AN: All warnings apply in this chapter, especially the lime warning. Things get a little heated in this chapter folks. Oh and I noticed that the url for the flower meanings didn't show up, must be one of ff.net's new rules. Anyway the url will be at my yaoi site if you're interested.
Seeing Isn't Believing
by Yami Yue
Over the next few weeks my life consisted mainly of three things work, school, and getting the apartment ready. Yusuke and Kuwabara had been a tremendous help. Even Boton, Keiko and Shizuru came by to lend a hand. Sata had given my mother and I a hand with the decorating and the once empty apartment was starting to look like a home. With my time being taken up with working, studying and moving I hadn't been able to give Hiei as much attention as I wanted. I planned to make it up to him though.
I plopped down on the couch wearily, tired from moving and unpacking boxes all day. The furniture arrived and I spent the better part of the morning putting it into place, a feat that would have proved impossible without Yusuke and Kuwabara's help. Tomorrow I would officially move in. I couldn't wait. Now Hiei and I could be together in peace, no more worrying about someone coming home at an inopportune time or waking anyone else in the house late at night. "Waking the neighbors could be a problem." I thought. "Hiei tends to make me quite vocal." A faint smile spread across my lips. ". . . but we won't have to worry about that when I return to the Makai will we?" my yoko side added teasingly. I had to agree. I closed my eyes. I hoped Hiei would come tonight. My raven haired lover's behavior the past few days gnawed at me. His touch had become cautious and his kisses though sweet were always the gentle meeting of lips, never the fiery, sultry kisses of the past. I was beginning to worry he might be loosing interest in me, especially since I'd been so busy lately. I prayed that wasn't the case. "If I don't do something soon I'm going to loose him." I thought sadly as I drifted off to sleep.
Darkness surrounded me. I could make out nothing of my surroundings, yet my legs carried me forward. I could hear voices in the distance, familiar ones calling out to me. Suddenly, there was more light and the blackness was becoming a dark grey. The voices grew louder as I continued forward. A lone figure emerged from the shadows surrounding me and stepped forward. I stopped in my tracks. The figure approached, becoming more visible as he came closer. I nearly sighed with relief when I realized it was Hiei. More shadows took form behind him and somehow I knew they were my past lovers. "Hiei, what's going on?" I asked as he stood before me. " I have to go Fox." He answered. "Go? Go where?" I questioned. "With them." He answered indicating the figures behind him. "Why?" I asked. Hiei didn't answer. Instead he gently kissed my lips. "Goodbye Kurama." He said softly then turned around and vanished into the shadows. "Wait!" I cried. "Don't go!" The shadows began to close in around me and their whispers grew louder. I called out to Hiei, but the voices of the shadows drowned out my voice. Each was the voice of a past lover demanding to know why I'd left them, pleading for me to return to them.
Suddenly the voices stopped and the shadowy figures faded into the blackness surrounding me as though fleeing from something. The scent of the one who caused me to flee into a human body caught my senses. Fear crept up my spine and the hair on the back of my neck stood on end. I ran into the darkness not knowing where I was going. I didn't care. I was running for my life, trying to evade the presence at my heels. The ground beneath me started to crumble under my feet. I cried out as I fell into the hole, landing on my back. I could hear my persuer's footsteps as they approached the hole. I looked up as the footsteps stopped and saw nothing but darkness. A pair of glowing red eyes appeared in the darkness. I froze in fear, this was the end and this time there was no escape for me . . .
