Disclaimers: Yes I do do this, but I'm not going to yell in your face saying don't sue me or stuff like that. So here I go. I, Demonio Espanol (Lauren for some of you), do not, I repeat do not own any of the gundam boys or anything related to them. The only thing I own here is Chita Marianna Leonardo... and this story of course. Okay on with the story!

Demonio Espanol: ¡hola mis criados leales! ¡significo a revisores! hopefully you guys don't understand that ^_^U well here it is! i love you guys! and you know what maybe i'll make a sequal so be expecting it in...a year? kidding! okie i'll leave you alone.

Another Ordinary Day Ch.9

I waited for Heero to speak up. Moments passed and still no response from him. I squeezed his hand, silently begging him to tell me what was wrong. I saw his eyes go down to our joined hands and then he pulled his hand away.

"Heero what's wrong? Please tell me." I asked him somewhat hurt by his action.

"Nothings wrong. It's just like you said. We're partners now and a relationship would only get in the way." He stood and started for the door.

"Heero! Just because we can't have something doesn't mean you can go cold on me!" Anger filled my voice. It was times like this that I wish I wasn't spoiled as a child. Sometimes wanting something real bad can get me in trouble.

Heero stopped halfway to the door, but didn't turn around.

"I once hated you. J let you develop emotions and let you express them freely, while I was punished if I gave the slightest hint of emotions. Every time I saw you, anger filled me and all I wanted to do was kill you. I couldn't stand the sight of you being happy when I was miserable. But after that night I saw you come in the gundam hanger crying, all the anger and hatred in me vanished. You looked so broken. The only thing I could do was help you. Since then I never hated you." As Heero spoke I saw his fist shaking.

"I remember when you fell into my arms, you kept crying and telling me how sorry you were. How sorry you were that we started off on the wrong foot, how sorry you were that we couldn't be friends. When you were done, you asked me to be your friend. Someone who you could trust to keep your secrets and trust to be there for you. And I remember I accepted." Heero finally turned to me, his eyes glistening with unshed tears. Why was he about to cry? My words couldn't have affected him that much.

"You were the first person who wanted me for a friend. You made me promise to be your best friend forever and I did my best to keep that promise." Now he looked down at his hands, one solitary tear slipped down his cheek and landed on his palm. For a moment I tried to remember the details of that night.

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Heero still held me in his arms while I sniffed away the last of my tears.

"You all right now?" He asked looking down at me.

"Yeah, thanks." I smiled gratefully up at him.

"Can you promise me something?" I asked him a bit softly.

"Depends on what it is." He replied while playing with my hair.

"Will you be my friend? Forever?" I remember it felt like an eternity before he answered. I had no real friends back then because I didn't want any. Now that I actually wanted someone for a friend I was afraid of being rejected.

"Why do you need me as a friend?' Heero looked down at me questioningly.

"Because...I need one right now." Unconsciously my grip on his shirt tightened.

"You need me?"

"Is that so freaking hard to believe?" I picked up my head off his shoulder and glared at him in the eyes.

He just searched my eyes then finally smiled at me. He hugged me and for a moment I was tense. I relaxed against him and hugged him back.

"Yes, I promise to be your friend forever." He said beside my head.

I hugged him tighter and stood up.

"Okay now that you made that promise you have to keep it no matter what! If I'm hurt, you'll heal me. If I'm sad, you cheer me up. If I'm angry, you calm me down. And if I'm lost you find me. That's how friends are supposed to be...at least those are my friendship rules." Heero stood up and held out his hand.

"I accept. I'll do whatever it takes to be the best friend you'll ever have." I took his hand and we shook on it.

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"After J saw us he forced me into some serious training, trying to drain all the emotions from me. He didn't succeed though. Because I promised you to be your friend and to be your friend was to have emotions. I hid them from him hoping that one day I could find you again. After a while I realized I couldn't keep my promise. I had already broken the promise by being somewhere else when I knew you needed me. Now that I've found you and we're able to make a different promise to each other, you wish to still go by the old one." Heero's voice shook a little at the end. How could he say such a thing? I didn't even remember that promise! I don't mean to hurt him so much.

"Heero... it's not like that." I said softly as I stood and slowly reached out for him.

"Forget what I said." He turned his ice-cold gaze to me, his eyes not glistening anymore.

"I informed J of our meeting. He should give us our first assignment soon. Be prepared." With that he left my room closing the door softly behind him.

"Mierda.[1]"

I sat in my room an hour or so later saying that same word over and over again. Heero was upset at me because of a childhood promise and I can't think of a single thing to do to make it better!

"Mierda!" I half yelled. I stood up and started pacing the room. I glanced over at Lia and Duo who were sipping away the last of their soda. I stopped in front of them and glared at each in turn.

