Author's notes: Ok, here goes another chapter. I am sooo sorry if this sucks! I'm having total writer's block all of a sudden. But I finally came up with a next chapter... I'm not very organized.. Can ya tell? I should have my plots all written down but laziness got to me. My plan is to add the Scouts in a one by one manner.. But I'm gonna start off with good old Raye. Hope you guys enjoy it just a *little* bit. Enough yada yada yada... I present to you... your dinner. Lol. Needed to say that.. I Present to you Chapter 3. Oh my god!

Disclaimer: I'm poor. I think *that* should explain it all.

Decisions of the Heart

Chapter 2

Author:~Belle~

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A tall petite, raven haired girl stood outside the Tsukino residence. She looked onto the house she usually visited with joy, which now held an almost gloomy feeling to it. She sighed as she thought of the girl who resided in it. How could such joy disappear so darn quickly?

It might not appear like it sometimes, but she loved her Princess more than anyone could imagine. And she only treated Serena the harsh way that she did because she wanted to make Serena stronger. Maybe she didn't do it in the right way, but it was the only way she knew how to. Serena had brought so much light into her life, and her goal to strengthen her was the only way she could think of to repay her. But today, she had a mission. In a similar way that the other scouts did, she had a bond with Serena. And late at night she would cry in distress as she felt her Princess's agony. And today she would repay Serena the right way, she would give Serena the shoulder to cry on that she so badly deserved. Serena did *not* deserve what she had gotten from Darien. And if Raye didn't know any better she'd go and beat the damn mother *(rated R)* into a bloody pulp. But that was a deed that would have to remain undone.

She still couldn't understand how Darien could leave Serena. How *anyone* could NOT love her? She radiated so much life and happiness that you often saw the smiling faces she left behind on her trail. Darien was a fool. He always had been. He was oblivious to the good things right in front of him. True, she herself had loved him at one time. But *that* was besides the point. How could he just abandon her like that? What about his vow of love during the silver millennium? Damn it! Serena had died for the bastard. And THIS was the thanks she got?! BUM! After all she had done for the guy and he just brushed her aside....

But still, Raye couldn't help but wonder, What exactly had gone wrong? They seemed happy one day, holding hands and doing all that lovey-dovey things couples do. And then the next day, hearts were shattered and vows were broken. What really could have caused Darien to do such a thing? You can't just stop loving a person over night. And Raye often caught glimpses of worry in his eyes when they mentioned Serena at the Crown Arcade. For Serena has not been out of her house in days since the breakup. The darn breakup. She was dying to know what could have caused it. She knew Darien still loved Serena...he HAD to. Didn't he?

She stood there lost in her own thoughts at the front of the door for God knows how long, when the door was suddenly opened by a middle-aged woman. The woman looked concerned and sorrowful, but her eyes lit up in hope as she saw Raye, Serena's best friend standing in front of the door. She just knew that Raye could cheer up Serena. Serena's pain had not gone unseen by her mother. As all mothers do, Ilene knew it HAD to do with a boy. What other reason was there for Serena being locked up in her room? She often heard Serena cry at night and was thankful that her father Kenji was away on a business trip. Kenji for sure would have brought out his favorite shotgun and killed the boy who caused his daughter such misery.  She wished she could comfort her daughter like all mothers should, but Serena was so full of secrets. Ever since last year she had become a total stranger to her mother. She would run off not saying where she was going, and she often saw Serena sneak into the house in  the middle of the nights. She didn't punish her for it because she had a feeling that what her daughter did was important. But only God knows what a fourteen-year-old could do at night that was SO important.

"Come in Raye, Serena's in her room. Make yourself at home," Ilene said as she excused herself to the kitchen, leaving Raye standing in the living room by herself.

Raye walked to the edge of the stairs and looked up at the steps that seemed endless. She sighed, 'Here it goes' she thought. She climbed the stairs all the while looking at pictures and memories she and Serena had made together. She could still remember the first time Serena had invited her over on a sleep over. Raye had never had any friends and Serena had befriended her even though she was so mean to her. Serena had looked through the cold exterior Raye put on daily and seen the girl she was inside. Raye thought all this while absentmindedly walking up the stairs. She suddenly was at Serena's door. She didn't even had to knock because the door was slightly open. Raye gave it a gentle push and it creaked completely open. The sight that she witnessed before her made her heart ache and her eyes water.

There on the edge of the window sat Serena, her beauty basking in all its glory with the sunlight. The only thing that broke the serene picture that was Serena were the silent tears flowing from her light sapphire eyes. Serena sat there, staring beyond her window, taking in the outside world, but not oblivious to Raye's entrance.

