CHAPTER 3

Ring ring, ring ring...

"Hello? Lita speaking"

"Hey Lita, its Serena. I know this is a bit forward, but I'm worried, I just want to know if anything is wrong. Rei said that you ran away from her this morning and you looked real upset."

I couldn't believe that Rei had told Serena and by now, I bet they all knew that something was wrong. "Look Serena, if something was up, wouldn't you think that I would have told you by now and anyway, it is none of your business and you wouldn't understand!" It wasn't really meant to have come out that way, but I was so angry and upset at the same time that I couldn't control myself.

"Lita? What's happened?" Before I even considered answering, I had slammed down the phone and ran to my room. Once there I flung myself on the bed and again, began to cry. It was starting to become too much, this 'secret' felt like it was ripping me up from the inside. I got up and begun to head back downstairs.

"Hello? Serena speaking."

"Serena? It's Lita, we need to talk."

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I had finally decided that I needed to tell someone what had happened the other night. I know I had decided to tell my friends earlier, but this felt easier then telling everyone at once.

Serena opened the door promptly after I knocked and we went straight up to her room.

"So what is going on? Rei was really concerned today about you," I looked Serena over and she seemed real worried herself. I took a large breath and went along with my story.

"I was, um, Serena? You can't tell anyone else this okay?" Serena nodded and stared. "I was forced to do something that I didn't want to do."

"You mean you were raped? Why didn't you tell us?"

"I, I didn't want to tell anyone incase they thought I had brought it on myself. But I didn't Serena, I didn't." I started to mumble on and on that I didn't, but I just didn't believe that. I was beginning to feel tired from all this crying, but I couldn't help myself, and Serena's look of shock didn't help much.

"Oh my God Lita, why didn't you tell someone earlier? I have to be honest and say that this wasn't what I had expected, but..."

This was getting too much, I knew that I shouldn't have told her, "I knew you wouldn't understand, no one does Serena. Not you, not my friends, not my parents, no one!" I jumped up and headed to her bedroom door. With my hand on the knob, I stopped. Here was someone who was prepared to listen to me and help me with my problems, and I was walking away.

"It was Geoff Serena, Geoff did this to me." I collapsed and Serena rushed to my side. She hugged me hard and was trying to convince me that every thing will be okay, we both knew this wasn't true, for a long time anyway.

After a while I had finally calmed down and we went back over and sat on Serena's bed. "He, he's mates grabbed me one night and Geoff attacked me."

"Oh Lita, I'm so sorry."

"It wasn't your fault, there was nothing no one could have done. While it was happening, I noticed people who were watching in horror, but no one even attempted to help me."

"Do you know why Geoff did this? I mean, you both broke up at least six months ago and really haven't seen him since." Serena had her arm around my shoulder and pulled tighter as if to protect me from more harm.

"He mentioned something about betrayal, I'm guessing it's because I left him waiting to have sex again, I was a bit confused, because I thought he understood that I didn't want to, but now, I think I know what he means." I looked up at Serena and she looked back confused, so I decided to tell her my other secret about Geoff. "When we were together, well I had got a little bit drunk at his birthday party and well, he got me to have sex with him. After that night, I said that it was a mistake and I didn't want to again until I felt ready. Geoff was constantly pressuring me to every time I saw him and no matter how often I said no, he kept trying to get me in the mood. He used things like alcohol again, kissing me on his bed or couch and just always getting us alone. I dumped him because I couldn't take it much longer."

Serena just stared at the floor, finally after the awkward silence, she spoke. "How does that relate to betrayal though? It wasn't like you had cheated on him or anything."

"It was probably because I refused to sleep with him again, he thought that was betrayal because I wasn't pleasing him like 'a girlfriend should' as he put it while we were going out. Plus I knocked him out when we broke up." I could tell Serena was trying real hard to hold back laughter after the last comment, but I didn't care. It was making me feel relieved telling Serena all my troubles. This encouraged me to go on.

"Remember that night that we went to the movies? Remember how I said that it was a nice night and that I would walk home? Well that was when he saw me; he was across the road. I had noticed someone following me, but I didn't really take much notice of it, I was just thinking that he may have been going the same way or something."

She had that shocked look on her face again, I could tell that she thought it was all her fault, she was the one after all who convinced the others that I would be fine. I just faintly heard Serena mutter what I had expected. "It is not your fault. I was the one who decided to go," I reassured her.

"Yeah but I was the one who let you." Once again, there was silence, but if I wasn't so persistent about being able to walk home alone, so really, it was my fault it happened. "He also said that night that he only wanted to hurt me, but changed his mind and decided that this would be a better 'punishment'".

"I hope you don't mind Lita, but how did he manage to, um you know?"

"Well as I said earlier, he was following me. I got a few blocks down from the theatre and then his mates jumped out at me from one of the alleys. I didn't know what was going on. They held me as Geoff started too rip at my clothes."

"You don't have to go on Lita if you don't want to, you do realize that?"

"Yes I do, but this is making me feel so much better about it, knowing that you are here to help me through this." My eyes were starting to get sore and tired from the crying, but it was so stressful.

Serena got up and grabbed the phone. She started dialing numbers and I knew instantly what she was doing.

"You can't tell the cops! Geoff would literally kill me if he got caught!"

"We have to tell someone. He has to pay for what he has done."

"No!" I grabbed the phone off her and threw it across the room, it smashed against the wall and we sat in silence.

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This would have been up much sooner if my computer didn't crash. So it's finally up.

I'm not sure when the next chapter is going to up, hopefully not too far away.