Love or Lose

A Draco/Ginny Fanfiction by Tulzdavampslayer

Chapter V – Dream of me

Disclaimer – nope. Not mine. No profit. For funsies.

Summary – Draco and Ginny are friends. More than that, they appear to be about to become lovers. They've had their ups and downs, but neither can compare to what's coming… ahem. Apologies. Went a bit trailer there, didn't I…


If Ginny had thought her family had reacted irrationally over her friendship with Malfoy, she had been wrong. Their reactions to that, which had included several howlers as well as a few rather problematic hexes pointed his way, had been tame and unassuming compared to their reaction en masse to the news that she not only was being snogged senselessly several times a day by their ancestral enemy, but she was snogging him back quite willingly.

Ron had an apoplectic fit, and had several rather serious bouts of hyperventilation which ended in him being carried forcibly to Madam Pomphrey a number of times.

Fred and George visited the school, and attempted to kidnap Draco so they could put a Truth Hex on him and discover his "true motives". Luckily Ginny got word of their dastardly plot before they could go through with it, and decided to hide Draco in her room for the two days the twins planned to search the castle, which pleased Draco. Still, he found the whole situation beyond funny, and spent the entire time laughing. Ginny didn't think it was quite so hilarious, as she knew her brothers, and what they tended to do when they were angry…


"MALFOY!"

Draco cringed and continued to walk quickly down the corridor, before being gruffly grabbed by the shoulder and spun around to face two very identical, and very angry, redheaded seventeen year old boys.

"Gin's been crying again," Fred (or was it George?) said irritably, his voice almost an octave lower than normal.

"And what exactly does that have to do with me?" Draco asked stubbornly. Inside he was kicking himself. It was altogether possible that he had made things worse for her by pushing her away. If only he could get his hands on a Time Turner…

George (or possibly Fred) grabbed Draco by both his shoulders and forcibly shook him. "She trusted you, you stupid git! How could you be so… so… after what she had to go through in her first year… Do you even know how hard it was to pull down those walls she put up after what You-Know-Who put her through?"

"You know, he just goes by Voldemort these days, Weasley…"

"SHUT UP!" the twins both yelled in unison, and pulled back their fists…


Ginny frowned as she remembered. She hadn't visited him in the hospital wing the entire time he was there, although it had only been a couple of days. She'd thought about it… but in the end she had decided it would have been better to stay away.

"Stop it, I want to read my mail," she said jokingly to the boy sitting behind her on her bed with his arms around her waist, and his mouth on her ear. He had an unhealthy obsession with her ears, Ginny had decided, and if he continued to nibble on them all the time like that, she might have to lock him in the closet just to get any work down.

Draco lightly blew in her ear, sending little shivers up and down her spine, and laid his head on her shoulders. "But you have such nice little ears," he said in his defense. Ginny turned her head and quickly placed a kiss on his nose before turning back to the pile of letters in front of her.

Ginevra,

I'm sure you and Draco like each other very much, but are you entirely sure you're doing the right thing here?

You know what a beast he used to be to you and Ron.

Draco snorted. "I can still be a beast sometimes," he whispered suggestively and waggled his eyebrows at her. Ginny proceeded to push him away from her, and he rolled over onto his back and looked up at her smiling in a way Ginny imagined he thought was innocent.

Maybe you're right and he has changed, but do be careful what you're getting yourself into. You don't want to enter into a relationship where you feel obligated to take it further than you are comfortable with.

The letter continued along that path for another half a page or so, but Ginny decided against reading that part out loud. "Guess who this is from?"

Draco smirked. "don't need to guess, I read it over your shoulder."

Ginny threw Percy's letter at him, and picked up the next.

Gin,

You're our sis and we love you, but what in Merlin's name are you doing, snogging that Malfoy boy?

Ginny blushed. "Bill and Charlie have gotten together and co-written a letter."

"I noticed."

She quickly looked over the rest of the letter. "It's about us of course."
"I noticed that as well."

"I'm not entirely comfortable reading it aloud."

"I noticed that too," and he grabbed the letter from her hands and continued reading it aloud in a ridiculous voice.

We mean, he's a Malfoy!

His father killed our dad, and tried to kill you too! And think of all those other kids who died at his hands!

Plus, Malfoy Jr ("that's the first time anybody's ever called me that, and it better be the last") was always a horrid little beast to all of you. ("again with the beast.")

Alright, the trust is gone! We no longer trust you to think straight!

This Christmas you're coming home, and we're going to sort this matter out ourselves!

("Oh really? Well I don't want you to go home this christmas. I want you to stay here… with me…" "Ssh you.")

We should warn you, Fred and George are coming to kidnap him today.

("Well we already knew that.")

Anyway, love you,

Bill and Charlie.

"You have a very strange family," Draco remarked.

"You noticed."

"You've still got two more letters there."

"You noticed that too, did you?"

"Are you going to read them for me?"

"No."

"No?"

"One of them is from my mother, and I'm not reading that one to you. My mother and I have a very private relationship, one that you need to know nothing about. So too bad for you."

"What about the other one? It's unsigned!" Draco exlaimed as he reached for it.

