Kiriska: Hmmm...Hikeru. ^__^ Eh...slight Sorato I s'pose. Hell, this could be anything if you looked for it. ~_^
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Chapter Sixteen: Guilt
Hikari
I felt horrible. It's all my fault. I had been horrifyed. He was going to kill Mimi! I didn't know what I was doing. I wasn't thinking. It's all my fault. Now Tai probably hates me. I know he does. What about everyone else? I don't know. I don't have anyone to talk to. I used to talk to Taichi, and....Takeru. But now Tai's just furious at me. And Takeru's been gone. It's not fair.
I didn't want anyone else to die. I had snuck away while Yamato was raving and found a payphone. I called the police. I didn't know where we were, but I read off a street name off the street sign. I stood there by the phone til they arrived, then I showed them where they were, in that dark alley.
I didn't know what I expected. Matt was going to go to jail. I wasn't thinking. I had put my brother's best friend in the slammer. Tai was really the last person I had to talk to. When TK...died...I had talked to him about how I felt. Now I couldn't even talk to him.
We were sitting at the police station. Mimi was on the phone, walking to her mom. Joe had already left with his brother. Sora paced nervously around the room. Izzy was talking to the police. My brother sat in a chair, staring at the floor, anger written all over his face. He turned and glared at me. I turned away. Mimi hung up the phone, her expression was of anger, annoyance, fear, and impatientness. "My mom is coming." she announced to no one.
Sora had already called her mother, and was waiting. The officer looked at us, he handed the phone to me. I sighed and dialed my number. The phone didn't even finish ringing once; "Mom--" I was cut off by my mother's hysterics. "KARI! Where have you BEEN!? Is Tai there with you?" I sighed again, I knew this would happen. "Mom,...we left a note on the fridge, yes, Tai is with me, and we're at the..." I trailed off. I didn't really want to talk to my mom about the current events. "You're where!? Where are you Hikari!?" she demanded.
"..We're at the police stations..." I told her. "WHAT!? Why are you there!? What happened?! Is everything ok!?" I felt like crying, I couldn't help it. "Yamato tried to kill Mimi, mom!" I sobbed. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Taichi twitch and glare daggers at me. "What!? Is everyone alright!? What happened!? How did it get to that!? Hikari!? Are you ok!?" my mother's voice was full of urgency and fear.
"W-We're all ok, mom, Y-Yamato was..jailed..and..." Tai grabbed the phone from me; "Can you just pick us up!? We can talk about this later!" he growled into it. I stared at him, he never spoke to our mother that way. "Fine." he spat and clicked off the phone, he tossed the device to Koushirou. Taichi glared at me again and sat back down. I wanted to cry so badly.
I had lost so much already! Don't block me out, Taichi...I wished with all my heart that Takeru could come back, I despreately needed someone to talk to, no one was here for me. But in the back of my mind, I knew it could not happen. Life's not fair. But, then I realized something else.
Yamato was Takeru's brother, how would he feel if he knew I had sent his brother to jail? I knew they were close. I cried to myself. I hoped TK wasn't an angel watching over us right now. I didn't want him to know that I had turned his brother in. I just didn't. Everyone must hate me. I turned in their friend, I was such a wimp. Why did I have to call?
It was the reasonable thing to do wasn't it!? I mean, Matt had a knife at Mimi's throat! He was going to kill her!!! What was I supposed to do!? Guilt. I'm not supposed to feel guilt for turing in a killer am I? But I did. I felt so horribly guiltly. It's not fair. "It's not your fault, Hikari..." I jumped at the voice. It was Sora. She sat down beside me.
"Yes it is. I shouldn've called." I told her stubbornly, I closed my eyes, squeezing out another wave of tears. "No, no, it's not, you did the only thing you could have done. If you didn't....Mimi might not be alive..." she was trying not to cry. Why was Yamato doing this? Wasn't it enough that TK is gone? Why was he doing this? "Why is he doing this?" I didn't realize I said it out loud.
