The words in bold and Italic are from 'Wishing you were somehow here again' from Phantom of the Opera (wicked musical by the way). Please please please review I love getting them and I really wanna know what people think.
Now evil is kind of easy to find if you life on a Hellmouth and are mad with those who fight it. In fact it wouldn't be that much of a coincidence if you went to seek it out. Jess didn't know what she was doing but she left the others scared that this was the route she was going to take, and when she found evil they didn't know how she would act but Xander at least had a bet going that it wouldn't be in her usual capacity as a slayer.
Jess strolled the streets and cemeteries of Sunnydale in a stalkers manner; silent and sticking to the shadows. Still dressed in black leather trousers and a red corset top Jess shivered slightly, it would have been worse had she been a normal child. She felt the rough wood of the stake she carried in her trousers and the cool metal of the knife in her boot and the plain silver cross around her neck. She didn't see many creatures of the night, wolf whistles came from drunken men standing outside bars and jess only just stopped herself using one of her weapons against them. A couple got a fist in the face as the young slayer stalked past, others received a foot somewhere more painful. Jess didn't really know where she was going, if anywhere in particular, and kept her slayer senses alert despite her mind's distractions.
How could they? How could she? Why didn't she tell me?
Jess couldn't understand how her world could fall apart so easily. She thought her mother had shares everything with her but Buffy's story told otherwise. Faith's pedestal was in danger of crumbling to the ground and if it did Jess knew that she would fall with it.
So that must have been just before she went to prison. G-ddammit why didn't she tell me? She never told me why she went to prison not really but they all know and we were closer than any of them. Why'd she even leave me with them? With Buffy who looks like she's trying to be a college cheerleader when she's in her 30s and thinks she's bloody special 'cos of what she's been through. Hey my life hasn't been a barrel of laughs just recently. Thank G-d she doesn't expect me to call her mom.
Jess had somehow got herself to a hilltop where one tree stood, its leafy branches swaying eerily in the night breeze. Underneath stood two gravestones but only one grave. 'Buffy Anne Summers' read one but Jess stood in front of the other one tears rolling down her face and dropping to the green grass below which Faith lay.
You were once my one companionYou were all that mattered
"Mom" Jess whispered. "Why?" She stopped there unable to express the confusion she felt out loud. Instead thoughts flowed through her mind mingled with words of a song she couldn't quite place.
Wishing you were somehow here againWishing you were somehow near
Buffy really doesn't like me mom, she wishes she didn't have to look after me and the others too. They want to stop me being what I am just so they can be in control. They're scared of me mom, why are they scared? You weren't, you loved me, right mom? You did didn't you? Then why didn't you tell me everything? I know you were good, I'm sure you were so why are they telling me good people killed you? Only evil would kill you, they'd have to be evil to take you away from me, to leave me with Buffy. Why is her grave empty mom? You should be here –I don't need anyone looking after me but better you than Buffy. Why are you lying here when she came bakc? You can come back too can't you? Please mom.
Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never would
But Jess knew in her heart that she was wishing for the impossible and as she looked at the two graves a new emotion rose within her. Resentment bubbled inside her and she grudged Buffy her life.
Dreaming of you wont help me to do all that you dreamed I could.
"Mom I need you, I want you here more than I can ever say but I'm going to have to get on with things. Things for you and for me."