Ginny grabbed it and hid it behind her back. "No, no I don't think so. You've read enough of my mail today, thank you very much."

Draco smiled at her wickedly. "I love it when you're all flustered," he said huskily as he ran a finger along her jaw. Ginny's eyes narrowed.

"I know what you're trying to do Draco."

"Oh really? And what is that exactly?"
"You want this letter."

"No, no no, I want this."

And with that he kissed her. The kiss continued for some time, and by the time they pulled away from each other, Draco was lying on top of her in a rather compromising position if anybody entered, the letters all forgotten and lying around them.

"Now, we were saying…" Draco rolled off her and ran one hand down her side to comfortably sit at her hip.

"you know, I can't remember." And this time she kissed him.

When Fred and George burst in five minutes later, the tangle of limbs that was their younger sister and her boyfriend shocked them so much they both just slowly turned and headed right out the door again, covering each other's eyes.

Although the Weasley Twins had left Hogwarts the same day they had arrived without their intended prize, Draco didn't return to his room that night.

As he sat on the sofa in front of the fire, one arm encircling Ginny's sleeping form, he opened the unsigned letter with his teeth.

"Now, let's see who's writing anonymous letters to my little weasel."

To tHe gryFFindor whOre,

HoW dAre you takE him awAy?

It'S nOt FaIR! I'vE loVed hiM FroM aFAr aLL yeAr, AND yOU comE alonG and Rip him AWAY.

My friEnd KaTie toLd me He WASn't wortH tHE trouble. MaYbe shE waS rigHT.

PrEpaRE FoR DeAtH

Draco read the letter several times, trying to figure out who could have sent such an angry letter. The letters were enchanted to appear aflame, a simple charm taught in first year.

He laughed when he realised. There was only one girl named Katie left in the school now. After the 'incident', many parents removed their students from Hogwarts, thinking it unsafe, although new students still came every year. At the moment, the only Katie was in her second year of being a Hufflepuff.

The anonymous 'flamer' had to have been a 2nd year girl.

It was altogether just too funny.

But Draco knew Ginny wouldn't see it that way, and would probably be worried and altogether possibly angry. So he threw the letter into the fire, and cuddled up closer to his love.


"Hello, ickle ferret."

Draco moodily frowned up at Peeves, who was floating three feet above him and holding a rather large bucket.

"Have you been crying, ickle ferret?"

"No. I'm fifteen years of age, why would I have been crying?"

"Lotsa silly students crying today. Lots and lots… crybabies!"

Draco paused for a moment. "Who else was crying?" Although he could guess.

"Naaaah, not tellin'!"

"Peeves, if you don't tell me, I'll go and tell the Bloody Baron who it was who painted his favourite wall blue!"

Peeves shuddered. "oooOOOoooh, I'm scared. The ickle ferret is going to tell on Peeeeeves! OooooOOOOOOOoooooh! Run evvybody, the ickle ferret is angry…"

"Tell me Peeves, if you know what's good for you. I'm feeling very out of sorts today, and I am not in the mood for your games."

Peeves turned the bucket up over Draco's head, pouring green slime all over him.

"teeheehee, now the ickle ferret is an ickle slimy ferret! Sliiimy ferret, sliiiimy ferret…" and he flew down the hall, singing his new little song feeling very proud of himself. But right before he flew through the wall, he turned back and grinned mischievously back at Draco. "ickle slimy ferretty crybaby! You two make a good match! Ickle slimy crying ferrets and weasels!" and with that he danced away through the wall.

And Draco was left with the feeling that he had really screwed it up this time.


"Did you honestly believe I could change…"

…(Ginny remembered Draco saying that. It had broken her heart) Yes. I did. I still do. You changed, Draco. You changed…

"Do you mean it?"

(Their first kiss…)…What do you think… Of course I meant it… I care about you more than I care about anything…

"I'm sorry Ginny."

(He had said sorry for the first time in his life the day the two of them finally figured out their friendship problems after that Yule Ball almost two years ago. Ginny remembered it as if it was yesterday.) …I'm sorry too. We both made so many stupid mistakes.

"But what if I went away?"

…(Ginny couldn't remember him ever saying that.) I'd go with you…

"No, ginny, don't die, don't die…"

(She didn't understand, why was he telling her not to die?)…I'm not dead! I'm right here, I'm here beside you, look, I'm here…

"Voldemort will pay. He will pay for what he has done…"

(She wanted to hold him, to comfort him, to remove all the rage from his cracking voice) …Of course he will. But we haven't found him yet…

"Potter… Weasley… Granger… where are they? Are they gone too?"

(Ginny was frightened)…No… They're here somewhere, I'm sure of it…

"Avada Kedavra!"

…Draco no!


She sat bolt upright, screaming.

"Draco, no! No!"

Draco grabbed Ginny and tried to calm her, but she didn't seem to recognise his presence.

"Gin, love, I'm right here. I'm right here, it's okay…" he held her close, swaying back and forth. "It was just a dream, love, it was just a dream…"


Next – Chapter 6 – Hold me, Thrill me, Kiss me, Kill me.

"I need to speak with the Headmaster about Ginny Weasley. I think she's having visions of the future. And I don't think she likes them."