"I can't believe him!" Manny screamed into her pillow. It was her
first night back in her own bed. She had just returned from her family
vacation and the short time away had hardly touched her wounds. She had
been civil with her family, but now the reality of it all hit her. She
gave it all up for him. Her image. Her good judgement. Her innocence.
Her best friend. Her heart. Everything......Everything. Did he even
realize that?
She was too young for him, so she grew up. He was upset, so she put herself on the line to make him feel better. He wanted to go all the way, so she complied. He wanted a place to make out, so she offered him her best friend's bed. He wanted to be loved, and so she gave him her heart. She did everything for him. That lying coward!! What was she thinking? Oh, that's right. She wasn't thinking. She was madly in love.
She allowed him to hurt her again and again. "How many times will you let him break your heart?" Manny whispered to herself through her tears. She still loved him. She loved him more than anything in the world. How could he betray her? She felt so alone. She had no one to turn to. She started to miss Emma.
Emma. That was another story. She gave Emma everything as well. Manny helped her friend through internet crushes and her first boyfriend. Manny was there when Emma was upset about her mom's wedding. She was there when Emma was upset about Snake's cancer. She was there for every environmental club meeting, handing out flyers and listening to boring lectures about turtles, trees and genetically modified vegetables. Manny was always there to offer a shoulder to cry on and sweet words of advice.
Manny had her own problems: her parents, school and her own crushes. All which took a backseat to Emma's crusade to fight every injustice in the world. Was Emma there for her when she needed someone most? No. She was judging her, criticizing her, and acting jealous because she wasn't in the spotlight for a moment. Granted, Manny knew she had her faults. She shouldn't have brought Craig back to Emma's room. When it came to Craig, Manny's judgment faltered. That was stupid. She admitted it. She apologized. What more did Emma want? Friends shouldn't judge friends. People get judged enough as it is.
It didn't matter now. They weren't on speaking terms. Manny cringed at the idea of apologizing again after what Emma said to her. The words, "school slut" rang through her head. That was wrong. That was unfair. Is someone a slut for loving a guy more than themselves? Naïve maybe. A slut? No. She had kissed two guys her whole life. One of them she had been in love with for almost a year. Just because she was tired of looking "cute" and needed a change, she was deemed a slut? Don't judge a book by it's cover.
Why was all this happening to her? What did she do to deserve this? Manny cried herself to sleep with thoughts of Craig in her heart.
She was too young for him, so she grew up. He was upset, so she put herself on the line to make him feel better. He wanted to go all the way, so she complied. He wanted a place to make out, so she offered him her best friend's bed. He wanted to be loved, and so she gave him her heart. She did everything for him. That lying coward!! What was she thinking? Oh, that's right. She wasn't thinking. She was madly in love.
She allowed him to hurt her again and again. "How many times will you let him break your heart?" Manny whispered to herself through her tears. She still loved him. She loved him more than anything in the world. How could he betray her? She felt so alone. She had no one to turn to. She started to miss Emma.
Emma. That was another story. She gave Emma everything as well. Manny helped her friend through internet crushes and her first boyfriend. Manny was there when Emma was upset about her mom's wedding. She was there when Emma was upset about Snake's cancer. She was there for every environmental club meeting, handing out flyers and listening to boring lectures about turtles, trees and genetically modified vegetables. Manny was always there to offer a shoulder to cry on and sweet words of advice.
Manny had her own problems: her parents, school and her own crushes. All which took a backseat to Emma's crusade to fight every injustice in the world. Was Emma there for her when she needed someone most? No. She was judging her, criticizing her, and acting jealous because she wasn't in the spotlight for a moment. Granted, Manny knew she had her faults. She shouldn't have brought Craig back to Emma's room. When it came to Craig, Manny's judgment faltered. That was stupid. She admitted it. She apologized. What more did Emma want? Friends shouldn't judge friends. People get judged enough as it is.
It didn't matter now. They weren't on speaking terms. Manny cringed at the idea of apologizing again after what Emma said to her. The words, "school slut" rang through her head. That was wrong. That was unfair. Is someone a slut for loving a guy more than themselves? Naïve maybe. A slut? No. She had kissed two guys her whole life. One of them she had been in love with for almost a year. Just because she was tired of looking "cute" and needed a change, she was deemed a slut? Don't judge a book by it's cover.
Why was all this happening to her? What did she do to deserve this? Manny cried herself to sleep with thoughts of Craig in her heart.
