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Confrontations Part 1
Serena had been silent the whole trip back to her apartment. She couldn't bring herself to glance at her friend because of her part in setting up her meeting with Heero this afternoon. She had been shocked at Amy's response to his presence, but then again so was everyone else. Serena remembered her conflicting thoughts during Amy's confession and that made her feel her anger rise slightly because she realized Amy was still clinging to the past. That incident had happened so long ago they had all thought she had gotten over it. They had obviously been wrong, but a stray thought was still running through Serena's head, 'Why did she do all that if she still loves him?' She was brought from her musing when she heard the door close beside her.
Amy had already left the Jeep and waited for Serena to open the door to the apartment. The sooner she could forget about today and how she had treated Heero the sooner she could get her life back on track. Tears began to from in her eyes at that thought. 'But I want him in my life.' She quickly suppressed her tears saying she had cried enough for her whole lifetime. 'I won't be a replacement.' She took shaky breath as Serena opened the door to the apartment. Amy didn't even spare her blonde-haired friend a second glance before entering and making her way up the stairs.
"Amy I'm so sorry." Serena said in a tiny voice with her eyes downcast.
Amy paused when she heard the whispered apology. Her eyes narrowed as she turned to face her friend.
"Your apology means nothing to me Serena. You knew about how I felt and you still brought him to that party like nothing had happened and now you are sorry. Its too late for that." Her voice was as cold as ice.
Her eyes narrowed even more when she saw that Serena neither denied nor accepted her accusation. She was about to renew her ascent when doorbell rang. Serena was immediately at the door thanking the gods for a small reprieve from her guilt. She pulled the door open thinking that it was Duo with something they had left at the park, her eyes widened when she saw Trista and Michelle standing on the other side of the door.
"Hello Serena. Is Amy here?" Michelle asked.
"Yes we would like to speak with you and her." Trista said with a small bit of impatience.
"Oh did you two want to apologize to me too?" Amy asked sarcastically. "Well save it."
"We're not here to apologize, but we do have some things to speak to you about. If we're satisfied then we will leave." Trista replied trying to keep her anger down.
Amy didn't respond but simply move from her position on the stairs and took a seat on the couch. Her glare didn't go unnoticed by any of the women in the room. They all took seats and the room fell into an uncomfortable silence. None of the women knew what to say to begin the conversation. The silence only helped to anger Amy even more and cause her glare to intensify. Michelle was the first to speak out of the group.
"This afternoon was rather interesting wasn't it?"
"No it was rather fucked up."
"I guess your still angry then." Michelle said letting Amy's harsh reply roll off her back.
"I think I have a right to be don't you? You guys went behind my back and set me up. Who's idea was it to bring him because I know he wouldn't have shown up other wise." Amy asked.
"How do you know that…" Serena trailed off when Amy's head snapped in her direction.
"Don't."
"It was Hotaru's idea." Trista said simply.
Amy's glare wavered slightly at this and Serena jumped at the chance to have some of her question answered. Amy glare returned the room to silence as everyone tried to drive the conversation to get the information they wanted.
"Amy why did you acted like that? You told me that you still loved him." Serena asked.
"I do still love him but I am not going to be something he can fall back to when he is tired of the woman he is already with." she said quietly.
"I thought you were over that Amy. You're going to throw away something that made you truly happy over your past?!?!?" Serena exclaimed throwing her arms up in frustration.
"I'm not throwing anything away Serena. I'm just not letting myself end up hurt like the last time." was her answer.
"DAMN IT AMY! HE'S NOT GREG!!" Serena yelled.
"I know." Amy said losing her glare and lowering her eyes to the floor to conceal her sadness.
"Then why?" Serena asked trying to understand the reason behind Amy's reaction.
Trista and Michelle trade quick glances at the pair. Amy lack of response began driving their curiosity toward the subject of her not wanting to be a 'replacement'. They knew whatever her problem was it was derived from her time with this mysterious boy named Greg. Trista reigned in her anger and allowed Michelle to continue asking the question for the time being. She would take over when they had a clearer understanding of the situation.
"Who exactly is this Greg person and what does he have to do with what happened this afternoon?" Michelle asked the two girls.