"What the hell are you guys looking at?!" I threw my hands in the air, irritation and annoyance getting the better of me.

"Okay fine we'll help just stop going ballistic on us." Lia said to me.

"Que[2]! What are you talking about?!" For some odd reason I couldn't keep my voice down.

"Maria, babe, calm down. I'll go see what's up with Heero and see if I we can figure out a way to settle this." Duo stood and started for the door.

"Help me? You guys don't even know what's going on! Besides this is a personal matter! I don't need you guys interfering." Before I could rant on Duo slipped out of the room as if he didn't hear me.

Who does that guy think he is?! Does he understand the word "Personal"? I don't need any interference. I can figure something out. I just hope its before our mission is given...mission! Gundams! I turned to Lia and grabbed her shoulders.

"Lia! Did you tell Duo we were gundam pilots?! This whole predicament started over the missions! What if he finds out?! Our cover will be ruined! Then-!" I was stopped by a hard slap in the face. I blinked a few times before I realized Lia slapped me.

"Stop it already! You're creepin me out! You're becoming such a worrywart. I guess I'm on this planet to relieve you of your anxieties." Lia sighed and sat my still numb body in a chair. "Duo is a gundam pilot just like us. Plus during the previous war Heero and Duo were buds and I guess you can say they still are. So just chill, k?"

I rubbed a shaky hand to my forehead as I absorbed all of this. Okay, Duo was a gundam pilot and Heero's friend. I guess that kind of settles my nerves. But I just want to speak to Heero myself...I just can't think of anything to say. Maybe I'll start off like "I love you, I want to have your child and live the rest of my life with you, but not until this war ends and that's if either of us survive." Yeah that sounds good.

"Maybe you should take a shower and sleep." Lia suggested as she flopped down onto her bed.

"I think I'll do that." I got off the chair and went into the bathroom.

I deliberately used cold shower, trying to calm my flipping stomach. What the hell is up with me? Why am I reacting like this? Yes, Heero was my first friend and now I probably want him as something more, but why can't he see we're in a war that needs our whole attention and why can't I keep my body under control! I turned the shower knob to see if the water could get any colder. No one has ever done to this to me, not even that filthy Okama! Heero tore bit by bit at my heart as he said those anguished words.

I turned the water off and stood there for a moment longer. I stepped out and quickly dried and dressed. Without a word to Lia I left to find Heero. I won't let this fall apart. Even if we didn't get that far.

I stopped in front of Heero's dorm and took a deep breath. This is it. I was about to turn the doorknob when I heard voices from inside. I put my ear on the door to hear them better.

"Heero, she's crazy about you! Just because she said she didn't want to take things further yet doesn't mean it's forever. She said she didn't think it was right, but just because things seem wrong doesn't mean people won't do it." Duo's voice came. It sounded like he was near the door.

A short silence was followed before I heard Duo sigh.

"I'm gonna go get Maria so you guys can talk. Just stay put, k?" I heard Duo's soft footsteps and I quickly stepped aside so Heero wouldn't see me. Duo stepped out and closed the door behind him. He then looked over at me and smiled.

"Knew you couldn't resist. Hopefully he'll listen to you." Duo turned and walked off.

I looked to the door and gulped. Now I wasn't sure if I was ready to do this. I took a deep breath and opened the door. Heero was sitting on a bed with his head bent. As I stepped in the room he looked up at me briefly then turned away. I closed the door and closed the space between us. He still said nothing as I stood in front of him.

"Heero, tell me what are you're thinking." I sat down next to him and laid a hand on his shoulder.

"Is there any particular reason why you're here?" Heero stood up and faced me.

"Why do you think? I'm here to settle this before it eats away at us and interferes with what we're supposed to be concentrating on." Again my anger was rising. Heero don't be stupid.

"There's nothing to settle, so just leave."

"How can you say that? I like you okay? I like you a lot, but our missions put us in danger and if one of us has to die...I don't want to mourn anyone and I don't want anyone to mourn me. I've lost too many people and mourned them all my life. I don't need to add to the list." My voice turned to a whisper as I said the last part.

"I don't see a problem. We have nothing. We're not taking anything further so therefore we won't mourn anyone except the innocent lives we may destroy."

"Are you saying that when you kissed me and held me for the past two days, you thought it meant nothing."

"Ever heard of one night stands? Here I thought it'd be easy to get a girl like you into bed. After all we're going to battle soon so why not relieve myself now before we depart. It seems you came to the conclusion that we had something. You're still a child in your mind. Now that I've relieved you of your childish illusions leave me alone."

