Disclaimer: Yeah yeah, I don't own them. I know this. But I do own the
crappy people, Skye and Nick and blah blah blah.
~*~
Buffy woke up and looked next to her. Skye laid there, peaceful. She frowned at the site of her, remembering how upset she was last night. She couldn't help but think it was her fault. She was the girl Spike loved. Slowly, she got up out of bed and headed downstairs. She walked into the kitchen to see her parents and Spike talking. Buffy kind of thought of this as a shocker, Spike never talked to her parents.
"Morning Buffy." Joyce said.
"Hi mom, dad, Spike." She said, sitting next to him.
"I see Skye decided to stay the night." Joyce said.
"Yeah, she was real upset last night." Buffy said, looking to Spike.
"She was here?" He asked.
"Yeah."
"Can I talk to you? Alone?" He asked.
"Um, sure." Buffy said and the two walked out to the living room.
"I did what I thought was right luv." He said.
"I know. It was a good decision. She needed to know." She said. "She'll be fine."
"Good."
"Yeah . . ."
They stood in an awkward silence. Buffy looked to the doorway to see Skye standing there.
"Spike, uh, maybe you should go . . . Away." Buffy said.
"Why is . . ." He turned. "Right then." He said and walked off.
"What did he say?" Skye asked, sitting on the sofa.
"Hello." Buffy said.
"Oh." Skye said. "I think I'm going to go home. I don't feel like being around him now." She stood up.
"I understand. See you later then?"
"For sure. Bye." She said and left.
"Bye." Buffy said and headed into the kitchen.
She opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water. She was almost out the back door when her mother stood up.
"Where are you off to?" She asked.
"The church. I just want to sit." Buffy answered.
"Oh, okay." Joyce said and watched as Buffy disappeared.
Buffy walked up to the church doors and walked down the isle. She sat in the third pew back and stared up at the spot her father stood at every Sunday. She took a drink of the water and felt chills down her spine. She turned around to see Angel standing at the door. He didn't see her, so quietly she made her way out of the pew, and around the other side. She stood behind a pole and watched as he made his way up to the front. He got down on his knees and began to whisper softly to himself, to God. Buffy wondered what he was saying. As far as she knew, Angel never went to church. Slowly she backed away to the door and was on her way out when she ran into something, someone. She brought her green eyes up to meet the ocean blue ones she knew to be Spike's. This caught Angel's attention and he looked back to see who was there. Slowly he rose and made his way over to them. Buffy cringed at the site of him and she saw the anger in Spike's eyes.
"Buffy . . . I . . ." Angel said. "I didn't know anyone was here. Spike."
"Peaches, so nice to see your face again." Spike said.
"What are you doing here?"
"Oh, didn't hear? I live with Buffy." Spike said.
"Buffy is this true?" Angel asked.
"Well yeah. I mean, my parents they . . ." Buffy said.
"I'm sorry about what happened Buffy." Angel said.
"Um, I have to go in. My parents told me not to be long. I'll see you around Spike." Buffy said and ran off.
"If I found out you hurt her Angel . . ." Spike said.
"Mind your own business William." Angel said.
Spike just glared at him and left in the direction Buffy had.
~*~
The first bell of the school day rang and Buffy walked into the class along with Anya and Riley. They took their seats in the back of the room. Riley had been waiting for a chance to talk to Buffy about the other night. He leaned over to her, and in almost a whisper began to talk.
"I'm sorry for whatever I did the other night."
"What? Oh, its okay Riley, I was just a little jumpy. Too much caffeine." Buffy lied.
"So we're okay?" He asked.
"Yeah." She said.
"Okay enough that you'd go out with me Friday night?"
"Riley, I don't know. The whole Angel being back and . . . There's so much going on. I don't want to hurt you, but I just . . ."
"Too soon. I understand." He said, looking at the teacher.
Buffy didn't want to push it anymore, seeing as she wasn't going to say yes. So she left it. She turned to the teacher and tried to focus on what was being taught. But her mind wasn't concentrated on that. It was concentrated on something that had been bugging her for a while, something that she needed to know the answer to, and soon.
