Note: This is a Yu-Gi-Oh fic that's mostly based on the card game and not on the show. This is a tale of a girl who can never find love...

And the only love she can ever find is a love she can never have. A lot of this is truth, but some of it is highly fictional.

Okay...

Since we know Vanessa has the legendary "The God of the Sun Dragon, Ra" thanks to the Toons, let's get all the infomation right on our most powerful and favourite card, which I don't have yet...*sniffles*

But I have the other two.

Toon Dragon Ra: *chirps*

-FANFIC INFO ON RA-
Name: The God of Sun Dragon, Ra
Element: GOD
Type: GOD
Attack: ????
Defense: ????
Level: 10
First Rule: He who begins to sacrifice his creatures to the Sun God...must
recite the "song" to control the beast. If he does not recite this "song", the
beast shall turned against its' controller and may destroy the world in process.
Second Rule: After the ritual "song", he must truely sacrife his heart and soul
to become one with the beast by sacrificing himself to the golden deity. By
doing so, he shall truely control the path that the the God of Sun, Dragon Ra,
shall take.
Third Rule: Finally, he must take...

-YU-GI-OH ANIME/SHOW INFO ON RA-
Japanese Name: The God of Sun Dragon, Ra
American Name: Wind Dragon Ra
Current Owner: Malik Isthar
Introduction: This is the only card that still remains stolen by Malik and GHOULS. Its' powers is the most strongest out of all 3 God Cards. Its' design is the strangest as well. When it's not in a duel, it reads ???? for attack and defense. However, once it is used in a duel, it will emit a strange aura, and the aura will enable strange Ancient Egyptian Priesthood text to show up. There are a total of 3 special effects, which can only be activated when the verse is chanted out.
Card Text: Speed-charge and can attack the turn if it is summon back into field by Raise Dead.
First Verse: Whoever chants this verse, is the rightful controller of this monster. If the owner is unable to chant this verse, then this monster cannot be controlled.
Second Verse: When summoning this monster, if the owner chants this verse, then the owner shall sacrifice all life points until only one point remains. The sacrificed total shall be added onto Ra.
Third Verse: Chant the third verse and Ra shall transform into a fiery phoenix. He shall descend upon the opponent's monsters and incinerating all in its path.
Card Explanation: In Duel Monster rules (in the anime only), you are not allowed to attack the with the monster you just brought back from the grave. You have to wait a turn, but Ra bypasses this rule.

Thanks to Battle City for the Anime info on the cute widdle birdie of death and destruction and perhaps why everyone fears owners of God Cards. Go there...even though the site is under major construction. *sweatdrops*

URL: http://www.geocities.com/thekingofgames2/

Okay...back to the dark and sadistic ficcy. Yay! Yay! Sorry about the hyper mood. I got the song "ButterFly" and "Captain Jack" from Dance Dance Revolution games. Wheee!!!

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"Our Master is quite strange," Mr. Volcano began as he saw the Toons, "she accepted Toons in our deck."

"Yes..." Silver Fang muttered as he look at the trio, "yet these Toons mean us no harm. One of them is even related to the legendary Black Magician."

"No way...a Toon for a relative? Now I seen and heard everything!"

The tavern was another hot spot for the common type monsters to rest after another long day. Man Eater Bugs did their harn earned living off tips that their customers had given. The Toon Dark Robot, the Toon Magician Girl, and the Dark Rabbit were all seated together at a table, noticing the common glares from monsters.

Toons will always be Toons, even though they changed sides. The Toon Magician Girl was afraid at some of the looks the creatures were giving. She quickly leaned on the black bunny warrior beast to get some comfort.

This cause the toon robot to turn slightly jealous and the black rabbit to turn red on his cheeks. The rabbit always wanted this to happen, but...

He knew the truth about the Toon Magician Girl. When Vanessa said that she was the Black Magician Girl, the rabbit was slightly worried. No other duelist saw that this toon girl was the legendary young apperentance of the greatest spellcaster...The Dark Magician...

Nor saw her being the small ophan silbing. The people never wanted her and tried to get rid of her. She was nearly almost beaten to death when he found her and was glad to have her to be with him.

If he told her the truth, will she...still like him as she does? Or hate him?

