Hi again… So how have all u been?? U'r probly going to say "Alright, how about u?" well I'm gonna say GREAT!!! I have no idea why but I feel great… so anywaz this chapters gonna have humor in it so don't fret…it's still gonna have so drama tho… oh before I forget can u pleaz check out my new fic 'dangerous love' it's a Inuyasha fic… I think it's betta than this one… hehehe oh and another thing… I DON'T OWN BEYBLADE OR CLAIM TO… well on with the story…
Love or Hate??
'Stupid, damn Kai. How could he say that about Rachel and his own friends.' I thought angrily as I picked at my nails. I hadn't gone back inside the building after Kai and I had had our 'talk'. I looked at my wrist to check the time. I sighed as I saw that I had been out here for 2 hours. I got up slowly and made my way back inside the school. My thoughts were still swarming with Kai. 'How could he say that? He seemed so different. I wonder what's wrong with him. What a sec. Why do I care' while I was absorbed in my thoughts I walked down the stairs and into the empty hall. I slowly made my way to my class when I bumped into something hard and warm. I looked up into the worried depths of Ozuma's eyes. " Uh hey, what are you doing out here?" I questioned while looking up at him.
" Looking for you. Enni said that you weren't in science and I got worried. Tala's been acting really weird too. I think something might be wrong with him. So what are you doing out here?" I could tell he was trying to hide how worried he was but he couldn't. He is so sweet, wait then why did I do what I did with Kai? Guilt flowed through my body at that thought.
" Oh just had to get out and think. They don't care if you wag right?"
" Hmm no not really. Just say you had a personal problem. Tani, um I know something's wrong. You can tell me you know. I'll always be there for you no matter what the circumstances"
'Oh shit he knows' I thought. But then I looked into his eyes and realized they had sincerity yet a bit of doubt in them. That made me realized he didn't know. I let out a breathe of relief. I had a great relationship with Ozzy and I didn't want Kai to ruin that.
" I know I can tell you Ozzy and if I really need to talk I will. I just feel I have to work this problem out myself." I said looking up at him sincerely.
He smiled "Just know I'm here for you Tani" he leant down and kissed me on the forehead. I smiled inwardly at his sweetness. Why did I jeopardize this again?
"You better get to class. Hey I'll meet you after school out the front okay?" he asked. I nodded then left for my class.
Most of the day was filled with thoughts about my conversation with Kai. I was abnormally quiet and since Enni knows me so well he picked up on it pretty quick. I told him of my conversation with Kai which might not have been such a great idea considering Kai said if I told anyone he would make my life a living hell. Then again my life is close enough to a living hell as it is. He couldn't possibly make it much worse. Enni lent me a sympathetic ear but didn't help much. Well emotionally he did by comforting me but he didn't really help with a solution. He did say Kai was being really moody and different to how he'd ever seen him ever before. I just scoffed. 'I made a revelation about Kai. I don't care about him! Hehehe that will show him!!! Okay I've been a bit out of it lately and talking to myself more. Do you have problem with that buddy!?!?! Well do you? I can see you looking at me weirdly. If you have a problem say it don't just look at me! Okay I really need to get a social life' I shook these thoughts out of my head, they can't be good for a person. " Enni wait up," I yelled through the corridor of the school. He turned and gave me a silly grin and waved his hand about in a greeting. I ran up beside him and he slung his hand over my shoulder.
" So Tani have you reached a decision yet?" he asked.
" Um sorta. I'm going to ignore Kai and give my full attention to Ozzy," I nodded my head for emphasis.
"Hmm I can't say I agree with that" I looked at him wide eyed.
" But why?"
"Well I think Kai is going through a tough time and he could use a strong person like you"
Realization dawned on me " Are you saying I should dump Ozzy and go out with Kai?"
" NO!!! I'm just saying you may be judging Kai to harshly"
" Okay Enni do you remember what he said about you?"
" Yeah but you don't know about his life Tani"
" Oh yes I do, he spilled it to me when he was drunk"
" Okay Tani I think you should sit down. This is the real story. What he told you were little pieces of it"
" But he said only Ozzy and Tala know. How do you? You know he threatened to kill me if I told you. He was drunk though so I didn't take him seriously"
" You should always take Kai seriously. I know because when Tala was worried about him me told me and asked for my help. So do you want to hear the story?" I nodded and sat down on a bench outside a science classroom.