~*~
A cold breeze hit Buffy as she walked out of the Pharmacy. She tightly gripped the bag that she carried in her hand as she made her way home. She was going to find out once and for all her worst nightmare was reality. Quietly she snuck into the house, careful to be unnoticed. She ran up the steps and into her bathroom. Slamming the door shut, she quickly pulled the test out of the box.
"Early Pregnancy Test." She read to herself. "Yeah, yeah, blah, blah. 15 minutes?!" She sighed.
~*~
Spike walked into Buffy's room as she was closing her drawer.
"Can I help you?" Buffy asked as she watched him continue onto her bathroom.
"Mum is in the other bathroom." He said and closed the door.
Buffy shrugged and headed out the door.
~*~
Buffy was waiting in her parents' car for Spike. 'God, how long does it take to do his hair?' Buffy thought. 'A long time. Did I just answer my own question?' She looked up as Spike slid into the drivers seat. His face didn't have any emotion, it was blank. Buffy studied him and waved her hand in front of his face when he just sat there.
"What?" He asked through clenched teeth.
"What's up Spike?"
"Should be asking you that question luv."
She looked confused at his answer. He turned to her, his blue eyes filled with hurt and anger. She'd never seen him like this before, and it was scaring her.
"What . . ." Buffy said.
"I found your little test."
Buffy's jaw dropped. She thought she'd gotten rid of that. 'Oh shit. Oh shit.' She thought. 'Oh big shit.' She was silent.
"Well . . ." He said.
"I . . . I . . . How did you find that?" She asked.
"It was on your bathroom floor. I get it." He said with a little chuckle.
Again, Buffy looked confused.
"You and Peaches. You bloody shagged."
"Spike it wasn't like that." Buffy said.
"Then how was it?"
Buffy looked away as she felt the tears coming. Spike watched in confusion. He reached out his hand and gently grabbed her chin, moving it to face him. Her mascara was now running down her cheeks and her eyes we closed.
"Buffy, what's wrong?" He asked.
"He . . . Angel . . ."
"Angel what? What did he do to you?" Spike asked angrily.
"I cant." Buffy said.
"Tell me pet. I can help."
"I couldn't stop him. I tried so hard to push him off but he just wouldn't stop. I kept screaming, but no one heard me." She said, crying harder.
"I don't understand."
"Every time I close my eyes, he's there. Telling me he loved me. But if he loved me, why won't he stop hurting me?"
"What are you saying?"
"I just took him upstairs to lay down I promise Spike that's all, and I was trying to leave but he wouldn't let and then he pulled me to the bed with him and he started he made me Spike I didn't want to." She whispered.
"Buffy." He said, taking her in his arms. "Its okay luv. Everything is going to be okay. Trust me. He wont hurt you ever again. I'll make sure of that."
"Don't do anything Spike. I don't want you to get hurt. I couldn't live without you."
"Are you saying you love me?" He asked.
"I . . . I can't be with you because I'm still not over what Angel did to me. I'm sorry. I really am." She said.
She pulled out of his arms for a second. Looking into his eyes, she saw pain, anger, and love.
"I can't go to school like this." She said, sniffing.
"We don't have to go to school." He said. "But we should leave the driveway before your mum comes out."
Buffy nodded and sat in her seat. She stared out her window as they drove along the streets of Sunnydale. She was confused as to where he was taking her. But she shrugged it off and laid her head back, drifting off. She felt safe when she was with him, almost as if she trust him. But trust was a big issue that wasn't easily given away by her.
~*~
When Buffy woke up, she was in a different place then where she was before. She was now in the backseat of her parents' car lying down. She sat up and looked around. She knew this place; it was where teenage couples went to make out. She had come here often with Angel. Spike was outside, staring out over Sunnydale. Quietly she climbed out of the car and walked over to him. She stood next to him and stared off with him.
"Thank you." She said. "For laying me down and that."
"Your welcome luv." He said. "Didn't get much sleep last night?"
"No." She said. "I must look like hell."
"You look beautiful." Spike said.
Buffy blushed at his comment. She tried to not think about their earlier conversation, but somehow she could tell it was bugging him.
"Please don't do anything stupid Spike." She said.
"Give me a good reason not to kill that poof."
She hesitated for a minute, fidgeting.
"I love you."