Serena looked away from Amy and let her shoulders sag. Shaking her head as she re-took her seat and refused to speak. Amy got her self into this and she has to deal with her past or it'll stop her from ever being happy. Serena turned toward Amy and waited for her to reply. Trista cocked one eyebrow at this recent turn of events but remained quiet. Michelle gazed at the blue-haired girl waiting for her to reply. Seeing that the girl's eyes remained on the floor Michelle moved toward the young girl and kneeled in front of her.
"Amy, please understand, we care a great deal about you and Heero but you need to help us. Who is Greg and what did he do to you?" Michelle asked again with true sympathy in her voice.
Amy head rose and everyone saw that she had angry tears in her eyes. She made no move to hide them from Michelle and the others; they were the reason she was brought to this. Her eyes hardened at the look of sympathy she received from them. 'If they want to know then I'll put this to rest now.' She thought with a sadistic smile forming on her teary face.
"Fine you want to know then I'll tell you. This all happened before I met you, Heero, or Trista. It happened when I was in junior high. I was still very introverted and the only people I would talk to were Serena and the others. They all had their sights set on certain guys while I hid myself with schoolwork pretending that I didn't really care about that stuff. But I really craved the carefree way that they live each day.
"That all changed one day while I was at cram school. I was checking the scores from the most recent test we had taken when a young boy approached me. At first I couldn't believe that he was approaching me. Me the unattractive and most closed off girl in the school but he was. He was like a dream. He was very handsome and at the same he had a modest feeling coming from he was also the second smartest person in the school. That was him, the first guy I fell for, Greg.
"I was so struck with him that I decide to take a gamble for once in my boring life. We fell into a quick friendship just like I had with Heero but I didn't realize that I was that I had not taken the time to actually get to know him. At the beginning of the relationship Greg didn't really change much but later he began to slowly start changing me. It started with little things like how I would dress or how much time I spent on studying but the changes started to become more based on my personality. Some times I wonder if the changes he pushed me to make were for the best. Greg helped me with my self-confidence and speaking my mind but I think that the changes drove him away in the first place.
"Greg began to become more distant as we stayed together. He would spend less and less time with me and more time away. Then it happened I caught him with some other girl. Sure it wouldn't have been a big deal but as I stood there staring at them I took in the girls features. She was almost an exact copy of who I was the only difference being that she wasn't as introverted as I had been and she didn't jump at him when he met her. I reacted the only way I knew how. I ran back to my house and forced myself to believe that it never happened, that he was still mine.
"It worked for a while that is until he began to have trouble getting away from me to go see her. Greg couldn't go anywhere without me with him. I know it was stupid but I was desperate to prove he was mine. This drove him to become even colder toward me, but I accepted it just to keep him with me. This continued for weeks until one night he found me and was back to the way he was when we first met. I was ecstatic that he was mine again, but I found out later that he had come back to me because I was a safe, a sure thing. Greg had seen me the night I caught him with that girl. Everything went smoothly for a while until the change in him happened again. This time he told that he was seeing someone else and that the only reason he stayed with me was because I was a replacement." Amy glaze never wavered when she finished her story.
Serena chose that moment to add rest of the story that Amy left out.
"What she didn't tell you was that we found her that same night with a bottle of aspirin and Jack Daniels. She was crying and repeating that she was a replacement. If we had been any later she would have committed suicide. She finally told us what had happened and we helped her as best we could." Serena finished.
Michelle nodded her head and didn't question the tears that fell from the blonde girl's eyes. Her glaze fell on Amy who face still held that sadistic smile from when she first began her story. Michelle shuddered at the hollow laugh the girl released.
"I was over everything that had happened in the past then I met Heero and he was so different from Greg in how he treated me. It was almost as if he was afraid that I would disappear if he tried anything that I didn't expect. I love that the most about your brother Trista and it's also the thing I hate most about him. I am not made of glass and I am not a replacement. But he did surprise me he surprised me by bring just like Greg and I hate myself because I can't hate him for it. That's why I let him go, but you all fucked that up by putting me in a situation to face him and my past and instead of just me being hurt we both were." Amy broke into a croaking laugh and her face still held her sinister smile.
Trista had sat through the blue-haired girl's entire speech. She had sat there and heard speak about her past and how she had been treated. Trista had listened to every excruciating detail when Amy had compared the two boys, but the thing that drove her patience was how the girl had said all of this with that sickening smile on her face. Then the foolish girl had the gall to begin to laugh about the situation. Trista rose from her seat and cross the room toward her brother's lover. The hollow laughter was silenced as Trista's hand struck Amy's cheek sending the girl to the floor.
