Ok, my second fic! Just to get all confusion out of the way, this story uses many characters points of view, it switches between characters on my whim, don't worry, when I switch a characters view, its clearly labeled by the characters name. The first part though, I've left out who's saying what, oh joy for suspense and mystery -_o. This fic's rating will go up for language and violence. Anyway, on with the story!
Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket or its characters. I also do not own the song titles that I use for my story title and chapters, they belong to the lovely artists who inspire me. This is not really a song fic, more like a fic with a soundtrack of sorts haha.
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Baby, do you understand me now?
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive can always be an
angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad.
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy, I want you to know,
That I never meant to take it out on you
Life has its problems, and I've got my share,
And that's one thing I never mean to do
'Cause I love you,
Baby - don't you know I'm human
I have thoughts like any other man
Sometimes I feel myself, Lord, regretting
Some foolish thing, some foolish thing I've done
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, do you understand me now?
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive can always be an
angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad.
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that, all I have to do is worry
And then you're bound to see my other side
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
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"How could you?" He whispered out.
I stared down at my bloody hands. "What did I do?" I thought to myself. I looked over to the mangled corpse, feeling numb. I did it. I did it but it wasn't working to plan.
"How could you?! You bastard!" He screamed at me. His face was white, painted with shock and terror. His eyes were wide and staring at me, tears pouring from his eyes. His harsh screaming and flowing tears made me realize what had happened. I did it. I clapped a hand to my mouth, and tasted blood. I mumbled out, "oh my god."
It all came back to me then.
(Earlier on, before Tohru is living at Shigure's house)
~~~~~Haru~~~~~
I walked next to Yuki, and there was never a moment that I wished I was elsewhere this evening in the woods near the Sohma house. His soft hand in mine made my heart jump.
I looked at the boy, and for once he looked happy and free. He had forgotten the troubles that he was dealt back at the house. I felt so warm inside. Yuki was happy, that alone would've kept me satisfied. But not only was he happy, he was happy with me.
All that time I had wanted him, he wanted me back. I was blind to it, till I broke down and told him my feelings. Those feelings used to tear me to pieces. Wanting so badly to be there, make him happy, but I couldn't, he'd never accept me. I told him all that, and he held me. Wrapped his arm around me telling me he knew, he understood it all. I had asked him how he could, told him he hadn't a clue what it felt like. He reassured me he did; he had watched me for the longest time too. I remember staring at him, expecting to wake up from that dream at any moment. The dream was still going, and we had never been happier.
"Beautiful out, isn't it?" Yuki sighed contentedly.
I smiled glancing around to the trees, they were beautiful yes, as were the flowers growing on the ground, though, I couldn't bring myself to say they were the most beautiful thing here.
"Not as beautiful as you, Yuki-kun," I told him, meaning every syllable.
He blushed and grinned playfully, "I'm not sure whether to be flattered or insulted, I don't think guys are meant to be beautiful."
"That's too bad, because you are." I wrapped my arm around his waist, leaned over and nibbled on his neck.
"Haru cut it out that tickles!" Yuki said giggling and squirming away.
I felt him lose his balance and start to fall. Not wanting him hurt, I turned taking the fall and his small frame landed on me. The color rose in Yuki's cheeks again and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"Are you laughing at me?" he asked, an eyebrow raised.
"Yes, I'm sorry my love" I told him with a playful smirk.
A devilishly mischievous look that worried me came across his face. "Well then, you'll just have to sleep in your own bed tonight."
The setting sun painting shadows over Yuki's smug face made him look almost like Akito. Then again he was like Akito; he held complete power over me. "No" a small voice in my head reminded me it was different. Akito ruled with cruelty and fear, Yuki ruled with love. Then again, wasn't the reason the love ruled you was because you feared to lose it? Because being without the one you love is the cruelest punishment possible? "It's still different" I confirmed to myself, and shook the thought from my head.
"That's so cold Yuki, you know my bed is twice as hard as yours"
He laughed at me not willing to admit I could care less about the bed, it was who was in it who counted, and he knew it. His laughter was sweet honey to my ears. If Yuki was happy, I was happy. I placed my hand to his cheek and trailed my thumb over his soft lips. I felt and saw him smile.
"I love you Yuki," I told him, never uttering truer words in my life.
A warmth came into his eyes as he murmured back, "I love Haru, and only Haru, and forever Haru."
The feeling that came over me at hearing these treasured words was indescribable. I guess the only way to describe what I was feeling was love, true love. I stared into his eyes for a moment, then moved to gently kiss him. I felt Yuki's velvet mouth accept and return my kiss.
We broke our kiss, and Yuki scooted off of me, cuddling next to me instead. I wrapped my arms around him in a tight embrace. We lay together, staring at the sky, it was a perfect moment. Now I understood why so many poets chose to write about love, impossible to describe, and a poet's job is to describe the indescribable. The air was starting to cool, it was starting to get dark, and the stars were peeking out of their hiding spots. It spoiled my mood slightly to think of other things, but Akito would be angry with our lateness, and I liked to keep Akito happy. When Akito was happy, he left Yuki alone. My thoughts were interrupted by a yawn from Yuki, and his silky face nuzzling mine.
I smiled at him, and though I could've lain there forever, I asked him, "Well, sleepy, do you think we should be going? It is getting rather late."
He sighed heavily and then nodded. I stood up and Yuki followed. We walked together in silence, I held out my hand, expecting him to grab it. To my surprise he moved closer resting his head on my shoulder and his arm wrapped around my waist. I wrapped my arm around him, and we walked back to the Sohma house, and I never wanted that walk to end.
~~~~~~~Akito~~~~~~~
Yuki and Haru came up the walk, I had been watching, waiting for their return. I knew about them for awhile now. I decided I would let them be for now. As I told Hatori, the longer they loved, the harder it'd be when they broke. When I told Hatori this, I laughed, he didn't find it funny. As they walked up, I looked to Yuki's face, he looked happy, safe and warm in Haru's arms. I felt a surge run through me, a surge of anger, fear and jealousy. Anger that my pets dare defy my will. The fear of losing grip on Yuki, my special pet rat. The jealousy that I could not feel the happiness in their hearts, and jealousy because Yuki had never smiled like that for me. Yuki was mine, he always would be, and I think he and Haru needed to be reminded.
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That's it for now, this chapter was super mushy, I apologize. -_0 The next chapter gets way less mushy, I promise!