~ This is another chapter! Yay? LoL. I'll try to make the next one extra long for those people that likes the story. K, well again, EmilyTheStrange1 helped a lot. Yep. So, um, that's it I think. Review please? ~
~*~
Buffy woke up and looked next to her. Skye laid there, peaceful. She frowned at the site of her, remembering how upset she was last night. She couldn't help but think it was her fault. She was the girl Spike loved. Slowly, she got up out of bed and headed downstairs. She walked into the kitchen to see her parents and Spike talking. Buffy kind of thought of this as a shocker, Spike never talked to her parents.
"Morning Buffy." Joyce said.
"Hi mom, dad, Spike." She said, sitting next to him.
"I see Skye decided to stay the night." Joyce said.
"Yeah, she was real upset last night." Buffy said, looking to Spike.
"She was here?" He asked.
"Yeah."
"Can I talk to you? Alone?" He asked.
"Um, sure." Buffy said and the two walked out to the living room.
"I did what I thought was right luv." He said.
"I know. It was a good decision. She needed to know." She said. "She'll be fine."
"Good."
"Yeah . . ."
They stood in an awkward silence. Buffy looked to the doorway to see Skye standing there.
"Spike, uh, maybe you should go . . . Away." Buffy said.
"Why is . . ." He turned. "Right then." He said and walked off.
"What did he say?" Skye asked, sitting on the sofa.
"Hello." Buffy said.
"Oh." Skye said. "I think I'm going to go home. I don't feel like being around him now." She stood up.
"I understand. See you later then?"
"For sure. Bye." She said and left.
"Bye." Buffy said and headed into the kitchen.
She opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water. She was almost out the back door when her mother stood up.
"Where are you off to?" She asked.
"The church. I just want to sit." Buffy answered.
"Oh, okay." Joyce said and watched as Buffy disappeared.
Buffy walked up to the church doors and walked down the isle. She sat in the third pew back and stared up at the spot her father stood at every Sunday. She took a drink of the water and felt chills down her spine. She turned around to see Angel standing at the door. He didn't see her, so quietly she made her way out of the pew, and around the other side. She stood behind a pole and watched as he made his way up to the front. He got down on his knees and began to whisper softly to himself, to God. Buffy wondered what he was saying. As far as she knew, Angel never went to church. Slowly she backed away to the door and was on her way out when she ran into something, someone. She brought her green eyes up to meet the ocean blue ones she knew to be Spike's. This caught Angel's attention and he looked back to see who was there. Slowly he rose and made his way over to them. Buffy cringed at the site of him and she saw the anger in Spike's eyes.
"Buffy . . . I . . ." Angel said. "I didn't know anyone was here. Spike."
"Peaches, so nice to see your face again." Spike said.
"What are you doing here?"
"Oh, didn't hear? I live with Buffy." Spike said.
"Buffy is this true?" Angel asked.
"Well yeah. I mean, my parents they . . ." Buffy said.
"I'm sorry about what happened Buffy." Angel said.
"Um, I have to go in. My parents told me not to be long. I'll see you around Spike." Buffy said and ran off.
"If I found out you hurt her Angel . . ." Spike said.
"Mind your own business William." Angel said.
Spike just glared at him and left in the direction Buffy had.
~*~
The first bell of the school day rang and Buffy walked into the class along with Anya and Riley. They took their seats in the back of the room. Riley had been waiting for a chance to talk to Buffy about the other night. He leaned over to her, and in almost a whisper began to talk.
"I'm sorry for whatever I did the other night."
"What? Oh, its okay Riley, I was just a little jumpy. Too much caffeine." Buffy lied.
"So we're okay?" He asked.
"Yeah." She said.
"Okay enough that you'd go out with me Friday night?"
"Riley, I don't know. The whole Angel being back and . . . There's so much going on. I don't want to hurt you, but I just . . ."
"Too soon. I understand." He said, looking at the teacher.
Buffy didn't want to push it anymore, seeing as she wasn't going to say yes. So she left it. She turned to the teacher and tried to focus on what was being taught. But her mind wasn't concentrated on that. It was concentrated on something that had been bugging her for a while, something that she needed to know the answer to, and soon.
~*~
A cold breeze hit Buffy as she walked out of the Pharmacy. She tightly gripped the bag that she carried in her hand as she made her way home. She was going to find out once and for all her worst nightmare was reality. Quietly she snuck into the house, careful to be unnoticed. She ran up the steps and into her bathroom. Slamming the door shut, she quickly pulled the test out of the box.