"I don't know...I wish I knew...this isn't the Matt I know.." now she was crying softly. "Sora?" Mrs.Takenouchi was at the entrance of the station. "I'm coming..." she replied, she turned to me. "It'll be alright, Hikari...everything will work out..." I sighed and watched Sora leave with her mother. I don't know if I was looking forward to going home.
I didn't want to stay here. Certainly not, but going home means we'd have to explain. I glanced at Taichi, he definately did not look like he wanted to explain. This was going to be a rough night. I hate this. In the back of my head, I wondered if I would get to miss school the next day. It was already 11:21 pm. It was late. Koushirou hung up the phone, he looked depressed. He sat down next to Tai.
Izzy seemed to be talking to Tai, who didn't look like he was listening. I tried to listen, but Izzy spoke quietly, and they were on the otherside of the room. An officer came up to us; "Ishida Yamato is going to have a court session this Friday, if you wish to attend, it will be at the City Hall at 7:00pm." I merely nodded. Taichi still looked enraged. Koushirou sighed. The door of the station swung open once more.
Mr.Ishida and Ms.Takaishi entered. Yamato's mother was crying pitifully. His father just looked painstriken and depressed. They talked with the police. I sank down in my chair. This is all my fault. All my frikkin fault. Why did I have to be such a wimp? Why couldn't I have been braver like Tai? And tried to talk with Matt? Why did I have to run and call the police?
I am the keeper of the Crest of Light. Light. What's that supposed to mean? I'm in the dark with all this, I don't know why any of this is happening. I'm so lost in it all. I wish I had my brother's Courage. My mother entered the station, she rushed to me and immediately began hugging and kissing me. "Kari! Kari! You're alright!" I pulled away. "You know I'm alright. I told you that." I answered somewhat coldly.
Tai stood up. He was staring at the ground. "Can we go now? I hate this place." he snarled. Mom was about to say something, but I caught her attention and shook my head. She sighed; "You two have a lot of explaining to do." she said. I waved to Izzy and we left. I looked back through the window of the police station, Yamato's parents were still talking to the police, their faces kept getting sadder and sadder. Why couldn't everything be alright again?
The drive home was silent. My mom still wanted us to explain. But she didn't press. Tai sat in the front of the vechile, his arms were crossed and he was still staring downward. I leaned against the window and watched the scenery pass by. Old buildings, graffiti, trash littered the streets, gangs roaming the streets. It wasn't a pretty society. I was grateful when we finally reached our apartment again. It was pass midnight. I felt extremely tired.
My mother was impatient, she wanted to know what happened. Tai went straight to his room and shut the door. I'm glad we had gotten seperate bedrooms now. My dad tried to get him out, but it didn't work. So they interrogated me. I couldn't do anything, I told them everything. I answered everything I could. Anything to let them let me sleep. I was so tired. One half of me was grateful when they let me go. The other half wasn't.
I wanted to sleep badly. But I knew, that with sleep....came nightmares. I haven't had a good night's sleep since my Takeru's death...since he was murdered. it's not fair. How many times have I had that thought tonight? How many? Too many. I lay down on my bed, there's nothing to worry about Kari...Yamato's in jail. He can't kill you. He wouldn't kill you...You never did anything to him. ... Except turn him in.
I turned over and pulled my covered around me. I couldn't sleep. I was tired as hell, and yet I can't sleep. I kept seeing two images. One, Takeru's dead body, white and pale. Two, Yamato holding Mimi up the wall, knife in hand. Both of which scared me. I saw figures in the shadows, the slightest sounds were brought to my attention. I could hear the murmer of my parents' voices as they conversed. I could hear the faint sound of music coming from Tai's room. He always said music calmed him. It didn't calm me. Knowing that my brother was so angry didn't calm me at all. Nothing that's happened in the last week calmed me. Not one thing.