As Heero spoke those words I could feel my body go numb. He just wanted...wanted me for sex?! How could I have been so stupid! I could feel tears form in the corner of my eyes. No, I won't let him see me like this. I didn't let that filth Okama and I won't let Heero. I held back my tears and glared up at Heero. He had his arms crossed and gave me a look that said "Why aren't you out my door yet?" I stood in front of him and just glared at him.

"You're just as bad as Okama. I never got to kill him but I swear when this war is over you will die by my hands and I will take such pleasure in seeing your dead body on the ground for me to walk over and treat like the dirt you are." I said through gritted teeth as I clenched my hands.

In the fastest I've ever seen myself move, I drew my fist back and striked Heero hard in the face making him land on his back on the opposite bed.

"Cuando esta guerra encima, voy a matarle.[3]" I turned and left, not waiting for a response

[Heero's percpective]

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" Duo half yelled at me after he unexpectedly punch me. I really need to stop letting my guard down. Only a few minutes ago I received J's e-mail for Chita and my first mission together. I had wanted to go somewhere where no one would bother me but I ran into Duo. It seemed like he knew just what happened. By now a few other students were looking at us.

"Why the hell would you care?" I snapped back at him. I looked around at the students who stopped and glared at them.

"You don't go and tell a girl that you wanted her just for sex!" Duo waved his hands in the air almost knocking someone behind him. He looked at the person and noticed they were making a scene. He turned back to me and lowered his voice. "Look, just because we're buddies doesn't mean you can go and break someone like Maria's heart. She's like a lil sis to me and now that her bro ain't here I'm taking care of her."

"So you'd side with her and not your own war comrade?" I said as the students finally started moving.

"Yeah I would. You know, I would've never expected you of all people to use girls like that. It seems you really have no emotions, not even regret." My hands clenched at his words. I did have emotions, especially regret now. I just can't let them see it.

Duo wrapped one arm around my shoulder and whispered into my ear, "Just stay away from Maria, or else you deal with me. Got it 'buddy'?"

He pulled away a little and dug his fingernails into my shoulder. Then walked away. I looked at my shoulder and small red blood marks were growing on my white shirt, some merging. It seems Duo really meant it.

I walked through the garden. For once I just wanted to forget everything and just be at peace, even for a few moments. I looked at the old oak tree that I stood in front of. This is where we first met. We talked for hours up in that tree. I sighed deeply and climbed to the very top of the tree. We won't be having talks like that for a while.

I didn't want to do it, but I had no choice. Deceiving her was the only way. I ran my hand through my hair and gritted my teeth. I knew telling her that I wanted her for sex would be a critical hit. She absolutely hates being used. Maybe if we were friends when we were kids I could have came up with something else to tell her. Actually now that I think about it if we were friends when we were kids none of this would have happened.

I sighed again. She vowed to kill me so she doesn't plan on dying just yet. It's like she said a relationship would get in the way. But if we went on with her still having those feelings for me it still wouldn't work. She would still worry and then one of us would end up mourning. She doesn't want that. Now that she hates me and wants to kill me I'm sure she'll live through this. Her anger will fuel her through this war and I'm sure she is determined to keep her promise.

I smiled to myself. Even if she forgives me after this I'm sure she'll be the end of me.

I heard a scream from behind me and turned to see two girls looking stunned as they listened to their radio.

"War has been declared and now the air force base in the next town is being attacked!" screamed one of the girls.

Well there was our que. Trowa and his new partner should be there by now. I need to get Chita so we can head out now. I looked up into the light blue sky.

"So it begins now. I'll be waiting for you in the end, Chita. Maybe then we can live one ordinary day at a time."

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[1]= "Shit"

[2]= the equivalent to "What!"

[3]= "When this war is over, I'm going to kill you"

DE: *hides in a turtle shell* please don't hate me! i know it wasn't an ending you were expecting but i thought it was appropriate. *Pops her head out* hey maybe i'll make and alternate ending! and maybe a sequal! well...that's if i come up with one. and if you beg me enough *grins and ducks head back in as tomatoes are thrown at her* again i hope you liked my story. I actually finished it! see Jen i can finish my stories! *remembers this is her very first finished fic out of who knows how many* again i hope you liked my fic. and just because this is the end doesn't mean you can leave without reviewing! Thank you all for reading my story and thank you Jenna for getting me through my writer's block! i'll see you guys in my other fics bye!

p.s. don't really know why i'm doin this but i'll do it anyways. this fic was first inspired by Vanessa Carlton's ordinary day, but as you can tell i've only used it for the first partof the story. This fic was co-written by my best friend Jen so thank her because without her i wouldn't have finished this........... what does 'p.s.' stand for anyways?