Ch3

@ ! ~ Mariks POV ~ ! @

I made my way out of the park and back to Isis's apartment.

But I can't believe she did that! What right does she have to say that? She called ME an idiot, well now I wouldn't be talking.

Shutting the door behind me I walked to my bedroom and lay down on the bed.

Reaching over to my c.d. player I turned it on high volume. Lying on my back, I listened as the music filled my room.

'What do I do to ignore them behind me?

Do I follow my instincts blindly?

Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams

and give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do I / sit here and try to stand it?

Or do I / try to catch them red - handed?

Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,

or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on / when I'm stretched so thin

I make the right moves but I'm lost within

I put on my daily façade but then

I just end up getting hurt again'

I roll over on my back so I can peer out the window. I guess I didn't have to threaten her like that but she was being extremely annoying. Oh well.to late now.

' By myself [myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can't rely on myself

[myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on

To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in'

Sitting up I made my way to the kitchen on the counter was a few letters addressed to my sister A small poster was underneath it. On it was some writing and a picture of a man and a women dancing on a light purple background. " Halloween dance" was written at the top.

'Isis will most likely force me to go,' I though bitterly to myself. I chucked the poster to the side and sat at the counter.

'If I

Turn my back I'm defenseless

And to go blindly seems senseless

If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they'll

Take from me 'till everything is gone

If I let them go I'll be outdone

But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun

If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer

Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer'

Standing up again I made my way to the cabinet and took out a bag of Oreos. I sat back down again and took one of the black and white cookies out from the bag. I took it apart and licked the cream in the middle then ate both half's whole.

'[By myself]

[myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can't rely on myself

[myself]

I ask why, but in my mind

I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on

To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in'

After eating like 10 cookies already I pushed the bag away and buried my head in my arms. The clock ticked silently to the song being played on my c.d. player.

'How do you think / I've lost so much

I'm so afraid / I'm out of touch

How do you expect / I will know what to do

When all I know / Is what you tell me to

Don't you (know)

I can't tell you how to make it (go)

No matter what I do, how hard I (try)

I can't seem to convince myself (why)

I'm stuck on the outside'

Isis will also make me go with someone to.but who? My thoughts returned to the upcoming dance.

Yami is going with my sister Tea is going with Yugi Joey is going with that blond slut, mia, or whatever her name is. Dice boy and Tristan? Are going with who knows who. Seto kaiba I believe is not going or if he is I don't believe he will go with anyone. Ryou and bakura are going by themselves I guess. Seeing the tomb robber dance would be a laugh.

I chuckled at the thought.

So who's there to go with? Oh shit.. Isis will most likely make me go with serenity. I know maybe I can come down with some sort of disease and not go at all; it will save me from making a fool out of myself.

'How do you think / I've lost so much

I'm so afraid / I'm out of touch

How do you expect / I will know what to do

When all I know / Is what you tell me to

Don't you (know)

I can't tell you how to make it (go)

No matter what I do, how hard I (try)

I can't seem to convince myself (why)

I'm stuck on the outside'

I can just hear everyone's mocking voice. 'Hey look marik got a girlfriend.' 'Who knew the psycho could dance?' 'Lets watch as he trips over that piece of cake someone dropped.' How embarrassing. I buried my head in my hands.

'I can't hold on

To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking in

I can't hold on

To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failure sinking...'

~ Serenity's POV ~

I looked out my bedroom window and watched as the clouds turned shapes in the sky. Wished I could be there. Be able to live in the clouds and never have to worry about what really there. Why couldn't god make me a bird so I can fly away from my problems? I shut my eyes and went into a peaceful daydream.

'Turn it inside out so I can see

The part of you that's drifting over me

And when I wake you're never there

But when I sleep you're everywhere

You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far

Just tell me why you're here and who you are

'Cause every time I look

You're never there

And every time I sleep

You're always there'

I shut my eyes only to see his. His sharp violet opened in the black void. They were so close I could see every detail. I opened my eyes again. 'Why do I keep thinking of you?'

''Cause you're everywhere to me

And when I close my eyes it's you I see

You're everything I know

That makes me believe

I'm not alone

I'm not alone'

Shaking my head I sat on the window cill and looked deeply at the white puffy clouds. The sun made the clouds look even more welcoming and soft. One cloud took my interested. Funny, it looked just like marik. I could see his hair, his face, and his hai-. 'Wait You hate me and I'm not that fond of you eithier why do I see you everywhere?'

'I recognize the way you make me feel

It's hard to think that

You might not be real

I sense it now, the water's getting deep

I try to wash the pain away from me

Away from me'

I rolled my eyes and fell asleep on my bed.

'I am not alone

Whoa, oh, oooh, oh'

Marik stood infront of me in the black and purple void. My hands were around his shoulder. He gazed deeply into my eyes. I ran a hands through his blond hair. His hand met mine.

'And when I touch your hand

It's then I understand

The beauty that's within

It's now that we begin

You always light my way

I hope there never comes a day

No matter where I go

I always feel you so'

I woke up again. 'Why is when I shut my eyes your always there?' I ran out of the small house and toward no where. I'm so confused.

''Cause you're everywhere to me

And when I close my eyes it's you I see

You're everything I know

That makes me believe

I'm not alone

'Cause you're everywhere to me

And when I catch my breath

It's you I breathe

You're everything I know

That makes me believe

I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see

So tell me

Do you see me?'

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