"Early Pregnancy Test." She read to herself. "Yeah, yeah, blah, blah. 15 minutes?!" She sighed.
~*~
Spike walked into Buffy's room as she was closing her drawer.
"Can I help you?" Buffy asked as she watched him continue onto her bathroom.
"Mum is in the other bathroom." He said and closed the door.
Buffy shrugged and headed out the door.
~*~
Buffy was waiting in her parents' car for Spike. 'God, how long does it take to do his hair?' Buffy thought. 'A long time. Did I just answer my own question?' She looked up as Spike slid into the drivers seat. His face didn't have any emotion, it was blank. Buffy studied him and waved her hand in front of his face when he just sat there.
"What?" He asked through clenched teeth.
"What's up Spike?"
"Should be asking you that question luv."
She looked confused at his answer. He turned to her, his blue eyes filled with hurt and anger. She'd never seen him like this before, and it was scaring her.
"What . . ." Buffy said.
"I found your little test."
Buffy's jaw dropped. She thought she'd gotten rid of that. 'Oh shit. Oh shit.' She thought. 'Oh big shit.' She was silent.
"Well . . ." He said.
"I . . . I . . . How did you find that?" She asked.
"It was on your bathroom floor. I get it." He said with a little chuckle.
Again, Buffy looked confused.
"You and Peaches. You bloody shagged."
"Spike it wasn't like that." Buffy said.
"Then how was it?"
Buffy looked away as she felt the tears coming. Spike watched in confusion. He reached out his hand and gently grabbed her chin, moving it to face him. Her mascara was now running down her cheeks and her eyes we closed.
"Buffy, what's wrong?" He asked.
"He . . . Angel . . ."
"Angel what? What did he do to you?" Spike asked angrily.
"I cant." Buffy said.
"Tell me pet. I can help."
"I couldn't stop him. I tried so hard to push him off but he just wouldn't stop. I kept screaming, but no one heard me." She said, crying harder.
"I don't understand."
"Every time I close my eyes, he's there. Telling me he loved me. But if he loved me, why won't he stop hurting me?"
"What are you saying?"
"I just took him upstairs to lay down I promise Spike that's all, and I was trying to leave but he wouldn't let and then he pulled me to the bed with him and he started he made me Spike I didn't want to." She whispered.
"Buffy." He said, taking her in his arms. "Its okay luv. Everything is going to be okay. Trust me. He wont hurt you ever again. I'll make sure of that."
"Don't do anything Spike. I don't want you to get hurt. I couldn't live without you."
"Are you saying you love me?" He asked.
"I . . . I can't be with you because I'm still not over what Angel did to me. I'm sorry. I really am." She said.
She pulled out of his arms for a second. Looking into his eyes, she saw pain, anger, and love.
"I can't go to school like this." She said, sniffing.
"We don't have to go to school." He said. "But we should leave the driveway before your mum comes out."
Buffy nodded and sat in her seat. She stared out her window as they drove along the streets of Sunnydale. She was confused as to where he was taking her. But she shrugged it off and laid her head back, drifting off. She felt safe when she was with him, almost as if she trust him. But trust was a big issue that wasn't easily given away by her.
~*~
When Buffy woke up, she was in a different place then where she was before. She was now in the backseat of her parents' car lying down. She sat up and looked around. She knew this place; it was where teenage couples went to make out. She had come here often with Angel. Spike was outside, staring out over Sunnydale. Quietly she climbed out of the car and walked over to him. She stood next to him and stared off with him.
"Thank you." She said. "For laying me down and that."
"Your welcome luv." He said. "Didn't get much sleep last night?"
"No." She said. "I must look like hell."
"You look beautiful." Spike said.
Buffy blushed at his comment. She tried to not think about their earlier conversation, but somehow she could tell it was bugging him.
"Please don't do anything stupid Spike." She said.
"Give me a good reason not to kill that poof."
She hesitated for a minute, fidgeting.
"I love you."
~ This is another chapter! Yay? LoL. I'll try to make the next one extra long for those people that likes the story. K, well again, EmilyTheStrange1 helped a lot. Yep. So, um, that's it I think. Review please? ~
