Rogue

Rogue's Diary:

I thought it would be over.

I just wanted the hurting to stop.

I couldn't take anymore. The lying, being used, having my friends hurt.

It had to stop.

Someone had to stop her before she hurt someone again.

Every time I thought I'd find some peace she'd destroy it, again and again.

She was destroying all of us. She destroyed me.

And Kurt was next.

I couldn't let her do that. I couldn't let her do what she did to me to Kurt or anyone else. It had to be done. She was a menace. A monster.

Then why do I feel so empty?

That look in Kurt's eyes. I'll never forget that look as long as I live. He'll never get over this. Maybe it's better this way. Maybe it's better that he hates me instead of being used by Mystique. I could live with that. At least he's safe.

Okay so half the mansion thinks I'm a killer and the other half wants to give me a medal. I never really cared what other people thought of me before so why should I start now?

Because these people are my family. And they matter to me. Not just Kurt.

They're fighting because of me and I can't stand it.

And now Magneto's dead. Well whoop de doo! I'm not sorry he's gone. Ruined our lives enough. He's more of a donor to me than a parent.

Not like Mystique.

But they're both dead and its all my fault. I'm the one Apocalypse used so he could escape and get what he wants. So I killed both of them.

I've hurt the people I love. The very people I've been trying to protect. And I betrayed them.

I've become what I swore I'd never be.

I'm Mystique…