I opened my eyes and bolted upright looking around me with wild eyes. It was dark except for a sliver of moonlight coming in through one of the windows. I suddenly got the feeling that I wasn't alone. My eyes widened in fear when I turned to face glowing red eyes. "Have a nightmare Fox?" Hiei asked as he stepped into the pale moonlight. I nodded. Hiei sat down on the couch beside me and gently swept a few stray strands of hair out of my face. I smiled at him. "Just a silly dream, that's all." I said, not sure who I was really trying to convince him or me. He scowled. "The look on your face a moment ago tells me otherwise." He said. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair in a nervous gesture. "You're right." I responded as I closed my eyes. "What were you dreaming of that made you so afraid?" he asked. I opened my eyes and met his gaze. "I dreamed you left me." I said softly. His eyes widened slightly. "Why should that frighten you?" he asked. "Because baka I love you." I answered. "You could always find another lover." He responded. I raised an eyebrow. "Are you trying to say you want me to find another lover?" I asked. He shook his head and took my hand in his. "If I had left you, you could've easily found another lover." He answered. "I suppose." I responded. " … but then I'd always be comparing them to you." "A bad way to start off a relationship." I added as I leaned in closer. "No one likes living in someone else's shadow." He released my hand. I'd hope that meant he'd reach out and touch me, but he simply set his hands at his side. Inwardly I was panicking. I'd neglected him far too long and now I was paying the price. I was sure that next he'd tell me he wanted to go back to being friends, if even that. He couldn't guess how hard it was for me to make and keep friends, much less lovers. Given my looks finding someone to share my bed was an easy task. However finding someone to share my heart proved to be a more difficult task. In truth, until Hiei and I became a couple I thought it impossible.
"Where's your friend?" he asked, catching me totally off guard. "Who?" I questioned. "Sata." He clarified. "At home I believe." I replied, answering his question. "Why?" Hiei shrugged. "You've been spending a lot of time with her lately. I guess I expected her to be here." Suddenly his behavior the past few days made sense. He thought I was going to leave him for Sata. "You're jealous aren't you?" I asked as I leaned in toward him. "Hn." He replied. I had to bite down on my bottom lip to keep from laughing. Hiei was jealous! I shouldn't have been surprised I had been spending a lot of time here with Sata decorating and painting and bringing my things over. "Hiei you have no reason to be jealous of Sata." I said. "She's just my friend." Hiei's eyes met mine and I nearly shuddered at his intense gaze. "You're saying that you aren't interested in her." He stated. "Why would I be interested in Sata?" I responded. "I've got you. besides she's only 16, just a child." Hiei snorted. "Fox, everyone is "just a child" to you." He said. I crossed my arms across my chest. "Don't rub it in." I groaned. Hiei chuckled, then leaned in and kissed me lovingly. I responded to the kiss eagerly, relief flowing over me in waves. When we broke from the kiss I nuzzled my face against his neck, breathing in his unique scent. "Does it bother you that I'm older?" I whispered. "Should it?" he responded as he ran his fingers through my long hair. I nipped his neck, gently grazing his skin with my teeth. "It's rude to answer a question with another question you know." I muttered. "Hn." was my only reply from him. I lifted my head and nibbled on his earlobe. "I'm sorry for neglecting you love." I murmured softly in his ear. "I should have tried harder to find more time to spend with you, after all you only get to visit for a short while." "You don't need to apologize fox." Hiei said softly. Gently I hugged him in thanks, glad he'd forgiven me. "You should get home, your mother'll be worried." He said. "Come with me." I said as I released him from my embrace. "She'll be glad to see you." He shook his head. "This is your last night there." He said. "It should be spent with your family, besides I promised Yukina I'd come see her tonight." "I'll see you tomorrow then?" I asked. He nodded. He gave me one last kiss then vanished into the night.
