Author's Notes: Ok, here goes another chapter. I know what you will all say. Why is this story being so depressing. Well, I'm trying to get Serena's feelings in check. Darien broke up with Serena because of the dreams he was having. Serena is beginning to doubt if he ever even loved her to begin with. But I *promise* after this chapter it will get way better.

Didn't I promise that in my last chapter??? I think so... Well, this time it's true. I'm gonna try and update as soon as possible but I don't have much inspiration.  AND I just started High School so yeah. I will continue to thank Lisa for putting up with my bad writing and making sure everything is alright for ya'll to read it. ^_^

Well, without further blah blah, I present to you Chapter 1.

Disclaimer: I have never nor will ever own Sailor Moon. It is owned by someone far smarter and richer than I. All I can do is bow down to her power.

Decisions of the Heart

Chapter 1

Author: ~Belle~

       He had said he loved her. He had said she was his everything. Oh, but she could see through those bitter lies now. Lies. So many damn lies.

       Why had she believed? How could she have been so blind? No one could love her. It was impossible for anyone to love such a ditzy, ugly, stupid girl like her.  Not even Darien could love her.

     

        She had thought she had changed him. She had thought she had finally broke through the cold wall surrounding his heart. But it was all lies. All lies. He had stolen her heart, and then returned it all torn up.

      Why did it hurt so much? Why did she feel like she had nothing left to live for? How could it be, that the love she had once seen in his eyes was fake? How could it be? It was so difficult for her to understand it. He just ended it, just like that. He brushed her aside as if she were any common human being. All love from this and a millennium ago forgotten.

      Could she continue to believe in love? He had not even given her a reason. A simple, "Serena, I don't love you" had been enough for him. Oh wait, but an "I'm sorry" had been added in.

      "Serena, I don't love you. I'm sorry."

      That's all she had received from him that fine morning. Was that all she was worth to him? Two sentences. She wasn't even worth the time. He couldn't even give her two WHOLE minutes. It had taken him about one and a half minutes to break her heart into a million pieces. She would laugh if she weren't hurting so much inside.

      How damn dumb had she been? She had believed all the lies. She had blushed at his endearing terms for her. She had blushed at all his, "I love yous". How pathetic she had been. He had been playing with her all along. He must've silently laughed at the easiness of fooling her young heart. She was young, too young to feel the pain of lost love. Too young to be silently rocking herself back and forth to calm the ache in her heart. She was so young.

      But it seemed Destiny didn't think she was too young. For Destiny had thrust so many things into her life in so little time, that if anyone could see deep enough into her soul they would see the mess she was inside. Destiny had thrown so many things. It had all begun by her becoming Sailor Moon. As if *that* hadn't been enough. Then she had been revealed the 'oh so wonderful' information of being the Moon Princess. She had watched the love of her life, Darien Chiba, also known as Prince Darien, also known as Tuxedo Mask, turned evil by the Negaverse.

      She had fought him, but all the while loving him. She watched him attempt to destroy her over and over again. And finally she had watched him die in her arms. But she had died short afterwards as well. A part of her still wished she had remained dead. But wishes often do not come true, for Destiny sure loved to play with her. It had brought her back to life. It had granted her wish of being a 'normal' teenager. HA! That sure didn't last long. For evil came once more and the role of Sailor Moon was called on once again. Sailor Moon, Champion of Love and Justice. How ironic was that?

      Darien hadn't even remembered who she was. To her he had just been plain old Meatball Head. A LONG TIME afterward, he had regained his memory and she was fooled into believing there would finally be a happy ending. But for Serena Tsukino, there would NEVER be a happy ending. And so here she was, in a corner of her room trying to stiffen the sobs that threatened to spill any minute now. She was grateful she had sent her 'oh so very faithful' cat Luna to spend the night with Amy. She didn't want anyone to witness the pathetic display of weakness she was in. Everyone thought her too fragile, and she strived daily to prove them wrong. She lied to them and she lied to herself, for she knew she was weak. She was weak both physically and emotionally. But the lies kept her going. She grasped on to the lies hoping that one day she could be the person they wanted her to be. For them and for herself.

      Darien leaving her had only shown her how she could never be the person they deserved to have. She would never be the princess he had wanted her to be. And so there is where she fell asleep. In a dark corner of her room, legs huddled to her face, tears streaming from her eyes. She fell into a struggled slumber, oblivious of the dark figure who watched her with concerned eyes, and cursed himself for the pain he caused his beloved princess.

Bitter lies.

So many bitter lies.

Oh what a tangled web we weave

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YAY! I'm done with that. Please review. I'm trying my best to be a good writer. This is the first thing I've ever written and it's hard for me to jot down things correctly. I really love to listen to comments and would like to get some soon. *pleads* You can contact me at SilverRose07@aol.com. Feel free to IM me ANYTIME.

Next: Serena must get herself together. It's time to live on. But will Darien ever be able to face her. Can she ever confront Darien? I don't know I have to write it to find out myself. LOL.

Later Days.

~Belle~