Sweet-Usako: Hey everyone! Ok…finally a fast update!! Ha! Didn't let you guys wait this time!! Hehez…at least this is an improvement! I hope you've all been anxious to read this chapter as much as I'm anxious to write this! It is going to be the second last chapter of Memories of the Past! I know…it's ending already. But yea…I don't see the point of dragging it on and on. Anyways, there's going to be a…surprise at the end of this chapter and you may start noticing something along the way. Anyways, I'm going to start now!! I think you guys suffered enough…waiting for me to update. Well, this is it everyone! Have fun!
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailormoon!!
Song I used: 'Have you ever' belongs to S Club 7!!
Recap from last chapter:
Serena jumped out from behind the tree and ran full speed towards him. "DARIEN! WATCH OUT!" She screamed and pushed him out of the way.
Darien was watching everything happening in slow motion. First, he had heard Serena's voice and turned to see her and the car…than….she had pushed him and the car screeched, trying to stop…but…it didn't stop in time…the car had hit Serena.
He suddenly realized what happened and ran towards the fallen girl. "OH MY GOD! SERENA! SERENA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Memories of the Past
Chapter Thirteen: The truth…
Darien sat numbly beside her, holding on to her cold hand. He felt like shit. He couldn't believe this was happening to him all over again! It was like a déjà vu, watching Serena pushing him out of danger while knowing she would be sacrificing her own life during the process. He hated himself for letting this happen again! Why does this kept happening? Maybe he was cursed. Maybe he would be better off being alone, so that way, he wouldn't lead the people he cared so much about be hurt.
Flashback
"If she wakes up from this, then she would definitely be out of danger…if not…" the doctor told Darien, his face showed sadness. He hated this job sometimes, telling the people bad news.
"So, if she wakes up from this, everything's going to be fine?" Darien asked anxiously. Maybe there was hope after all. Maybe Serena would make it through this! 'She will! I know she will! She's a strong girl…that's why I'm in love with her…'
The doctor hesitated before continuing. "Well, she definitely has some broken bones, but as for the rest, we'll have to wait until she wakes up. We won't know what else is wrong with her right now…one of the most common injuries from car accidents is damaged to the brain. So even if she wakes up…she might have amnesia." The doctor said and left.
End of Flashback
Sometimes
it's wrong to walk away
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
You just want to change the way the world goes round.
"Maybe I should leave…all I've ever done is caused trouble for my friends." Darien said, looking down at the sleeping Serena. 'Maybe if I leave, you would have a better chance of living and recovery." He looked at her with sad eyes. He doesn't want to leave her here, especially when she needed him the most. But maybe it was for the best.
"I'm sorry Serena…I love you…" Darien whispered to her. He got up and kissed her forehead, resisting the temptation of kissing her cherry lips.
When he was about to let go of her hand, he felt her squeeze his own hand. It was as if she knew he was leaving and holding on to him like it was her lifeline. "I'm really sorry Serena…I hope you'll forgive me…" he said and left without turning back. He hadn't realized the tear that fell down Serena's face.
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"WHAT?" Andrew exclaimed into his phone. "You're leaving while Serena's still in the hospital? You're suppose to be there helping her, to help her get through this! How can you just leave like this? Why are you running away instead of facing your problems? Why are you such a coward?" Andrew asked, pissed.
Darien sighed. "I know it's a bad time Drew. Hell I want to stay too! But I can't bare seeing the woman I love lying on that bed, knowing I've brought this on to her! It hurts me too much to see her like that! I've caused too much pain to other people's lives! I don't want anymore of you guys to get hurt because of me! It's better if I leave! She'll recover without my bad luck hanging around!" Darien said, trying to control his voice.
"No, no Dar! Don't this like that! It was just an accident! Don't do this to us please! Don't do this to her! You can't just leave everything behind…please! Serena needs you here…she'll need you when she wakes up! She…she care about you Dar! I know, because she came to find me a week after you confessed your feelings for her! She'd be crushed if you weren't here after she wakes up! I bet you'll be the first person she asks to see after she wakes up! Please don't leave…" Andrew pleaded.
Darien closed his eyes and opened them again. "I have to…" Darien said in a low defeated voice. "I got to go…I'll write…I promise! I'll write and phone as soon as I get to America. I have to go now…it's my plane…bye." Darien hung up before Andrew can say anything else. He knew that he'd end up staying if he keeps listening to Andrew. He wouldn't have the heart to leave. He picked up his suite case and walked through the gates.
