Confusing Relationships

Logan wandered through the dark and quiet hallways restlessly. He couldn't sleep or even sit still. To much was going on in his mind. Today when he'd seen Bobby and Rogue together he had felt something he'd never felt before.

Jealousy. Pure jealousy. He wanted to run to this guy who dared to touch his girl and rip him into two pieces. He felt so embarrassed when he caught himself growling and wheeze like a wild bull.

What was going on with him? With the bad monster which was alone always. Which cared for no one. He had become a softy. And it scared the shit out of him. It was really time to take a step back. A bit distance to everyone, especially Rogue, would be good for him. Hopefully he would return to his old self.

He nodded and took a deep breathe. That was an good idea, nothing to worry about. But how could he stay away from Rogue? His answer was promptly answered when he saw Jean sitting in the living- room reading a book.

"Hey Jean", he said trying to sound sexy.

She looked up and raised a eyebrow. "Hey Logan!"

He cleared his throat nervously. He wasn't feeling too well with doing that. But he had to. "Wow. I love your pullover. It looks so good on you. Is it new"?

She looked at him confused. "No", she said slowly. "It's my favourite one and I'm wearing it almost every day".

He flushed. "Oh my mistake. Guess I have to look at you more often", he repeated quietly.

She stared at him and tried not to laugh. "Logan"?

"Yes", he whispered softly.

"Are you flirting with me"? She asked with a bright grin.

"Guess I do", he answered. Now there was no way back. He had begun now he hand to end it. He stepped closer and saw a nervous look creeping into her eyes.

"Logan. Are you okay? I mean.. I mean why are you doing this? You are with Rogue aren't you"? She asked glancing around nervously.

"Who said I'm with Rogue. I don't love her, not in that way", he said. God, he hated lying this way but the had to save his manliness.

"In what way", she said and came closer. She moved her body in a very sexy way which made Logan nervous now. He hadn't except her to react this way.

She almost reached his lips when they heard a noise. A vase had fallen on the ground. The bang ripped them out of their dream world and let them come back to reality.

"Sorry", he said. "I just had to save my manliness and you, well you were the first one I saw. I'm sorry".

Jean stared at him and turned red. She was so embarrassed. "God", she whispered to herself. "Asshole", she yelled to Logan and ran out of the room.

He groaned and sat down. Okay, this was the wrong way to handle his little problem. Maybe it wasn't to bad that he wasn't like his old self anymore. He had become someone who people liked and cared for. And somebody who was loved. Wasn't that what he always wanted to be?

He sighed. He would speak about this with Rogue. She would understand. And she was the only one he could talk with about it. Relieved he returned to sleep.

Rogue flung open the door of her closet and grabbed her warm pullover and her jacket out of it. The tears flooded down her cheeks and she whipped them away enraged. She couldn't stop herself from sobbing.

She had to go. She needed to get out of this room. It was too close to Logan's. She had been so shocked that she had pushed the vase of the table. What happened then with Jean and Logan after that was not important. She had run to her room already.

She was so sad and angry and despaired all at the same time. She had really thought that he would love her. But he didn't. She was furious. Why didn't he tell her that earlier. Now it was like her heart breaking into thousand of pieces.

She stormed to the stairs, to the next storey. It wasn't used and there were a lot of old rooms. One of them was her hiding-place. She always went up there when she felt scared or sad. Of course only when Logan wasn't at the mansion. Otherwise she would go to him. Always.

She sat down beside the small window and put on her warm clothes. Then she snuggled into a dark corner and let the tears fall down freely. And when the sun already began to rise she finally fell asleep.

Where's Rogue?

Logan rubbed his eyes tiredly and stumbled to the room next door. He knocked twice like every morning. Then he returned to his one room and dressed up. He yawned and looked into the mirror. The things that had happened the other night seemed to be like a bad dream.

When he stepped outside it was not quiet anymore. Students were running around. He stayed by her door wand waited. Usually she was ready same time like him. He sighed.

"Probably she finally turns into a real girl and stands 15 minutes in front of the mirror", he said quietly to himself. A terrible thought. Then he loved Rogue the way she was and because she wasn't like normal girls.

But when she didn't opened the door he became impatience. He knocked again. "Rogue! What are you doing? We'll be late for breakfast and this stupid kids will eat everything without us. Come on, hurry up", he yelled.

But she didn't answer. That worried him. That was not typical Rogue. He opened the door and stiffened. Her room was empty.

He stepped into it and looked around. "Rogue? Rogue are you there"?

Suddenly Storm appeared. "Hey Logan. Where have you been? Charles wanted to talk to us at breakfast. We were waiting for you", she said.

He turned around and looked at her in worry. "Rogue's gone. She isn't here", he repeated nervously.

She grinned. "So what? I'm sure she's already with her friends learning for the English test in my lesson".

He shook his head. "But that's not Rogue. We always meet in the hallway and go to breakfast together. She wouldn't just go without me", he said.

"Logan", Storm began trying to calm him down. "She's twenty. It's normal to do something with friends".

"I am her friend", he tried to defend his fear.

She laughed. "No, Logan, you're not her friend. You're her boyfriend, right"?

He nodded and had to smile by that thought. Wow, he really was an boyfriend. He never was that before. Well, not that he could remember.

She nodded to the door. "You are coming"?

"Yes, Sir. Sorry Madame", he replied and they went to the others laughing.

Rogue woke up and rubbed her eyes. She was aching all over. Including her heart. It was damn cold in that small room and when she looked out of the window she saw that it had been snowing.

Normally she would run in the garden, scream out loud happily and act like a little child. She was allowed to act like that cause she was from the south. She didn't know snow too well.

But today she didn't feel like being happy. She shivered and tried to warm up her numb fingers. This whole day sucked. She tried to repress the upcoming tears and leaned her hot forehead against the cold window.

She couldn't go upstairs. Not yet. She wouldn't stand to look at Logan or Jean. Probably they were together right now. Holding hands, kissing all the time and stuff. She wouldn't be able to handle that. Well, she thought bitterly, Scott has to handle it too.

So she stayed there and tried to think about something else without knowing that downstairs everybody was looking for her already.