"You did all of this today because you wanted to protect Heero? Well I think that is all
BULLSHIT!!!" Trista yelled not trying to mask her anger.
"Who cares what you think?" Amy hissed at the older woman.
"You listen to me Amy I love my brother and so do you, but you are willing to throw that away because you're scared of being hurt. Why did you decide to be with Heero in the first place?" Trista voice hissed back with barely controlled fury.
Amy began to answer but her response died on her lips as she tried to choke to control her tears.
"I'll tell you why it's because he was safe. His past was even worst than yours and you knew he couldn't and wouldn't hurt you again. He had been through too much to risk the one good thing he had been able to get." Trista whispered to the girl.
" THAT'S NOT TRUE!!! I LOVE HIM AND YOU KNOW IT!!! HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO MADE ME HAPPY!!! THE ONLY ONE!!!" Amy screamed at the woman, wildly shaking her head.
"Then prove it. Go to him and tell him why you put both of you through this hell." Trista said as she rose.
Amy nodded weakly but made know move to leave her position on the floor. Trista saw this and played her trump card. She bowed before her friend and held out her hand.
"Earlier you said you wished Heero would surprise you more often then he had, well here is the surprise he had planned for you." Trista spoke quietly to her friend.
Amy eyes drifted toward the out stretched hand before her. What she saw drove her in hysterical tears. In Trista's hand lay a small velvet box that held a sterling silver band that held a blue sapphire at its center. Amy's mind raced at this sight. 'He was going to propose to me! I've made a horrible mistake!!!' Amy gently took the box into her hands fearing that it was some kind of gross hallucination she had created. Amy released the breath she had been holding when the ring remained in her hand. She rose from the floor and made her way toward the door. She hesitated for a second and glanced questioningly around the living room her eyes stopping on Trista who gave her a small nod. With that Amy opened the door and began her journey to find her love.
"You didn't have to be so harsh Trista." Michelle said as she watched Amy leave.
"They both deserve to be happy and I'll be damned if they screw it up because they are too stubborn to admit. I want some kids that I can spoil." Trista replied with smirking at her joke.
Their eyes all trailed to the window in time to see the sky split and the rain fall. They all shared the same thought.
'Good luck you two.'
~~~~~ Tokyo University ~~~~~
He had been here before and those that knew him best would know he was here. But the rain would slow them down besides he really wanted some time to himself. Everything that had happened in the past few weeks had left him with a lot to think about. Heero mentally went over what had happened to ruin his life in the last couple of weeks. He had lost the one woman he wanted to spend the rest of his life with not once but twice. He had lot his chance to propose to her because of another woman who wouldn't take no for an answer and to top it all off he lot the engagement ring he had bought for Amy. He figured his luck couldn't get much worse but Mother Nature wasn't without a sense of humor. Heero sighed as the rain began to drench him. He didn't try to find any cover from the sudden storm because there wasn't any on the roof of the building letting himself be soaked to the bone.
Amara had arrived on the roof just after the rain had began she stood a good distance behind her friend studying him. Amara knew she would have to speak with him eventually but she didn't know how exactly to approach him about what had happened. Her original plan was to find him and beat some sense into him but sight before her made her rethink her plan. Not many people knew it but Amara relationship with Heero was not mainly based on their involvement with Michelle and Hotaru. At least it wasn't for Amara. Heero had been there for her a lot in the past so she had taken a special part in this whole situation. ' I'll fix this to pay you back for what you did for me, Heero.' She opened her umbrella and started toward her friend.
Heero had seen Amara out of the corner of his eyes but didn't move to acknowledge her presence. He turned his head slightly when he began to move toward him. He chose to let her continue to come toward him until she was standing beside him. He looked toward her when he noticed that an umbrella covered his head.
" Don't you know enough to come out of the rain Heero?" Amara said with a small smile gracing her lips.
"Hnn."
Amara sighed. 'Of course he wasn't going to make this easy.' She had to get him to talk or this wasn't going to work out. Amara tried another route.
"Hotaru said she couldn't wait to go out with you again. I think she really wants to show you off at her school next."
"Hnn."
Amara sighed at his response. She knew this was going to be difficult but he had to give her something to ease the conversation toward what happened today. Hotaru was one of the easiest ways to get him to open up to anyone but he wasn't taking the opportunity.