The next morning passed quickly. I didn't even realize it was noon until I looked up to see Hiei standing in front of my desk. "Almost done?" he asked nodding toward the paper on my desk. I nodded. He smirked. "Looks like I caught you by surprise." He said. "I didn't expect you to visit me at work." I confessed. "I thought it would be a good idea to stop by and see if you wanted to have lunch." "Sounds good to me." I said as I set the paper aside. In a flash he was sitting on the desk in front of me. He leaned forward and captured my lips with his in a loving kiss. I was about to return the kiss when I heard footsteps approaching. Hiei frowned and returned to his standing position in front of my desk. My stepfather walked past us talking animatedly with a client. "Let's go." Hiei said softly. I nodded and followed him out of the building. "So where are we headed?" I asked. "You'll see." He answered. We headed into the park and through the portal there into the Makai. He took my hand and led me down a worn path. "What is he up to?" I wondered as I silently followed him. The path ended in a clearing. I looked around in awe at my surroundings. The trees grew close together creating a shady canopy, the grass was thick and I knew that it would be soft to walk upon. Red and orange flowers grew throughout the clearing adding stark color to the greenery surrounding them. "Wait here." Hiei murmured then vanished. He reappeared moments later with a blanket and a picnic basket.
He spread the blanket out on the ground and sat down. I sat down beside him as he reached into the basket. Hiei caressed my face with his free hand and with the other held a juicy red strawberry to my lips. I opened my mouth and let him feed me. He placed the berry in my mouth and I gave his fingers a mischievous lick with the tip of my tongue as he withdrew his hand. Hiei's eyes widened in surprise, then his expression melded into his usual smirk. He took one of the juicy strawberries from the basket and popped it into his mouth. His expression became thoughtful as he chewed. I wondered what he was thinking of and scooted closer so that our bodies touched. His eyes met mine and he smiled. He reached into the basket pulled out another of the sweet red berries and held it to my lips. I took it with my teeth and watched as he took another for himself. I laid my head on his shoulder. He made no protest and my heart soared. We sat there in companionable silence just enjoying each other's company and eating strawberries. I had to admit I was enjoying Hiei feeding me. I would have never thought he'd pamper me like this. Who would have thought Hiei was such a romantic.
"What's wrong?" I asked as he suddenly frowned. "Only one strawberry left." He answered. "You take it." He said, holding it out to me. "Why don't we share it?" I suggested. A sensual smile spread across his face. He placed the strawberry between his lips, his eyes daring me to take it. I leaned forward capturing his lips with mine. The poor strawberry was crushed in the kiss, as we both fought for dominance. In the end neither of us won, having to end the kiss for much needed air. Hiei's eyes sparkled with mischief as he leaned forward and licked the strawberry juice off my chin. I was never going to look at a strawberry the same way again.
I closed my eyes as his lips met mine. I returned the kiss eagerly. Hiei smirked as he pulled away. "Keep this up and you won't get to finish your lunch." He said as he reached into the basket. I leaned close and gently nipped his ear. "You're such a tease." I growled. Hiei chuckled. "Henti fox, is that all you think about?" he teased. I shrugged. "Can I help it if you excite me?" I replied. He raised an eyebrow but said nothing. He handed me a sandwich then took one for himself. He chewed thoughtfully and I wondered what could possibly have him so absorbed in his thoughts. "What are you thinking so hard about love?" I asked softly. "I was trying to remember the last time we were alone like this." He said. I thought about it for a moment. I realized with a start that the last time we'd been alone together was when mother left on that trip with her friend. "Six months." I told him. "Too long." Hiei said. "Much too long." I agreed.
