~~~~~~~~Yuki~~~~~~
I met Haru in the park shortly after my meeting with Akito. With every syllable I uttered to my precious love, a piece of my heart died. The look he gave me nearly killed me. When he screamed at me, saying I had left him for Tohru, I wanted grab him and say no, and erase this moment from ever happening. Instead I watched him run off, and my legs felt about ready to give out. Tears streamed down my face freely. I hated crying, but nothing could stop this. The amount of sorrow that had built up inside me tore me up, shredding everything down to my soul. I hated Akito for this, he would pay. I had hurt Haru… I had hurt him badly, I could care less about the pain in me, but I knew I had hurt him so badly. I hurt him to protect him, but had I really done anything? I was damned if I did damned if I didn't.
It was getting dark, so I pulled myself together slightly and started to stumble home. When I walked in the door, Shigure hadn't been there to greet me like normal. Part of me thought he had known this was coming and decided to leave me alone, knowing he would not be welcome. Kyou was sitting at the table, but from the look on my face he didn't say anything. That was good for his sake, because had he tried to fight me now I would've been merciless, and taken the wrath of a demon out on him. Tohru ran into the room as I was halfway across it, heading to my own room.
"Sohma-kun? Is everything ok?" she asked in her sweet tone, and part of me despised her living here. Only a tiny part, because it made me feel a little better to hear her voice ask, ever caring, how I was.
I nodded, not wanting to speak, knowing my voice might sound funny. I headed up the stairs and shut the door to my room, and my eyes drifted to my side table. A little cow and rat sat there. It was too much for me. I sunk to my knees and started sobbing. I would never see Haru again. He certainly hated me. I couldn't blame him. Damn Akito, I would get him for this, for doing this to Haru and me. I stood up and carefully carried the statue to my dresser, and wrapped it in a sock. I then put this sock under many others, and crawled over to my bed. There I lay, soaking my pillow with regret and pain.
~~~~~~~~Haru~~~~~~~~
I sat there staring to the cold sky, the glass shard to my throat, the snow frosting me. I lowered my hand, barely aware I also dropped the glass.
"No," I whispered to myself in a splintered voice, "no… I shouldn't die."
My head raced with thoughts. How could he, how could Yuki do this, he cared for me, he told me that. He told me I wasn't stupid but he made a fool of me. How could he. It was for that girl Tohru, some common nobody who understood nothing of a curse who haunted a boy. A boy 'blessed' with the spirit of the rat, the special rat. She knew nothing. Nothing of the curse and nothing of the devil that ruled us. How could Yuki possibly go to her? I loved him, I always had, not that little tramp.
I narrowed my eyes, "she's tricked him, it's her fault." I knew this, it wasn't Yuki. Yuki had trusted her too easily. That was unlike him. She has lied to him, somehow… deceived him. She would pay. I stood up and walked home.
I crossed into my room in a daze and sat down at my desk, and pulled out my sketchbook. The half done drawing of the boy standing in a field was there. That boy was me now, and I felt like finishing that drawing. I heard a creak and whipped around, wondering who dared spy on me at a time like this. The door was open a crack, I stormed over whipping the door open ready to tear the intruder apart, I glanced down the hall, and no one was there. I shut the door shaking my head.
"Calm down Haru…" I whispered to myself. Everything was going to be ok. I was going to take care of it all. I sat back down, scribbling out figures on my paper, determined to finish my drawing now. I reached over and flicked on my music again, and went back to sketching, thinking to myself the whole time, "little bitch…. Taking my Yuki, she's going to be sorry and it's all going to be alright."
I finished my drawing and stared at it. I started to laugh at the drawing, I laughed hard. It was all going to be ok, I would make it all good alright. I held up the drawing, the boy that once stood alone now had another boy next to him. They were embracing happily. Off to the right lay a girl, dead and bloodied. I grinned, "It's all gonna be alright..." I tucked the drawing into my desk and flicked off my stereo. I walked over to my bed, still laughing slightly. There I collapsed, and everything went black.
~~~~~Akito~~~~~
I watched Haru walk into the house. With how calm he was acting, and how silently he went to his room, I was concerned my precious little rat hadn't done his job. He would be very sorry if that was the case. I decided I would have to go confirm my suspicions, acting on a thought could be disastrous. After all, I was the leader of the Sohmas, a flawless performance was best. I thought about calling Hatori, telling him to bring Haru to me, but that wouldn't be nearly as fun. Haru was able to usually pull himself together before me. I wanted to see him broken. I wandered down to his room after I heard the door slam shut. He had music playing very loudly. I cringed slightly at the garbage he was listening to, some idiot screaming at the top of his lungs to heavy guitar. I cracked the door slightly, the music was so loud there was no way he'd hear me.
"And I will never forget how you hurt me
And all the pain you caused
Left my mind blank and my soul was lost
And now the thoughts are in my head and drifting side to side
You know I'm gonna get you cause there is nowhere to hide
Headlines will read on the night she died!
Trust me
I will get your ass back
If it kills me
For the rest of your life you will feel me
I'm gonna make you remember that you
Hurt me
You fuckin hurt me!"
