Love or Lose
Chapter 7 – Hold me, Thrill me, Kiss me, Kill me
Disclaimer – I don't own Harry Potter thank the Goddess. But I don't own any of the other characters either. I also don't own the title of this chapter, it's a really good U2 song, listen to it if you haven't.
Summary – Draco loves Ginny, Ginny loves Draco, Ginny's having weird dreams in which she sees what she believes to be the future, I've jumped three weeks forward in time here so yeah, plot development without the pain of writing it! I'm gonna put a couple more memory sequences in here, because, well, I've still got so much to explain… hehe… I'll get there… don't you worry my lambs…
AN – I'm SOOO sorry this took so long! I know that most of you probably got bored and went away, but hey! here we are now! And I'm sorry! Throw socks at me if you like! ^_^' heh…
And now for my thank you's…
Nyah – yes I'm sorry it's been confusing lately, but don't worry, sense may in fact enter my brain as well as this story very soon! Hasapi – yeah see I tend to do that, leave subtle little tid-bits for the ppl who look… hahatushkaru – yes so much for quickly updating… August – yeah I know, * awww *s for all my friends! SCHEm – thx hehe Crystal – yes I think so :P AtrueSlytherin – and done! Bronze_vixen – cliffhangers 'r us Excillian – Wow thanks, and yeah you probably noticed all my reviews for 'Soul Keeper' popping in there! ^_^ Ruby – thanks! CactusKitty – I probably should stop killing my readers… Erin – aww dahls… tankas!
And now… on with the story I guess! Hahahaha! Remember, THREE weeks have passed since the end of chapter 6! Just like the number of months since I updated… Again… I say sorry…
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Harry looked nervously around the corner. He had been jumpy the past few days, ever since his scar began to hurt again.. It could only mean one thing… that Lord Voldemort was back, somewhere very near to Hogwarts, maybe even in the grounds themselves…
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Hermione blinked. "I'm sorry, what?"
Ron grimaced. "I thought you already knew… I just guessed… with the amount of time you two had been spending together, he would have told you first… seeing you two…"
"Ron, he didn't tell me anything about his scar hurting again! And what do you mean? There's nothing between Harry and me! I mean, yeah, I used to like him, but I haven't in a really long time, all right?" her voice rose several decibels, causing the red-headed boy in front of her to cringe in pain. "I don't see where you get off saying that to me, Ron Weasley! Where do you get the… the gall! As if I could, when I'm so much in…" She threw her hands to her mouth just in time to stop herself.
"What? So much in what? Are you in trouble or something?"
Hermione stormed off, leaving a very confused Weasley behind her, staring after her with longing in his eyes.
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"Minerva, are you certain?"
"How can I be certain, Severus? I have no proof. All I know is that Harry Potter has been missing several lessons, and when I do see him, he's nervous, scared even. And I think I've seen him clutching his forehead, as if his scar is hurting him again!"
Professor Snape's pace doubled in speed instantly. "We must speak to Dumbledore immediately!"
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"Gin you've got to eat something…" Draco's brow was furrowed with worry.
Ginny smiled weakly as they sat in the Great Hall. "I can't. I just…" she stared at the food on her plate. "No, I can't…"
"You had another dream last night, didn't you?"
She wouldn't look him in the eye, she couldn't. She had had another dream. The same as all the others. But instead of just wandering in the dark, hearing Draco's voice, she was starting to see dim shapes. But they didn't match up with what he was saying. It was as if she was hearing him say things from the past and some from what appeared to be the future, but watching a scene from a completely different set of events. She couldn't make out anything yet, all she could see were figures moving around, almost as if they were dancing.
"Gin, love, if you don't tell me what you're seeing, I'm just going to worry more…" He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close. "I'm terrified of losing you to whatever you're seeing. These past few weeks, you've been distant, you haven't been eating, and Colin says you're not paying any attention at all in class. Please, eat something, you haven't eaten more than a few bites a day since that first dream."
Ginny sunk into his arms. "I can't tell you. Not yet."
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-FLASHBACK-
"I'm sorry, Ginny."
She stopped, mid-storm-away-from-Draco, and turned around slowly. "um, what did you say?"
Draco cringed. "I said I'm sorry. I was stupid. I was just afraid of what might happen to you."
"what might… HAPPEN to me? What about what DID happen to me? I don't care about your reasons, I don't believe you're really sorry at all."
And with that, she continued to storm away, never turning around, and not seeing the anguish the boy behind her was going through.
Draco almost didn't follow her. But something inside of him gave him the courage, or perhaps it was just stubbornness, to chase after her.
"Why won't you listen?"
She didn't stop this time. "Because I have no reason to trust you. As you said, this was just a game to get back at my brother and his friends."
He stopped then. She was right of course. He had said that. But he had no way of making her believe he hadn't meant it. So he just yelled at the top of his lungs instead.
"I LIED!"
That stopped her. Mostly because they were entering a part of the school where there were several students wandering around aimlessly, and they had all turned to stare. She turned to walk back the other way, pushing Draco roughly out of her way, but he grabbed her around the waist from behind instead.
"Draco Malfoy, if you don't let me go this instant, I'm going to scream something that'll get you expelled so fast, you won't even have time to pack!"
"No, no, see, I don't think so. You see, if I let you go, you're going to go away and not listen to me anymore. But if I don't let go, you might actually find out why I had to push you away."
"had to?" she spun around, so she was facing him. They were a little too close for her normal liking, but she wouldn't even realise that until later. Right at that moment, she was too pissed off at him to notice anything. Until she saw the tears in his eyes that he was trying to hide.
"You're… crying…" Ginny faltered. She hadn't been expecting tears.
"Yeah probably. Been doing that a lot lately."
"Why?"
"Because I hurt somebody I never wanted to hurt. I hurt somebody that I care about very much. And for a while there, I thought I'd lost her. And I'm still not sure whether she'll ever forgive me."
She said nothing for a few minutes. There was really nothing to say. Eventually she found her tongue again. (A/N – and if anybody else is as sick-minded as I am, NO draco didn't help her find it! ;) )
"So… why did you do it? why did you push me away? If you care so much, why did you make me think you didn't?"
"I was afraid."
"Of what? My friendship? Your tainted reputation? Because let me tell you, you've lost all reputation you once had. Well, almost all."
"No…" he wasn't really sure how to tell her, but he managed to stammer it out.
"I was afraid… of my father. Of what he might do to you. Of what would happen to you. My father… is a very dangerous man. He knows things. He can do things. And I was terrified of losing… my first real friend… to him. …so… I'm sorry."
Ginny said nothing. She just wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him. "I forgive you."
-END FLASHBACK-
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Dumbledore frowned at the boy standing in front of him. "Are you entirely sure?"
Harry nodded. "Yes. Voldemort's the only one who ever made my scar hurt like this, and-" he was interrupted by Professors McGonnagall and Snape bursting into Dumbledore's Office.
"Professor…Dumbledore!" McGonnagall panted. "We think that you-know- oh Harry. You're here. All right then. Never mind."
The two professors turned to leave, and almost ran into another eighteen year old standing there.
"Sorry professors, snuck in after you," Draco grinned. "I need to speak with the Headmaster about Ginny Weasley. I think she's having visions of the future. And I don't think she likes them."
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TBC
A/N – yeah I'm sorry, I couldn't think of anything else to slip in here. So review and tell me what a bad person I am for not writing more!