I finished the sandwich quickly, then slid my suit jacket off and set it aside. I undid my tie and set it on top of the jacket. Hiei watched as I undid the top two buttons on my shirt. "Making yourself comfortable?" he asked causally. I nodded and stretched. He finished his sandwich and removed his cloak, setting it aside. He reached up and gently ran his hand through my long hair. I pulled him into my lap and nuzzled his neck, then planted soft kisses as I brought my lips up to his jaw. His lips met mine and the fire within me was rekindled. I tugged at the hem of his tanktop, silently telling him I wanted it off. He smirked against my lips, then deepened the kiss before pulling away so I could remove his shirt. It was tossed aside to be forgotten for the moment. He recaptured my lips in a fierce passionate kiss as his fingers worked frantically to undo the buttons on my shirt. Soon it too was tossed aside and he gently ran his fingers over my chest teasing the sensitive flesh there. I moaned against his lips and reached for the first of his two belts. He broke the kiss and brought his lips to my neck teasing me with butterfly soft kisses. I got the first belt unbuckled, then lightly ran my fingers up and down his back in a soft caress. He shuddered and stopped his kisses momentarily. That was all the opening I needed. Quickly I laid him on his back, then leaned forward and trailed soft kisses down his neck to his chest. He let out a soft moan as I flicked my tongue over his right nipple. His eyes slowly closed as I gently sucked. I released him from my torture and whispered his name against the wet flesh. He shuddered. I repeated the same process on the left side, pleased at the sound of his heavy breathing. I continued trailing kisses until I reached his pants. His eyes slowly opened as I unbuckled the second belt. I ran my hands slowly over his well toned upper body teasing him with my touch. My eyes roamed his body and I found myself wondering once again how I managed to win his heart. "Who's the tease now." he murmured as he looked at me with a half lidded gaze. "You still are." I replied as I moved backward to remove his boots. Once they were gone I tugged at the hem of his pantlegs sliding them down. He lifted his hips allowing me to remove them. Suddenly I was on my back with a very sexy, very naked fire apparition straddling my hips. "You're overdressed Fox." He murmured huskily. I smiled seductively at him. "I trust you're going to take care of that problem." I responded. He grinned. "If I can trust you to stay still." He said. I nodded. He stood and in the blink of an eye he was at my feet removing my shoes. He set them aside then unbuckled my belt and slid off my pants. "Much better." He said the straddled my waist once more. He brushed his lips against my abdomen in a teasing caress, his soft lips were warm against my skin. He made his way upward to my chest leaving nothing untouched by his lips. He attacked my chest next with his lips and tongue making me moan and pant. Softly I moaned his name as he nibbled gently on my ear while teasingly caressing me with his hands. "Tell me what you want Fox." He murmured huskily in my ear. "You." I whispered as I slid my hands down his back and cupped his firm rear. He kissed my lips hungrily. "Then that is what I shall give you." he said telepathically.
I sighed as Hiei nuzzled against me, my body still tingling with pleasure. I'd probably be wearing that "I just got laid" look on my face all day. The sweet scent of one of the red flowers assaulted my nose as I leaned into my lover's embrace. He planted a gentle kiss on my chest and tightened his arms around me in a slight hug. I put my arms around him and lovingly caressed him. "You'll have to go back soon." He said softly, breaking the spell of silence. "Yes." I agreed. "I'd rather stay here." I confessed. Hiei smiled. "I take it you enjoyed your lunch then." He remarked. "Immensely." I replied. He made to sit up and I tightened my embrace. "Just a moment longer." I murmured softly. "Please." He nodded and resettled against me, moving to where we were eye to eye. "I love you." I whispered, then gently kissed his lips. "I love you too Fox." He replied. We stayed like that a moment longer before I released him from my embrace. We dressed quickly and Hiei walked me back to work. "Thanks for lunch." I said as we stood outside the building. "It was my pleasure." He responded, then vanished. There was no mistaking the double meaning in that statement. " . . . and he calls me a henti." I thought with amusement. I chuckled as I headed back inside.
By the way would you guys be interested in a message board community where H&K yaoi fans can exchange challenges story ideas or just chat about a good story they just read? I was thinking of making one and was curious to see if anyone would join. Or if anyone knows of one I'd like to join.
And to reviewer Fairies Hope, no need to apologize for rambling. I do it all the time. Your story reminds me of my thing for guys with long white hair. It started with Yue (Cardcaptors was my first anime) then continued with Ryou Bakura (I find those big brown eyes and soft voice irresistible) I thought I was safe when I fell for Kurama but lo and behold he turns out to be tall, hot, and with long white hair in his true (demon) form. I've long since decided not to worry unless Pegasus from Yu-Gi-Oh! starts looking good. Lol.
