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Chapter Seventeen: I'm sorry James. She's Gone.

"Lily?" James whispered, shaking the dead body of Lily Evans. "No. Lily! Lily! LILY!"

Tears flooded down his face, onto Lily's lifeless face. Lily. All the memories of her were running through his head. Meeting her on the train, looking so innocent, reading her too big to be allowed book. Meeting her in the Library, how she smiled, even though she had braces. Seeing her coming down those stairs, looking so pretty, looking so different, but yet so the same. Dancing with her at Halloween ball, how beautiful she was, as if she was an angel. Most of all, he remember their first kiss together. He almost threw up, because he was crying so much at that. It felt like lightening, which shocked him with passion and love and security. How his world seemed to turn up- side down.

No, she has to live.

Lily...

"There's gotta be a spell," he muttered. There is no spell to raise the dead, an evil voice said in the head. This just made James cry even more. "Lily, god, Lily."

He just wanted to stay there, with his dead beloved, and die himself, and then he would be with her. But another voice in his mind said, "There's still hope. Dumbledore will know what to do."

"Yeah, hope. There's still hope," James muttered, as he picked up Lily and took her to Dumbledore. "There's gonna be something. There's just got to be.."

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"Hey, James!" Sirius grinned. He and Remus were looking for James and Lily all day, as they hadn't turned up for breakfast, or Lunch. Remus and Sirius looked quite rosy in the face, with a small smile on their face with pure happiness. "Where have you been?"

"Get out of my way, Sirius!" James snapped, pushing his mates away, still holding Lily in his arms, rushing up the stairs, tears still running down his face, which stung him slightly.

"Whoa!" Remus said, catching up to him, "What's the matter, Prongs? What happened to Lily?" He looked at the expressionless face of Lily. Remus thought f something, but it couldn't be true, could it?

James turned around, and stared at his mates, like they were deranged. "LOOK YOU BLOODY IDIOTS! LILY'S DEAD!" He shouted and ran to Dumbledore's Gargoyle.

"Honeydukes!" However, the door didn't open. "Err. Bertie Botts! Chocolate Frogs! Liquorice Wands! Blood Flavoured Lollipops!" The Gargoyle didn't move a centimetre. "Oh, for Merlin's sake! Cherry Drop!" To his surprise, the Gargoyle came alive and jumped aside. He took for the stairs, up to the Headmaster's office.

When he reached the door, as he reached for the door, it opened. Professor Dumbledore opened it and saw James standing there, holding a red hair girl. "Put her on the table, James."

James, slowly, laid Lily on the table. "James, I know you're upset at the moment, by I need you to tell me what happened."

James, eyes never leaving Lily, explained what happened, as calmly as possible. He was crying by the end. They heard Sirius and Remus running up the stairs. When Sirius saw James's face and saw Lily's dead body, he walked up to James and gave him a brotherly hug. James, feeling that his life was a helpless case, hugged tightly to Sirius, crying into his shoulder.

"She's gone, Padfoot," James sobbed. "Lily, she's dead. Because of me! I love her so much. She's died because of me. Why?" Remus walked over and hugged his two best mates, as they stood there for a few moments..

"I know, I know," was all Sirius could say. James let go of Sirius and looked at Lily's deceased body.

"Professor, is there anything we can do?" James asked, looking at the wise man, his ocean like eyes shining with tears and hope.

"Unfortunately, I'm afraid not," Albus Dumbledore croaked. He was about to cry. He never liked witnessing a dead body, especially a Hogwarts student. He knew that there might be a chance of her living, but . But. He had been wrong.

James took her limp hand, having no feeling. It was as cold as ice but he didn't care, just along it was her. "There's has to be something.."

"Sorry, James, there isn't," James sobbed again at these painfully words. "I want everyone to be quiet for two minutes, to remember Lily."

They were silent. Remus thought how happy she was when she talked to Krista and Alexis, her true first best friends.

Sirius remembered how James looked at Lily, never remembering him being ever happier, they both deserved that happiness. He knew James would never love another, like he did with Lily. Lily was his only one.

Albus remembered the first time he saw Lily, being sorted into Gryfinndor, how small and innocent she looked, but yet fresh. You would have never guessed she would save a lot of people's lives, by getting rid of Voldemort.

James remembered everything again. Flashes of Lily's alive face popped in his head, laughing even if it did sound like a donkey, her magical emerald eyes glistering, tell him how much she loved him, her gorgeous smile showing her sparkling white teeth... James's insides seemed to be gone, lost forever.

He knew, deep, deep down that he wouldn't be ever happy again, it was like a thousand Dementors had just kissed him. Maybe even worse ..

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