" Well it begins when Kai was born. He was born into a rich Russian family and they had set certain standards for him to reach. When he was two, his parents mysteriously died leaving him with all their money. That's when Kai's grandfather came and raised him. Well I wouldn't exactly say the man raised him more like acted as a prison guard. He wanted Kai to be the best so was really tough on him. He wanted to send Kai to a private school but Kai had already made some friends that he wanted to go to school with. Kai was pretty screwed up already but he was normal enough. Then in year nine something happen to him. He hasn't told anyone about it though. We just know he changed. He used to be really cold but he sort of lighted up after that and started to sleep around with girls. Well I'm not saying he's still not cold but before he was like an ice block. Then again so was Tala but I think Tala just grew out of it. Kai on the other hand had some influence to change his behaviour I just wonder what it was. Hmm I think that's about it. Oh yeah and he was raised but his cook. Well that's the whole story."
"Wow, Kai's pretty messed up then. Well I still don't care. He had no right to say that about my friends and my cousin." I stated stubbornly and crossed my arms. Enni sighed saying
" I had a feeling you'd react this way, well I can't help the way you feel but if you could can you please not treat him so harshly. Me of all people know he's a bastard, I mean the guys had something against me since day one. So if I can take it so can you" I looked at his hardened face and realized there was no arguing. I just hunphed and folded my arms. 'Okay so now I know about Kai's past. Still doesn't make a difference though. He's still a dick!' I nodded in agreement with myself. Enni just gave me a strange look and a nervous laugh.
I walked out onto the front oval at the end of school. I looked around a bit but was surprised when someone grabbed my waist from behind and started to place kisses on my neck. I smiled then turned around to kiss the perpetrator but he wouldn't let go of my waist. He continued to kiss my neck as I giggled and tried to turn around.
" GET A ROOM!!!" yelled someone in the crowd of students. I immediately recognised the voice belonging to a certain sugar hyped blonde. The person let go of my waist and I turned to face them. I gasped in shock at what I saw. Ozuma had gotten rid of his red streak! (Hehehe bet ya thought it was Kai huh?)
" Ozuma what did you do to your hair?" I questioned immediately.
He laughed and replied " What no hello?" He smirked down at me. I tried to give him a playful punch in the arm but he caught my hand and pulled me into a kiss. When we parted for air Max came up to us and handed Ozuma a foil packet. " I think your going to need this" he joked then walked off laughing.
" Geez I think all that sugar is getting to his head," I mumbled as his blonde head bobbed up and down with laughter into the distance. " So Ozzy do you want to go do something?"
" Um… sure. How bout we see that movie 'The Fighting Temptations'. I heard it's bootylitious…um… I mean good."
I raised my eyebrow " Is that the one with Beyonce?"
" Um… yeah it might do. I'm not totally sure"
I laughed " Enni told me you had a thing for Beyonce. Do you think I'm as pretty as her?"
" No… your much prettier" he leant down and gave me a small kiss. " So do wanna go?"
" Sure why not. Can we stop off at my house first?"
" Sure"
"Um okay it's the next one," I told Ozzy as he drove down my street looking for my house.
" This one?" he asked.
" Yep" he drove up the driveway and parked. I smiled and got out of the car closing the door behind me. " Can you wait right here? I'll just be a second" he nodded getting out of his car and leaning on the red door. I ran up the steps to my front door and dug out the keys from my bag. I opened the door and yelled to ma that I was home. I heard a muffled reply but dismissed it as I made my way up to my room. I chucked my clothes out of my closet as I tried to find my tank top and jeans. I tossed all access clothes on the floor. After 5 minutes and not finding my top I was getting frustrated. I made a low growl and kept rummaging through my clothes. I heard the door open signalling Ozzy's entrance. I knew it was coming. I mean I had been up her for a long time.
" Ozzy help me find my tank top. It's black and has 'sexy' written across it in white writing" I continued to chuck clothes everywhere in my mad rush. When I turned around I saw some had hit Ozzy and he was covered in clothes. I couldn't see anything but his feet. I let out a small laugh then turned to face my closet again.
" Damn where is it!?!?" I yelled in frustration.