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Kiriska: There, now you know how Hikari feels. Next chapter's Taichi's POV, just so ya know. ^__^ Plz review!!
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Chapter Sixteen: Guilt
Hikari
I felt horrible. It's all my fault. I had been horrifyed. He was going to kill Mimi! I didn't know what I was doing. I wasn't thinking. It's all my fault. Now Tai probably hates me. I know he does. What about everyone else? I don't know. I don't have anyone to talk to. I used to talk to Taichi, and....Takeru. But now Tai's just furious at me. And Takeru's been gone. It's not fair.
I didn't want anyone else to die. I had snuck away while Yamato was raving and found a payphone. I called the police. I didn't know where we were, but I read off a street name off the street sign. I stood there by the phone til they arrived, then I showed them where they were, in that dark alley.
I didn't know what I expected. Matt was going to go to jail. I wasn't thinking. I had put my brother's best friend in the slammer. Tai was really the last person I had to talk to. When TK...died...I had talked to him about how I felt. Now I couldn't even talk to him.
We were sitting at the police station. Mimi was on the phone, walking to her mom. Joe had already left with his brother. Sora paced nervously around the room. Izzy was talking to the police. My brother sat in a chair, staring at the floor, anger written all over his face. He turned and glared at me. I turned away. Mimi hung up the phone, her expression was of anger, annoyance, fear, and impatientness. "My mom is coming." she announced to no one.
Sora had already called her mother, and was waiting. The officer looked at us, he handed the phone to me. I sighed and dialed my number. The phone didn't even finish ringing once; "Mom--" I was cut off by my mother's hysterics. "KARI! Where have you BEEN!? Is Tai there with you?" I sighed again, I knew this would happen. "Mom,...we left a note on the fridge, yes, Tai is with me, and we're at the..." I trailed off. I didn't really want to talk to my mom about the current events. "You're where!? Where are you Hikari!?" she demanded.
"..We're at the police stations..." I told her. "WHAT!? Why are you there!? What happened?! Is everything ok!?" I felt like crying, I couldn't help it. "Yamato tried to kill Mimi, mom!" I sobbed. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Taichi twitch and glare daggers at me. "What!? Is everyone alright!? What happened!? How did it get to that!? Hikari!? Are you ok!?" my mother's voice was full of urgency and fear.
"W-We're all ok, mom, Y-Yamato was..jailed..and..." Tai grabbed the phone from me; "Can you just pick us up!? We can talk about this later!" he growled into it. I stared at him, he never spoke to our mother that way. "Fine." he spat and clicked off the phone, he tossed the device to Koushirou. Taichi glared at me again and sat back down. I wanted to cry so badly.
I had lost so much already! Don't block me out, Taichi...I wished with all my heart that Takeru could come back, I despreately needed someone to talk to, no one was here for me. But in the back of my mind, I knew it could not happen. Life's not fair. But, then I realized something else.
Yamato was Takeru's brother, how would he feel if he knew I had sent his brother to jail? I knew they were close. I cried to myself. I hoped TK wasn't an angel watching over us right now. I didn't want him to know that I had turned his brother in. I just didn't. Everyone must hate me. I turned in their friend, I was such a wimp. Why did I have to call?
It was the reasonable thing to do wasn't it!? I mean, Matt had a knife at Mimi's throat! He was going to kill her!!! What was I supposed to do!? Guilt. I'm not supposed to feel guilt for turing in a killer am I? But I did. I felt so horribly guiltly. It's not fair. "It's not your fault, Hikari..." I jumped at the voice. It was Sora. She sat down beside me.
"Yes it is. I shouldn've called." I told her stubbornly, I closed my eyes, squeezing out another wave of tears. "No, no, it's not, you did the only thing you could have done. If you didn't....Mimi might not be alive..." she was trying not to cry. Why was Yamato doing this? Wasn't it enough that TK is gone? Why was he doing this? "Why is he doing this?" I didn't realize I said it out loud.