"Heero, I'll get straight to the point what happened today? Why did you stand there and let Amy say all of those things when you were carrying that ring with you? You had the power to end all of this drama in one move."
Amara noticed his eyes narrow slightly when she mentioned the engagement ring he had bought. 'At least I'm getting some kind of reaction from him.' Or that was what she thought until he grunted in response. That pushed her patience to the breaking point.
"Damn it Yuy! I'm trying to find out how to help you out here. I just want to help you like you did me all those years ago. You're the closest thing to family I got left so don't push me away." Amara said her voice catching slightly at the end.
Heero turned to look at her when he heard this. It was true he had become like her surrogate family after she had started told them she and Michelle were dating. That's why Michelle and Heero constantly flirted to get a rise at of Amara. Before her family found out about her and Michelle, Heero had been telling each girls parents that he was dating Michelle. It worked out for a while until Amara decided that she wanted to marry Michelle. Her parents didn't take it well. They threatened to disown Amara if she married another woman. Amara left and never spoke to her parents again after she married Michelle. Heero remembered everything about what had happened but what he remembered the most was how Amara had relied on him after the marriage how she unknowingly started their quote unquote brother-sister relationship.
"Okay I'll tell you 'little sister'." Heero said using a joke that only they shared.
"You better and that's BIG sister." Amara smiled after his reply.
" I didn't say anything to Amy today because to tell you the truth I've couldn't deny anything that she said about what I had been doing. Everything she said was right except what she said about Relena. But the one thing that I don't get it about this afternoon was how she kept saying that she wouldn't be a replacement again. Do you know what she was talking about?" Heero said looking to Amara as if she knew something that was being kept from just him.
"I honestly don't know but you still didn't tell me why you didn't give her the ring." Amara said trying to stay with the topic at hand.
"I told you I couldn't do it because everything she said about me sneaking around was true. For a second I had thought she had forgiven me and I could still ask her but then she kissed me. Amara you don't ever want to know what its like to have someone kiss you to hurt you, ever. I don't even know where the ring is anymore." He said as he looked down at the drenched roof.
"Heero I am truly sorry." Amara said not knowing what else she could really say on the situation.
Silence over took then as the both stared at the rain. They stood like that for what seemed like hours until they both heard something approaching them from behind. They turned and found Amy standing a few feet behind them with her staring at the roof. Neither Heero nor Amara could tell how long the girl had been there but by looking at her clothes they knew she had been walking through the rain for a while. Amara noticed how the blue-haired girl was continuously glancing in her direction asking with her eyes for Amara to please give her and Heero sometime alone. Amara nodded slightly and made her way to the roof exit as she passed Amy she noticed something that gave her a sense of relief.
They two young lovers stood together in he rain each waiting for the other to make the first move. Amy eyes never moved from their position on the roof surface as she tried to control her out of control emotions. Heero continued to stare at her as she tried to calm her breathing he could tell that she had been crying by how her shoulders jerked as she tried to hide her tears. Heero took a cautious step toward the young woman and began to speak.
"Amy how did you know where to find me?" He asked to give her an opening to start the conversation.
"Heero you brought me here when I was going crazy over finals the first year we met. This is the spot that you always go when something is bothering you. So Trista, Michelle, Amara, and me know where to find you when something happens." Amy explained.
'So anyone who loves you knows where to find you.' She added mentally.
Amy raised her eyes to look at Heero. She knew that he could tell she had been crying and that was right now. She also noticed that he had move toward her before he spoke but had stopped at arms length from her. She shivered slightly when the wind blew across the rooftop. She made no move to hide it and Heero restrained himself from trying to hold her. They were both walking on eggshells at this point and the both knew it.
'We're never going to get anything settled this way.' Amy thought to herself. 'We need to go somewhere that we can fix this without interruptions.'
Amy took a small step toward Heero and prayed that he wouldn't move away from her. He didn't he just stood in front of her waiting for her to make the next move. Amy continued to step closer to him until she was standing as close as she could without touching him. Amy looked in to Heero's eyes and slowing lowered her head until it rested on his left shoulder. They stood like that for several minutes the only contact between where her fore head lay on his shoulder.
"Heero we need to talk." Amy said while savoring the small contact between them.
"Lets go home."
Amy nodded slightly against his shoulder and let him lead her toward the roof exit.
Next Chapter soon. Thanks for the reviews.
Oh and for you guys who are wondering why I didn't use the characters Japanese name it was because I like their English names better.