" Is this it Ban?" I froze when I heard the oh so familiar voice. My blood ran cold as I slowly and cautiously turned around. ' It can't be. It's just Ozzy my minds just playing tricks on me' When I faced him fully I saw that my mind wasn't playing tricks on me. There stood Kai with holding my Black tank top. My surprise turned to anger as I realized he was in my room. I glared at him hard and said through gritted teeth.
" Get out before I get Ozzy to beat the crap out of you"
" Ban both you and I know that he couldn't do that"
" Fuck off Kai. Right now I don't want to deal with you. Now get out of my house before I scream rape" I hissed back at him hatred seeping into my voice.
He smirked saying " It's not rape if you agree to it"
" You bastard!" I raised my hand and slapped him across the cheek. Now a red hand mark was clearly evident across his cheek. ' What the hell is up with Kai? He's back to his normal cocky, arrogant self. Okay I still can't see any emotion but still. It's better than morbid ' I don't need anyone' Kai' I though.
" So what do you want?" I asked rudely trying to get past him and out the door. However he moved to cover the exit blocking my way.
" We need to talk," he answered.
" We already talked remember? You said that all the people I care about are dispensable," I growled at him.
" Yeah about that. I didn't mean that. I was just under a lot of pressure at that moment. My friends mean everything to me. Rachel is special. I don't think she's for me though. I wouldn't want to soil your precious cousins reputation after all"
" Bullshit" I said in a low voice.
" What?"
" I said bullshit"
" Yeah I heard what you said"
" You don't really mean word of that. You don't give a shit about other people. I don't know why you do this to your self. Why do you pretend that you're a player and popular when in reality you couldn't shit about all this stuff?"
" That's not true," he said slowly.
" Stop lying you bastard. Just tell me why!"
" Fine you want to know the truth! Well I'll tell you! Your absolutely right! I couldn't give a shit about all this stuff. I just have it because I can. I can make girls sleep with me. I can make people like me. I can do what ever the hell I want. I do what I do because I can. I do what I do because I want to get away from the reality of my life. Are you happy now bitch! I told you why! Now can I just say what I have to?!"
I stood there to shocked to answer. I knew I was right about him I just didn't think he would willingly tell me everything so easily.
" I'll take that as a yes then" he smirked and continued " I just don't want you tell anyone about what I said to you before. Everyone loves me and I have to keep it that way. (Line taken from intolerable cruelty)"
" Oh my god, your such a dumbass. If you think I'm not going to expose you as the dickhead you are your crazy!"
" Hmm well you could tell everyone, if you want me to tell Ozzy about the hot night we spent together." I went red with anger and balled my fists until they went white. He noticed this and smirked.
" Fine" I mumbled.
" That's a good girl," he said as he advanced on me.
" What are you doing?" I asked shakily.
" Nothing just looking around a bit" he said as he brushed my arm. Anger rose up inside me. If I didn't hate him so much I would be jumping for joy. I mean a hot guy coming onto me, who wouldn't be happy. However considering this is Kai it was totally different.
" Get your filthy hands off me. I have no idea where they have been" I stated brushing his hand off me.
" Oh come on Ban there's no harm in this" he said seductively as he placed his hands on my hips.
" Look you little slut get your filthy hands off me before I Kung foo your sorry ass" He looked a bit taken back but didn't let go. " You asked for it" I stepped back out of his grip and jumped up giving him a roundhouse kick to the head. He toppled to the ground but wasn't that hurt. He was to hurt to get up though. I grabbed my shirt and went for the door. Before I could get to it Ozzy opened it. He looked at the scene before him. My room scattered with clothes and Kai on the floor lying really still.
" Um Tani care to explain?"
" Sure… I was looking for my top when Kai came. He helped me look for it then got a stomachache and fell over. Okay now that's over lets go" I said quickly jumping over Kai and running into Ozzy's arms.
" Um.. is kai okay?"
" Sure just let him rest" I directed Ozzy to the exit of the house.
" God I love you woman" he said as we got into his car. I smiled as he kissed my forehead.
Okay that's it for that chapter… Sorry I know it's pretty bad and pretty random. I wrote it at different times, which sorta explains the mood changes of Tani… Anywaz if anyone wants to chat or ask me questions feel free to contact me on my hotmail… Okay well Ja ne love random.. hugz