The Succubus Knight then took a seat next to the Toons.

"Aye," the Succubus Knight began, "don't mind the rest of these jerks. They're not used to seeing Toons living around with us. Just give them a while to get used to the situation and they'll just act like you're normal monsters."

"Thank you..." the Dark Rabbit replied.

"No sweat, sugar. My...you are one cute rabbit."

The Sucucubus Knight started to play around with Dark Rabbit's long black ears. The black rabbit just held onto the Toon Magician Girl and looked at the leathery winged creature.

"I'...s-sorry..." the Dark Rabbit stammered, "I already have s-some...one..."

"Oh," the Succubus Knight said as she noticed the Toon Magician Girl around the rabbit's arm, "I see. I hope both of you do get along quite well with the others. In the meantime..."

She turned away from the lovestruck bunny and gave a charming wink at the mechanical toon.

The Toon Dark Soldier turned a shade of red as he noticed the Succubus Knight aprroaching him. Maybe becoming monsters in Vanessa's deck wasn't such a bad idea at all.

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"This can't be!!" Celtic Guardian cried, "This can't be!!!"

"I'm afraid it is," the Stern Mystic replied, "the White Knight had sucessfully powered the Golden Eye by taking the souls of our Master's friend. Now he possess the Golden Puzzle as well."

"Then...it's over. Our greatest wish to live with the humans as common civilians is rubbish."

Before the elven warrior could mope around some more, the acient elf sage wapped the warrior's head. Celtic winced slightly as he looked at him. The Stern Mystic fixed his glasses as he looked at Celtic one again.

"Don't do that!!" the Stern Mystic cried out, "I did not say our situation is hopeless! There is one fighting chance we can defeat the White Knight once and for all! Hope is still on our side."

"But only a God can stand against someone who has powers of a God..." Celtic began.

"Exactly!"

"Huh?"

"There are Gods among us that protect us. The God of Light and Darkness...Obelisk....Saint Dragon....Osiris...and..."

"You're not saying..."

"I am. Celtic, do you know our Master's full name? It's Vanessa Alexandra, but it also means 'Butterfly of Hope'. The Toons brought another creature with them when they came into our deck...they brought the God of the Sun Dragon, Ra, with them as well. Perhaps they think our master shall truely stand up for her name."

"No way..."

"Oh yes way, my young lad. It's a good thing the God is still asleep and the three versus in the 'ritual song' are keeping Ra asleep for now. And even more good news, I've already found the sacred song in one of these textbooks."

"All right! All we gotta do is give the song to our Master and Ra shall awaken to kick the White Knight's ass!!!"

"That's not going to be an easy task..."

"What do you mean? We got the song and we got the God...I think we finally won."

The Stern Mystic sighed heavily as he looked at the "ritual song", then back at Celtic.

"The song is written in Ancient Egyptian Hiroglyphs..." the Stern Mystic said, "a langugue that hasn't been used for 5000 years in the human realm. It is very hard for our Master to understand. If Master says one word wrong, it could lead to utter chaos. It's going to take quite a while for me and my magic to decipher the entire song in plan English and we may not have that time left..."

"What do you mean?" Celtic asked.

"The White Knight is trying to unlock the powers of the puzzle. If someone doesn't stop him, then we are truely doomed...creature, Toon, and human."

"No..."

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Run and hide.

Run and hide.

Run and hide.

I stayed still behind one of the pillers as I just waited for the guard to pass by and not noticed me at all.

I never wanted to duel. I always wanted to be come a great manga/anime show created of a pretty suited magical girl who risks her life to save people.

Then she dies in the end...knowing she can't live with others.

I never wanted this! I never wanted to get so into this game! I just only wanted to play with my friends and that's all. No get this weird whacko power that make a damn Blue Eyes into a living breeding creature in this world!

My power is a curse. My friends are dying because of me. It's all my fault that I got everyone into this mess and it's all my fault that they died.

I should deserve something far worse than death...running and hiding from the world for the rest of my pathetic life. I can't even make friends because they'll end up dead or locked away in a mental insituation.

Hey, at least it'll be some good exercise.

Fuck! Where the hell is Chaos anyways?!!

It's my fault that he's gone.