Tell
me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel, about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
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Serena stirred, fighting to open her eyes. She felt like she was surrounded in darkness. "Darien…" she murmured and a tear rolled down her eyes. Mrs. Tsukino felt her daughter's movement and woke up completely.
"SERENA! OH MY GOD…thank god you're awake! Everyone's going to be so happy to hear this! Oh…we've been so worried about you! I'll go call everyone and tell them the good news." Serena's mom exclaimed, happy tears fell down her cheeks.
'Mom…where are you…' Serena thought. 'Darien…'
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Yo Dar!
You buster! You never called or wrote! Man, you're so dead when you come back! I'm going to beat the shit out of you! Anyways, good news buddy! SERENA WOKE UP…and nothing seems to be wrong. But I don't know, the doctors are still checking. You know…for some odd reason, she kind of knew you left. I went to visit her and she just asked… 'He's not here anymore is he…?' That was exactly what she said. I didn't know what to say to her. I mean...she's already going through so much and…anyways did you tell her before you left? Cuz…if you did, than I think she must have heard you. Otherwise, she might have felt it. I don't know…you better get your ass back here soon! She needs you Darien…even though she doesn't say it; we can see it in her eyes. She's different…somehow. She doesn't talk a lot anymore…her smiles seemed to be forced…like she doesn't really want to smile but she didn't want us to get worried. You might be surprised if you see her now. Maybe she'll start to heal…slowly. We really miss the old Sere…and we really miss you. It feels like we've lost the both of you. You're not here with us for real and even though Serena is…she's not really here, her heart isn't. I think you should come back…and face her. I know you're trying to escape from her, your problems and your past. But you've got to pull yourself together man! I want everything to be like old times, but it seems kind of impossible now. Everything's changed. People say sometimes change is good…well, I hope so. Mina and I are getting married in a couple of months, we're waiting for everything to settle down a little first with Serena…will you be back for your best friend's wedding? If not…then I understand. Just make sure you don't ever forget about us!
Your best buddy,
Andrew.
Darien read the letter and felt relief washed over him. Serena was ok and that's what matters. The best part was, she hadn't forgotten. But, maybe she should have. Then maybe she won't have to remember all the pain he's caused her and start a new life without those painful memories. He wanted to go back, but he's afraid. Andrew's right…he was running away.
Darien read the letter and felt relief washed over him. Serena was alright and that's what matters. The best part was, she hadn't forgotten him. But, maybe she should have? It would've been easier for her. That way, she didn't have to carry all the painful memories he left behind. He wanted to go back, but he was afraid. Andrew's right, he was running away. He's a coward.
'I'm sorry Serena…'
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Serena sat by her bedroom window, spacing out again. She seems to be doing a lot of that lately, ever since she got back from the hospital a week ago. She stared out the window, listening to the sound of the rain against her window shield feeling the loneliness in her heart. She closed her eyes and sees two lonely figures caught in a storm sharing an umbrella.
Flashback
"Shoot, I don't have my umbrella!" Serena cursed under her breath. This was the worst day of her life. Just when she thought nothing else could go wrong, it started to rain. She sighed and walked out of the building. The rain immediately soaked up her hair and clothes. She walked slowly, taking her time. No point to run to death when her clothes are already wet.
She didn't know why but a strange feeling ran through her inside. It was days like these that make her feel lonely. How she wished her knight in shinning armor was here, protecting her from the rain.
She suddenly stopped walking when she spotted someone standing just a few feet away from her, hand holding an umbrella. Serena blinked, feeling confused. She had no idea why he was standing there in the rain holding an umbrella. She felt herself blush when he strolled towards her. Her stomach did flip- flops and her heart started beating at an abnormal speed when he stopped right in front of her. She looked into his eyes and before she could even say anything, he had brought her in for a hug.
"You're all wet." He said, and her loneliness faded away.
"Darien…"She mumbled into his chest. "Thank you…"
End of Flashback
Serena could still remember the way he smelled, the way he looked at her with his eyes full of concern when he stood there. Serena smiled sadly at the memory. He had always been there for her when she was in trouble back when they were still in high school. He was her knight in shinning armor.
Flashback
"I'm sorry, but I don't dance." Serena said politely to the silvery haired guy. His eyes darkened. He took a step towards her and grabbed her wrists.
"You will dance with me…" He said and tugged forcefully. Serena struggled to free her wrist.
