day, Ryo caught Dee as he was leaving. He asked if they could go somewhere to talk. Dee agreed. They went up to the roof. "So, what did you want to talk about?" Dee asked. A bit agitated.

"About what I said the other night. I was wrong."

"You think?"

Ryo shut his eyes. He was expecting this. The way he had treated Dee, he didn't expect Dee to be very pleasant. "Yes. I was upset. I mean you've been acting so strange lately, I didn't know what else to think."

"Did you think about talking to me?"

Ryo shook his head. He pulled the letter out of his coat pocket. "I got this last night." Dee stared at the letter. "Do you know what this is?" Dee nodded. He had completely forgotten about that letter. But how did Ryo get it? He thought he had thrown it away. "I read it."

"And?"

"I was stupid. And this letter proved it. You kept every promise you made to me in this letter. And I still doubted you." Dee nodded. "I don't know what to say to make things right. Maybe there isn't anything. But I was wrong and I'm sorry. And if you don't want to come back. I understand. Just please forgive me. I never meant what I did. Really." Again Dee nodded. He headed for the door to go downstairs. "Will you forgive me?" Ryo asked.

Dee turned and looked at him. "Maybe." He left.

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Okay. That was short. I hope you enjoyed it. I'm trying hard to speed this up. But there's so much I want to put in here. The wedding is coming soon. I swear. Thank you for reading this far. And thank you for all the reviews, I'm very grateful for everyone who took the time to read and review this. I think this story has gotten better from when I first post it. What do you think? I dunno. Should have the next chapter in a couple of days or so.