I hate myself...

So why am I not walking up to that guard and letting him kill me with that gun of his? I mean he was ordered to want me dead. I should go and die! I deserve to die anyway...

Oh yeah, I'm depressive, I'm obessive...I'm just tired living in fear.

And it's right. I live in fear and I'm sick of it...but that's how I was brought up...

Fear of failure...

Fear of dying...

Fear of other people...

Fear of love...

Fear of my father...

I hate me and it's my fault that everyone is dead. Please stop staying that it's not because it is pure bullshit. Also please don't say I can do anything.

What will you do if you know your friend got killed by some rich millionaire pscho-path who has more authority than you'll ever have? It's his words against yours and he can easily crush you like a miserable little fly if you dare fight him.

I'm just some stupid 19 year old looser who felt down and wanted at least something to give her attention...

I didn't want any of this to happen to me...but it did happen anyways.

And it's all my fault. I'm sorry.

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After endless attempts of figuring out the serect powers within the ancient relic that blasted Yugi runt had...

He still couldn't releash or used the powers hidden inside this golden pyramind. He called the boy out from his soul prison card and forced the boy to tell him the secrets...

The boy did not know nothing...

The eye grew impantiant. At first it was amusing to beat up the young the lad...but his screams became a nusaince. They grew very tiring and irratating after a while.

The eye was tired...tired of not getting what he wanted! Perhaps that cunt knew something...

Perhaps they do need her alive...but not for long.

"Chaos!!!" he hissed.

Darkness began to cover the room as the chaotic mage emerged from the stone floor. He knelt down in front of the man...

His leader.

"You called sire?" Chaos asked at he looked at him.

"Is the girl..." he asked.

"No. She is not dead. She is too cowardly enough to die."

"Good. Fetch her here at once...she may be some good use afterall."

"Of course sire. I'll bring that bitch over here."

Chaos started to stand up and began to leave the throne-room. He stopped when the White Knight wanted his faithful powerful mage to pay attention to him.

"And another thing Chaos..." he began, "do not fail me in bringing her."

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I was walking down a stairway path. I finally lost that stupid guard. I wondered why the guy never followed me.

Not "that" way! I mean, Pegasus hired him to kill me. Why am I not letting him?

These steps...

Reminded me the time where I entered Pandora's lair...

NO!!! God damn you all!!! Not again!! I don't want to be reminde...

I stopped on one of the steps. I heard...crying?

I continued walking down the steps, hearing the silent tears become much louder. I was walking down another hallway...

Cells were on each side of the walls. They were normally occupided with a body that was immobile. It stayed in its' cell and waited...

Waited to be freed from their cells that cannot be escapable.

What the hell was Pegasus doing with this place anyway? It looked like something that was out of CastleVania: Symphony of the Night, minus the walking skletons and zombies.

I found out where the crying was and turned around. No...

No, it couldn't be.

I quickly ran up to the cell, holding my hands on the rusted coated bars.

"Ce-cecilia..." I said.

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The person looked up to me. Her ceil was so dark.

"Va...Va...nes...sa..." she said.

She recalled my features...which were dark brown hair, slightly wild eyes, and a fragile slim body. She quickly got up from the bed and ran towards the bars. She recalled my small features, which had now aged into a young adult who wore glasses.

"Vanessa!!" she cried, "It is you!"

"Cecilia!!" I began, "What happened?! Why are you in here?!!"

"Oh god...it's horrible...I wish I could damn myself...I wish I never seen that horrible monster!!"

"A monster?"

"I've fallen in love with a monster! A true monster!! Ever since I left him, all he does is kills...and kills..and kills. I was about to comfront him but his demented Toons saw me as threat and threw me in here. I'm so afraid...so very afraid..."

And she looked like that as well. Her graceful slender body was trembling. Even if she was nerly starved to death, she still looked so beautiful...

Whoever Cecilia loved must be some lucky person. I want to hurt the one who dares hurt this angel. I want to grab his arm and twist it around till it starts bleeding. I don't care if I kill this person. I be even glad to be the first one to flay his body since he dared tried to hurt her.

I shouldn't be thinking like that, but...

He had hurt her.