"I don't know...I wish I knew...this isn't the Matt I know.." now she was crying softly. "Sora?" Mrs.Takenouchi was at the entrance of the station. "I'm coming..." she replied, she turned to me. "It'll be alright, Hikari...everything will work out..." I sighed and watched Sora leave with her mother. I don't know if I was looking forward to going home.
I didn't want to stay here. Certainly not, but going home means we'd have to explain. I glanced at Taichi, he definately did not look like he wanted to explain. This was going to be a rough night. I hate this. In the back of my head, I wondered if I would get to miss school the next day. It was already 11:21 pm. It was late. Koushirou hung up the phone, he looked depressed. He sat down next to Tai.
Izzy seemed to be talking to Tai, who didn't look like he was listening. I tried to listen, but Izzy spoke quietly, and they were on the otherside of the room. An officer came up to us; "Ishida Yamato is going to have a court session this Friday, if you wish to attend, it will be at the City Hall at 7:00pm." I merely nodded. Taichi still looked enraged. Koushirou sighed. The door of the station swung open once more.
Mr.Ishida and Ms.Takaishi entered. Yamato's mother was crying pitifully. His father just looked painstriken and depressed. They talked with the police. I sank down in my chair. This is all my fault. All my frikkin fault. Why did I have to be such a wimp? Why couldn't I have been braver like Tai? And tried to talk with Matt? Why did I have to run and call the police?
I am the keeper of the Crest of Light. Light. What's that supposed to mean? I'm in the dark with all this, I don't know why any of this is happening. I'm so lost in it all. I wish I had my brother's Courage. My mother entered the station, she rushed to me and immediately began hugging and kissing me. "Kari! Kari! You're alright!" I pulled away. "You know I'm alright. I told you that." I answered somewhat coldly.
Tai stood up. He was staring at the ground. "Can we go now? I hate this place." he snarled. Mom was about to say something, but I caught her attention and shook my head. She sighed; "You two have a lot of explaining to do." she said. I waved to Izzy and we left. I looked back through the window of the police station, Yamato's parents were still talking to the police, their faces kept getting sadder and sadder. Why couldn't everything be alright again?
The drive home was silent. My mom still wanted us to explain. But she didn't press. Tai sat in the front of the vechile, his arms were crossed and he was still staring downward. I leaned against the window and watched the scenery pass by. Old buildings, graffiti, trash littered the streets, gangs roaming the streets. It wasn't a pretty society. I was grateful when we finally reached our apartment again. It was pass midnight. I felt extremely tired.
My mother was impatient, she wanted to know what happened. Tai went straight to his room and shut the door. I'm glad we had gotten seperate bedrooms now. My dad tried to get him out, but it didn't work. So they interrogated me. I couldn't do anything, I told them everything. I answered everything I could. Anything to let them let me sleep. I was so tired. One half of me was grateful when they let me go. The other half wasn't.
I wanted to sleep badly. But I knew, that with sleep....came nightmares. I haven't had a good night's sleep since my Takeru's death...since he was murdered. it's not fair. How many times have I had that thought tonight? How many? Too many. I lay down on my bed, there's nothing to worry about Kari...Yamato's in jail. He can't kill you. He wouldn't kill you...You never did anything to him. ... Except turn him in.
I turned over and pulled my covered around me. I couldn't sleep. I was tired as hell, and yet I can't sleep. I kept seeing two images. One, Takeru's dead body, white and pale. Two, Yamato holding Mimi up the wall, knife in hand. Both of which scared me. I saw figures in the shadows, the slightest sounds were brought to my attention. I could hear the murmer of my parents' voices as they conversed. I could hear the faint sound of music coming from Tai's room. He always said music calmed him. It didn't calm me. Knowing that my brother was so angry didn't calm me at all. Nothing that's happened in the last week calmed me. Not one thing.
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Kiriska: There, now you know how Hikari feels. Next chapter's Taichi's POV, just so ya know. ^__^ Plz review!!
