to kill him
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disclaimer: I don't own GW
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[(entry 6)]
[5 a.m. -Sunday, February 16th]
He came back yesterday. Duo came back and took me with him into space. He showed me his gundam in the hangar of a silent base. My uncle was there. I almost burst into tears. I didn't want to talk to Howard. But I was glad to see him all the same. We hugged and made discussions on how the family was..yes, I had to give a synopsis of all nine of my brothers and sisters, as well as my aunt and uncle..and all of their kids. I realized how much I missed livin with Uncle Howard. I had lived with him for a couple of years while my mom was in the hospital, sick.. My dad was too busy.. Uncle Howard begged my mom and dad they I get to stay with him..so I did. I am his favorite niece. I was only 6 years old then..but I went back to live with him after my dad died. That was still four years ago. And now I'm back at my uncle's.
Duo showed me his gundam. I had never been so close. Its' sleek dark surface shined with a gloss. It was beautiful. The Gundam Deathsythe. It stood high above me, I felt like an ant next to a building. Well, a small building anyway..it was big..but not THAT big. It was still breathtaking. My uncle had long excused Duo and I, after understanding the circumstances. I looked up in awe at the massive structure before me.
Duo wrapped his arms around my shoulders as the metal in the hangar didn't help at all to absorb any heat. I could feel his breath on my neck. I smiled..still looking at the machine I once hated with a passion take my mind to steel a chance of admiration without thought.
"It's beautiful isnt it?"
All I could do was sigh..my eyes were glued to the gundam..it was facinating.
"Deathsythe..it's taken so many lives though"
For the first time in my life I looked at the Gundam without seeing the dark red cover its sleek metal. It was the first time I had never looked at it that way. All my life I could only see the blood, still splattered across the surface of the machine, droplets still floating unnoticed in space. All I saw was the beautiful structure before me.
"The lives it has taken will be repaid with the hope in the eyes of the colonies it defends"
I couldn't see myself saying what I had just said. It wasn't me. But it was. Duo himself was slightly surprised that I should say something like that as a response. But his face quickly changed to the grin I grew quite familiar with.. He smiled so often.
I should have done it that night..when he was with me. But I didn't. I came this close to doing it too.
He had brought me home with him..he told me he loved me. I don't even remember if I said anything, all I know is the next thing I knew we were in his bed. He was mine all night.. you could say I missed my chance to get rid of him. I'm here with him now..but he's still over there asleep. He's so cute. Snoring a bit..it fits his personality. He propabably wont be up for a while..
I actually woke up this early because you-know-who called. Almost woke up Duo too.. poor babe.. Erin actually called to ask me if I had fun last night..??? I get the feeling he is constantly watching me.. how else would he know about last night.. he has done that before too. Kinda creepy..but I don't care..he pays me enough.. He ended the conversation with a quick "don't forget you have to kill him" Yeah..i want to kill ERIN now.. im so sick of this.. I have so much fun when im with Duo.
So!!!! What's the matta with me!?!?! I don't get it..i've made other people fall hopelessly in love with me, and I was fully capible of killing them. What's different now? Why am I stalling to kill Duo Maxwell?
Tonight...
[(Closure)]
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disclaimer: I don't own GW
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[(entry 6)]
[5 a.m. -Sunday, February 16th]
He came back yesterday. Duo came back and took me with him into space. He showed me his gundam in the hangar of a silent base. My uncle was there. I almost burst into tears. I didn't want to talk to Howard. But I was glad to see him all the same. We hugged and made discussions on how the family was..yes, I had to give a synopsis of all nine of my brothers and sisters, as well as my aunt and uncle..and all of their kids. I realized how much I missed livin with Uncle Howard. I had lived with him for a couple of years while my mom was in the hospital, sick.. My dad was too busy.. Uncle Howard begged my mom and dad they I get to stay with him..so I did. I am his favorite niece. I was only 6 years old then..but I went back to live with him after my dad died. That was still four years ago. And now I'm back at my uncle's.
Duo showed me his gundam. I had never been so close. Its' sleek dark surface shined with a gloss. It was beautiful. The Gundam Deathsythe. It stood high above me, I felt like an ant next to a building. Well, a small building anyway..it was big..but not THAT big. It was still breathtaking. My uncle had long excused Duo and I, after understanding the circumstances. I looked up in awe at the massive structure before me.
Duo wrapped his arms around my shoulders as the metal in the hangar didn't help at all to absorb any heat. I could feel his breath on my neck. I smiled..still looking at the machine I once hated with a passion take my mind to steel a chance of admiration without thought.
"It's beautiful isnt it?"
All I could do was sigh..my eyes were glued to the gundam..it was facinating.
"Deathsythe..it's taken so many lives though"
For the first time in my life I looked at the Gundam without seeing the dark red cover its sleek metal. It was the first time I had never looked at it that way. All my life I could only see the blood, still splattered across the surface of the machine, droplets still floating unnoticed in space. All I saw was the beautiful structure before me.
"The lives it has taken will be repaid with the hope in the eyes of the colonies it defends"
I couldn't see myself saying what I had just said. It wasn't me. But it was. Duo himself was slightly surprised that I should say something like that as a response. But his face quickly changed to the grin I grew quite familiar with.. He smiled so often.
I should have done it that night..when he was with me. But I didn't. I came this close to doing it too.
He had brought me home with him..he told me he loved me. I don't even remember if I said anything, all I know is the next thing I knew we were in his bed. He was mine all night.. you could say I missed my chance to get rid of him. I'm here with him now..but he's still over there asleep. He's so cute. Snoring a bit..it fits his personality. He propabably wont be up for a while..
I actually woke up this early because you-know-who called. Almost woke up Duo too.. poor babe.. Erin actually called to ask me if I had fun last night..??? I get the feeling he is constantly watching me.. how else would he know about last night.. he has done that before too. Kinda creepy..but I don't care..he pays me enough.. He ended the conversation with a quick "don't forget you have to kill him" Yeah..i want to kill ERIN now.. im so sick of this.. I have so much fun when im with Duo.
So!!!! What's the matta with me!?!?! I don't get it..i've made other people fall hopelessly in love with me, and I was fully capible of killing them. What's different now? Why am I stalling to kill Duo Maxwell?
Tonight...
[(Closure)]