I pulled out my deck from my jacket pocket and one of the cards, which was Harpie's Brother...

"Cecilia..." I said, "get away from the bars...I'm breaking you out of her. You and me are going to get out of this castle and we shall escape the monster that lurks in the darkness. I won't let anyone hurt you anymore..."

Because I love you. You were my only true friend I ever had.

And so she did. The card I had held in my hand started to glow and floated towards the bars. In a matter of seconds the bars were reduced to nothing as the Harpie's Brother slaughter the bars ruthlessly.

We both entered the cell as I placed my deck into my pocket once again. It was so dark and there were writings all over the walls...but from who? Were the writting written in blood as well?

Yet...

Cecilia was no where to be found.

"Cecilia?" I asked as I looked around, "Where are you? You're finally free."

"Master..." Harpie's Brother replied as he pointed to the bed.

It was a mold ridden matress on a brass boxbord. On it were two items, a hand knife and a Duel Monster card...

A "soul prison card" was what it on. I picked up the card and saw "her".

What the fuck was going on? I was talking to Cecilia a few minutes ago and now I see her picture in a card!!

WHAT THE HELL?!!!

It was like...she was trapped...trapped in a card...

WHAT THE FUCK DID CECILIA DO TO THE WHITE KNIGHT THAT CAUSE HIM TO DO THIS TO HER?!! CECILIA ISN'T ONE OF YOUR STUPID CARDS!!! SHE DOES NOT DESERVED TO BE A MERE PAWN IN YOUR FUCKED UP MIND GAMES!!! SHE NEVER DESERVES THIS!!!

I HATE YOU WHITE KNIGHT...

I HATE YOU!!!

I HATE YOU!!!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!

I felt hot as I held onto these items and I was shaking. How could he? How could he...

HOW THE FUCK COULD HE?!!!

"Master..." Harpie's Brother asked.

I wanted to scream in this cell but something else did the screaming for me; Sirens.

I heard their deafing sounds of the sirens. I dropped the knife and the card. I clutched God, make them stop.

Make it stop...

I collasped onto the floor, almost drowing in the alarming sirens sounds. Where the hell were the coming from anyways?

It hurts...

It hurts...

"MASTER!!!" Harpie's Brother cried.

Everything then went black.

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ALTERNATE ENDING No. 1

(Note: This is one of the four endings that I'm a Coward will have. Enjoy.)

Birds were chirping from outside on a sunny day. Clouds were floating in the blue sky and there was a violet boquet of flowers on the night table.

I sat up and noticed I was in a bed. Was it all a dream of what I saw?

No, Cecilia was definately real. She needed my help. She...

Then another person entered the room.

"You finally woke up," Pegasus said, "it's a good thing my men found you. You had struck you head against something, but what were you doing down there in the first place?"

I blurted the first thing that hit me.

"I saw Cecilia!!" I cried out as I looked at him and quickly, "I gotta get down there and see..."

He then chuckled slight. Why was he laughing? Cecilia is down there!! I gotta go.

"Hey..." I asked, "what's so funny?"

"You mentioned Cecilia was down there..." he began, "that's impossible, she's been dead for seven years."

Dead? But if she was dead...why was she living in that dark rusted cell? Why did she cry that she was living with a monster?

I looked at Pegasus more clearly. He had blue eyes and that strange upside down golden...wait on a sec!! That belongs to Yugi! Why does he have it and not Yugi?!!

"Your friend gave me this relic," he replied, "they already left here without you and I think it's time you leave as well. You don't want to

I started to get off from the bed, carrying my bags I was leaving the room with a confused look on my face.

You mean it's over? You mean I didn't have to duel? But Cecilia!! I swear I saw her down there!!! And the blood and the screams and the tombs that had my friends in the Shadow Realm!! I didn't make it up!!

Why were they coming to me?! What the hell did they need my help.

I'm just glad it's finally over. I can finally go home and worry about how my parents are going to react when I return home.

Just when I was about to walk out of the door.

"Oh another thing Vanessa," Pegasus cried.

I then turned around...only to lay my eyes on the silver hair gentleman holding a pistol in his hands and he already pulled the...

SHIT!!!





BLAM!!!!





THE END

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A LOT.

-The Clow Hatter