"Let go you creep!" Serena looked around, for anyone to look this way and help her to get away from this psycho mania. She wanted to get as far away from this mad-man as soon as possible. But she couldn't because his grip on her was too strong and it was starting to hurt her.
"Stop struggling you bit-"he was cut off when someone threw him away from Serena.
"Diamond, never force anyone into doing something they don't want." He said his voice as cold as ice. He mentioned Serena to get behind him. "If you ever lay another finger on her, you'd wish you were never born." With that, he brought her back inside.
They stayed silent for a few minutes. "Are you ok?" his eyes filed with concern. She nodded, too speechless to say anything else.
"Ok, good. He didn't do anything to you did he?" he asked darkly. Serena shook her head. Darien gave her a warm smile and held out his hand. "Would you care to dance mi lady?" he asked with an amused grin.
Serena just stared at his hand and looked up at him again. "I'm not very good at dancing…" she admitted, blushing.
"That's ok, I can teach you…"Darien said huskily.
"But I might step on your feet…" Serena protested, looking away. She didn't know if being so close to Darien was a very good idea.
"No problem, I'll just try to avoid it…" Darien replied, not giving up. Serena looked up at him and finally gave in.
"Alright then…you asked for it!" Serena answered and he took her small hand and led her to the dance floor.
End of Flashback
Serena sat there, thinking about the times she had with Darien when the radio came on.
Can't
help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realized
It was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
As she listened to the song, tears started falling down her eyes. This was the first time she cried since she woke up. She was trying so hard to bottle everything inside and she couldn't take it anymore. She broke down sobbing into her hand. She didn't want to cry, she wanted to be strong. But she just couldn't get rid of the emptiness she felt inside. Darien wasn't here anymore, he had left her. It's ironic how the song matches her situation perfectly.
She got up from the spot and felt around for a picture of Darien on her desk. When she found it she looked at it hardly, trying to memorize every detail about him. It was kind of hard for her to see the picture, it seems so blurry. She made herself to bed and cried herself to sleep holding the bunny Darien had won for her at the carnival.
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Tell
me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel... about you and me... baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know...
cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
Darien couldn't sleep. Every time he closed his eyes, he sees images of Serena. He couldn't get her out of his mind. Not one second did he not think about her. He couldn't help but feel incomplete and the pain in his empty heart. He would never stop loving her and he would never love anyone other than her.
He longed to taste those lips of hers and to have her in his arms. He wanted to see her. But he knew that was impossible. He had made the decision to walk out of her life, and he would not back out on his decision. He was going to stay in America and finish his 4 years of university, 4 years of medical school, and 2 years of internship. This was going to be 10 years of hell and 10 years without her.
I
really wanna hear you say that you know just how it
feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moments gone I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
^_______________^ (10 years later)
Darien walked through the automatic door to the arcade. Andrew had told him a while back that he had opened an arcade with Mina after they were married. That place was one of the most well known places in an instant.
Darien decided to come back to work at the hospital here after he had gotten his degree. He had put a lot of time deciding whether or not he should come back. But his heart's desire won over in the end. He couldn't bare not seeing Serena for the rest of his life. Even if it means stirring up bad memories for her.
He looked around the place, trying to get the details in. It was full of children, teenagers and a whole lot of noises. He looked over the counter and found a man with sandy-blond hair serving drinks. He grinned, Andrew haven't changed one bit.
Darien made his way to the counter and sat down. He looked at Andrew through his sun-glasses and kept a straight face. "I'd like a cup of black coffee." Darien said, sounding very professional.
Why not have some fun, since he's already back! He didn't tell Andrew he was coming back, so his buddy would be in for a very, very big surprise. He knew how much Andrew wanted him to com back.
Darien could feel Andrew's eyes on him. He had a very suspicious and confused look on his face. Darien almost burst out laughing right there. Man he was good, maybe he should've became an actor instead of spending 10 boring years to be a doctor. He felt Andrew leave and moments later, back with his black coffee.
"Excuse me…but do I know you from somewhere? You look kind of familiar." Andrew asked. Darien finally gave up and chuckled a little.
He took off his sun-glasses and smirked. "What, don't even remember your best friend? I'm hurt 'Drew!" Darien teased. Andrew's eyes widened with shock. Darien was surprised he didn't faint right there.
"D-Darien? Is it really you?" Andrew asked, not believe the person standing in front of him. "Oh man…I must be dreaming…"
"Nope, I'm here alright." Darien said, and took a slip of his coffee.
Andrew grinned. "You jerk! You came back and you didn't even let me know!"