"Funny, how the kids wake up every morning and there only thoughts are how to win that days tag game. There out there blind to all the evils of this world. For them the sun comes out everyday, and there's no reason to question why? To little Timmy, Susan is just the cute next door neighbor and there's nothing more to it. They're so naive, and I find myself so badly wanting to be one of them."

"They'll grow up  one day too, Serena. They'll grow up and they'll cry. They'll fall in love. Their hearts will be shattered many times as well. But they'll live through it. Everyone lives through it. It's all a part of growing up. But you have to learn to move on."

Serena ignored her wise words and continued, "You know, little Timmy came out of his house today and knocked on Susan's door. She came out and she grabbed his hand and started playing. Timmy accidentally knocked Susan over. All it took was a simple I'm sorry and she forgave him. It's been a long time since a simple 'I'm sorry' was good enough for one of us. Why is that? Why is it that growing up means seeing things in DARK-shaded glasses? Friendships to them is just playing together. Love to them is just child's play. To them pain is when you fall and scrape your knee. What would it be like if one day they saw my true pain?"

"Serena, you had your chance. You were once one of them. Someone just like you, looked upon your youth in the same envious way. Someone was hurting while you were laughing. It's a cycle that makes the world continue to go round. Leave little Susan to her childhood delusions.  Leave Little Timmy to his clueless dreams. And wake up and keep living YOUR life."

"MY life is no longer worth living." The sentence was barely more than a mere whisper. At this, Serena finally turned around to look Raye straight in the eye.

"Damn it, Raye! Timmy and Susan haven't lost their SOUL MATE! They haven't had the other half of them torn off, like a mother tears a bandage off a wound. Tearing off the bandage does NOT make the pain any less, it makes it HURT MORE! I am not like them! I was never normal. You can't just come in here and tell me that I have to move on. That this is part of life. Can you truly tell me that I am like them? That it's NORMAL for a millennium's love to die overnight?"

"NO. It's not normal. It's not normal at all. But.....but at least we still love you. Our love will NEVER die. I...I know that's not enough... but in time... in time we'll help you mend...I promise. All we need is for you to smile again. I know what Darien did was wrong and something in my gut tells me his words weren't true. But until we figure this out what do you say to an extra large chocolate milkshake...?"

Serena managed a weak smile at this. Life would have to continue....for now. But the back of her conscious still kept laughing at the thought of moving on, 'You'll never move on,' it said. 'You'll soon die without him.' Serena forcefully pushed the thought away until later. Until her sorrows could be once again masked in darkness. She would be strong for Raye; she needed her to be strong. She would try to not make Raye's attempts in vain. Time to wake up and smell the coffee. 'Hmm.. You haven't eaten for days..'

"All right, let's go. But you pay," Serena said, half enthusiastically. Raye gave a small grin at this.

'The old Serena will be back soon,' Raye thought happily.

A few minutes later they walked out of the Tsukino residence together. They walked silently to the Crown Arcade, and Serena took a deep breath before entering. She took out her right hand and pushed the door weakly. At the sound of the bells a raven-haired man turned around to look at the newcomer. What he saw made him shudder to the spine. And what Serena saw made her eyes fill with tears, for she truly had not expected it. Dark blue eyes locked with light blue.

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Ok here goes my thankees:

NightSiren/chanp - Why thank you very much for the compliment. Lol.. I don't like reading cliffhangers myself.. But I sure do love to write them. Sorry for the inconvenience. Next time I do that you can beat into a bloody pulp.. Oh wait never mind. I did that again in this chapter.. Dot, dot.

Stargazer75- I try my best to be a good writer. I can't wait until you come out with your own fanfic. I'm sure its going to be awesome. Also, I like your username. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.

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Desiree Muller- Well, I wonder who you are? How do you know where I live.. Hmm... *ponders* Oh wait, aren't you like one of my best friends? Yeah I think so. Duh! The figure watching with concerned eyes is Darien. Who did you think it was.. Diamond?? *shudders* That's a creepy stalker dude. Anywayz, glad you liked my story. Keep reading and reviewing and get your DBZ story out already.

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Author's Notes again: Oh my god... that sucked! I'm so mad at myself. *stabs self with a fork* I am truly, truly sorry. I'll try to do better in the next chapter. Thanx to Lisa again for managing to salvage SOME of the story. Also, I LOVE YOU ALL FOR REVIEWING!!! It means the world to me that someone out there is actually reading. But I don't mind if you review again, seriously I DON'T! You can even tell me this sux and I wouldn't mind. Umm but please don't. Has anyone noticed my author's notes are longer than the actual story. Ok I'll shut up. Until next Time.. ADO!

Next: What will happen during this confrontation? Will Serena run or face her demons? Will Darien finally break to his love for Serena? DUN, DUN, DUN... im gay.. No kidding.. I meant like retarded.. Dot, dot.

~Belle (SilverRose07@aol.com)~