I narrowed my eyes, considering Haru was listening to this rubbish, he was angry about something. He was scribbling furiously on something, most likely that childish sketchbook he draws in. He stopped scribbling, and I couldn't believe what I heard. Laughter. That stupid cow was laughing. His laugh was not the usually lighthearted chuckle that so sickened me. It was dark, demonic even. The laugh of a madman. I felt a bit of a chill hit my spine. I shook my head and cursed myself, I was Akito; I wouldn't let one of my pets scare me.
Haru held a drawing in the air. I widened my eyes. Apparently Yuki had told him. This wasn't the reaction I had expected. I smiled, and walked away. No, not the reaction I had expected at all. This was much better.
~~~~~Haru~~~~~~
I kept to myself and stayed in my room the next day. My head pounded and my stomach was queasy. I still felt as though I was caught in a nightmare and that I would wake up any moment. It was too unreal. I kept thinking how Yuki would show up, ready to hug me and say get well soon as he always had. Then a stab in the heart would remind me that that was over. Tohru had changed that. When ever the thought of her came into my mind, my anger level shot through the roof, I had lost it once and went black on my side table, which was now in pieces on the floor. The only time I got a release from thinking about the pain was when I slept.
I needed to go see Yuki, and this girl Tohru. I needed an excuse. I didn't want that girl to know I needed more info on her and was pretty much showing up to spy. Yuki would know better no matter what, he was much too smart to be tricked by any excuse I could come up with.
I stared at the floor, Yuki and Kyou had skipped the New Year's party. Kyou and I usually challenged each other at the party. I could use that as an excuse. It was really lame, but it could pass to Tohru and probably Kyou. Yuki would see through it like a window, but I wasn't out to trick him.
I stood up and walked downstairs. I pulled my coat on, went to grab my bike, and was off to find out just who the hell that girl was.
~~~~~~Yuki~~~~~~
Today we had a marathon run at school. I felt terrible and would rather not go but that stupid cat would not shut up about having his chance to beat me. If I didn't go I would never hear the end of it. Tohru was overly concerned as usual. Considering how my heart ached from the events with Haru, it was good to know someone cared. Still, I would've been perfectly happy to go back to before, when he and I would walk together in the park, holding each others hands and how we used to-…
I shook my head, my eyes started to tear up. I was the prince of Kaibara high school. Not that I cared for the title, but if I cried not only would I seem weak, but the whole school would know. I'd rather not be known as crybaby Yuki. I was strong, and I did not cry. Not even when my heart and soul had died.
Tohru wandered up to me, asking how I felt, saying maybe I shouldn't run. I convinced her I would be fine, and that I'd never hear the end of it from the 'baka neko' if I refused to run. Kyou was hissing and spitting a little ways away from us. I ignored him completely. The teacher called for all the female runners to go to the starting line, and then later the boys. As the gun sounded I took off at top speed, Kyou thundering behind me. I just wanted to get the stupid run over with. I barely cared if I beat Kyou. The only reason I did was I didn't feel like listening how he beat me, something he would wear out for months. We ran and ran, bursting far ahead of anyone else, the cat yelling random things about he'd beat me. I told him to shut up.
We continued to run and Kyou pulled ahead of me.
"Damn it…" I muttered to myself. Then I saw Kyou wipe out and fall flat on his face. I stopped running and my eyes grew wide. Haru… why on god's green earth are you here?! Rushed through my head. I realized how much I wanted to run to him ask him why he was here, not in school, if everything was alright. I remembered I couldn't let anyone know what had happened, for Haru's sake as well as mine. If Tohru found out, Akito would find out she knew, and he'd hurt Haru. Akito always was good for his word, that was one thing you could credit him for.
Kyou started to scream about why Haru tripped him, he had just managed to pull in front of me. They chattered back and forth, my mind barely comprehending as it was in a frenzy.
Why is he here, what the hell does he think he's doing, has he come to get me. Wow he looks really calm considering. Is he freaking out like me? No he's not Haru doesn't freak out he…
I looked at Haru, I had to act normal, despite my head felt like exploding. "Haru what about your school?"
He looked away from me and up to the sky, "I was wandering, and before I knew it I was on a path I didn't know. It took me three days to get here."
There was a tiny hint of sarcasm in his voice, I doubt the others even picked it up, "Just be honest and say you got lost."
We decided it would be best to talk elsewhere. I introduced Tohru and Haru, and couldn't help but notice Haru was staring at her. I remembered then what Haru had said on that night in the park. "Tohru… I KNEW IT! I knew this would happen." Of course…. He thought this was all Tohru's fault. My insides froze as Haru bowed to her, this new realization upon me. That bow was most certainly an act of sarcasm, despise was the only emotion he could possibly hold for her. Now I just had to decipher what he planned on doing now that he was here.
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Sorry that chapter sucked so bad, poor Haru has lost his mind it seems. I promise to speed up updates from now on. Please review ^^
The song Haru was listening to was Blackheart by V-Mob. Lyrics belong to them (duh)