"I decided to give you a surprise!" Darien answered. "Man…I haven't seen you in years and you haven't changed one bit!"
"Well, same goes for you. But maybe you're better looking than before, considering the amount of girls flocking at you increased since last time." Andrew said, looking at Darien's back and saw girls looking at his buddy with hearts in their eyes.
Darien frowned a little. "I don't want all those girls. I only have one woman in mind…" Darien confessed. Andrew looked at him seriously.
"You still love her don't you…" he asked, sympathy for his best friend washed over him.
"Yeah…I never stopped thinking about her for a minute. I see her in my dreams, I see her when I close my eyes, and I see her everywhere. It was hell not seeing her for the past 10 years. Man. I regretted walking away from her that day. I should never have walked away like that. I'm back to gain her trust and respect and if possible love again." Darien paused to look at Andrew. "I can't live without her 'Drew…she's the only one for me and I don't care how long it'll take me to win her back…but I'm not giving up until I do."
Andrew just nodded. "Dare…I have something to tell you…about Sere…" he said quietly.
Darien panicked. 'What if she's already married to another?' "She's not married…is she?" Darien asked.
Andrew smiled. "No…it's not that…it's…" he stopped himself. He couldn't tell him. No, Darien would just have to find out himself.
"Good, I was afraid she was…you were saying?" Darien asked, relieved.
Andrew shook his head. "Nothing, I'm just glad you're back! I'll let the others know." Andrew said.
"Well, ok…I got to go…I'll see you later 'Drew!" Darien said, and walked out.
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Tell
me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see (oooOOoo)
That's the way I feel, about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking i should
know
(I should know...)
cause I loved and lost the day I let
yes i loved to lost the day i
let
yes i loved to lost the day i
let you go.........
"Come back here you thief! Give me back my purse!" Serena ran as fast as she could, holding the stick in her hand. "Somebody! Please stop him!" she yelled for the world to know. She would need all the help she could get if she wants her purse back.
Darien got up from the bench when he heard someone yelling. He saw the thief running towards him and smirked. 'Oh no buddy, you're not going anywhere…' He grabbed the boy's shirt as he ran by and threw him back, causing the boy to drop the purse.
"What makes you think you could just steal somebody's purse?" Darien said, as the boy glared at him.
"She's easy, that's why." He got up and brushed the dirt off. "Whatever, it's not like I'd want that junk." He looked down at the things that fell out of the purse. He gave Darien one last stare and walked away.
Darien just stared at him walking away. 'Man…if I ever see that kid again, he's dead meat.' He thought. 'He's lucky I'm a doctor…or else I'd beat the shit out of him.' Darien sighed. He bent down and started to gather the stuff that fell out. He stopped when he came across a picture. It was a picture of him…
He heard someone panting hard and looked up. His eyes widened.
"errr…thanks mr." Serena said as the person handed back her stolen purse. There was no answer from the guy. Serena felt strange, like she felt a strange sensation through body.
Silence…
No one spoke.
"Who are you…I'd like to know the name of the person who saved my purse!" Serena spoke up, trying to lighten up the atmosphere.
Darien was speechless. It was his Serena.
Her eyes looked funny. It looked fine from the outside…but the way she was looking at him, it was as if she can't really see him. Then it hit him.
She…
Was…
Blind…
"Serena…it's me…"
She gasped.
"Darien…"
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Sweet-Usako- I'm done this chapter! Please don't flame me! I know what you're thinking. You're probably angry and pissed. If I was reading it, I would be too. But please…trust me. I know what I'm doing. I know this was a little unexpected, but everything's going to be alright, I promise! Anyways that's all for now…until the next chapter!
Review Responses:
celticas: I'm sorry you think that way. But, every relationship has it's ups and downs. Nothing is ever perfect. Life is hard. Lolz. If you think the last chapter is harsh, you would probably be planning my death right now. LOLZ. j/kz j/kz!! But please…be patient…it's not going to end this way!! I promise!! Please dun be mad at mee!!! *puppy eyez*
daisy31: Thanks so much for reviewing!! As you can see, Serena's not dead! Thank god..lolz..i mean…where would the story be if she dies?! I mean…it is about her and Darien!! Thanks so much for your review! I hope you're not too pissed at me.
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Hey everyone!!! Thanks for reviewing!!! I love you all!! I'm sorry to leave everyone in such a state!! But please…I have my reason! And as I've said b4…everything's going to turn out just fine!! So…please...don't flame me!! Well…until the next chapter!~!
